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but I am very excited to be back writing some more Ana and Christian dilemma! Gotta love jealous Christian right? but don't worry Ana will have a little green monster too somewhere ! so keep reading lovelies and don't forget to review your thoughts or maybe ideas about how you would like to see the story turn !

but as you wish here is chapter 11 !

I daze in and out of Mia and Katherine's jabbering at lunch. I think I lost them at 'shoes and earrings' topic, I try to make my self busy by picking my nails or chipping off the cheap wood on the cafeteria table. Looking around I can never find what I'm looking for. Figures. Why would he want to see you anyways? and why do you want to see him so much?

Uh hate it when she's right. still doesn't hurt to try.

"His at the track field" I snapped my head towards the voice that broke me out of my day dream to see Mia grinning at me.

"Who?" I said biting unto my apple playing the 'dumb trick' but by the way Mia cocks her eyebrow tells me I'm not fooling anyone.

" Ana your not shitting me I know your looking for Christian "

" Aw your little project as a thing for Christian now ? Good luck honey trying to get his attention. " I jerked my head behind me to see Jasmine boring her eyes on mine with only distaste.

" I swear Jasmine your mouth Is as big as your fat Ass " Katherine said firing distaste right back at her.

One point for Katherine Kavanagh

Zero for wannabe slut.

" God shut it Kavanagh, We all know there's no way Annie here can even turn his head. So what you gave Plain Jane a new look that's all she is . Plain jane. "

And with that she gathered her things and made her way out of the cafeteria doors in all her glory.

God maybe she was right no matter how much glitter you put on a piece of shit it's still a piece of shit. So why the hell am I still even doing this ?

" Oh no Steele there's no way your going to drop everything just got slutzilla said something out of that bull shit of a mouth of her's. You were beautiful then and your even more beautiful now. So don't worry about what Ho Bag says. and even that should make you want to do it even more to prove that slut wrong. "

" Thanks Mia I should just go I have to go to my locker and so I better head out if I don't want to be trampled." I gave her the best smile I could without getting her so much doubt.

" Okay don't forget your coming to my house at seven and your still spending the night with me right?"

how could I say no when Mia gave me those puppy dog eyes of hers ? curse you Mia !

" Yeah sure see ya." I smiled turning away so she wouldn't see the doubt that was clearly plastered on my face.

How could I even do this ? Christian was probably even going so why the hell should I ? I've never even been to a party before. Especially not one that will most definitely have alcohol at.

When will I learn my lesson ?

Seeing my locker in eye distance I feel a cold hand grab my arm with sharp nails digging into the flesh of my arm.

" Ow what the fu- ?"

I was cut off short by the piercing green angry eyes of jasmine face.

" If you even think you can take Christian away from me you are sadly mistaken. Don't think this little makeover Mia did will help anything. Christian is mine, why would he even notice someone so plain as you" she spit at me

Only anger coursed through me all my doubt Washed out of me and anger seethed through me.

" Listen here bitch, You will never talk to me as if I'm a piece of trash because honey what your wearing belongs in one. and why are you so God damn worried? If his so 'yours' as you put it then you wouldn't even have to worry if he catches my eyes. But the thing is he isn't yours. Your just an obsessed slut who doesn't know the word NO. but honey game on, cause I guaranteed Christian doesn't play in garbage so he surely doesn't want your home wrecker ass. "

With the god smacked look on Jasmine face I have to say I've hit home. Good. Hopefully it will teach the slut a thing or two.

" We'll see " and with that the smell of jasmines cheap perfume surrounded my nostrils as she left only leaving the god awful stench behind.

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" Ouch ! " I yelled out of pain and annoyed.

" sorry last one... Done ! " Katherine said obviously looking proud of herself.

Katherine stood back and looked at my eyesbrows to only approve at the jump she did. I thought my eyesbrows were fine before but they weren't 'perfection' as Katherine and Mia put it.

Coming to Mia's house I knew I was going to have to play Barbie doll Ana. Which I hated right about now.

" OHH Perfect !" Mia exclaimed obviously also impressed by Katherine's work.

We had only an hour left and I have endured the worst kind of makeover pain. Waxing poking prodding. School had ended actually really quickly after Jasmines nagging. Of course I haven't told that to Mia or Katherine. Why start something when I can finish the shit myself right ? I knew I would possible never get Christian basing off the fact that he nearly hates me. I haven't seen Christian ever since second period which deep inside was nearly killed me but of course I tried and never show it.

Katherine and Mia was about done by the time I got there at seven seems as they were waiting to do all the time on me. By 10:00 I already had a shower then the crude waxing ( which hurt like a motherfucking bitch) had my hair straiten that it hit the middle of my back. had my makeup caked on my face and my nails and toes done. Which only left for the outfit.

" YES! " Mia exclaimed from her closet. When Mia and Kate walked out Mia had a wide smile on her face that made her look even more beautiful with her curly long brown/black hair with those big brown eyes of hers. Mia decided to focus more on her lips for this party. Apperently that was a rule in make up. If your going to have busy eye makeup have light lip work. but if you were focusing more on the lips for the 'kissable look' then don't make your eye make up work busy. Of course I never really wore makeup so I was new to the idea.

Kate looked beautiful as well. With her wavy blonde hair that fell past her shoulders. She focused on her eyes. Bring out the beautiful green in them.

Mia tossed me a dress and told me to get ready quickly.

Looking unto the mirror I was speechless.

my makeup was more even all around not focusing more or the other. I had a smokey eye shadow which made my blue eyes sparkle. My lips were a pale red color that wasn't to bold or weak. My hair was long and volumes that looked shiney at ever turn. then there was the dress. it was a mid thigh dress that was a beautiful dark midnight blue that was decorated in sequences. Overall it was breath taking. Finishing off with a pair of Mia's black heels We sprayed ourself with some of kate's perfume and headed down the stairs.

I kept my eyes on the stairs forbidding myself not to fall. Hearing Mia and Kate burst with silent giggles I looked up only for my eyes to be staring at smoldering grey eyes.

HIs face had different emotion displayed all over from . Amazement, awe , jealousy, and ... anger ?

Mia's parents were off at a convention in Utah so that just left Me Mia Kate and... Christian. Alone. in a house to geather under the same damn roof.

"Christian do you like Ana's look for the party?" Mia said she also seemed pleased by the look on Christians face, Obviously she didn't see the anger that I saw.

All he did was look Mia in the eyes shook his head and lifted up to the stairs.

"It was better then I expected!" Mia Exclaimed.

I just looked at her in complete disbelief.

" I'm sorry but were we looking at the same Christian? He looked disgusted !"

" Mia's right Ana, He looked as if he wanted to spank you and take you right here on the stairs and by the look on your face you wouldn't have minded." Kate said smirking at me.

"Let's just get this over with" I sighed

By the time We headed to Kate's I yelled at them to stop.

" Hold on guys I forgot my purse ".

heading back unto the grey's house I quickly walked up the stairs praying I wouldn't fall. Looking over I see Christians door closed but a faint light dimmed underneath the door frame. Should I ask him if his okay ? why should you its his lost !?

I huffed and quickly found my purse on the shelf in Mia's room and headed on my way.

Before I could even take a step I felt two strong arms wrap tightly amoung my waist and push me up against the wall.

Looking up My blue eyes come encountered with stormy grey ones.

His eyes raked over my body and I freeze. just his presence make my core heat up.

" Christian what the hell?" I tried to sound angry but it only came out sounding aroused.

" what the hell am I doing ? What the fuck are you doing walking out dressed like that. he said indicating with his eyes yet again.

"Your not going to that party!"

" Why should you care Christian ? You don't own me I can do whatever the hell I want." anger swells me instantly What the fuck ?

" God Damn your the most confusing women-"

" ME I'M CONFUSING ?" no longer was I aroused but angry.

" Your the one who was a dick in the first place then you flirt with me then you tell me that your not good for me when I am the fucking judge of that then you kiss me and leave me high and dry and I'm the one that's fucking confusing ? " I snapped .

by the look on his face he looked troubled. "Ana I-" I cut him off before he can even finish.

" No Christian just let me go. " I pushed my way out of his arms and quickly made my way to the front door only to slam it closed behind me. I tried to mask my face so Mia wouldn't want to play 20 question but she looked to excited to even notice.

The party is in full swing by the time we enter Kate's house. The smell of booze and sweat feel my nose the closer I walk into the party . There's people all around me and I silently thank god I'm not claustrophobic. People all around us are bumping and grinding into each other listening to the music that encourage them to go on. Mia finds Ethan not even five seconds later and is quickly by him laughing and flirting. Just the look on Ethan's face when he sees her is priceless. He obviously loves the red short mini dress she's wearing. The more I watch Mia and Kate only makes me wish me and Christian and something even close to that. damnit steele don't think of him ! Have fun get drunk get laid anything to get your mind off of him ! yeah maybe not the last part but hell a drink doesn't sound bad either. Making my way to the bar I feel sweaty hands slid up and down my hips.

"Hey babe"

turning around infront of me his jack. A very drunk jack by the looks of it.

"Oh hey jack" I said looking around to see if I can spot Kate or Mia seeing they are no where in sight. Damn

"You want a drink ?"

no

"sure" I said before even thinking.

With jack hands on my hips he takes me across the room to the bar that's located beside the living room. Mixing different liquors into the red solo cup he then hands it to me and smiles . Taking a little sip I gag at the bitter taste that stales my tongue.

" Whats wrong babe can't handle your liquor." Jack teases which only make me want to take up on the bet. Jugging my drink I quickly drink it down prayer I don't throw it up. when I'm done with the intoxicating drink I can already feel the buzz taking its effect.

"let's dance." jack says taking a hold of my waist and guiding my unto the crowd.

before I can even politely say no he already put my back to his front and slowly pushes my hips to grind on him. As much as my mind telling me to stop I can't. I close my eyes Imagining I'm dancing with Christian but yet it doesn't feel right. Jack doesn't feel right.

"Hey I want to show you something upstairs"

"Oh no I can't I'm here with my friends and I don't want to worry them ." red signs are going off in my head cursing myself I let it go this far.

"Come on babe they won't even miss you"

"No I really shouldn't I really need to go find Mia".

"Trust me Ethan will keep her company"

before I can even push away jacks got me by the arm and pulls me up the stairs. The deeper we go down the hall way the more regret I feel. Why the hell didn't I just listen to Christian ? But no I had to act all bad ass and come anyway and now I'm here with this guy who is to drunk to function. Jerking a door open jack pushes me in and quickly shuts it. The next think I knew he had me by the arms and slams me to the door with his lips on mine.

No No No ! this feels so wrong he taste like bitter whiskey and I can already feel queasy just by kissing him.

" jack... Stop... No !" I say imbetween breaths trying to breathe the oxygen I need.

" I know you want me." He says crashing his lips back to mine.

" Jack STOP ". I yell and try and push his arms off of me.

" Oh don't try to bull shit me Ana I know what you were doing this morning you obviously want me".

oh no.

" Jack get off of me ." I slap him in his face.. hard. My hand hurt from the blow so I knew it had to hurt him.

"You BITCH !" He screamed at me slapping my across the face much harder then I did to him.

" you Stupid slut your going to give me what I want !" He seethed ripping my dress only making me cry out even harder.

He pushed me on the bed and covered me with his weight that I could barely breathe. Feeling his lips on mine and his hands sliding up my dress I did my best to fight him off. So this is how I lose my virginity. To a guy who's crazy drunk and is trying to rape me. Only my stupidity bringing me to this.

while his hands moving closer to my private I try me best to fight him off but easily failing until I hear the door sling open and feeling jacks weight off my body.

I was to scared to open my eyes until I heard a cry of pain that wasn't mine. Opening my eyes I see jack up against the wall getting the shit beat out of him. I can hardly see from the swell of my eyes from crying until I see jack on the floor.

I feel someone scoop me up in their arms and carry me out of the room. comfort surrounds me as I lean closer unto their arms and I feel as if I am where I belong... home .

opening my eyes I see people gathering around awe struck at what just happened. Looking up I am dumb founded at what I see.

walking outside I see no emotion on Christians face. none that I can indicate.

"I can walk" I chocked out surprising I can still talk from basically screaming.

but yet he ignores me and keeps on walking tightening his arms tighter around me. So I just give up and close my eyes letting the darkness take over my sight. The only thing I can think its Christian: My dark angel