I know it's been a long time that I have updated. I would like to say that it gets so hard to resist the fact that I have been falling in love with the prospect of Edward/Carlisle. That and all the reviews that I have obtained.

This is another more sappy story, as from what my friends have told me about the last chapter is that they really want some things to be "heated up" so thanks to them I have decided to write this version for you.

This will be Edward's perspective, since everyone seems to want to know what the young little one is thinking of. This is after the glorious scene of when Carlisle finally told Edward his secret.

I wonder what surprises that our love bird's will come across. This will have some flashbacks from earlier chapters, told by Edward and how he feels.

Obviously I don't own the characters….. I just own the fact they sleep, eye color, and fangs : ).

Song;

White Horse by Stephen Jerzak(Taylor Swift remake)

Chapter 11

Golden eyes.

Edward's Pov;

I felt the unneeded breath come from my lips. I felt Carlisle's lips remove themselves from my ear so that his golden eyes could look in mine. I shivered slightly as those words that came over me fluttered over my skin once more.

I love you.

When I was younger my mother had told me that when you find someone, who , truly loves you with every once of your being that it is alright to accept the terms when the final "I love you" comes from their lips.

A tinge of doubt was running through my mind at this point, I knew that I had or still had the same feeling's that my sire had for me. I knew that I would be wrong to deny them or perhaps even discuss them with this god.

But yet, a part of me realized that I might get hurt. I would probably hurt him, say, if something went wrong, or what if he had found someone more like him than myself.

The truth of the matter was; I was scared of getting hurt.

I felt his hand run down my cheek. A shock wave ran through my system, running through my bloodstream not to mention sending shivers up my spine.

His golden eyes never left mine, as I licked my lips wondering how I was going to say this to him, without seeing the color of those eyes falter.

In truth I wanted to kiss him, tell him I loved him back; but it felt to soon for me. I knew that. I ran my hand down his neck, and toke yet another UN needed breath and my green eyes moved up towards his.

"I can't" I mumbled slowly, and began to feel the pain run through my system. I had to get control of myself, before I broke down. But it was too soon. I mean it had been nearly a week and yet I was in love with him.

I bet it was only lust.

He looked at me curiously, but his hand stilled on my cheek.

"What?" those golden eyes dimmed just a little.

"I can't love you" I said firmly, and with that I jumped off the piano and ran up to my room not even sure if I could look back into those golden eyes.

I closed my door. The sunshine was streaming on my bed as I fell onto it. The bright light of my skin was shining like tiny diamonds. I stared at the skin of my arm for a few moments.

The silence was deafening. Half of me wanted him to come up here and still argue with me to love him, while the other half was still unsure as much as the time that I had first seen him in the hospital, no less than a week ago.

"Edward, I promise I will save you"

Those word's fluttered along the rotting side of my mind. I wasn't sure where they had come from, the memories of my human life were fading from me quickly. All I knew was that his voice had ran through my mind, as my mind repeated those words.

"Don't worry, he won't hurt you while I am around"

I shivered more, as I lay on my side. The sun was to my back and my eyes were at the door. I remembered when he said that to me. He would be there for me when my father, who, had hated me would come and visit me.

It had been Carlisle.

I looked at my hand, noticing that the veins on my skin were a light purple, dead and shined clear against the paleness of my skin. I remembered standing beside him as my father yelled at me, how I wanted to shy away from my father.

But Carlisle, well, he would have none of that.

"Why did you say it though, I mean I am glad for the gesture but; I really can take of my self with him."-

I had been so cruel to him, I had been so used to dealing with my father by myself, that I had learned that no one was nice enough to help me. I knew that I didn't need anyone to help me with my problems.

However when he answered there had been no anger or pain in his voice, the only feeling that came from his mouth was love.

"I said it because I am your friend, and I will be here to help you with anything".

The way his golden eyes seem to look into mine, I had felt my heart almost start beating, as though it was coming out of a dead slumber and wanted to beat for only him.

I toke another un needed breath as I imagined his smile running across his face, that smile managed to make me think that I could make it through the tough times, and he would be here to hold my hand.

Hold your hand?

The monster in me questioned. I was shocked myself, and wondered maybe it was true what mother had said about loving someone that was a lot like you but yet you felt nothing for.

Or at least you thought you felt nothing for.

I looked up at the ceiling, imagining what it would be like to see him right now, was he made at me?, was he scared of the fact that I couldn't or perhaps didn't accept him for who he was?, was he thinking that of me because I had been to scared to say that I loved him back.

I didn't want him too. In fact the only thing that I wanted him to think was about how much I care for him.

The realization hit me hard, like a bomb about to go off but instead of exploding out it exploded inside.

I am falling for you Carlisle.

Suddenly there was a knock on the door. I wondered to myself if I should have acted asleep, but the door opened to fast for me to have made any assumption or more thoughts of doing it.

Golden eyes suddenly met up with mine. I felt as if I was blushing again, but perhaps it was more of the sun running over my skin. He watched me curiously, but in his eyes I thought I saw an ounce of pain. My body started it's wrecking process as soon as I saw it, the sob escaped from my lips.

"Edward" I heard his voice whisper. His arm's wrapped around me, holding me as another sob came from my mouth. I tried to lean up and glance into those golden eyes, but I couldn't

"Edward, what's wrong" his angelic voice ran through my ears, I knew that he could feel the hairs run up my arm, and I felt him almost hold me tighter.

I made him cry, I was so stupid for telling him I love you, doe he perhaps hate me? I heard Carlisle's thoughts as clear as day.

I finally managed to look up into his eyes; worry showed through them, and I felt another

tinge of pain run through me. I wanted him to smile, and let that worry push through me.

" I don't hate you" I said breaking the silence.

I watched his eyes widened at me, I wondered why for a moment, before another sob erupted from my voice.

"I will never hurt you, never" I said more slowly,

Suddenly I felt his cold lips brush up against mine. I could feel his hands around me shaking, and my eyes widened slowly by his sudden surprise. But once his lips moved back away from me.

I pulled him back.

I brushed my lips up to his too. I knew that with this moment between us, that I would love him back. I wouldn't watch him suffer as he had for almost 300 years. I wouldn't bring the pain back to his eyes.

I felt his lips move against mine and the fire and ice shattered through our bodies, as I wrapped my arms around his neck, before I looked back to stare into his now dark amber eyes.

"i think i am falling for you."

The moment the words came from my mouth, I wondered if Carlisle could have cried, would he have been crying now.

His breath taking smile suddenly came on the corner of his lips, as I felt him pull me up towards him so that his breath lightly moved over my ear.

"I promise I will never leave you, but i can't love yet." yet again those golden eyes never left mine, or at least they didn't when my green eyes connected with his. I felt suddenly a large crooked smile come onto my lips.

I pulled him towards me again, his kiss making my frozen heart almost melt. You see it was him that made me feel like this, he was wrong to think of himself like ice. For I was one with the or had the frozen heart.

I felt his hand run through my hair, pulling me towards him more. Deeping the kiss into a new style of kissing. It was the kind of kiss that I had been dying to give a loved one when I grew older.

It was a kiss that I would give my eternity to never stop.

I leaned back and smiled at him, before my head lay on his chest. He began humming something that I had not heard before, his fingers running little circles up and down the spine of my back.

I don't remember ever falling asleep, but as I woke up hours later to the bed empty and me laying under the covers with the moon shinning over me, I knew that I never wanted this to end.

I was suddenly so sure of one thing, one thing that I knew I would never give up, the one thing that I would always remember, the one thing that I would thing that I would try to protect.

I lay my head down against the cold pillow, leaning my hand underneath it to hold my head up slowly, and I toke a needed breath from my un used lungs waiting for tomorrow.

I was falling for my Carlisle.

A/n

Well?, was it too romantic. Edward was struggling with his emotions, as is everyone who is falling in love. I dedicate this to my Carlisle Cullen. I love you Kyle, forever and ever.

I want to know what you guys think. The next chapter will be a little exciting now that they have both realized their feeling's for each other.

I hope you review

Adieu.