Title: Define Ok - Chapter 11
Chapter: Chapter 11
Rating: M
Summary: You will have to read to find out
Characters: Luke, Noah, Alison, Dr Hughes (Bob)
Genre: AU
Warnings:
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"Well I am waiting Noah. What do you truly want for us?" Luke asked, continuing to wait for Noah, becoming ever more impatient
Noah continued to look at Luke until he could not face him and lie to he's face. He couldn't lie to him no more as he bowed he's head to the floor and said quietly "I…I want you Luke. I have always wanted you. I want to be with you but….but i….its just…noott..fair" Noah said slinking to the floor opposite the couch beginning to cry he's heart out. The first time realising what he truly wanted.
Luke watched he saw Noah slowly move to the couch, crying he's heart out. Watching Noah cry made Luke realise how much Noah must have been suffering inside. Not only finding out about having Multiple Sclerosis, but not being able to truly talk to anyone about it and then making decisions because he was scared of actually in the end loosing the one good thing in he's life.
Luke suddenly realised what was happening and why Noah had been so secretive and so withdrawn from everything. Why he wouldn't open up to him or to anyone who had tried to talk to him.
He slowly sat down next to Noah, placing he's arms around him. He tried he's best to help ease the pain and let him cry out all the suffering and pain he had built up inside him.
Noah cried he's heart out into Luke's chest, grabbing hold of he's shirt as he sobbed into it hoping that Luke wouldn't hate him for this. Crying like a big sook and not being a man and actually accepting who he was and what he had.
He slowly begun to calm down, with sobs replaced by sniffles and sweet whispers from Luke telling him how much he loved him and how much he wanted to help him through this and how he would be there for him.
This suddenly made Noah feel much better. Being in the arms of his lover and feeling he's body warmth against he's. Protecting him from all the dangers the world faced him, no them outside and making them a formidable team to fight against those elements.
"I am so sorry Luke. Will you forgive me?" Noah said as he looked up those brown eyes he had come so use to. Their colour expressing so much emotion and love for him.
"Of course I will, I already have. Just please Noah, please listen to when I say I love you and I will be here for you" he smiled back as they closed the gap and kissed.
The kiss sealing the deal, reconnecting them as one again finally and proving no matter what hurdles they can get through anything, until now.
Suddenly Noah felt the strange feeling he had before coming back, the feeling of soreness and sharp shotting pains. Weakness and tightness I his muscles from he's arms through his chest followed down the body as he began to shake uncontrollably.
It was almost like a fitting state where he lay on the floor shaking up and down, he's eyes rolling behind his head. At first Luke wasn't sure what to do but grabbed his cell out and called 911 for an ambulance.
Not being really able to panic he made sure Noah didn't swallow he's tongue and remained as still keeping he's body weight down on Noah to keep him from moving around much causing further damage. He just silently prayed Noah would be alright and the paramedics would be here soon
"What an episode this turned out to be. I have to say though I am personally glad you where there Luke, who knows what, could have happened to Noah if you weren't there. He really is a lucky guy you know" Dr Hughes said looking at Luke who kept looking over his shoulder to look at Noah.
He was worried about Noah and was worried that this attack he had might have made things worse seeming as they had just come to an understanding finally after at least a couple of days sadness and heartache.
"I don't want to even begin to think about it. So how is he any way Bob. Do you mind if I call you that? Can I see now?" Luke said asking nearly a million questions a second, just worried about Noah.
"That I can understand Luke and yes you can call me Doc, Doc Hughes or Bob, but not Bobby or else you might just be the next patient that is admitted ok. As for seeing Noah, in a few moments Nurse Stewart will come out and let you know when you can see him ok" Dr Hughes said placing his hand on Luke's shoulder
"You did god Luke. A lot of people would have panicked or given up, but you have shown great courage and support today. You should be proud and so should he. He is not out of the woods. We will keep him here for a couple of days ok just so we can see if there has been any damage caused and try to help him as best as possible"
With that Dr Hughes left Luke looking into the room, watching Alison get Noah comfortable and get him settled in. He could see Noah looked very tired and pale. Almost very weak and it made him wonder what he must be going through.
He was somehow more worried that Noah might use this new episode to try and finally get rid of him. Dump him to the side but he shook those negative thoughts out of he's head as Alison came to the door, looking in Luke's direction.
"Hey Luke, how are you going and be honest ok" she said looking at him as he looked towards Noah's room. He had noticed he was asleep and made sure the door was closed before turning back he's attention to Alison.
"Well to be honest I feel ok, but also worried and scared. Worried that Noah will use this as a way to break up with me again as we only just got back together when this happened but also scared because I know he is scared and worried to. I want to know what he is going through and try to understand better. I just...I just.....feel so useless. I mean when....when he fitted I just.... I just went into scout mode and did what my CPR training told me but......but I was scared Ali. So scared" Luke said as tears began to flow again as he cried
Alison moved closer to Luke as she brought Luke into her and hugged him, trying to calm him down
"Hey hey, its ok you know. The main thing was you where there and that you didn't panic. You did everything right and certainly you have proved Noah wrong, that you will stay there and help him in the through times that will lay ahead for you both. You did very well Luke and you should be proud. I know Noah is"
Luke looked up at Alison, tears still falling and he's eyes redder than before as he asked "He does?"
Alison nodded yes in reply as she again said "He was scared but he was glad you where there today and that you didn't panic Luke. He now knows how much you mean to him and how much you are willing to help him with no matter how bad the situation is going to get. So don't cry, smile and be happy ok" Alison said rubbing her hands up and down Luke's shoulders trying her best to comfort him
"Now why don't you go inside and see how Mr Grumpy Pants Patient is going ok. I will be right out at the nurse's station if you need me" and with that Alison walked off in the direction of the station as Luke slowly moved towards Noah's door, wiping away the tears that remained and trying to regain he's composure.
He opened the door and moved slowly into the room so as to not wake Noah.
He walked up to he's bed and sat in the chair right next to him as he held he's hand and kissed it as he said "I love you Noah Mayer and I am never leaving your side ever" as Noah remained in the land of slumber but not quite out of the woods yet.....