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So Breaking Dawn part one comes out today and soon we are heading to town to get our copy even though it is not my favorite part of the series. New Moon is but oh well. Anyways I hope you enjoy this chapter!
Viola1701e: I swear are you reading my mind as I write? LOL! Anyways to answer your question you will just have to read to find out. Thanks for your awesome review!
Ty: She didn't phase because when your in that kind of situation you don't think you just panic. Haven't you looked back at something and thought I should of done this or I should of done that. Well same thing applies here. Anyways thanks for your great review!
Chapter Eleven: The decision had been made.
There I finally said it. With those five little words being uttered it made it real. I didn't want to say it because if I did it made it real. And I didn't want it to be. I didn't want to believe that the one man that I cared so deeply for, that my first crush was capable of such a act. I trust him with my heart and soul and in one afternoon he betrayed my trust in such a way I wasn't sure he would ever be able to win it back. But it didn't matter what I could and couldn't or wouldn't believe. What was done was done and no matter how much wishing and hoping I did nothing was going to change what happened this afternoon.
As I stared into Deans shocked expression on his face. I couldn't hold back my emotions anymore as tears welled up in my eyes blurring my vision. At that moment my legs acted as if they had turned to Jell-O and I collapsed on the cold tile floor of the kitchen. And just let the tears fall.
The shock from the near raping had wore off and as if a dam broke all the emotions I had been holding back came floating to the surface. I was so numb from all the emotional trauma I had been put through that I didn't even notice or feel Dean lift me up off the floor in his strong arms and carry me all the way upstairs to my bedroom and carefully lay me down on my bed as he lay down beside me and cradled my trembling, numb crying form in his arms as one hand stoked over my long chestnut color locks, with his forehead touching mine.
After ten minutes of being in Deans loving embrace and relishing in his tender touches. The tears finally slowed until they stopped all together. But even after the tears had ceased he still continued his loving tender touches.
"I'm sorry." I finally said after I had calmed down enough to speak.
"For what sweetheart?" He asked looking deep into my eyes.
"For having a emotional break down." I replied looking down at his now tear stained shirt.
"After what you been through today. I would be worried if you didn't." Replied Dean as he placed the palm of one of his hands on my still wet tear stained cheeks and started to stroke my cheek with his thumb as I learned into his warm tender caress.
"Honey I don't want to have you relive the awful moments of this afternoon. But I need you to tell me exactly what happened. I need to gets all the detail before I go off and track that sick twisted bastard down and slowly torched him until he is begging for death." Said Dean with loving tenderness in the beginning but slowly turned to pure anger and rage when he got to the part about what he wanted to do to Edward to exact his revenge.
I didn't want to have to relay everything that happened. I just wanted to forget it ever happened but I knew that part of healing and getting past this trauma was to talk about it and accept it. But I guess I was still in the denial stage of grief. But heaven help Edward when I get to the next stage which is anger. I would be so angry with him with the stunt he tried to pull that I might even track him down myself and castrate him so he could never try to do that to anyone ever with that thought I slowly gathered up enough courage to start relaying the past afternoon to Dean. I was fine telling everything that happened until I got to the part about Edward forcing himself on me. It took all the courage and strength that I had left just to choke out the words to describe what happened but Dean was there with me all along the way. Giving me words of encouragement and slowly rubbing circles on my back as a way of soothing me.
After I got done relaying everything. I could feel both love for me and rage towards Edward radiating from Deans body. I knew if I didn't make it perfectly clear to him that I need him here now with me more then ever before he would have been out of the house in less then a second and would be tracking Edward down as we speak. And heaven help Edward if Dean ever caught up to him. For I knew that Dean would not hold anything back when he was exacting his revenge. But thankfully Dean didn't leave my side. He knew I needed him for he was the only thing holding me together at the moment. Like I said before he was my rock.
Soon I felt my eyelids growing heavy. Which didn't surprise me in the least I was both emotionally, mentally and physically exasted. I had been through so much in the past couple of hours that my mind was practically screaming at me that it needed time to rest and regenerate. Finally I gave into my bodies demands and slowly drifted off into a dreamless sleep of so I thought.
During my slip into unconcinece I could feel a couple of times Dean try to slip out of my death lock grip in order to go hunt down Edward I assumed but my selfishness for him to be by my side wouldn't let him go as my arm just closed tighter around his back as if I was holding on for dear life.
As Dean finally gave up knowing that he wasn't going to exact his revenge tonight he relaxed and he too slipped off into a dreamless sleep with his arms still protectingly wrapped around me,
When I finally slipped off into a deep sleep that was when the nightmare began. I was reliving everything that happened this afternoon but this time. I wasn't able to fight him off and the rest of the Cullen's didn't come to my rescue. In this version Edward succeeded in raping me. My dream was so real that I thought that was what was really happening. I saw him face close to mine as he forced his way into me taking my virginity with it. The one thing I could never get back. When I dreamed of my rape it felt like my soul shattered into a billion pieces. Then suddenly my windpipe constricted cutting off my air supply as I gasped for air.
"BELLA! BELLA! WAKE UP! BREATHE!" Dean yelled at me waking me up from my dream.
When my eyes popped open suddenly the air I had been gasping at rushed into my lungs. I saw Dean hoving over my body with a look of worry and fear written all over his face.
"Thank god your awake. I was getting worried. You were thrashing around like you were having a nightmare. And then suddenly you stopped breathing." He said stoking my face with his hand.
"I was having a nightmare. I dreamed that Edward actually succeeded in raping me." I confessed with fresh tears streaming down my face.
"Bella look at me." Requested Dean as he tilted my head so I was looking straight into his icy blue eyes.
"I promise you that that bastard will never hurt you again. I promise you this." Said Dean looking deep into my chestnut colored eyes. And at that second I knew he was telling the truth for his eyes showed nothing but truth, loyalty and most of all love.
Since we had slept a good five hours making it now nine pm and the meeting was arranged for ten we got up and since I was still in just a towel I got dressed. I didn't get dressed in much because Dean informed me that we would be traveling to the meeting place via wolf form. The meeting was to be held on the rez in a clearing the was very well covered by the surrounding forest shielding it from any prying eyes of the locals.
Knowing that I was going to be in wolf form for the majority of the time. I dressed in only a black sports bra and a very tight black shorts much like the kind the men wore but my were wayyyy tighter in order for me to phase with them on without them shredding. No since in shredding perfectly good clothes.
After I was dressed we went downstairs to the kitchen for a quick supper. Which consisted of cold pizza left over from some night ago and a couple of bags of chips along with three two-liters of pop. Again thanks to our enormous werewolf appetite.
But as soon as supper was eaten we had to head out for we didn't want to be late for the meeting. Being late wouldn't exactly swing the favor in our direction.
As we ran towards the rez. I let Dean take the lead not only because he was the alpha but because he was the one who knew where in the heck we were going. I never been this far back in the rez mostly because noting was back this face. There was no people no house no nothing just wilderness. Which I guess is why it was the perfect place to hold a meeting because it guaranteed complete privacy.
Soon we came unto a clearing and there smack dab in the middle there was a large bon fire roaring. The orange and white flames of the fire were reaching up licking at the sky. I always loved bonfires not sure why since the only time I was ever near one was when I was living in Forks. In Arizona it was wayyyy to hot even at night to have a bonfire but it still didn't stop me for longing for one. So I was always happy when I able to attend a bonfire.
When we got closer it seemed to be that we were the last ones to arrive. We weren't late by any means but it was just everyone was extremely early. There sat Old Quil, Billy and Sue seated on the other side of the fire. It seemed Sue took over Harry's place on the council when he passed away and she seemed to be doing very well by the looks of it but who could ever get over losing a loved one. No one could. Simple as that.
On the other side of the fire seated directly across was aisle that separated the two packs. On one side was Sam's pack and on the other side was my or in other words Dean's pack.
Everyone looked at us as we approached them and took our rightful place with our pack.
"Well now that everyone is here shall we begin?" Asked Billy.
"Just so everyone knows this meeting will be recorded down in the history books in order to prevent this situation from repeating itself. Now this meeting is being held in order to decide which pack Bella rightfully belongs in. Either it be Sams or Deans." Announced Billy in his booming chief voice.
The meeting was really quite boring. We just went over my side of the story AGAIN. Then Sams and then finally Deans. Only the alpha got to speak because they spoke for their pack. Then we discussed the rules according to the ancestors. What irked me was we already went over all this stuff so it didn't seem like we needed to do it again. Then finally after going over everything. Billy, Old Quil and Sue excused themselves as they sat together and whispered about the situation to make a final decision.
It seemed like it took them forever to come to a decision when in all actuality it was only five minutes.
"We have came to a decision." Announced Billy as they departed from where they sat and turned their attention towards us.
" In this unique situation. It seems both alphas are in the right. So since this is about Bella and where she rightfully belongs it seems only fitting that Bella should be the one to decide which pack she wants to belong to." Said Billy.
When he said this I was practically doing a little happy dance inside of my head. I knew who's pack I wanted to be in and it was Deans. No doubt about it.
"But only after she spends two weeks with Sam's pack." Added Billy.
When that was added my little happy dance ended. As a frown appeared on my face. Why oh why did he have to add that little bit. I thought to myself.
" Since Bella spent two weeks with Deans pack it seems only fitting that she also spend two weeks with Sams pack so she would have spent time with both packs in order to make a fair and right decision. Only after she has spent time with both packs can she decide." Added Billy once more.
Okay so it wasn't a total disaster. And it did seem like a fair decision. But that would mean I would have to endure two weeks without my pack. I had grown so close to everyone in Deans pack. So close in fact I considered them my brothers instead of just friends. Because we were so much more then that. They were like the big brothers I never had. But even though I considered everyone in Deans pack as a big brother. I did not feel that way towards Dean. With this certain alpha our connection ran deeper then just mere friendship, deeper then a brotherly love even. With him the connection was so strong and ran so deep it was as though it was a part of my very soul. I had never in my whole life ever felt this kind of love and adoration. Not even with Edward. With Edward it was kind of like a puppy love. With him it was like okay I adored him and all and it was nice to be with him but we never had the connection that myself and Dean shared. Our was a spiritual connection. That made it so much intense and stronger.
As Billy voiced his decision. Both packs got up to leave but I wanted to have a little chat with Sam before he ran off. If it was for Sam and his piss poor behavior and not signing the paper to allow me to join Deans pack I wouldn't be in this situation and wouldn't of had to endure two long weeks without my pack. I had to know what was up with him and why he was acting like this. He had some explaining to do. And I wasn't going to rest until I had some answers. And gosh dang it it better be a good excuse. Or so help me I don't think I would be able to control my anger.
"What the hell is wrong with you? First you disown me and kick me out of the pack and then when I want to join another pack you flat out refuse! Why couldn't you just sign the gosh dang papers so I can join Deans pack and just leave it at that? Why? Why are you putting up such a big fight over this?" I partly asked and partly yelled at Sam before he could run off into the darkness.
After I said my piece I noticed the last look I expected from Sam to appear on his face. It was a mixture of sadness and sorrow written across his features. I had never seen big bad alpha Sam look this way before. He always had to be strong for both his pack and himself. But just now it seemed as though he let his guard down. He looked straight into my eyes as he gave me my answer.
"Because you're my little sister." Answered Sam.
Authors Note: Yep I am going to leave it at that. So what do you all think? Please Please Please for the love that is all good and holy please review! Also I would like to add that I am sorry that if parts of this chapter is a little hard to understand or it there is misspellings and such. My 11 month old baby kept interrupting me every two minutes because she kept waking up from her nap from her ear infection. So it was kind of hard to concerntrate running back and forth from the crib to the laptop. Anyways please please please review!