AN: Well after that bombshell dropped in the last chapter this chapter is another M rated one. It's the moment we've been waiting for. Seven Devils by Florence and the Machine was playing when I wrote this. I think that encapsulates her feelings about Kaname's betrayal and the way that Zero has made her experience all of the seven deadly sins at once. What they are doing cannot be undone. Thanks for reading people. Honestly overwhelmed by the response.

I'm totally a little confused as to how vampires in the Vampire Knight world can just reproduce like humans but let's just go with it. If Vampire birth control wasn't a thing. I've made it a thing.

Chapter 11 – And now all your love will be exorcised.

Rei felt sick even inhabiting the same space as Kaname Kuran. She had shed her fake smile and cool façade the second they had entered the car together.

"When did you plan on telling me about this?" She asked her voice flat with supressed anger.

"Rei-"He said softly.

Her anger flared and she glared angrily across at him her fists tensed.

"No. I want the truth Kaname. This once I think I've earned it. How long have I been the pawn in you and my parents' game? That's the real reason they made me move here isn't it…to be closer to you." She felt the bile rise in her throat.

Kaname sighed his eyes meeting hers.

"Yes. You know it is an advantageous aristocratic match for both of us."

Rei frowned.

"How can you be so cold? What about love? What about Yuki?" She asked her voice rising with each question.

Kaname flushed and his voice hardened.

"Yuki...has nothing to do with this. Love has nothing to do with it. We have a duty and we must follow that duty. We all have our parts to play. Now you know yours." He said mechanically.

Rei gasped she couldn't believe what she was hearing.

"You don't love me. And I don't love you. I won't do it." She said holding his gaze a defiant fire blazing in her eyes.

"Look I don't want this as much as you do but there comes a time where you have to stop being a rebellious little child. Stop being selfish and do what is expected of you."

Rei froze at his words and turned her head to look out of the window as the inky black skeletal tree branches whizzed past. She felt like her world was collapsing around her. Walls of containment were being raised at her every turn there was no escape from her fate. His words echoed in her head 'do what is expected of you.' What was she expected to be? An Aristocrat. His wife. A mother. She shuddered.

"That's what was expected of Mini not me. I can't be her." She replied quietly.

Kaname squeezed her hand and her hand froze in his. She felt numb. This isn't how it should be.

"I know I'm sorry. You can't be her but you can be like her. Just try. Her duties fall to you now. You told me before you weren't a child any more so prove it."

He leaned close to her face and Rei's eyes widened. He wouldn't would he? She was frozen in shock. His lips met hers and she stayed completely still unable to comprehend what was happening. His lips were soft and it wasn't exactly unpleasant but there was no fire in the pit of her belly. She felt cold and sick. Zero. No this was wrong. She loved Zero. When Zero kissed her she felt alive Kaname's kiss was like a poison killing her slowly as it coursed through her veins. She put her hands on his chest regaining her senses and pushed him away firmly. He watched her intently saying nothing as she desperately wiped her hand across her mouth trying to rid herself of his taste. It was so different from his. It was sweeter and sharper. It wasn't right. It wasn't Zero.

"Why did you do that?" She asked her words still muffled against the back of her hand.

Kaname shrugged.

"I was wondering if I would feel anything."

Rei swallowed thickly.

"Did you?" She asked.

Kaname shook his head and Rei sighed with relief at least she wasn't alone.

"Me neither." She agreed.

They pulled up to Cross Academy. Kaname and Rei walked side by side an invisible wall between them.

"You need to stop seeing him if you want to at least try and make this work. I explained the situation as best as I could to Yuki this evening. She will no longer… be a complication."

Rei froze her cheeks flushing.

He turned to her his eyes narrowing as she made to deny him. Her words were silenced by his.

"Don't try and deny it. You're covered in his scent. Even your kisses taste like they belong to him."

Rei just looked at him her eyes wide. She didn't know what to say.

"I intend to return to my home over the holidays. I suggest you stay behind and – settle things with him. It will be your last real chance before he graduates and before you become my wife."

Rei felt her heart freeze in her chest and her stomach drop to her toes. Everything was falling apart and the life she wanted for herself was slipping through her fingers like water. She watched him go and as she was left alone in the dark silence of the night she thought about the future she was being forced into. Tears stung here eyes. It is your duty. As she wiped the tears from her eyes and tried to stop the wracking sobs from escaping she truly knew how it felt to have your heart torn in two and nothing could heal the deep ache within her. Thinking of Zero only rubbed salt in the wound. Her worst nightmare had been realised. She would be severed from him forever. Deep in her heart she had always known they would be but she had at least hoped fore a few more golden weeks, months even years maybe. But even that wouldn't have been enough. Even forever would not be enough not with him.

Rei paced in her room nervously and watched as all of the night class made their way across the courtyard into their waiting cars. The snow was beginning to drift against her window sill. It was so pure and white and beautiful. Aido was the only one who stayed behind with her. He was her bodyguard over the holidays making sure she didn't do anything…forbidden. The thought of him watching her every move made her skin crawl. She contemplated sneaking out but there was no point Aido would catch her. She and Zero had met every day over the past few weeks just like usual but he could tell there was something wrong. The guilt of keeping the truth from him was breaking her heart but she knew telling him the truth would hurt even more. He could taste the guilt and futility in her kisses. He always gazed at her softly asking her to tell him what was wrong but she couldn't. Her chest felt hollow as she thought of his violet eyes gazing into hers so tenderly. She felt tears running down her cheeks. She had spilled so many over the last few weeks. Knowing Zero he probably thought he was the cause of this change in her and that hurt her even more. She had to come clean. She knocked on Aido's door.

"We're going over to Master Cross'. I know you won't let me go alone so come with me. I have to tell him the truth."

Aido surprisingly said nothing and nodded. They walked over the fresh powder snow crunched beneath their feet. He kept looking across at her and when they were almost there he broke his silence.

"I'm sorry."

Rei halted at his words and threw him a surprised glance.

"What?" She asked softly.

"For everything that's happened. I never once understood you. How could you not love him? But I understand now. I know how it feels being told that the role you have to play isn't the one you want. That's something we both have in common at least."

She swallowed the lump that had formed in her throat. It meant a lot to hear those words. And to hear them coming from Aido of all people. She would become the wife of the man he loved. They both knew the pain of heartbreak they didn't need to see eye to eye to understand that. She embraced him impulsively and she felt his surprised arms slowly patting her back.

She pulled back giving him a weak smile.

"Thanks. And for what it's worth I'm sorry too."

He nodded and he offered her his arm which she took gratefully. As they approached Master Cross'. She gripped his arm tighter. Please give me the strength to do this.

She knocked the door and Yuki answered which she was a little relieved about until she saw the hurt look that passed across her eyes. She held the door open wordlessly. Yuki must think she was the ultimate life destroyer. And she had every right to think that. She was about to break the heart of one of the men she loved and was about to marry the other. She would understand if Yuki wanted to beat her into a bloody pulp and never see her again and she would let her. But Yuki was too nice to do that. She was a far better person than Rei deserved.

"Can we talk for a second in private?" Rei asked nervously.

Yuki nodded and told Aido to join Zero in the kitchen. She had to make this quick or Zero and Aido would kill each other. Master Cross was away on business so he couldn't even diffuse the situation. Yuki led her upstairs to her room. They waited just standing staring at one another in the awkward silence. Rei cleared her throat.

"Yuki. I'm sorry if there was any other way. This isn't what I want either." She said her voice soft and gentle.

Yuki crossed her arms across herself defensively.

"Then why can't you stop it? My heart is broken and you're going to break Zero's too. Why did you get close – if you knew this was going to happen? You lied to me. And to Zero." She said her voice fringed with barely subdued rage.

Rei felt the tears brim in her eyes and fall onto her cheeks before she could stop them. Yuki's face softened slightly but she stayed where she was arms crossed.

"I wish I could but it's time for me to do what is expected of me now." She said holding her gaze.

Yuki froze and Rei saw her own chocolate eyes fill with tears.

"That's- that's what he said to me that night. At the party. I was there. I saw you and Zero go into that room…why if you knew? Were you playing with him all along? Kaname wasn't enough for you?" She asked her voice wavering with emotion.

Rei flushed the tears flowing faster.

"No! You've got it all wrong Yuki. You have every right to hate me right now but I'm not a liar! You won't believe me but you at least deserve the truth. I didn't know not until the drive home that night. That's when Kaname told me. I had no idea. I knew something weird was going on but that's all. My heart broke as much as yours did that night. This isn't my choice. You know how I feel about Zero. I would never do that to him. I have never and will never love Kaname. I- I just wanted you to know that."

"But you're still marrying him." She said her voice softer now.

Rei nodded.

"Yes." She said weakly.

Yuki exhaled and opened the door signalling Rei to leave.

"Then we've said all that we have to say to each other."

Rei nodded feeling her stomach knot queasily with guilt. It would be a million times worse with Zero. She turned to her in the doorway.

"You have no reason to promise me anything. But please take care of him." She said softly.

Yuki nodded.

"I'll be here to pick the pieces up like always. Only if you take care of him for me." She said her voice rough with emotion.

They both nodded understanding one other perfectly. Each wanted to be where the other was but that was impossible so they had to make the best they could out of the fragments they'd been left behind.

She descended the stair case her fingers trembling and the tears flowing faster. She didn't have the strength to do this. She walked into the kitchen and grabbed Zero's hand before he even had a chance to turn around.

"We need to talk. Come with me." She said leading him out into the snow even although he only had a sweatshirt on.

Aido looked on with his mouth opened and Zero simply frowned wordlessly as she led the way. Aido made to follow them but Yuki stopped him with her fingers on his wrist.

"No. Let them have tonight."

Aido and Yuki watched from the door until their figures disappeared into the white.

They were practically jogging by the time they reached the Moon Dorm. She closed the door behind her shaking the snow flakes out of her hair. She allowed herself to look at Zero and it sent a spear of pain through her heart. He was so beautiful and how she wished he could be hers. His shirt was wet with snow and he was shaking. She began to lead him up the stairs and he tugged her hand back.

"What's going on? I know something's up. I can tell."

Rei nodded.

"I'll tell you just come to my room first." She said quietly.

Zero flushed but agreed hesitantly.

She sat on the bed gesturing to the spot beside her. He sat slowly his eyes never leaving hers. Her heart began to race and she felt sweat begin to form on her brow even though she was freezing. Tears filled her eyes and she desperately tried to wipe them but his fingers were there first a concerned look in his eyes.

"Tell me. If this is about that night if I took things too fast the-"

Rei smiled through her tears then. He was shattering her heart minute by minute. She placed her fingers over his lips.

"It was nothing you did ok. This is all my fault. Have you ever – ever had to do something you knew was wrong because you didn't have a choice?" She said sniffing between words.

Zero nodded. And moved his hand from her tear stained cheeks to her chin forcing her to look in his eyes.

"Every time I drink from you." He said his voice laced with regret.

Rei gasped and shook her head.

"No. That's different. My blood is yours. It is mine to give to whom I wish and I want you to have it."

Zero's cheeks flushed.

"It's the same. I'm still hurting you. I don't want to but I don't have a choice and that kills me. You shouldn't hurt the ones you love you should be able to protect them. I should be able to protect you."

Rei's heart thumped in her chest. Her tears froze on her cheeks. Love? Had she really heard that right? That was a bitter sweet arrow through her core. She wanted his love but she had to refuse it. She wasn't meant to have it. It could never belong to her.

"It doesn't hurt. I promise. Love…you can't - you can't love me." She said her chest physically constricting in pain as she said the words.

Zero smiled sadly.

"I wish I didn't love you because you deserve someone whole and someone good. But I do and that's something I do have a choice over. I'm bad for you and you have no idea how many times I've wished you'd push me away but it's too late now. My heart, whatever remains of it as black and shrivelled as it is, is mine to give to whom I wish. And I want you to have it."

Rei swallowed her heart leaping with joy and breaking all over again at his words. It was pleasure and it was pain. It always was with Zero.

"No. Don't. Don't say that. Why do you love me?" She said shaking him roughly by the shoulders almost angrily.

"Because-my whole life I've made myself a victim to other people's choices and I won't do it anymore. I know it's wrong and you deserve more, much more but who I love that's a choice that's all my own. So I won't say it since you asked me not to. But that doesn't mean it isn't true. I'll never stop no matter how much that disgusts you. And more important than any of that I love you because of who you are. You make me feel like I'm not a monster."

Rei embraced him impulsively burying her head in his neck. His words spoken in earnest had completely destroyed her. Zero held her tight. No. She was supposed to be pulling away not getting closer. He loved her. And he loved her for the person she really was not the person she pretended to be at the Society parties. He knew her.

"Disgusts me? Why would it? You're not a monster. I- I want you to say it again." She whispered against his beautiful firm chest.

She could feel his heart beating fast beneath her ear.

"I love you." He whispered.

She felt warm and alive and beautiful. In that moment she didn't think of Kaname or the guilt or any of it. She pulled back and cupped his face in her hands.

"Say it again." She asked.

Zero blushed.

"I love you."

Rei smiled as she let the joy of the fact that Zero loved her course through her veins. She let all of her fears and worries and doubts drift away. The truth could wait for now they had tonight. She kissed him fervently and he wrapped his arms around her and kissed her just as hard back.

He broke apart breathlessly.

"Wait. What about what you had to tell me?"

Rei shook her head.

"It can wait. This won't."

Zero's eyes darkened as he let her push him back on the bed and they peeled each other's clothes off item by item. There was no awkwardness and no uncertainty this time.

She writhed beneath him. Their bodies were slick with sweat. He'd been patient and tender with her like before but this time she wanted all of him. Her heart raced. She was so afraid. This was forbidden. She shouldn't. But this was her choice and no one else's. She was tired of being a victim to other people's choices too. This was her choice and hers alone. He kissed her softly and tenderly despite the desire coursing through their bodies.

"I want you." She whispered in his ear when he released her mouth.

She hooked her feet behind his hips and watched his eyes widen in surprise and she smiled as his cheeks flushed shyly.

"Rei-we can't take it back. I'll wait for you. I want you to be sure this is what you want."

Rei looked deep in his eyes her heart fluttering wildly. Her smile widened.

"I know and I wouldn't want to take it back. I'm ready now. This is my choice. I love you and this is what I want."

Zero felt his heart swell in his chest. So she loved him too. He kissed her passionately. He'd never heard her say it out loud before and it sounded wonderful. It felt wonderful to be loved. He knew he was being selfish but for once in his life he had something worth living for. Something that was worth fighting for, something beautiful and pure. She had purified his soul. He pulled away hesitantly as his love clouded mind cleared slightly. He didn't want to taint her with his darkness.

"We need to be responsible about this."

Rei rolled her eyes he was just stalling.

"Look if you're trying to put me off it's not working. If you're trying to give me the safe sex talk Mini beat you to it like 10 years ago. She made me promise to go on birth control when I was 15. Mini took them too. She wasn't like what everyone thought. I never needed to take them but I did anyway to keep Mini happy, even after she…died."

Zero gazed at her evenly holding her tenderly.

"That's not what I meant. I'm just…afraid I guess. I'm me and you're you. Shouldn't you wait till you marry some aristocrat or something?" He asked.

Envy boiled in his veins at the mere mention of anyone else having her.

Rei paled as an unwanted image of her in a white dress letting Kaname's lips cover hers filled her head. Zero smiled even although jealousy bubbled in his stomach.

"There's time. I'll wait."

Rei pushed the images away and shook her head. No there wasn't. Don't think of that. It was now or never.

"No. I'm afraid too. But I'm more afraid not to do this. I know what I want. You. Let's not worry about that other stuff. Not tonight. Tonight there's just you. And me."

He was losing his reserve in the way her beautiful naked body slithered against his and the way her sweet mouth kissed his throat. She was cleansing the wounds where she'd bit him. He wanted to feel Rei there. He wanted her to bite him. His eyes opened at the revelation. He never thought he'd ever feel this way. Love did make you crazy he thought.

"If you're so sure then…bite me." He whispered.

Rei froze and pulled back her eyes wide. She placed her cool fingers over the spot her lips had been.

"What? I could never-"

He placed his thumb over her soft kiss bruised lips and she sucked on it lightly. She was driving him crazy.

"This is my choice. I want you to. She's the only one that bit me I want to remember you instead. Not her."

Rei swallowed thickly her cheeks flushed.

"But I don't want to hurt you." She mumbled against his thumb.

Zero smiled sadly.

"I knew you were lying. I know. I remember. But if you want me to make love to you then that hurts too. You're giving up so much for me, too much, so let me give you something too."

She huffed against his thumb. She pushed herself back from him slightly and pushed his head up in her hands.

"Are you still trying to make me change my mind? If you love them then the pain isn't really pain it's pleasure too. And I'm not giving anything up. I want you and I love you. Only you."

Zero's flush deepened at her tender words.

"Then show me." He said turning his head in her hands.

The movement exposed his tattoo and the pulsing vein beneath it to her. She was so thirsty. He'd distracted her from noticing before. She could feel him trembling. He was nervous and afraid.

"Don't be scared. Do you trust me?"

Her hands slipped to his shoulders and he nodded.

"Close your eyes." She whispered.

Zero screwed his eyes closed and Rei tentatively licked the vein with her tongue tasting salt and his skin before feeling the blood pulse beneath her mouth hot and heady. She kissed the spot and bit down as gently as she could. She moaned as the hot liquid swirled around her tongue and down her throat. It tasted of Zero and desire and love. She could feel his love for her flowing through her. He must have known how she felt for months. She blushed at the thought. It was beautiful. Blood tablets were nothing compared to this. Her hands gripped his shoulders and she felt his hands cradling her head. He wasn't shaking any more. She pulled back gently and felt him shudder.

"You love me." She whispered breathlessly.

Zero gazed into her eyes that had returned to hazel. Now she knew what he'd tasted these past few months.

"And you love me." He answered.

She blushed and nodded.

"Did it hurt?" She asked gently cradling his now healed bite in her hand.

He shook his head.

"Not with you. I understand now."

She swallowed thickly her heart racing as she wriggled beneath him. He gasped as his hardness brushed the heat of her centre.

"Are you sure?" He asked his voice shaking slightly.

Rei nodded. His eyes never left hers. She wrapped her arms around him and she felt his fingers twine in her hair the other clutching her hip as he entered her. She winced and screwed her eyes shut tight. She could feel him hesitating. She pushed her hips against his even though it hurt and she gasped in pain from the new sensation. Tears formed at her eyes. He kissed them away and they began to flow faster. No don't cry. He'll think it's because he's hurting you. She wanted this to last forever. It wasn't painful more uncomfortable. But it made her feel alive and connected. She would never feel this way again. She kissed him and he kissed her back hesitantly at first then harder. An aching need throbbed dull and hot inside of her. It was him. She needed to feel him move inside her. She could smell blood, her own, and when she pulled back his eyes were fading from purple to red. He closed his eyes a frown beaded with sweat on his brow. He was trying to control himself so hard because he didn't want to hurt her. He had nothing to worry about she was the one that was going to hurt him. She cradled his head in her hands and placed his lips at her neck as she wriggled her hips beneath his urging him to move. She felt his lips linger at her throat before he bit down and thrust out and back inside her. She gasped as she felt the pleasure of completion of being filled by Zero. It was beautiful and it was finite. She let her tears flow silently as he drank. They had tonight and she had to make it count.

She held him tighter as she tried to match the rhythm of her hips to his. He pulled back from her throat and groaned at the feeling of being inside her. Her lust and her love were mingling with his and he wasn't sure where one began and the other ended. Heart, body, blood and soul they were bonded. He kissed her greedily and felt her legs grip his hips tighter. If this was wrong then let them both be wrong for ever and ever he thought.

She could feel the fire in the pit of her stomach reignite fiercer than it had ever burned before. It always smouldered in his presence but this was different. She wished tonight could never end. Their movements became jerkier and clumsier as pleasure overtook their bodies. Rei arched her back meeting his thrusts and she felt her control slip. Her body was engulfed by warm pleasure. His blood, his lips, and his touch it all overwhelmed her like a giant wave. She cried out in a voice she wasn't sure was her own. In that moment she was transported to somewhere beyond the earth and she wished she could stay there with him forever. He held her as she shook it was like flying. And when she was flying none of her problems mattered but then she started to come back down and then the worries and reality started to seep back in. She held him closer willing him to keep her afloat. She heard him groan his release as he trembled in her arms. They stayed like that for a while in each others arms sticky and breathless as they fell back to earth. She wasn't sure how long they stayed like that but she knew she wanted to fly again. Even if it was only for tonight she would fly with him again. Tomorrow could wait. As she cradled his head on her chest and gazed out her window at the full moon she smiled sadly. The night was still theirs until the sun would inevitably rise and steal it away from them. She held him all the tighter willing the moon to stay in the sky forever.