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Previously on LIF:

I realize Edward is acting like he can't protest, like he owes it to her. I wonder what their story is.

"Well, you two continue your breakfast date before I so rudely interrupted. I'll be off."

"Nonsense, Bella. I think we can be great friends," Alice says, then starts digging into her purse. She hands me a card. "This is my personal cell. You can call me anytime and we can have girlie dates together."

"I will." I then turn to Edward. "Thanks for inviting me for breakfast Edward. I guess I'll see you."

He just stares at his plate without looking at me. I sigh and then turn toward the stairs already regretting whatever it is Jasper has to confess.

11. Confession

As soon as I enter our room, Jasper is on me. And not in a romantic kind of way.

"Where have you been, Bella? And who the hell is this Edmund guy?" That's right. Those are his first words to me after practically abandoning me on our honeymoon. Not an 'Oh, I'm really sorry, Bella' or a "I promise this won't happen again'. No.

"Why should I tell you any of this, when you don't even tell me where the hell you flee to, on OUR honeymoon?" Yes, I totally borrowed some bravado from Alice.

Jasper stares at me for a long moment and then finally sighs. "Look Bella, I… shit… I really don't know where to start."

"Okay, let me make this easy for you. Are you cheating on me?"

His eyes immediately snap to mine. And then his silence answers me.

I drop on the nearby couch noisily. Okay, deep breaths, Bella. Deep breaths.

I look at him as he stares at the ground and suddenly it's like I have an epiphany. Why was I on love with him? He's not Jasper. Not my Jasper. My Jasper would NEVER do such a thing. He'd never hurt me intentionally, right?

And then I snap back to the night of the party and remember that he did. Even before Alec's attack or James' offer. Jasper hurt me. Did he never care?

"Bella, please… please say something." Jasper pleads and he sound miserable like he's in agony.

But why would he be in agony? He's not the one whose heart was just trampled a minute ago.

"Why did you this, Jasper?" My voice is barely above a whisper as I try to reign in the storm inside me.

"I don't know. I mean I was drunk and feeling guilty and then…"

"NO. I meant why did you marry me? We both know you don't love me. Never did actually, I'm starting to realise. Then why would you give me the hope of a happy marriage?"

"I…"

"Do you realise you didn't even last a month in our marriage? You screwed up even before the memories of my wedding could fade."

"I'm…"

"I think I need to leave." I get up suddenly trying to gather all my thoughts.

"What? No, Bella, please listen to me. I…"

"Okay. Explain. I'd love to know how try to get out of this, like you always have."

"What? Bella, I'm not trying to get out of anything. And when have I ever tried that... Never mind. Look, Bella, I'm an ass. I know. But just…" he pauses and then takes a deep breath. "Okay. Did I mention that I have nightmares? It started probably the month after your… um… incident. They are always so horrifying as every scenario keeps running in my head about what they did to you and what they could have done to you. I just… Anyway, the night after our wedding. I was couldn't go to sleep because every time I tried I saw you there lying on the floor with blood around you.

So, I went for a walk. Probably should have left you a note or something but I thought I'd be back before you wake up. Anyway, I was walking when this girl…"

I raise my eyebrow at him and he stammers.

He clears his throat awkwardly. "You probably don't want to know the details, huh? Basically, I'm trying to say that even when I was with her I only saw you. And I know that sounds bull, but it's true. I know I screwed up big time. But I do love you, Bella."

I stare at him blankly. "Are you done? I'm still leaving and there's nothing you can do to stop me."

I immediately start towards my closet and start packing stuff.

"Bella, wait. Where are you going to go?" He sighs loudly. "Okay… how about this. I'll leave, you stay. You take the room. I'll find somewhere else."

I snort loudly. "How chivalrous of you! What, so you'll run back to your mistress now? I just made it a whole lot easier on you, didn't I?"

"Bella, please. I'm really sorry."

I ignore him and then turn towards his closet. I grab his clothes and start to put them away in the bags. He finally figures out that I'm not budging and start to pace frantically. When I'm done, I turn toward him. "You bags are ready. So you can get out now."

He open his mouth to say something and then shakes his head thinking better of it. He grabs me in a hug, while I arms lay awkwardly on the side, kisses my forehead lightly and then, he's gone.

I wait for the door to slam shut and then crumble on the floor. Tears stream down my face and all I do is stare at the door. It suddenly becomes clear to me. I don't know this Jasper. In fact, I never knew him at all.

Was I really in love with him? Because as I cry, I feel like I'm shedding a weight that I had been carrying on my shoulders for years.

Maybe this is the start of a new life I was waiting for. Maybe now that Jasper's gone, I can finally forget the past. Forget the night and I may even be able to move past it.

So, here it is Chapter 11. So, what did you think of this chapter? Love it? Hate it? Please review.

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