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Chapter 11: Tobias?

I wake up in the morning with a pain in my head. I know I didn't drink last night so I look at myself. I don't have any scars so I didn't pass out from bleeding like I have done so many time so many times before but this is different I have felt this pain before. This is from lack of water. I get up and look in the mirror. I have mascara streaming my cheeks and my eyes are swollen and puffy. I must have been crying a lot last night. Over what is what I can't comprehend. I know Uriah left but why am I so distraught over it. I only dated him for 3 weeks but it felt amazing to know that he loved me. I wish he didn't go I miss him already. We broke up but it was forced because neither one of us wanted to have a long distance relationship. I can't help but let a few tears out. I cry a little and I cry loud. Christina comes in knowing that I need comfort.

"I know it's hard but you have to move on. Please come get dressed and come to lunch." I know she means well but I'm not sure I can take it. I get up anyways because I'm hungry but I know that it will be hard. I get dressed in a t-shirt that Robert gave to me and sweatpants. I put my hair in a nice pony-tail and put on a bit of makeup so I don't look like death. I feel like death and am probably acting like him too, but I have good reasons to so I don't really care too much. Christina doesn't even mention it when I walk out. She knows my pain and doesn't want to make it worse by trying to fix my clothes.

We walk down to the cafeteria and sit down as normal but instead Tobias comes and sits by me. He doesn't say anything, but Zeke does.

"Damn Tris you look like death, was my brother leaving really that hard?" I don't want to answer but I do.

"Yes it was Zeke my first real boyfriend got expelled for no real reason. Plus we broke up before he left as to make things easier. So yes Zeke its very hard." I hate him for asking me that.

"Oh sorry I didn't know." he turns serious. I decide to look up and I catch Tobias giving him the death glare.

"If looks could kill." I mumble but apparently Tobias heard me because he looks down at me and smiles. Without really thinking I give him a hug. I realise after I did it it probably wasn't the smartest but it felt nice. He wraps his arm around my shoulder and I don't shake it off. I like the feeling of safety again.

"Um… Tris I was… wondering… if you um wanted to get some… coffee later?" I turn around and see Al a guy I met at the party. I give him a questioning look and just look at Tobias. He seems to get the message.

"She just got out of a bad break-up so maybe like next week or something not so soon." he did know exactly what to say. I turn back to the table and keep my head down. I keep close to Tobias. I know he likes me and I might be able to say the same thing about him but it's too soon to tell. I can't even handle being asked out because honestly Uriah leaving was one of the hardest things for me in a long time. I know that leaving Milwaukee was hard but I knew I'd be coming back to people and I could always avoid everything but with him it's different. Once he comes back I can't just ditch it all. Who knows I might even have a boyfriend and then I really can't ditch everything. He will always be here because of all the friends I have made and well they are all his friends too. Especially Tobias, he's getting close with me and I know Uriah meant it when he said he was ok with us going out. It's like Robert telling me to come here because he wants me to be happy. I'm ditching him for new friends. I can't take this any more. I get up and leave the table. I don't where I'm going I just leave. I don't think anyone is following me so I walk into the janitor's closet sit with my headphones in and listen to my music. It's my only escape now and I didn't want to go back to my room. There is nothing in here so I know it's no longer in use. I get a text from Christina and then a bunch of others.

Where did you go? You got up and left I figured you went back to the room but you aren't here. Where are you?- Chris3 :)

Hey I miss you already hows it without me- Urihotness

We didn't scare you away did we? We were just talking about some new dares for truth or dare.-Zekester

Hey you ok? You just got up and left and no one can find you. Are you hurt? Do you need help?-unknown number

I only respond to the unknown and Uriah.

It sucks without you. I miss you company at night.:(-Trissypoo

Who are you and how'd you get my number?-Trissypoo

Oh well I have to go my moms talking to me about the fight.-Urihotness

:(-Trissypoo(To Uriah)

Its Four and I got it from Christina. Are you ok why are you only responding to me? Do you want some company? I won't ask questions?-Fouris4

Oh ok I'm in the janitor's closet right outside the girls restroom 1st floor. I'll explain in here.-Trissypoo

Ok be there in a bit. This is going to look odd you know that right?-Fouris4

Ya I realise that but whatever as long as we don't mess up our hair or clothes.-Trissypoo

I'll try my best but I'm a naturally messy person.-Fouris4

Ok well don't make it to big, who knows what Christina will think.-Trissypoo

Ok I don't make any promises-Fouris4

Just hurry up-Trissypoo

Just as I send the text I hear a knock on the door. I get up and open it. Of course it's Tobias who else would it be. He comes and I close the door behind him. I sit back down where I was in the corner but instead of by myself I have Tobias.

"Why do you go by Four? I know real name is Tobias and I actually like that better." I say it totally casually. He looks caught off guard by this.

"I don't like being associated with the name. It connects me to my past and I don't like my past one bit." he is now angered but I just touch his knee to tell him I am there.

"Why do you hate your past so much? You don't have to answer if you're uncomfortable." I know that it's uncomfortable because he hesitates to answer. He doesn't really answer he just takes off his shirt. I stare in awe. His back is covered in tattoos but I can see scares.

"My dad when I was younger would physically and mentally abuse me. He would come home from work and come up to my room and ask me what I was doing. I was normally doing homework and he would tell me it's sloppy. He would take off his belt and hit me. I didn't fight back and I regret it now. He got a job offering here in Chicago as a teacher. He was soon put as a placement adviser to Abnegation. I was originally in abnegation but there he was still able to hurt me . I asked to switch to dauntless where I knew he couldn't hurt me. I did and when he found out he threatened me. It was horrible but I knew I would always live in fear. My name was a symbol of my past and that's why I go by Four. I don't choose to tell people it." I can hear his voice tremble.

"How come Zeke said your name that night when Peter tried to rape me?" I am now really confused.

"Well when I was assigned my new room they got a form with my info to see who I what I was like. It said Tobias Eaton on it so they called me that first. I told them to just call me Four and forget my old name. They told me not to forget it and I just told them I didn't like it and I that they could only call me it when no one else was around. I guess they did a pretty good job at that because when we play truth or dare I get asked what my real name is." why does he go by Four then? He must have read my mind. "Why do I go by Four? This is my fourth school I have been to." I nod in understanding.

"I'm glad you choose to be brave and get away from that horrible person." I just had to say something, but now that I did the words don't stop. "I'm sorry but that day, when Uriah got me to be his girlfriend, you said you liked me and I made you feel like no one ever had before. But you're older than I am…Tobias."

"Yes, that whopping two-year gap really is insurmountable, isn't it?"

"I'm not trying to be self-deprecating," I say, "I just don't get it. I'm younger. I'm not pretty. I-"

He laughs, a deep laugh that sounds like it came from deep inside him, and touches his lips to my temple.

"Don't pretend," I say breathy. "You know I'm not. I'm not ugly, but I am certainly not pretty."

"Fine. You're not pretty. So?" he kisses my cheek. "I like how you look. You're dealy smart. You're brave. And even though you found out about Marcus…" His voice softens. "You aren't giving me that look. Like I'm a kicked puppy or something."

"Well," I say. "You're not." With that he leans in close so we are breathing the same air. I touch his face and wrap my arms around his neck. He touches his hands to my cheeks and leans into kiss me. I let him kiss me. He try's to pull back but I don't let him. I love this feeling of his lips on mine. He glides his tongue over my bottom lip asking for entrance. I let him in and his tongue explores my mouth. After a little while I pull away and just rest my head on his shoulder. I don't want to break the silence but I have to.

"Did Uriah tell you he was ok with this?" I say softly.

"Ya. He told you too didn't he?" his voice is a little lighter and giddy.

"Yep. I don't know if I'm ready for this yet." I don't know if he gets what I mean so I turn so I'm sitting in his lap and facing him.

"I know that and I shouldn't have kissed you but you were just so beautiful and I couldn't help myself. But you pulled me back after all that and wanted more. I wasn't going to object. I do want you to know I like you for being you and I won't push you. Never." I feel my heart racing. I just kiss him again. We talk and kiss in the janitor's closet for a while more when we finally realise we should go get food. I go out first and walk to the cafeteria. I get food and sit down. Tobias comes and sits next me. Under the table we hold hands. No one seems to notice so we continue.

"Where did you go Four? You left to look for Tris and never came back." Zeke says.

"Well I found her and we just hung out." He smile at this and squeezes my hand.

"You didn't think you should text us?" Christina asks now suspicious.

"My phone died." He answers like its obvious.

"Well where did you go Tris?" Will asks me.

"I just needed to get out of my head I really don't remember where I went I was up in some tree outside when Four found me and we just sat up there and talked." I knew Christin a would believe this because I have told her I think better in high places.

"So nothing really happened?" Christina says as she wiggles her eyebrows.

"NO!" Is all I say and the subject is dropped.

"So since its our last night of summer tomorrow who wants to play some truth or dare at my place?" we all nod and I nudge Tobias as to leave and we do. We just wonder the school until Zeke texts him to that he won't be home tonight that him and Will are going to their girlfriends places.

"Do you want to go back to my dorm and watch some movies or something." I hesitate.

"Um sure." I'm scared by what he means but I trust him. We get back to his dorm and sit in the living space. He pops in The Wizard Of Oz, one of my favorite movies, and we watch it. I curl up next to him and we both fall asleep. I had to have been asleep for at least an hour or two I hear a door open and I see Zeke walk in. I quick pretend like I'm asleep but in the process I wake up Tobias. I see Zeke just standing there in awe as to the fact we are like all curled up next to each other and my heads on Tobias's chest. I try to sit up but I am pulled back down.

"Enjoying your night?" He says with a wink.

"I thought you were with Shaunna, why are you back?" Tobias asks.

"She has a roommate that doesn't like guys in her dorm after 11:00 so I got kicked out. But are you two together? If you are then damn Tris was fast. Otherwise you two should get together we all know it's going to happen and Uriah is fine with it he told you Toby."

"First that sucks man. Second we aren't together yet because she doesn't want to get into another relationship yet. Third we aren't going to do anything, so relax. Lastly if you ever call me Toby again I will hurt you. Plus how do you know she knew my real name. She does but still." I elbow him for the comment about me.

"Oh so you two want to get together but Tris doesn't want to move on to fast I got it. Well sorry I just figured that night when Uri used it she heard and it was fine around her." He leaves and I try to go back to sleep with my head on Tobias's chest and his arms around me. I love this feeling and I never want it to end. I fall asleep to his heart beat slowing and his breathing becoming natural. I am happy I have Tobias to keep me safe at night and to be there for me.

A/N Gosh that was long. It was like 2600 words. I'm happy I can finally put it up though because people were getting antsy. I really hope you liked it. Any questions comments or concerns also ideas are appreciated. Thank you to all of my wonderful comments and followers. I hope you are happy with this chapter I know I am.