Mark sat in his cell in Rikers. He kept looking at his wedding ring right next to his bruised up knuckles. It was already midnight and he didn't get to call Olivia at all. He was smoking a cigarette to calm his nerves down. He was too scared to sleep after last time he was in jail for an undercover job.
He heard footsteps down the cold, dark hallway. He spotted a guard come to his gate and unlock it quietly. "Captain Anderson you have a visitor."
"Now?" Mark asked knowing 12 in the morning was certainly not allowable visiting hour.
The guard nodded. "Special privileges for a fed."
Mark nodded and got up. His loose jeans had blood on them and so did his wrinkled dress shirt. He followed the guard down the hall and into a visiting room. He kept standing knowing the guard was going to search him before the visitor came into the room.
"Spread your arms and legs." The guard ordered. Mark did so. The guard touched his pockets and his ankles. He moved his hands over his chest and around his waist. "Your fine. Sit."
Mark sat down and lit another cigarette. He heard the loud buzz and spotted the door open. Brad came through and motioned for the guard to leave. The guard left.
Brad sat across him and took the cigarette from him. He put it out on his heel of his shoe. "This stuff will kill you."
"What are you doing here?"
"I talked to the Director and Attorney General. They are offering a deal."
"What kind of deal?"
Brad took a deep breath. "You have to resign your position."
"What?" Mark instantly got off his seat. "They want me to quit my job?"
Brad nodded. "A captain of the special task force division as a murderer? I don't think so. Press will raise hell and so will anybody we collar. You can take this to trail but you have a good chance of losing your job also, plus I know you probably don't want everyone knowing your family history."
"So that's it? I resign and they don't press charges?"
"Well not completely. You still have to do time since they can't just let you off."
"How much time Brad?" Mark asked.
"I don't know. The most a year and the least a couple of months. Depends on the judge. They have intent on you since you knew this guy before."
Mark nodded and looked at his wedding ring. "Can I go home? I'll resign my position."
Brad nodded and got up. "C'mon. I'll escort you out."
Mark nodded and followed his agent out the visitation room.
Brad showed his badge to the guard and got his weapon back. "He is in custody of the FBI now. Thank you for your services." He signed his name and then let Mark sign out.
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Mark slowly came into the house. It was three in the morning and he didn't hear from Olivia or anybody else while the FBI questioned him. His dress shirt was still covered in blood and so were his jeans.
He locked the door quietly so he wouldn't wake up Jenny who was sleeping on the couch. Mark went over to her and pulled the blanket over her gently. He kneeled down and placed a kiss on her forehead.
Jenny opened her eyes and jumped a little.
"It's dad," He whispered. "Go back to sleep."
She noticed the blood stains on him. "Are you ok?"
"I'm fine. It's not my blood." He assured her. "Go back to sleep."
She nodded and gave him a kiss on the cheek. "Love you."
"You too sweetie." He brushed her hair away and got up. He turned around and went to his bedroom. He quietly closed the door behind him seeing Olivia was asleep.
He just sat down on the edge of the bed and stared at the ground. He didn't even want to wake her up for the bad news he had to give her.
Olivia slowly started to wake up feeling someone sitting by her. It was completely dark in the room. "Mark?" She asked as she sat up.
He nodded. "I didn't mean to wake you up." He whispered.
She moved over by him. "Are you ok?"
He shook his head. He said nothing and burrowed his face in his hands. "I'm not who I used to be." He whispered softly. "I hate myself. I hate who I am."
"Baby." She got off the bed and kneeled down in front of him. "You are a good person." She took his hands in hers and slowly nodded. "Ok? You are an amazing person."
"How can you say that? I killed a man with a knife. I grabbed you by the neck and slammed you against the wall. How can you still think I'm a good person?" He whispered with tears in his eyes.
"Because I know who you are." She whispered. "You are the only person in the world that could do that to me and I wouldn't want to kill you. You would never go over the limit and hit me or do something worse. You would never lay a hand on our children. You are a good person."
He slowly shook his head. "I have nothing left. I don't have control of myself. I don't have a job anymore. I'm so useless."
"What do you mean you don't have a job?"
"The attorney general's office is dropping the charges as long as I resign my position. Since this mess started with me being undercover for them they are willing to give me a deal."
"So you quit?"
He nodded slowly. "I'm not taking this to court. I am not getting our lives detailed to the world. I had to. I'm so sorry."
"Honey." She rested his head on her shoulder. "You think I'm mad that you quit?"
"You're not mad. I'm mad at myself. What kind of man am I that I sit here all day while you work? I can't even provide for my family."
"Look at me." She picked his head up. "Look at me Mark." She picked his chin up so he met her eyes. "You still have your pension?"
"Yea."
"Then what are you being sad about." She smirked a little. "Come here baby." She took him in a hug. "I don't care if you were fired. I don't care that you don't have a job. I'm just glad that you're not going to jail. You being here for our kids is all that matters. None of this stupid money stuff. We'll figure something out."
He hugged her and held her. "Thank you. I love you."
"I love you too." She gave him a kiss. "Now change. I don't like blood on you."
He gently let go of her and placed a kiss on her lips. "Were you afraid of me today?" He asked. He was somewhat lost and shocked to even change his own clothes.
Olivia untied his shoes and took them off. "When? When we fought or later?"
"Both." He answered.
She started to unbutton his dress shirt. "I'm not sure."
"Answer me. Please."
"I don't know. I was too mad at you when we fought and then later…you just shocked me." She gently pulled the dress shirt off his shoulders and let it fall on the bed.
"I shocked myself. I never thought I was capable of that. Do you think it's because I saw my mom get killed when I was five?"
She bit her lip and shook her head. "No. I think it's because you defended yourself."
"Olivia I stabbed him in the back, neck, then I threw him out the window and then stabbed him in the chest multiple times. Defending myself doesn't require that much violence. Maybe I'm just violent by nature."
She unbuckled his belt and then his jeans. "You're not. You didn't fight when you were in high school. You felt threatened so you did what anyone would do."
He got off the bed and started to pace around. "What is wrong with me? How can you be with me? I'm totally losing it. I'm not violent but I'm not a calm person. I always thought I was a happy person but my sense of humor is just a cover up for this monster I am."
Olivia got up and got in front of him. "You are not a monster."
"Stop saying that." He ordered angrily. "Stop trying to make this better. It wont be. I'm going to do something I don't want to do. It's in my blood. I don't want to hurt you or the kids."
"Mark" She took a step toward him. "Calm down."
He shook his head and held up his hand. "Don't. Please. Don't. Stay away from me."
She tried to take his hand but he moved it away. "Ok." She nodded and moved away. "Just breath." She slowly unlocked his drawer where he kept his gun. She knew he kept a needle full of Sedative solution in a box in case he did lose control like he was now. She had to sedate him before he actually had a heart attack with how much he was panicking.
He instantly shook his head since he was afraid of needles. "Don't. I'm calm. Don't."
She nodded slowly. "I won't. I just need you to calm down for me that's all."
He shook his head again. "I can't. I'm a killer. I might hurt you. Please just stay away from me. Don't come near me. I just can't handle any of this. I don't even know what I'm doing home."
She nodded and moved closer to him. He moved back. She grabbed him quickly and stuck the needle in his shoulder and pushed the pump down.
"It's ok." She whispered holding him as he slowly tilted his head back being knocked out since the medicine was strong. "C'mon. It's ok. You'll be ok." She whispered and led him to the bed. She sat him down and let him fall back on the bed. "Sleep." She kissed him on the forehead knowing he would feel much better in the morning.
She took his jeans off and threw them to the side. She put the needle in his drawer again and locked it. He got the medication after having surgery since they said him panicking could lead to one of stitches in his vocal cords snapping. The doctors gave him the sedative because what he went through was traumatizing.
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Mark groaned to the pain in his arm. "Olivia?" he called out. "Baby where are you?" He asked. He wasn't even aware of what happened yesterday.
Lilly ran into the room and instantly jumped on the bed. "Hi daddy."
"Hi honey. Where's your mother?" He asked and rubbed his throat to get rid of the raspy voice he had in the morning from the surgery.
"Doing laundry and talking on the phone to Aunt Casey. Ben has a sister now." The little girl informed him.
"Oh." Mark nodded realizing Casey had the baby already. "That's nice. Can you get mom here for me?"
"Sure." She gave him a kiss on the cheek and got off the bed. She ran out of the room and stood by the door to the basement. "Mommy! Daddy is looking for you!" She yelled out.
"Shut up Lilly!" The twins yelled in unison from their room since they were sleeping.
Mark rolled his eyes being too tired to quiet the kids.
Olivia came up from the basement where she washed Mark's bloody clothes. "Ok guys, calm down." She told the kids before going into the room to see her husband. "Hey you're up. How you feeling?"
"My arm hurts. I don't remember anything."
She closed the door behind her and sat down next to him. "It's ok. You will. I gave you a shot of a sedative cause you were freaking out."
He looked confused and then realized why he was freaking out. He was a killer. "Oh god." He covered his head with the blanket.
"Baby." She leaned down by him. He let out a loud groan. "Baby c'mon."
"No." He whined. "Go away."
"C'mon I can't have you losing it. I need you to remain sane." She whispered against his cheek. "You're stronger then this." She rubbed his back gently. "Can you get up and get dressed for me? Small steps."
"I don't have a job." He grumbled under the blanket. "I have nothing."
"You have me. You have the kids that love their dad."
He pushed the blanket down to his chin. "The kids don't know what happened right?"
"No. None of them." She answered. "Brad and Casey had a baby girl this morning. You love babies. You can go visit them."
"I don't love babies." He mumbled.
Olivia smiled knowing he loved babies but didn't want to admit it. "Ok. Then go visit them to see Casey. You know? Your best friend. Your pal."
Mark nodded a little. "I'm getting dressed first. Too much to do at the moment."
"Sure." She pulled the blanket off him. She placed a kiss on his chiseled abs. "You don't have to do a lot now. Get dressed and eat breakfast with us. Think you can handle that for now?"
"Yeah." He sat up and gave her a kiss on the lips. "Thanks."
"That's what I'm here for." She got up and got him jeans and a t-shirt. He got up and got dressed. He pulled on his socks and followed her out to the kitchen.
Zane and Jenny were talking at the kitchen table across each other and Lilly was in between them eating her cereal.
"Hey guys." Mark waved at them and gave Jenny a kiss on the head. Somehow he always gave her the most affection then the other kids since she was adopted and had a rough childhood. "Sleep well?"
"Yes" Lilly answered and took a spoonful of her Lucky Charms.
"I think he was asking Jen." Zane told her.
"So? I answered for her." Lilly countered. "She would have said the same thing. I couldn't get a word in from all this talking you two are doing."
"Talking? I thought you two couldn't stand each other." Mark raised an eyebrow. "When did this happen?"
Both shrugged. "We have matured." Zane answered.
Jenny's cell phone started ringing. Olivia glanced over at it since she was the closest to the counter top. "Jen why is someone named Jeremy calling you at nine in the morning?"
"Who's Jeremy?" Zane asked instantly.
"None of your business." Jenny answered and got up to take the call.
Lilly grinned at Mark sitting across her. "Isn't it better when they are mean to each other? Now we can talk." Mark smiled and winked at his youngest.
The twins came into the kitchen looking sleepy. "You people talk a lot," Matt complained.
"Well sorry King Matthew." Zane teased. "Didn't get your beauty sleep?"
Matt gave him a mean look and then climbed onto Mark's lap. He placed his head on his chest. "Dad my tummy hurts."
"It's a Saturday. You don't have to fake it today." Zane smiled at him.
"Make him shut up." Matt whined. Mark gave a warning look to Zane that got him quiet.
Mark gently rubbed his stomach and gave him a kiss on the head. "You guys want to go see Ben today? He has a little sister."
"Eww like Lilly?" Mike asked and sat down by Zane.
"Michael" Olivia warned as she made breakfast.
The twins giggled a little. Lilly gave each a mean look and went over to Olivia. She hugged her around the legs.
Jenny came back into the kitchen with a smile on her face.
"What are you smiling about?" Zane asked.
"None of your business" Jenny answered.
"Jenny what are you smiling about?" Mike asked with a smirk.
"Well Mikey, I have a date tonight." Jenny answered him.
"With Jeremy?" Zane asked loudly. "Who is this guy?"
"Someone I'm having a date with." Jen answered with a wink and got up. "I have to go buy new clothes before I go on a date with Jeremy."
"Mark" Zane looked over at him. "You're letting her go?"
"Zane she's 26 years-old. I can't really say who she goes out with." Mark answered him. "What do you care for anyway?"
"I don't." he answered calmly and moved his bangs away from his face. "I mean…what if it's a stranger she met on the Internet? Olivia knows what happens in those cases."
"Jen is not stupid" Olivia answered him. "Jeremy is probably a kid from school."
Zane bit his lip and got up. "Excuse me" he walked out the kitchen and went up to his room where he knew Jenny was changing.
He rubbed his strong jaw and waited for her to come out. She finally came out dressed in tight jeans and a shirt showing her nice stomach. "What do you want?" She asked.
Zane froze up. "Um…nothing…um…well um…you look nice."
"Thank you. Can you move out of my way now?" She asked staring up at his bright blue eyes that some of his jet-black bangs covered.
"Um…yea." He nodded and didn't move.
"You ok?" She asked and touched his rock hard chest. "Everything ok Zane?"
He gulped finding her extremely beautiful. He never got nervous around girls. What was this one doing to him? "Um…yea. Sorry." He moved out of her way.
She smirked a little and gently moved his hair away from his face. "Much better. You have nice eyes. Show them off."
In an instant he leaned in and pressed his soft lips against her smooth cheek. He closed his eyes but didn't move away.
Jenny froze feeling a very small tingle in her stomach from just a kiss on the cheek from him. He wasn't her brother so it wasn't weird. He was simply a friend she knew a lot about. "I need to go." She whispered.
He moved away and leaned on a wall. "Sorry."
She looked at him for a second but said nothing. She turned around went down the stairs.
Zane rested his head back on the wall in the hallway. "Idiot." He banged his head on it. "Idiot." To his surprise Jenny was by the stairs.
"Bye Idiot" She called up to him with a small laugh.
Zane smiled nervously and waved in a cheesy way. "Later Alligator" His eyes widened at what he said. "Oh my god." He quickly went into his room hearing Jenny laugh even more. "What the hell is wrong with you?" He yelled at himself. "Later Alligator? What the fuck dude?" He placed his forehead on the mirror and let out a groan.
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Brad came into the hospital with Ben in his arms. "Ready to see your sister?"
"Yea. What's her name?" Ben asked as he wrapped his small hands around Brad's neck.
"We didn't decide yet. You are going to decide with us since you are part of the family."
"Let's name her Fruit Punch."
Brad laughed a little and gave him a kiss on the cheek. "We are not naming your sister Fruit Punch. If we named you Apple Juice then maybe."
Ben laughed as Brad carried him into Casey's room. Casey had the newborn in her arms and smiled at her husband and son. "Hey guys."
Brad smiled and sat down by her. He gave her a kiss and placed Ben in his lap. "That's your sister Ben."
"She's so small" Ben whispered and gently touched her small hand with his small finger. The baby stretched her arms out. Ben instantly moved his hand.
"You don't have to be scared sweetie." Casey told him. "You want to hold her?"
"Me?" Ben asked.
Brad grinned and sat Ben properly. "Put your arms out." Ben did so. Brad gently took her in his arms. "Hi baby." He whispered and held her head. "Ben you hold her ok?" Ben nodded. Brad put her in Ben's arms and held her head. "Any names yet?"
"I was thinking either Madison or Ava. What do you think?" Casey asked.
"I like Ava" Ben told them. "She looks like an Ava."
Brad nodded. "Ava it is."
"Ben and Ava Stewart. I like it." Casey nodded.
Brad gently took Ava from Ben's arms. "She has to eat buddy." He kissed her on the head. "She's beautiful just like her mother"
"Well she does have my eyes." Casey smiled a little and winked. Ava had Brad's brown hair and Casey's green eyes. The opposite of Ben since he had Brad's eyes and Casey's hair.