Yay it only took me one day to update this time ^. ^ (caution do not read if you don't like suicidal thoughts.) I don't own sailor moon and please review!

Usagi's POV

Usagi ran to her room, shut the door, locked it, and cried. She just didn't know what to do anymore. Mamoru always insulted her know. She was never smart enough, or mature enough. He never let her tell her side of the story, or if he did it was child's play. And he always compared her. To some one elegant, flawless, and talented. Michiru. Usagi knew Michiru was much prettier than her, she wouldn't deny it. Michiru could paint, play music, she could swim professionally, and she could do anything. She never messed up. She was perfect. Usagi was quite the opposite. The only thing she could do right was eat and sleep. She was a klutz. She messed everything up. What could she do right? Mamoru might as well take Michiru because Usagi would NEVER be on her level. Never on the level, Mamoru wanted.

"Koneko?! Open the door Koneko! I know you're in there! I hear you crying!" Haruka yelled from the other side of the locked door. Usagi felt helpless. Why would Mamoru ever love her? Maybe he never loved her to begin with. They were just forced together because of destiny. Because in their previous lives they were together. Well that would change soon if Mamoru didn't shape up soon. Because this is a new life. This isn't Serenity's life, this is USAGI'S life. And she was going to live it her way.

"Mommy?! What's wrong!? Why did you lock the door!?" Chibiusa yelled from the other side of the door. Chibiusa. She couldn't give up on Mamoru. Not now, not ever. Because she could never give up Chibiusa. She would give anything for Chibiusa. And if that meant her happiness, so be it. But then again. Usagi thought of something. She couldn't LIVE without Chibiusa. But if she wasn't living, that would be alright. Usagi wouldn't live a sad life without love, and she wouldn't live without Chibiusa. So she would end her life. Usagi stood up. She went to her drawer and searched. She found a pocket knife Haruka had given her in case she needed it for anything. She unfolded the knife and looked at it. She walked into her bathroom and looked at herself in the mirror, holding the knife, ready to end her life. Just then Haruka unlocked Usagi's door and looked for her. Usagi took the knife and began to cut her arm. She saw the red slowly run off her arm. She kept cutting, despite the fact that the bathroom door had open. Her future daughter stared at her speechless unable to say anything about what she saw happening. Haruka then walked in and grabbed the knife away from Usagi's hand. Usagi felt dizzy. She saw the floor get closer. She felt someone catch her. She heard yelling. She saw shadows of figures walk in. But most of all she saw the horrified look of sadness on Chibiusa's face. It made Usagi feel awful. But she regretted nothing.

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Haruka's POV

Haruka was worried about her princess after how upset she looked when Mamoru yelled at her. He wasn't the boss of her. She wasn't a little kid anymore, why would he treat her like that? Haruka was worried about Usagi. After she told Haruka about her failing relationship and she didn't know how to go on with it. Haruka just wanted to check on her princess and make sure she was ok. She went to enter her princess's room when it was locked. She could hear her crying from the other side. So she yelled her name.

"Koneko?! Open the door Koneko! I know you're in there! I hear you crying!" Haruka then heard her stop crying. Maybe this was good. She was calming down. Chibiusa then walked up to Usagi's door.

"What's wrong with Usagi?" She asked.

"Mamoru yelled at her, and she didn't even do anything wrong." Haruka stated. She wouldn't lie to the future Princess.

"Mommy?! What's wrong!? Why did you lock the door!?" The small pink haired girl yelled into the locked room. Suddenly there was movement. Haruka couldn't stand it anymore. She turned got a key out of the hallway cabinet and unlocked the door. Chibiusa went to check the bathroom and Haruka checked the room. When she didn't find her, she headed to the bathroom. She saw Chibiusa just standing in the doorway, like she had seen a ghost. When Haruka came closer she saw Usagi with the pocket knife she gave her. She was cutting her arm, and there was blood all over the pearl white sinks. Usagi's eyes began to close as she fell to the floor. Haruka was close enough though that she caught her. She yelled for help. Suddenly Michiru and Hotaru began to enter the room along with the other scouts soon after. Chibiusa just stood shocked, unable to do or say anything about the situation.

"Koneko! Koneko! Why would you do this!? Wake up! We need you!" Haruka screamed.

"Tenoh-San, please calm down. It's not good for Usagi-Chan. I need to take her vitals, and cannot do so with yelling." Ami said aloud. Haruka frowned at first but finally calmed down. Just then Mamoru walked in to find blood on Haruka's hands, since she was holding Usagi, and a fainted Usagi.

"What the hell did you do to her! " He yelled at Haruka.

"ME?! She did this to herself, thanks to you Asshole!" Haruka stood and shouted. Just then Chibiusa began to feel dizzy.

"Small Lady, A big decision is coming soon and you must ALWAYS believe in your mother." The voice said. Chibiusa couldn't stand it though and fainted. Almost falling to the ground but was caught by her best friend Hotaru.

"USA! USA FAINTED! Ami!" Hotaru yelled. Hotaru badly wanted to use here Saturnian powers to heal both her best friend and princess, but her parents always told her no since it made her tired and usually faint. Ami looked at Chibiusa and just told Hotaru she must have fainted due to the scariness of the situation.

In a short time Usagi was cleaned and bandaged. She was laying in her bed with supervision in case anything changed. It was about 2am when she first awoke since her incident. The one watching over her just so happened to be Haruka.

"Finally awake my sweet kitten?" She asked in a sexy voice.

"Uh huh." Was the only reply.

"Kitten, why did you cut yourself?" Haruka asked with all the concern in the world.

"I didn't want to live in a world without Chibiusa. But I didn't want to live knowing I would never find love and be forced into a relationship." Usagi answered truthfully. Haruka understood where this all came from too as Usagi said that. Mamoru. He made her fell like crap. And since she loved Chibiusa so much she HAD to stay with him. She wanted to love. Haruka wished her princess would always be happy. After everything she had been through in her lifetime. And previous lifetime. She out of ALL people deserved to be happy. She looked at her princess with a understanding smile and gave her a hug. But what shocked Haruka is that Usagi didn't want to let go. She held Haruka tighter and tighter. Then she heard Usagi whisper.

"I wish it was you I was destined to be with. I would never be sad again." Then Usagi rolled over and before she knew it was out cold once again.

Haruka couldn't believe what she heard. Her kitten wanted to be with her. Makoto then walked in and told Haruka it was her shift now. So Haruka left Usagi's room and went back to her and Michiru's room. As she got in Michiru snuggled close. But Haruka didn't go to sleep thinking about her. She went to bed imagining that the girl she was holding was her Kitten, and that they could be together.