Note: A little bit longer then two week... but still under a month! Yay! Anyway, I'll let you get on with the chapter!
Chapter 11:
It had been weeks since Levi had left and Damien couldn't help but feel a little lonely.
It wasn't that he didn't have fun with Lissa, it wasn't that at all. She was the best friend he'd never had before. He just found that not being able to talk to Levi left a big hole in his heart. A hole that only seeing Levi again would fill.
He'd never thought he'd ever find someone like Levi. Damien just felt safe with him. Just thinking of Levi made Damien's stomach flutter. Hopefully Levi would be back soon.
"Alright, I want you guys to read the next two chapters and make a sheet of the important dates in those chapters." The history teacher stated, looking over the small class. "Memorize those dates, there might be a quiz on them the next time I see you."
The bell rang seconds after he finished talking and the trainee's immediately headed out of the room. It was time for lunch for most of them. Damien had an appointment with the Healers before he could get something to eat.
He waited for most of the Trainee's to leave before heading out of the room. He still hated crowded places though he'd grown accustomed to them and no longer flinched when someone accidently bumped into him.
For that reason alone, Damien thought that when he became a full fledged Harold, he'd be one of the one's running circuit in the outer towns instead of in Haven. And he liked the idea.
With a start, Damien realized that he was going to be late for his appointment, and he ran the rest of the way to the Healer Collegium.
"Damien, how have you been for the past week?" Melric, the Healer that had looked after him when he'd first gotten there, asked with a gentle smile.
"I've been good. I'm a little more comfortable with people." Damien smiled hesitantly up at Melric from where he's sat down.
"I'm glad to hear that. Do you still have panic attacks?"
Damien shook his head. "I haven't, but I still keep my medicine with me just in case."
"That good! I'm sure pretty soon you won't need to worry about that anymore. Alright, I think that's all. I'm sure you're hungry, you should head to get some food. I hear they're doing a fry-day." Melric said with a grin at the teen. "Don't forget, same time next week."
With a nod of his head, Damien scurried out of the door. The path back to the dinning room was empty. It was a little weird, because usually there were people running around all over the place during this time but that might have been because of it being a fry-day. So Damien ignored the creepy feeling and when he was about to step into the building, someone called his name.
Damien froze, his heart pounding in fear.
Fear because it was his voice.
His voice.
Jared.
Terror closed in around him like blanket, smothering him. With a twist of his head, Damien lookedat the area behind him.
Empty.
There wasn't anything there.
Nobody in sight.
That didn't stop his heart from trying to explode out of his chest, it only seemed to make it worse. The fear grew as Damien's eyes darted around.
Nothing.
Why did he have to hear that voice?
Why?
Damien closed his eyes, squeezing them shut, his legs giving out underneath him so that he crumpled to the ground.
Why?
Why did he hear his voice? Was he here? Why?
Why?
Why?
Why?
It wasn't possible!
Fear.
Pain.
Humiliation.
It all came rushing back like a tidal wave.
The sob that had been working its way up from his neck, finally escaped, and Damien felt the tears trickle down his face.
He couldn't move.
He couldn't think.
He couldn't breath.
Why?
"Damien!"
Why?
"Damien! Breathe, Damien!" Arms wrapped around his body, someone whispered in his ears. "Breathe, Damien. I'm here. Come on, breathe for me..."
Finally, Damien's lungs expanded.
"That's it, Damien. Shhh, everything's all right. I'm here, Damien."
After a few seconds of sobbing breathes, Damien opened his eyes and looked at the person holding him.
It was Levi.
With a cry, Damien wrapped his own arms around him and buried his face into Levi's strong neck. Sobs once again shook his body.
They stayed like that for a little bit before Levi finally spoke, his fingers running soothingly through Damien's hair.
"Come on, let's go to your room." Levi whispered into Damien's ear, breath tickling his ears a little.
Damien nodded in agreement. He'd been lucky nobody else had seen his panic attack. He didn't want to be a spectacle for people to look at.
Levi swept Damien up bridal style, and walked carefully towards Damien's room. They made it there just minutes later.
"What happened?" Damien heard Levi whisper as soon as he closed the door.
Damien just shook his head, tears spilling freely down his face.
"Alright, you don't have to tell me. Just know that I'm here for you, Damien. I'm here for you and I won't ever let anything happen to you." Levi placed Damien on his bed, then knelt in front of him, placing his hand against Damien's cheek, making him meet his eyes. "I'm here for you."
Once again, Damien buried himself into Levi, clutching him close, hoping hat the other would never let him go, like so many had before him. People that were supposed to be family.
If family didn't love him, how could Levi...?
Damien felt Levi's fingers in his hair again, running through it softly. "I'll always be by your side."
Slowly, Damien's sobbing stopped.
He believed Levi.
About half an hour later, Damien sat up again, scrubbing his face.
"Better?" Levi asked with a small smile at him.
Damien nodded, smiling back. "Yes, thanks..."
Three Month's Later:
'I want to see you, I have something important to tell you. -Levi '
The note made Damien smile. Levi wanted to see him. They hadn't been able to see each other for a few days and Damien had been missing him. He couldn't wait to feel those arms wrapped around him.
Safe and loved. That's how he always felt when Levi was around.
"A note from your boyfriend?" Lissa's teasing voice made Damien blush a little.
He turned to look at her and sure enough, there was a twinkle in her eyes. "Ohh, a meeting? Is he going to propose?"
"A proposal? You're crazy, Lissa!" Damien sputtered, his cheeks getting even redder, if that where even possible.
"But he want's to tell you something important! That's the only important thing that I can see him doing!" Lissa teased, nudging Damien with her elbow.
Damien just shook his head.
"Well, go on! Better not keep him waiting!" Lissa pushed her friend towards Levi and Damien's usual meeting place. "I'll wait for you with Lan and Fiona. Better give me all the juicy details!"
Feeling a little lightheaded, Damien hurried away. Luckily, by the time that he'd made it to their meeting spot, the blush had left his face.
Damien shook his head with a soft smile. Lissa really did love to tease him.
Now to wait for the love of his life to get there. Damien couldn't help but smile warmly at the memories that came up. Holding hands, kissing, cuddling... He just loved being around Levi. He was perfect.
"Damien."
For some reason, the way that Levi said his name didn't sound right. It was cold. Levi had never said his name like that before. It was always with warmth and love.
"L-levi..." Damien took a step closer to Levi. The next words that left his lips made Damien freeze in place.
"I'm leaving you."
"W-what?" Damien's voice broke, eyes wide as he looked at Levi.
"I said I'm leaving you. I was just playing with you all along." Levi smirked, his eyes cold as he looked at Damien.
"B-but... You told me you l-loved me..." Damien felt his heart squeeze painfully. He'd thought he hadn't heard right. It couldn't have been right.
"Humph, I lied. I told you, I just wanted to play with you. Nothing more. I wanted to see how far you would go." Levi smirked. "You were so easy. But I'm bored of you now. Don't ever talk to me again, you piece of shit."
With those last words, Levi turned and left.
Damien collapsed to the ground, the tears falling as he watched the person he loved, walk away. His world was shattering, splintering, burning around him.
The illusion was revealed.
There was no love.
It had all been a lie.
A lie.
He should have known that someone like him could never be happy.
It hurt.
It hurt so damned much.
Why?
He wanted to scream, to trip his heart out, to take the pain away.
'I was just playing with you. You piece of shit.'
Why?
Damien didn't even notice when Lan, Fiona, and Lissa got there. He was numb.
So numb.
::Damien, talk to me!:: Lan yelled through their mind link.
Damien didn't hear anything.
'I thought he loved me...'
A lie.
A big fat lie...
'Nobody could ever love me.' Damien thought, his gaze locked on his arms. Scares still littered his flesh. They would never disappear. 'Who would want to...?'
Deluded. He was deluded thinking that someone could have actually loved him.
Never.
Nobody would ever love him. Nobody ever could.
Nobody.
::Damien!::
Anyone who did was just lying to him.
::Damien! Please!::
Damien closed his eyes and blocked the world around him out.
A/N: Thank you Kyouki no kitsune for the review! I'm so sorry it did take me forever to update. I agree with you there, we need more of them! I'm going to try to keep this one updated regularly. Try, being the word XD. My PM's aren't really working, otherwise I would have messaged you earlier!
Thank you too Wendums! Almost didn't see it! My chapters will be a bit shorter until I get into it again, I'm afraid.