What I Wanted
Chapter 11: Something More
Summary: sasuxsaku She weaved her bloody fingers in his. "We won't tell, will we?" "No, we won't, Sakura." This is our story, Sasuke's and mine.
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The cold, thick rain drenched the tombstone of Haruno Sakura, the girl who could always hold my attention and care.
My name is Uchiha Sasuke and tomorrow, I will be Orochimaru. I will be a tool to his mission in domination and destruction; I will no longer be the Sasuke of Konoha. A month ago, a pink-haired shinobi came in search of my soul in a state of a mental breakdown. She wouldn't know how much she meant to me; she wouldn't know I hadn't meant any of those words.
The water soaks my dark blue shirt easily, but years of agonizing training taught me not to shiver. It's okay to cry because no one will be able to tell the difference between rain and tears, but my pride holds me back.
If only I could have discarded that pride, then maybe Sakura might be next to me now.
My fingers graze the top of the well-polished stone. Suddenly, footsteps behind me rouse my attention. I turn around, ready to kill whoever has found me, but relax immediately when I realize it's only Uzumaki.
Vaguely, I remember how much this boy had mattered to Sakura, how they had been best friends, and how many times I had wanted to strangle him.
He approaches in a black uniform, almost invisible against the dark midnight surroundings. His eyes are fixed on me. "Uchiha…" he growls, drawing his knife.
However, my advanced and agile movements are far too fast for him. The weapon pointed at me is soon pricking his own throat. He unexpectedly relaxes. "Kill me."
I slowly lower the knife from his life stream.
The blonde shinobi smirks at me. "How could you kill Sakura, but not me? Do you know… Do you know… Sakura-chan never loved Sai or me back just because of you. She never even thought about us. But do you know what it's like for me to live in this world without… without…" The pain chokes his throat.
I look away. I know what it's like, but it'll be over in a day.
"What did you… do to her?"
"I gave her sanctuary."
"Uchiha, you're disgusting."
"I couldn't do any more."
"What was she to you?"
I can't explain it in words. The emotions are indescribable.
"I don't know."
Red chakra surrounds his form as he charges at me with three kunai looped in his fingers. I close my eyes. The rain is so cold, but heaven is so warm…
And hell is just warmer.
I brace my body for the impact of pain, but it never comes. I open my eyes tentatively. A mysterious boy has grabbed Uzumaki's wrist in a tight hold. Through the water and darkness, I can see something familiar about him.
I can see me.
Sai.
At the sight of my own cousin, I am dumbstruck. After all these years, I have absolutely no idea what to say. His soft, unseeing expression does not say anything to me. Barely audible over the water splashing over my feet, he asks, "Why are you so weak? Did you do it because you couldn't take you own life?"
"Hn." I narrow my eyes. No, because I couldn't think of an afterlife without Sakura.
"Sakura-chan… did she love you?"
Sasuke… Sasuke… Sasuke… I…
Sasuke-kun… I never… loved you…
"No." I struggle to keep my emotions inside. "Sakura…"
"Only looked at you," he finishes for me.
A lie, the truth. The line is slowly blurring.
"What did you do to each other?" Naruto asks dangerously.
I turn away from them.
"I don't know."
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"It's time, Sasuke-kun," Kabuto drawls lazily from the doorway.
Silently, I stand up. I promised myself I would go through this willingly without a struggle, but every part of my mind is telling me that this is wrong.
As I step into the gloomily dark room, Orochimaru hisses, "Sasuke-kun…"
Wait. Before I go.
Sakura-chan… What were we?
No one could ever understand our relationship. It was like siblings; it was like lovers; it was like friends; it was like enemies; it was like sinners. I never loved Haruno Sakura, but I couldn't draw myself away from her.
At least in heaven, we could be together. At least we would be freed from this disgusting, selfish world.
Please, make my passing quickly.
Sakura-chan… Maybe in the next lifetime… we can be innocent.
Maybe we can be something more.
The snake coils around me, releasing me from this meaningless life.
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Notes: Still don't get it? Me neither! Yay? This was supposed to be the epilogue xx;;
Basically, Sakura and Sasuke couldn't find what love really was. Sasuke killed Sakura because he knew he would die in a month at the hands of Orochimaru, and he wanted another chance with her in the afterlife or another lifetime. Also, he saw that she was already in a lot of pain because of him, so the only thing he could do was release her from that pain. Naruto and Sai loved Sakura, but she couldn't accept them because she was trying to find love for Sasuke. Nonetheless, she was still friends with them, which is why she bothered to say bye to them and why she felt that she had to read Sai's letter. And just because people like knowing the truth :D It's kind of an ambiguous ending, so you can analyze for yourself whether Sasuke and Sakura's relationship could be called love or if it was just attachment. Now that I think of it, it's really an interpretive story XD
Why did I make Sasuke so bad? Because he just looks like a bad, bad boy XD
Really over now? Yes. I have nothing else that I can write. HAHA. Sequel sounds good to me too, but unless I delete this chapter and make Sai bring Sakura back to life, I don't think that'll happen. HAHA XD Of course, if I get enough requests, I'll consider it ;D
Thank you for all the support even if you hated the ending with a passion :D
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The sequel, Something More, is out :D And no, Sakura and Sasuke do not magically come back to life XD I just started from right before Sakura dies, so yes :D Please enjoy!