Jasper stashed his things in my closet.
He was now drawing in the corner on the floor with my headphones in his ears.
I was on my bed finishing up my homework.
I smiled at him, he wasnt paying me any attention though.
He loved to draw. He didnt share his drawings either.
Neither did I so I guess I wasnt one to judge.
I couldnt help but reflect on the past in this moment.
He was so different.
He didnt judge me or criticize.
He didnt help me with my homework.
I wasnt a child I didnt need it.
He didnt crowd me.
He didnt poke me with questions every two minutes.
It was easy.
I knew I would become very close to Jasper in this moment.
I barely knew him now but it felt like I had known him all my life.
Sense I was reflecting the past I looked back on all the time I had seen Jasper.
He was cast into the corner.
Watching, reading or looking out the window.
At times he looked as if he wanted to be anywhere but there.
I thought then that it was about me.
That my smell was hurting him.
But here he was, in my room, breathing completely fine.
He looked stiff and smiled forcefully.
The only time he looked at peace was when Alice was at his side.
The way he looked at her...So much love. So much care.
He adored that little pixie.
I sighed.
I then realised I had been staring at him that whole time.
My cheeks went red and I quickly looked down to my homework.
Tap!
My head spun to the window.
I ran to it and looked down.
Jacob.
A shirtless Jacob with his arms crossed and a stern look on his face.
Why did I surround myself with boys that acted like my father?
I turned around to face Jasper and jumped as he was already directly behind me.
"Sorry darlin', I'll go down." He opened the window as he was talking.
"Bring me down with you." He looked back at me and nodded.
His arms snaked around my waist then everything was a blur and we were suddenly on the ground.
My feet werent yet though.
He slowly lowered me to my feet and made sure I was stable.
"So does Charlie know he's got a dude living in his daughter's room?"
"Shut it Jacob. What did Sam say?"
"He said it would be fine for your bloodsucker to come over the treaty line, (he looked at Jasper then) only when shes here."
"How much experience do you have with vampires Jacob?" Jasper said.
"We took down leech that tried to get Bella pretty easily. Why?"
"Just wondering is all. I'll be making patrols of Forks, mostly around Bella's house."
"So have you decided on how long you're visiting?"
"No, I havent, but I know for one thing I'm here as long as that bitch is. Not matter if Bella wants me or not. After that it's all up to her. As I've already explained." He said the last sentence slowly as if he was talking to a child.
I couldnt help but giggle slightly.
Jacob glared and his frame shook slightly.
"Jacob calm down. If you werent being such an ass, he'd more than likely be less of one, too."
Jasper smirked.
With a sigh Jacob said"Bella...Sam also told me to tell you something. As long as he's here..as long as your still conversing with vampires...You can't come back on to the reservation."
His words cut like a knife.
I never liked that bastard.
No, he wouldnt hurt me. No one would hurt me.
Fury.
How could Jacob say this to me?
How could he stand for it?
"What? Am I hearing you right? Your telling me I cant come back to La Push because of the friends I keep? That Sam,"I said his name like it was the dirtiest word imaginable."told you, my best friend, my brother, that I cant come back to the place that's my second home? What about Emily? His soon to be wife, that wanted me to be a bridesmaid. Seth? Leah? Sue? Claire, Embry, Quil? How will I see them?"
He was about to talk but I interrupted him. "How could you allow that Jacob? Your the fucking true alpha and you know it!"
"BELLA! Let me talk." I glared at him, fury making me shake, my neck and chest get red. "You need to decide. I thought you had but as soon as one of them come walking back into your life you completely switch. I had hope that you'd get mad once you got that letter, that once you'd seen him it'd be finally over. That you'd move on. But no, you invited the fucker to live with you. " He took a step closer, his body was shaking more. "You have to decide between us and them. Between me and him." He jabbed a finger in the direction of Jasper then.
"Calm down dog." Jasper growled out.
I glanced at Jasper who was completely still, staring at Jacob, no doubt throwing his emo calm at him.
"No." I spoke it final, and strong. "If you want to make me decide, then I guess you've decided for me." I took a step back shaking my head at him.
"Bella, Bells, dont be so dramatic!" His voice turned pleading then.
I didnt say a single word.
"I think she wants you to go now."
"Dont speak for her, fucker."
"Do not call him that. He was a name."
"Bella they left you! And that one! He was the reason!"
"No he wasnt! Jacob you dont know a fucking thing! You need to go now. You've lied to me! You said you understood, you'd let me live my life. What a joke! I knew it was too good to be true. "
"Leave now." Jasper spoke deathly qiute.
His eyes were jet black his body was in a partial crouch.
Fuck, fuckity fuck fuck!
"Jasper...breath. Calm down." I calmed myself then, I centered myself completely ignoring the dog a few feet away.
I used my creepy skill of pushing my thoughts of good things at him again.
Slowly, he stood from his crouch, his breathing started up again.
"I dont want to see you outside her house again. Consider the Cullens back. This is my territory now. Dont come unless your invited. "
I felt the fear he was pushing at Jacob then.
Jacob slowly backed away from us.
As if trying to get away from a bear while hiking.
"Oh, and forget it about me going over the treaty line. Try your hardest to get her on your own. Your people have no meaning to me. I only protect the girl, I warn you though, visitors will be assisting me. "
This shocked me a little.
Who?
Fear crepted into me.
Please not the Cullens.
Please.
As soon as Jacob was gone, Jasper grabbed me and flew back up the house and into my bedroom.
"How long till you graduate Bella?" He asked.
"Two and half weeks now." I replied.
"Bella, we need to leave once you graduate. You can't stay here. Tell your father you want to travel or something."
"He already knows that, it's my plan. I dont know what I wanted to do after..."I trailed off then.
Jasper was no longer in the room.
The door was open then it closed.
Jasper made his reappearance.
He was had the paper in his hands.
"Look." He threw the paper at me.
The headline read Serial Killer in Seattle?
The missing persons, apparently now they thought the missing people was a serial killer.
"Vampires Bella. Alot of them. They've found bodies too. What's left of them. There messy. Only points to one option. Newborns. "
"Newborns?"
"Right after we're reborn into this life, we're the most uncontrollable, the most thirsty and the strongest. We call them newborns. Looks like Vicky is making an army.."
"An army of newborns? How do you know?"
"Bella..I think it's time i've told you my past. "
I swallowed.
I knew it was different.
He mentioned his scars so I knew it was violent.
He took a deep breath. "I was born Jasper Monroe Whitlock in 1842, in a little town outside of Houston, Texas. I had three sisters and a younger brother. I dont remember their names anymore. My father owned a plantation, he earned it not inherited. We had slaves but they were paid well and we didnt have many. I still thought it was the right thing to do in joining the war. I was young when I joined. My mama didnt want me too. She begged me not too. My father was proud of me though. I wanted to make him proud. I was 17 when the war started but I was tall. They didnt say anything when I enlisted, I could always talk my way into anything. I quickly went up the ranks, I saw action but always survived. Albeit it wasnt much action. I made Major at 21. I was the youngest Major in the Confederate Army." He was smiling up until now."One night patrolling in 1864 I found 3 women..beautiful women. A blonde, red head and one of midnight hair. Nettie, Lucy and Maria. I stopped to help the back to civilization. They were very far out and I was worried...I heard them talking about who should do it. I didnt understand but I still wanted to help.." Jasper spared me from no details.
He told me how badly it hurt when he changed.
That she gave him people to eat.
He told me of how his first kill was a woman and how she haunts him.
He told me of how she twisted his mind into believing this was right.
How she made him kill and turn vampires just to gain more land to hunt on.
He told me of depressed he became.
He told me of Peter and Charlotte.
How he let them go because he was baffled at the emotion they shared.
How they came back for him a year later.
He ended the story with explaining what they were like.
"Peter...He's such a smartass. Silly fucker that one. You'd love him. Charlotte or Charlie, oh you remind me of her. Full of piss and vinegar. They found me after...tried to help. Didnt work much. I was thinking on calling them, to help me patrol the area and keep you safe."
I nodded. I had stayed silent through out his story.
He was looking at me.
Studying me like I was a science experiment.
"Why arent you frightened Bella?"
"Why would I be? You didnt know any different Jasper. And even then you wanted a way out of that life. I'm proud to know you Jasper. For you to be standing after all the hell you've been through. Jasper, you're the strongest person I know. "
He shook his head and stared into my eyes.
"Isabella how you keep surprising me."
I stared back at him.
I had such respect for the man in front of me.
"Jasper...If you got over that. You cant let...her..Alice destroy you."
"I know. I trully do know that, but how? I have nothing.. I just.. I'm not good at being alone. I can't be the third wheel with Peter and Charlie. You saw me earlier I didnt even know what to do in a store. I'm not supposed to be like this. I'm a badass fucking vampire that's feared when I'm looked at. " He stood up then and put his arm under my lamp.
I walked over a studied his arm. Crescent moon's covered his arm like the one on my wrist.
"Even if I did want to find someone, who would want me? Did you know Alice only wanted me to wear long sleeves shirts? That she couldnt look at me naked? Do you have any idea how awkward it is to do it with your cloths own?"
I couldnt stop laughing.
"What a bitch! Your scars Jasper, they define you it's true. But they just show your past, where you've been. There a road map. Just like mine." I took off my flannel and began to point every scar on my arms and the story behind them.
This contuined all night.
Me telling stories of my scars, Jasper laughing and commenting.
Jasper ranting about how Alice treated him...
He was openly saying her name.
He was talking.
He was angry.
I couldn't have been happier.