Disclaimer: all characters and also the plot belong to Rainbow Rowell and her book "Carry On".
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Feelings
Everytime I kiss him, he close his eyes and lay into me. He's whining for more, he pull me when my lips aren't into him, he pull me hard, hold me and I let him does it. I let it because I really want to keep kissing him. Because I like this, his cold pale lips curling into a smile, I like to feel him under me, trying to trap me between his legs, wrapped all around myself. I like the taste on my mouth after fighting over his tongue, after wining the kissing battle, after give him all I have.
I want this, I want him. I'm sure of it. I don't t want to argue, I don't want to worry about him plotting, about him trying to kill me, or to make a fool of me. I'm over it. I just want to have Baz here. In my arms, lying on this couch forever. Or until the morning comes.
I never knew that this was what I wanted, and maybe I'm wrong. Maybe it's just exhaustion; I was so afraid of him… Kissing him was the only way I could find to stop him from burning himself alive – if he's alive after all; he says he's not, but I can feel blood running through his skin, the warm coming from his chest - so maybe this, we kissing, doesn't really mean anything. But still, I like it. It feels right, like Baz is the place where I belong.
I don't know many things but I know this: I like kissing Basilton Pitch. I like the way he is now, the way he rise against me, looking for my lips, how he touch my skin, like it's a dream, the way the light that comes from the fireplace brights his grey eyes, make them more subtle, more kind. I like the way he is enjoying it, the way he is making me feel, how our hearts seems to beat together. I like it, even if I don't know what that means or what is it. I like to feel thinks for him, thinks that make me feel warm and cozy, delightful. I just like this better than fighting so I will keep doing this until it doesn't feel right anymore.
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