To those epic readers: thank you… just for reading my stuff. I haz full confidence! ;3
Disclaimer: Of course, I disclaim the copyright stuff... But, I'm always too lazy to go back and fix that in every chappy, so… Although, I DO own the story, of course… as usual… even I, the author, don't know where I'm going with it… -,-'
Tohru smiled up at the sky, which she could see visibly from her apartment window. It was a calm, clear day. What was good about today was that there was no school, even though she did enjoy learning sometimes, easy or hard.
Today was a Saturday. Kyo's favorite day…
She shook her head. Nope! No more sulking for her! It wasn't like her to do that, and her friends were beginning to worry. Of course, on a usual basis, she would be her normal-Tohru-self and say that nothing was wrong. Apparently, that wasn't the case. But, she didn't know why. She would've thought that her hormonal stage would be gone, but…
Then, something flashed across her mind. She gasped, running to her backpack. She had almost forgotten about that.
She pulled out the black and red notebook that Kyo had left in the hall and sat on her bed. She was debating on whether she should open it or not. But, she knew it would be rude to do so…
But, even so, she had to know how Kyo has been doing for the two years that they were apart.
She slowly began to open the cover, already feeling guilty, but she started reading the contents.
She giggled a bit when she saw the first page, which read, "Property of Kyo Sohma: You just TRY to read this... your arms are comin' off…"
She knew Kyo all too well. That was just like him to cover a secret up by threatening someone. That's always been his nature.
The first entry was short. His handwriting was slightly crude, and still needed some work. When she checked the date, she understood why. It was when he first joined high school in his first year. It was around the time when he and Tohru met. It read:
I was gonna kill that damn Rat today, but this girl popped outta nowhere and just hugged me on the spot…
Tohru giggled, knowing he was talking about her. She slightly frowned at the next part, but she understood that Kyo was just kind of startled and confused at the time.
That stupid girl! She ruined the perfect chance to beat Yuki…! I coulda beat that Rat, but no… She had to be there… just there.
I don't even know why I'm writing this stupid thing… I hate writing, but… Shishou said it was a relaxing thing to do… It's not.
At this, she laughed, and then continued.
Damn it… I'm just gonna hafta beat him later… I'm beat tired…
It ended there, and it had a slight pen mark that swiveled a little off the page. 'Guess he must've dozed off while writing…' Tohru thought to herself, smiling at the thought of seeing him writing and then pass out in the middle of doing so.
She smiled sweetly, humming to herself at the thought, and continued reading.
For a few hours, it was like that. Since she finished her homework ahead of time, she had all the free-time to read. Although she knew it was wrong to do, she couldn't seem to put the journal down. She had to read it.
Gradually, as she read, the entries got longer, had better handwriting, and seemed more open-minded. He seemed to be more relaxed when he wrote those newer ones. When she got to the most recent, she blushed. It read:
I gotta do it. I gotta ask her… But, what if she says no…? No. She won't say that… She's way too nice to.
But, I'm not even sure if it's safe to ask her… Akito, being the bastard that he is, would probably try to hurt her…
Damn… I can't let that happen.
I'm just gonna ask her. If the worst happens, at least I know I tried. If the best happens, well… I'm just spit-balling here. Don't really know what I'm doin' anymore…
I'll just ask. Yeah. Just… ask.
Below this, there was something scribbled out, and then he had continued:
Even if I get rejected, which I hope and doubt that I will, I will protect Tohru. I would give up my things, definitely that bastard of a father I have (my real father), my memories…
Tohru gasped a bit, but still kept on reading.
Damn… even my life…
Tohru, wherever you are… just know that I love you…
Tohru, anticipating what he had wrote next, she turned the page. When nothing was there, she blinked. It must've been his last entry. But…
She sniffled. She missed Kyo. And it was kind of sad just to read what he thought about her. Just knowing that this was his journal, it wasn't enough. She wanted Kyo. The one that loved her. The one that knew her. The one who had asked her to be his girlfriend two years ago.
It was a kind of sad event in itself. It just was.
She sighed, wiping a lone tear from her eye. She already vowed not to be sad around her friends again. She couldn't break it now…
She then noticed her cell phone sitting on the side table. At that point, she guessed, it was time to call Yuki for help. And, knowing him, he would be more than happy to help her in a case such as this.
(Hope it gets longer. Okay? Promise. It's just 3:00 in the morning… ;] )
THANKS, peoples! I'm done with that chapter! Now, immediately on to chappy TWELVE! (Fingers… cramping… SO much pain… but I'll continue! ;3)
~Indigo Kzat X