notes: seems that i forgot to post this up from tumblr. this is actually from back in may.

andante
She should have asked him go slower.

She regrets rushing.

He only comes once in a blue moon—when the heavenly bodies in the night sky align, the seven sister stars forming a grand chariot as if delivering the fortune and chance of bringing him from the war grounds back to her—so when he steps through the front door there is no time for words except for the ones unspoken between their lips.

Close, close, closer she breathes him into her lungs, brings him into her arms. They fall, fall, have fallen into bed, tongue tasting skin, hands tracing new scars. Questions turn to steamy exhales, answers turn into lurid moans—melodies coordinated with the rhythm of their bodies.

I've missed you. Come here. What happened? It's nothing. Why? Why not? I can't believe this. I'm so glad you're here. It's been so long. I know. Please. Don't stop. More. I want you. Oh my god. Yes. I love you. I love you. Hold on. Stay. Stay with me longer. I can't. I know. I'm sorry.

One second he's here in her arms. Then, in the next, he's out of her bed, and the next, he's at the door, and the next, he's miles away—it's all the same distance because he's not here in her arms.

He's gone again. And again, she feels, hears, sees the same things with his leaving. She lies in her bed, sheets growing colder. Her heart slows to a steady beat, her pulse growing faint in her throat. The rising sun slips through her open window, black sky growing blue.

She should have asked him to go slower—to breathe conversations while they were kissing, to trip and fall in love again and again before crashing into bed, to waste time at her buttons instead of ripping them apart with impatient hands, to press love into her like forever through his lips.

They could pretend the seconds were hours and the night was a year and that time would stop for the both of them for as long as they held each other as tightly as they would hold back the second hand of that clock counting down their time together.

notes: did i try too hard to incorporate jellal's canonverse magic into this au-verse? probably lol. you can say it.

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