A/N: So I had some mixed reviews for the last chapter, I mean that quite literally on a couple of them. I find it interesting that some of you out there are still pro-Nair. I thought that was a dead ship. (Note to readers - I have the capacity to ship anyone depending on the characters actions/the storyline even though my primary ship on the show is Chair who I believe is completely endgame). I hope you all enjoy this chapter and if it isn't what you want to happen, don't give up yet there's many many more chapters to go in this fanfic and secrets and lies always get revealed in the end.
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Set: post episode 1.10 Hi, Society
Disclaimer: I DO NOT OWN GOSSIP GIRL
Rating: T for mild language and sexual content
Gossip Girl: posts in bold -- narration in italics.
Blair lay in bed watching out her wide bay windows as the sun rose over the vineyard. She still wasn't certain how she felt about her dad taking up permanent residence in France with his lover but right now she was definitely thankful for the refuge that the chateau had become. In fact when her father had called her a couple of days ago to tell her about the chateau that he and Roman had purchased she would have probably had a meltdown if she hadn't been in the midst of her own personal crisis with Nate and Chuck.
One thing was for certain; her father had certainly been surprised when she had shown up on his doorstep late last night. Harold had been under the impression that he wouldn't be seeing his daughter for another week, when he and Roman would be visiting for Christmas but instead she appeared in France with plans to accompany them back to New York for the Holidays.
The look on Harold's face when he had seen her made her smile even now when she was deep in thought about the decision that she needed to be making in the semi-near future. Now that she was completely away from everything and everyone she actually felt as though her head were clear. The internal battle over which guy to choose had settled down to more of a pro-con-pro situation. She stretched her arms over her head as she wiggled on the bed allowing her mind to begin the consideration.
Nate, sweet lost Nate, who claimed that he wasn't lost anymore. The pros? It was Nate, he was the same boy that she had fallen in love with back in kindergarten when she had tripped and he had helped her up. He had told her that he liked her about five minutes later and when she had asked the quiet bronze haired boy why his response had been perfect, 'Because you look like a Princess.' He had promised that day to be her Prince Charming and he had been ever since; until he had rebelled against everything that they had ever planned together and slept with Serena. She shook the thought from her head, she was supposed to be thinking of the pros right now, not the cons. Nate knew her. There was a level of comfort there that was unparalleled. And now, he claimed he loved her and she truly believed that he meant it. Being with Nate would make both their parents so happy. It was what they had always wanted from their children. The last pro, being with Nate was easy; there was no extra work, no explanations, no raised eyebrows or unmet expectations. Both of them knew exactly what being together was like.
But then there were the cons. Nate had slept with Serena. That was the big one, the possible deal breaker. Nate had slept with her best friend while they were still dating and he had lied to her about for months. Once he had finally come clean, he had proceeded to sneak around talking to her behind her back. He kissed Jenny and told her he loved her at the Masquerade Ball thinking that it was Serena. All the while, Nate had been unable to tell her that he loved her as she stood before him about to cry on the night they had broken up. Then he had made false promises to her for the sake of his family only to break them on her birthday. And that awful scene that he had caused at the Cotillion had embarrassed her regardless of the fact that Chuck had orchestrated it and she had insisted that it was hot.
At the mention of Chuck she couldn't help but let her mind wander to his pros. They had a sexual chemistry that was unparalleled. A kiss from Nate was nothing compared to the electricity she felt at a simple touch of Chuck's hand. He had never denied his feelings for her always showering her with compliments and assertions of his affections. Chuck had always been a good friend to her, always respectful even when he was a womanizer and treated every other woman like they meant nothing. He considered her his second greatest critic after only his father and came to her with any idea or scheme, valuing her opinion above all others. The night she and Nate had broken up he had been there for her in every way; even asking her the one question he had never asked any girl before her; "Are you sure?" On her birthday he had been there for her once more even when she had pushed him away. He never gave up on winning her over, even resorting to manipulating his best friend so that he didn't lose her (ironically she considered that a pro now). He was willing to lose Nate for her and in Monaco he had put everything on the table knowing that there was a chance that he was going to get hurt.
However, just like with Nate, there were cons and these cons were big too. She didn't trust him. She wanted to, she really did but there was something holding her back. Chuck had never been in a relationship before, he didn't know how. What if he got bored after a couple weeks and moved on to some other girl? Chuck had slept with most of the city before tossing them out on their well dressed rears but she knew he wasn't that guy with her. Even so, Chuck was still capable of manipulating her. And even though she thought of his scheming to keep her as a pro it showed her that she wasn't exempt from that side of him and that scared her. What happened when she became just another girl to him? Chuck was unpredictable and could hurt her in ways Nate couldn't. Things with Chuck wouldn't be easy, they would be hard every step of the way. Everyone would be against them; no one would understand. Her mom had already made it perfectly clear that dating Chuck would not be acceptable and the girls at school would give her hell for it . . . unless she became the first girl to tame the ultimate playboy.
The pros and the cons stacked up for both boys both were so safe yet so dangerous. For Nate to be unable to say to her something that her heart so completely believed was true had broken her and Chuck had been the one to put her back together. Chuck who was so dangerous in so many ways could also seem so safe. He protected her, but so did Nate. She was supposed to be with Nate, according to every plan, every dream, Nate was the guy for her. But if that was true then why did she even have to make this decision. If she had been right all along, if she and Nate were supposed to be together, Chuck shouldn't even be a factor in the equation . . . but he was.
Blair was about to rise from her bed when she heard a knock at the door. "Yes?" She asked curiously. She had gotten in late so she had assumed that her father would wait at least another hour before waking her up.
Harold opened the door slowly and looked at his daughter stretched out on her bed. "I'm sorry for waking you Blair Bear but you have a visitor downstairs." With that he smiled and closed the door.
Immediately Blair's senses went into overdrive. Who had found her? She hadn't told a sole where she was going. Not even Serena knew. As she rose from the bed and reached for her silk robe her heart leapt to her throat and suddenly she knew who was downstairs. It had to be Chuck. Chuck was the one who knew her well enough to know that if she wanted to get away she would come here. Chuck knew everything about her; he knew her better than she knew herself most days and she knew him. And suddenly her heart was screaming at her, telling her that she had made her choice.
Chuck had come for her again; even though she had told him not to. He was that persistent, that sure that they were supposed to be together and he had found her in a place where she thought she was unfindable. Nate had never wanted her the way that Chuck wanted her and this was how he was proving that. But her heart's reaction was how she knew that her choice had been made. Of course her brain thought that it was Chuck but her heart wanted it to be him.
As she hurried down the stairs she couldn't help but start planning their future. They would work things out, who cared what anyone else thought? She was Blair Waldorf others didn't dictate her life, she dictated theirs. This was Chuck and he had come for her just as he had so many times before. He would sweep her off her feet, carry her up the stairs, and they would disappear under the covers of her bed for hours. She almost slipped running into the living room but still she was so happy that she couldn't wipe the smile off her face. Yet as she saw the person sitting on the couch she felt as though she had been hit by a truck; a really big dirty truck with a disgusting driver. "Nate?" She breathed as all of her sureness and certainty fled and she stood in front of the person she had never expected to see.
Chuck wandered down to Nate's cabana around twelve o'clock. He could hardly believe that he was still here in Monaco, that he had yet to break his promise to Nate and his promise to Blair and follow her to France. France wasn't that far away, he could be there in less than two hours. He would sweep her off her feet; he would show her that they were right for each other. But his promise stopped him. He wouldn't do that to Nate after giving his word that he wouldn't and Blair had asked for space. He had to prove to her that he trusted her to choose him all on her own.
That's why he was still here in Monaco. Even though he had almost gotten on a plane ten times this morning (he had even checked the flight schedule from Monaco to the airport nearest Blair's father's new vineyard), he always remembered that she had to know that she could trust him. So as hard as it was, he didn't get on a plane; he simply walked down to Nate's cabana. Maybe now they would have the vacation that they had planned and it would get both of their minds off Blair.
As he entered the cabana he immediately knew that something was off. The smell of pot was completely gone from the room other than the slight lingering in the carpet. Instead it had been replaced by a sweet scent that was distinctly female. If Nate had hooked up with someone, Chuck would kill him and be on the next plane to France.
Chuck's eyes began to dart around the room looking for any sign that a girl had been here or simply a sign of Nate. That's when he saw it; the note. He knew before he touched the paper what it was going to say. The second he had seen it his gut and told him. But he had to read it anyway; he had to know for sure.
Chuck,
I'm sorry man, I really am but I couldn't risk losing Blair and honestly I know you don't plan on keeping your word. So I've got to get to Blair before you do. She and I are meant to be together and I can't let you just use her and throw her away like you do with all of those other girls. I know you think you have feelings for her but I love her man. I hope we are still friends after this.
Nate
Chuck was seeing red as he shakily crumbled Nate's note in his palm. So Nathaniel Archibald had finally grown some and gone after Blair. How was it possible that Chuck had been duped by Nate? It wasn't, Nate wouldn't have done this by himself. "Madison!" Chuck shouted as he realized just who had planted this idea in Nate's head and just what that sickly sweet smell was. When there was no response Chuck kicked the side table over before slinging the lamp that had once been setting on it against the wall. "God damn it Madison I know you are still here. I can fucking smell your perfume."
At that Madison stepped out of the bathroom dressed to kill in lingerie that barely left anything to the imagination and heels that accentuated her shapely legs. "You didn't have to scream so loudly . . . yet." She added with a smirk.
Chuck's eyes flashed and he had her pinned against the wall in a second.
Madison took Chuck's force as defeat and arched her back to get closer to him. "So you want to play rough huh?"
Immediately Chuck's hold on her shoulders tightened. "Shut up you stupid manipulative bitch!" He spat not caring that she looked utterly shocked by his outburst. "Did you honestly think that sending Nate after Blair would cause me to want to sleep with you? Blair or no Blair, there is nothing between us and after what you've done we aren't even friends. So I am going to say this once and you are going to remember it." Chuck spoke lowering his voice. "You stay the hell away from me and maybe I won't ruin your life. But if you cross me again or so much as go near Blair, Madison Albright I will destroy you." With that Chuck pushed off the wall and walked out of the cabana. He was going back to New York to wait for Blair. He would figure out a plan there for how to get her back.
Madison was shaking as Chuck left her there. She had thought that Blair was the problem that if only Chuck realized that Blair was going to leave him for Nate he would know that she was the only one that was always going to be there for him. His last words resounded in her head 'Madison Albright I will destroy you' and all she could think was that he already had.
"What are you doing here?" Blair asked as she regained her strength. She would have never guessed that of the two boys Nate would be the one to track her down and so quickly at that. This made things so much more complicated. She had made her decision, she knew who she was choosing but now things were all messed up and it was Nate standing in front of her, not Chuck. "I told you that I needed space." She said hoping that he would turn and walk out the door.
Wha- wha- what did you say
Nate's stomach dropped at the expression on Blair's face. The voice inside his head told him something that he never wanted to hear. Blair had been expecting someone else. His first instinct was to turn and run. She didn't want him anymore. But there was another voice, that of a stubborn red head that was pushing him to stay. Maybe it wasn't too late to change Blair's mind about him. So he stood from his place on the couch bringing with him a dozen roses; half red for love and half white for forgiveness. "Blair, please just hear me out."
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Blair simply shook her head as she crossed her arms. "How did you even know where to find me? I didn't tell you or Chuck where I was going. My only instructions were not to follow me." It was ironic though, as she stood there saying that she didn't want to be followed she realized that she had very much wanted to be followed but not by Nate; she had wanted Chuck to follow her.
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
At this point Nate knew that he either had to go for it or back down. He wouldn't be here if he didn't want her so he did the only thing he could and lied. "Do you think that I know you so little that I wouldn't know you would be here?" Blair blushed, he could see that he had gotten to her so he continued down the same road. "Blair your father is your rock, he always has been and I know you; I know you in ways that no one knows you. I have seen Breakfast at Tiffany's enough that I can quote every line right here. I know that the reason that you like to watch movies over and over again is because you like to know how things end. So of course I knew where you would go."
I was so wrong for so long
Only tryin' to please myself
Girl, I was caught up in her lust
When I don't really want no one else
Blair could feel her breathing speed up as Nate spoke. When he finished she spoke softly. "I never realized that you cared enough to know." After the way he had treated her over the past year Blair didn't think that Nate could name her favorite food much less know that she would come here of all places in order to make her decision.
Nate took a step closer, laying down the flowers on the glass table. "Blair, I care. I care so much. I was I an idiot. I was such an idiot. I don't even know how I was so blind to how important you are to me for so long. You are the only one I want."
So, know, I know I should of treated you better
But me and you were meant to last forever
So let me in give me another chance to really be your man
At Nate's reference to his indiscretion Blair's system began to go haywire. Just as she was thinking that she could trust Nate, that if he knew her well enough to know where she was then they were really meant to be together, what he had done with Serena came crashing back into her psyche. She raised a hand to her hair. "You cheated Nate. I thought that I dealt with that back in September but I never really did. You had me; you had my heart but it wasn't good enough for you."
At Blair's anguished face Nate simply wanted to take her into his arms. "I'm sorry." He whispered taking another step closer to her; but this time Blair took a step back.
Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out, I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large, I'll do anything for you
So tell me girl
"Sorry isn't good enough Nate." Blair said as she shook her head. She could feel the tears brimming at her eyes and she knew that there was something that she had to say. "Do you know what that feels like? Do you know what it feels like for the person who has all of you to need more? Don't you realize that I blame myself for you sleeping with Serena? Or at least I blamed myself all semester. I was convinced that I wasn't good enough, that it was my fault and that's why I stayed with you even after you slept with her. Contrary to popular belief I am not delusional, I simply thought that if I was better then you wouldn't need her."
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Nate shook his head slightly. "I never meant to make you feel that way Blair, I was so stupid. I took you for granted and I am so sorry." He never knew. He thought that she had stayed with him because she loved him or maybe because her mom wanted them together; not because she blamed herself. He took another step towards her, reaching out a hand to brush away her tears.
As soon as she realized that Nate was reaching for her, Blair knocked his hand away. "You just don't get it Nate. I can't go back to that." It was strange how as she spoke Blair understood the truth of her words. "I can't trust that you aren't going to just decide that you're in love with Serena again."
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Nate felt a small fire rush through his veins at the mention of being unable to trust him and couldn't stop the next words that left his mouth. "You slept with Chuck." He said lowly as he withdrew his hand. "How do you think that makes me feel? It happened what two hours after we had broken up?"
Blair's mouth almost fell open. "How dare you compare what Chuck and I did to what you did with Serena." She spoke before turning and walking from the room. Nate couldn't be that delusional could he? He couldn't really think that what she did with Chuck was anything like what he did with Serena.
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Nate followed Blair out of the room, still angry. He knew he was treading on dangerous ground, Madison had warned him about this more than once; but he couldn't seem to stop himself. "You slept with my best friend and I've been trying to compete with him for your affections over the past week, yet you won't even give me a second chance." He had to move quickly to keep pace with her as she moved out of the dining room. Maybe it was different, him sleeping with Serena and her sleeping with Chuck but it was Chuck Bass, Blair was better than that. "I'm sick of it. I'm mean God Blair you gave your virginity to that perverted asshole."
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say
Suddenly Blair stopped walking and snapped to face Nate. "You're sick of it? I've been competing with Serena for your affections for close to two years maybe longer and we were actually together Nate." She could feel her voice cracking. "You were my boyfriend but you only ever saw Serena. I was throwing myself at you while you were sleeping with Serena, not to mention that you were telling her that you loved her when that's all I really needed from you. We were broken up when I slept with Chuck so don't even try to compare what I did to what you did."
How, could I live with myself
Knowing that I let our love go
And ooh, what I'd do with one chance
I just gotta let you know
Nate was still standing there shocked as Blair turned on her heels and walked up the stairs to her bedroom. He heard the door slam and the reverberations throughout the house. What had he done? He had let his anger and emotions at Chuck and Blair's 'relationship' get to him and now he had said things that weren't true, things that he could never take back. Shit, he had to fix this. With that he took off up the stairs and went straight to Blair's door where he began knocking furiously. "Blair, let me in please." When there was no response he knocked several more times allowing emotion to color his voice; there was no point in holding back now. "I was out of line Blair."
Blair approached the door. She wasn't going to open it because Nate certainly didn't deserve that after what he had said to her downstairs; but she could hear the sincerity in his voice. He really was sorry for what he said.
I know what I did wasn't clever
But me and you we're meant to be together
So let me in give me another chance
To really be your man
Nate could hear Blair breathing on the other side of the door and sighed slightly. That she had approached the door meant that she still gave a damn; she hadn't given up yet. "You're right, what I did with Serena wasn't anything like what you did with Chuck. You were the perfect girlfriend and I took that for granted. I got so caught up in Serena and wanting things that I was told I couldn't have that I lost sight of what was really important, you." Nate knew he sounded corny but for once he was speaking from the heart.
After a moment of silence Blair replied quietly. "Keep going." She couldn't help it; she could feel Nate's words and knew the truth of them. If he really meant them then maybe, maybe they could talk about this.
Nate could feel his heartbeat quicken as he laid his forehead against the door. "I broke your heart that night. I didn't realize that then, I was so self involved. I had just broken you and Chuck . . ." This was harder for him to admit than he had thought it would be. "I guess Chuck helped you pick up the pieces. And I think that's my fault."
Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out, I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large, I'll do anything for you
So tell me girl
"It's not completely your fault." She spoke softly as she sat down on the ground with her back against the door. "Yeah as a boyfriend you kind of sucked but I could have been there for you more considering what you were going through with your dad." It was difficult to make even the smallest concessions to Nate about their break up but she knew that as honest as he was being, she had to admit her faults as well or they wouldn't even have a friendship when this was all over and after everything that she and Nate had been through together she at least wanted that. "How is the Captain?" She asked after another pause.
Nate almost smiled at the thought. Sure his father was in a lot of trouble but right now he was exactly where he should be, getting help. "He's in rehab." As he said it, Nate had a thought, perhaps the closest he had ever come to a stroke of genius. "Do you think that maybe you could go with me to see him some time?" He asked with hope filling his voice; this was something that Blair would relish and truly he would love her company. "I mean only if you want to, the Captain always loved you."
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Blair smiled slightly. The Captain adored her and she knew it; all parents adored her. She was the kind of girl that every boy wanted to take home to meet mom and dad because she was every parent's dream daughter in-law; she had made sure of that over the years because heaven forbid she be less than perfect. "Of course I'll go with you to see the Captain."
Nate grinned slightly. Visiting his father would be so much easier with Blair by his side, everything always was so much easier with her by his side. Suddenly, he felt his body go numb, what if she didn't take him back? What if it was too late? And then he had to know the answer to the question that he had been avoiding. So Nate opened up his heart for Blair to completely rip it to shreds as his fingers pressed so hard on the door they were almost white. When he finally spoke his voice sounded chocked. "Blair . . ." He had to pause for a moment to prepare himself for the possible answer and as he did he could hear her breathe on the other side of the door quicken. "Why did you sleep with Chuck?"
Mmmm whatcha say (whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Blair sighed as she pressed her back against the door. Nate sounded so hurt and she couldn't deny knowing what he was feeling like. Even though she and Nate had been broken up, the fact that she had been with someone so close to him had to be devastating. "There were a couple of reasons." She started, taking a deep breath before continuing. "Chuck was there for me when I was completely destroyed after our break up. He treated me like I was the most special person in the world and the way he looked at me . . . I've never been looked at like that before. It was as though I was the only girl in the entire world to him and there was such desire in it. When I kissed him, I don't know what I was thinking; maybe I just wanted to escape. But when he stopped me and asked me if I was sure I felt wanted in a good way for the first time in so long. I didn't sleep with him to hurt you, even though that's what I told Serena afterwards."
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
"Okay." Nate said softly before repeating. "Okay." It hurt more than he thought it would. He half wished that she had slept for Chuck for revenge for his affair with Serena. That would have been so much easier to handle but this, this was deep and it was twisted and there was going to be bitterness left in the wake. To say that if he had treated Blair better, she wouldn't have slept with Chuck wouldn't have been a false statement and that didn't sit well with him at all. He had to make this right; he had to win Blair back. "I'm sorry, for treating you like I didn't want you for so long because you deserve so much better. You deserve to be wanted and desired and loved . . . And Blair I do want you. I want you so much."
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say
And then everything was silent. Nate waited with bated breath for any word from Blair but he didn't hear anything; he knew she must have been holding her breath as well. He was scared.
Blair couldn't stop the thoughts that were rushing through her mind and it began to feel like they were crashing in on her. So much had happened with Nate and with Chuck and now she sat here hearing words that she had dreamed of hearing for such a long time yet now she wasn't certain that that's what she wanted anymore. "Maybe it's too late for that." She responded softly.
Girl, tell me whatcha said
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Nate felt his heart plummet. He had just laid everything out there and it still might not be enough. He couldn't give up; he had come too far for that. "Maybe it's not. Maybe we can still fix this."
Blair shook her head slightly even though she knew Nate couldn't see her. She had made her decision earlier that morning. Just because Nate came here making grand gestures and even grander proclamations didn't change things, did it? "Nate I don't think that what we've been through is something that can be fixed. We can't just brush everything aside and go back to the way things were. I would never want to just go back to that; I wasn't happy Nate and neither were you."
Nate immediately jumped on what she said. This wasn't over, he wouldn't accept that. "So maybe we don't go back; maybe we start over." There was excitement in his voice at the possibility. "I'm not saying that we forget everything that we've done to each other. I'm saying we learn from it."
Tell me, tell me whatcha said
I really need you in my life
Cuz things ain't right, girl
"Like a clean slate?" Blair asked almost involuntarily. She didn't know what she was doing. This wasn't right. How had she been so positive that she was supposed to be with Chuck just half an hour ago then Nate came and had her thinking that maybe they could make things work after all. What was wrong with her?
"Like a clean slate." Nate said with a smile in his voice, he felt as though he was finally winning her over. "Except better because we do have history, we aren't trying to change any of that or erase it but we don't have to let it haunt us either." He was pleading with his voice, urging her to give it a shot.
Blair didn't know what to say. She still wasn't sure that this is what she really wanted. Nate was supposed to be a part of her past. "I just don't know Nate."
Tell me, tell me whatcha said
I don't want you to leave me
Though you caught me cheatin'
Nate was determined as he continued forging onward. "It wasn't always bad Blair. Remember the day we met. You fell down on the play ground and I helped you up. I was a goner the moment I sat eyes on you; you looked like a princess and I wanted to be your knight in shining armor."
Blair smiled as Nate remembered one of the memories she had recalled herself earlier that morning. "Actually you told me you wanted to be my Prince Charming."
"I still do." Nate said softly before continuing. "I remember the first time I brought you to the Vanderbilt house further upstate. We were like ten or eleven and you swore that it was a castle and one day you were going to be the Queen of it."
"I did not." Blair said laughing slightly.
Tell me, tell me whatcha said
I really need you in my life
Cuz things ain't right
Nate laughed as well. "Yes you did. You said it to my grandfather and I think he was ready to have us married then and there."
"Oh my God, I did." Suddenly Blair burst out laughing as the forgotten memory resurfaced. "Remember the day your mother walked in on one of our wedding ceremonies and gave you her ring to put on my finger."
Nate smiled. "You were in that white dress that you had worn as a flower girl for the Carlson Wedding and you put lilacs in your hair." He was so wistful at the memory. Over the years he had Blair had had several wedding ceremonies but that one memory seemed to sparkle the same way that that diamond had on her finger. Yet somehow the same diamond tainted the memory. "Our parents were always so serious about us being together, they put so much pressure on us to be the perfect couple." The realization made Nate indignant. "But it doesn't have to be like that anymore Blair. We could do this without them as long as it's what we both want."
Cause when the roof caved in and the truth came out, I just didn't know what to do
But when I become a star we'll be living so large, I'll do anything for you
So baby watcha say?
Blair was still smiling at the fact that Nate remembered everything down to the flower she had worn in her hair when he mentioned their parents' role in their relationship. Things were so much better before their parents had so much say in what went on between the two of them. There was a time when it was easy and comfortable, when they were happy. "Do you remember our first kiss? Not our first peck but our first real kiss." She asked thinking back to one of her absolute favorite memories.
Nate's grin widened. "We were behind schedule on that too weren't we?" He asked rhetorically. He and Blair had been a couple since kindergarten but their first real kiss didn't happen until they were in eighth grade. "We snuck into the Masquerade Ball just the two of us. Looking back I can't believe we didn't bring Chuck or Serena with us; we were always such a packaged deal. We were the youngest there by two years but with you in the dress you had donned no one would have ever guessed. Right at midnight I looked at you and I knew it was right, you were perfect and we were perfect and I kissed you. Plus you were damn hot." Nate said with a laugh.
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Blair smiled fondly at the memory. "Chloe Whitney pitched a fit when she saw us after we took off our masks. Much like I would have done if I had known an eighth grader managed to weasel their way into the masquerade. But I didn't care because it felt like it was just the two of us, you were my world. I'd always known that I loved you but that was when I realized that I was completely in love with you."
"We have to give our relationship another chance Blair. We owe it to ourselves to try." Nate said assuredly. As many memories as they had together, it couldn't be over. Nate had placed his forehead on the door once more and was surprised when he felt movement.
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Mmmm that it's all for the best?
Of course it is
Blair wasn't sure what she was doing but she thought she must be following her heart because it was pounding in her chest, reverberating throughout her body as she stood off the floor and opened the door to let Nate in. As they came face to face she could see the hope in Nate's eyes; she raised a hand slowly and placed it on his chest. "I need you to know that I have real feelings for Chuck that aren't just going to disappear."
Nate nodded slightly as he looked into Blair's eyes. God he loved her and if she loved him back then that was enough. "Okay."
Blair shook her head, she didn't think that Nate quite understood the gravity of what she was saying. She bit her lip, unsure of her next words."I was going to pick him Nate. I never thought that you would be the one to show up here like the knight in shining armor that you always promised to be. I quite honestly didn't think that you knew me that well. I thought Chuck did and I thought that what you and I had was too tainted to keep going. You changed my mind."
Mmmm whatcha say,
Mmm that you only meant well?
Well of course you did
Nate couldn't ignore the stab of guilt at her statement and the unexpected pain in his heart to hear her words but the fact that she had changed her mind made the rest unimportant. "We can deal with that. I never said that this was going to be easy. We can't go back, only forward." Blair nodded and he brushed her hair behind her hair.
"Only my boyfriend gets to touch my hair." She said with a slight smile tugging at her lips.
"Good." Nate replied softly as he leaned in and pressed his lips to her own. Relishing the feeling of rightness as their tongues mingled and his fingers intertwined in her hair. Nate pulled away slightly, placing his forehead against hers. "I love you Blair Waldorf."
Mmmm whatcha say, (whatcha say, whatcha say)
Wha- wha- wha- wha- what did she say
Blair smiled seeing something in Nate's eyes that she thought she might have never seen before. The desire and the longing that she had mentioned was missing was there and it was so wonderful. "And I love you Nate Archibald." She found herself tingling all over with a sense of perfection and a feeling that this was where she was supposed to be, that she and Nate had finally found a way to the place that they belonged. With that thought in mind she reached behind Nate and shut the door before bringing her mouth to his once more and pulling him towards the bed so that they could finally be together.
Gossip girl here. So from what I can tell all roads lead out of Monaco as all of our favorite Upper East Siders departed within a 24 hour window to parts unknown, or not so unknown since I have confirmation of sightings of both B and N at Charles De Gaulle and C making a connection at Heathrow to JFK. The only missing piece is our new friend M. Something went down to cause the UES Royalty to scatter and you can bet I have every intention of finding out just what it was.
xoxo
gossip girl
A/N: So most of you are probably a little angry right now. But regardless of which couple you ship have faith in them because nothing is 100% certain right now. The song I used was of course Whatcha Say by Jason Derulo (the version I was listening to was the acoustic version if anyone cares).
Reviews are always appreciated :)
xoxo
kate