"Kaylia…." Sam woke up screaming her name. Jack was startled out of his deep sleep, and immediately came to her side.
"Hey..hey…it's ok..its ok" Jack said as he cradled her in his arms.
"God Jack it's like I can hear her. She's out there, wondering if I've given up on her. I swear Jack, I just can't figure it out" Sam said hysterical in his arms.
"Sam you will. You're Samantha Carter." Jack said trying to re-assure her.
Sam just cried, and cried. Her emotions due to the pregnancy were heightened. 3 months had passed, and they weren't any closer to figuring out why they couldn't dial the coordinates. Pregnancy symptoms were on a all time high with Sam. The morning sickness hit her full force, and right along side it was the exhaustion. She tried to fight through it, but most times Jack would find her either throwing up in a pail in her office, or asleep at her desk. How he loved this woman, and where he thought he could never love her more than he did, he did now. The pregnancy wasn't helping the current situation, but he couldn't help but feel a certain amount of pride and amazing love for the women who was carrying his child. He held her close and hoped it would be enough for that moment.
Morning came and Sam was still asleep. Where most times she was up before him, lately she was sleeping in and he had to wake her. This morning, happen to be the weekend, and he was going to let her sleep as long as he possibly could. He was concerned about her constant nausea and vomiting so he took his Com link out side to the promenade, and buzzed the Dr.
"Dr. Keller…come in it's Jack" he didn't bother using his rank since he was retired.
"Come in Sir" Dr. Keller replied. "Hey you got a minute, like to chat with you about Sam" He said.
"is she alright?" she asked. She was concerned. Sam and her had grown to be good friends.
"Yea…she's o.k. .." he said but he didn't want her to hear him, cause she knew she'd stop him from going. She hated seeming weak to her crew.
"I'll meet you in your office if you don't mind" he said.
"Sure Sir..not a problem" she said. She didn't understand his hesitation, but she played along.
Jack made his way out of the room as quietly as he could. Sam was in a deep sleep, and he watched for a moment. She was so beautiful. How could I be so lucky, he thought to himself.
He made his way to the infirmary.
"Hey Doc" he said, looking around to make sure no one was around. He actually wanted Dr. Keller's advance on another issue.
"Sir…hey how are you?" she asked, "How's the Colonel?"
"I'm good…She's resting. She had a rough night, so I'm letting her sleep in" he said.
"Actually there was something else I wanted to talk to you about" he said.
"OH" she said, wondering what he could possibly have to talk about especially knowing how he hated Dr's and infirmaries.
"Well….for one I'm no longer, Sir.." he said.
She looked puzzled.
"I retired before I came to Atlantis" he said. Although she helped him accomplish that special night, she really didn't know what it entailed and she never asked, although she assumed. But she also knew they both respected regulations, they did for so long.
"Thanks for the clarification Sir…" she said. With Sam being pregnant he realized he needed to clear the air, before rumors and assumptions, which he was sure, were already swarming the facility.
"Right…sooo….." he really was bad with words, for he couldn't figure out what to say next.
"AH…so you'd like to know how to get that information across to the crew?" she finished his sentence and thought for him. She could see how Sam, had fallen in love with this man. He was really cute, when he couldn't figure out what to say next.
"Right" He said. He gave her back a smile, grateful that she didn't leave him to his own devices, on trying to put that thought in a sentence.
"Well, when Sam has an informal announcement to make since usually anything formal is sent out by letter and the like, she just gathers everyone by the gate" she said, hoping that was o.k. with him.
"Perfect….can you?" he swirled his fingers around as to try to say, if this was something she could do, but again, no words came out of his mouth…
"Can…I gather the crew at the gate?" she said, again smiling at his loss for words.
"Right…yes, gather the crew at the gate," he repeated, standing straighter as if to show some authority.
Dr. Keller gave him a smirk, and said "will do". He smiled back at her.
"Just chirp me, (pointing to the com in his ear,) when you're ready..I'm going to grab her some food, hoping she can keep it down this time" he said.
"Morning sickness still an issue?" Dr. Keller asked. She was worried about Sam. She needed to eat, and if she wasn't she would definitely need to be on some type of alternative, to make sure she and the baby were getting the nutrients she needed.
"Yea…not as bad, as the last month, but still there." He said.
"Thanks again, Doc" He said as he made his way to the mess hall, hoping Sam would keep down something.
Back at Sam's Room….
Jack brought her back some food, and she was able to keep it down.
"Thank you" she said. As she push the tray aside, as started to make her way to the shower.
"What you duin?" he asked, knowing very well the answer to that question.
"Taking a shower.?" She said softly. He followed behind, her with his hands on her shoulders. He turned the water on for her, undressed her and helped her in. It seemed as if she was feeling better. As of late she had not been able to focus on anything. Between the nausea and exhaustion it zapped her completely. Sheppard at times would have to fill in for her, and he didn't mind at all. He knew that Sam was at the verge of breaking.
Sam stepped into the shower closed her eyes, and just let the water hit her. She began to cry, and whimper.
"I feel like such a failure, Jack" she said as the water washed over her face.
Jack quickly undressed and came from behind her and held her. He didn't know what to say, so he said nothing. He just held her, like so many other times, and let her cry. She cried for awhile, but then her cries became less. She suddenly turned to face him. She looked up at him, "I love you soo much" she said to him.
"I love you Samantha Carter" he said back. She leaned up and kissed him. It was soft at first, but then it was a need of passion that crept up from Sam, that he hadn't seen in awhile. She needed him. She needed him to make her numb to all that she had to face, but alive in the current situation. Jack wasn't sure what to do at this point. Where he wanted her badly, (with everything that was going on, the love making had come to a slow hault) but he also knew she was filled with emotion.
"Sam…."he said as he pulled their lips apart.
"Are you sure…" he asked her. Wanting to give her the option.
"Jack….i need you… I need you now, right now" she said, as the tears continued to fall from her face.
He could see that it was not only a need sexually but it was a need of comfort, want, and security.
Jack began to kiss her again, this time deep and slow. He slowly walked her towards the wall of the shower so she can have something stable to lean on. He ran his hands up and down her body rubbing each breast, and caressing them with tender loving care. He sucked each one lightly then vigorously. Sam let out a moan of satisfaction. He had his hand between her folds, and massaged every part of her womanhood. Sam gasped at the enjoyment of it all. He could smell her and knew she was ready for him, but not just yet. He remembered how he enjoyed tasting her, and how she enjoyed his mouth, in her most inner being. So with that he slowing made his way down to her. She knew where he was headed, and an excitement built up in her belly. Jack took one leg, and carefully placed it over his shoulder so he can have easier access to her. Sam's hand were on his shoulder, anticipating his every move. Before she knew it Jacks mouth had totally engulfed her. His tongue was doing things, that were making her moan and scream his name, in enjoyment. Jack then sucked, her very core, and Sam, screamed his name. It wasn't long were Sam completely peaked, and almost collapsed against Jack's shoulder. He removed her leg from his shoulder, and held on to her. She was spent, but in a good way. He held, as he rinsed his mouth from the water behind them. She cried against him. And he just held her.
"I don't deserve you" she said.
"Quite the contrary, My lady..I don't deserve you" Jack said, as he placed his hand on her chin, and lifted her face to kiss her. He kissed her softly, and let her take control. If she had the strength to go further, he let her lead. And she did. Before long her kiss deepened. She ran her hand down his stomach to Jack's very manhood. She rubbed and pulled, wanting it badly. Making love in the shower was difficult especially with his bad knees, but he wasn't going to kill the moment, asking to get out of the shower, and to a more comfortable setting. So with that, the shower was a large enough shower, one of those were 4 people could fit in, so Jack slowly sat on the floor of the shower. He brought her close to him, and let her see he was letting her have total control. She slowly, with his help, made her way down to him, she positioned herself on to him, and slowly allowed him to enter her. Sam quickly gasped. Jack was well endowed. He allowed her to adjust to him, and then Sam, settled completely on top of him. She held on to him, and hugged him tightly. Jack can feel her pulsating inside, and didn't know who much longer he was going to last. He slowly made his way down to her waste, and started lifted her slowly, up and down, as to get her on pace, and she obliged. Before long, Sam was thrusting herself on to him. At one point Jack gasped. She was thrusting hard, with no reguard for pain whatsoever. He can tell this was her small way of just escaping everything that had happened, and was still happening.
He grabbed her waist, and started to match her thrust as best as he could in that position. Before long, they both reached a peak of ecstasy, and Sam collapsed into his shoulder and he into hers. They sat there letting the warm water of the shower hit them, and wash away the fluid effects of love making. She started to cry again, "I love you…I love you" is all she kept saying.
He didn't say anything. He just held her. She knew he loved her. And at the moment she needed for him to hold her. They sat for a moment, Jack still inside her. He lifted her softly to remove himself, and put her on his side. He got up then helped her up, and shut the water off. He then turned to her, grabbed her face and said "Colonel Samantha Carter, the women who has blown up a sun, the women who has saved this world countless time, the women that I adore and love, the women who now carries my child, You are going to get through this. You are going to find your team, and Kaylia. Do you hear me Colonel" he said.
She can see the intensity in his eyes. Suddenly something rose up in her.
She responded with two words. "Yes..Sir". She looked straight into his eyes, and said it again "Yes…Sir". Somehow, someway she knew she was going to find them. Somehow, she was going to bring them home.
Several Hours past…
Sam made her rounds. Her crew was so happy to see her out and about. No one knew she was pregnant. They just knew she was spent from trying to locate her teams and Kaylia. She sat in the control room, working with the scientist trying to figure out if there were other possible ways of reaching the planet. They could tell she had an extra spring in her step. Something in her eyes had changed. They knew all that she had accomplished in her years with SG1, and that she was not about to start giving up now.
Dr. Keller had let Jack know that she had made the arrangements for him to speak to the crew. He just didn't want Sam there. He knew it would make her feel extremely uncomfortable. So with that, lunch time was soon approaching. So he made his way to her office, where she was toying with simulations on her computer.
"Hey.." he said.
"Hey….." she replied
"It's almost lunch time. Feel like trying to eat something?" he asked. She hadn't had another bout of nausea all day. He was hoping that was a good sign.
"Actually…would you mind if you grab something and just head back to my room. I think I need to lay down for a bit" she said.
"Are you o.k.?" He said shocked that she was admitting she was tired, and wanting to rest.
"I'm fine Jack…I just know that I can't push myself like I was. It's not going to help me get my team or Kaylia back if I'm on my back in the infirmary" she said.
"Um….can someone please go find me Colonel Samantha Carter? I believe we may have an impostor in our midst" Jack said, with that all familiar smirk on his face.
She smiled, almost chuckled at him.
She got up, closed her laptop, and started out of her office.
They walked side by side, she gently leaned into him. They made there was to the mess hall grabbed some food, and got to her room. They ate together. She ate slowly, but she yawned through most of her meal.
"C'mon" he said, as he put his food down, put his hand out to her, and she grabbed it without hesitation. He led her to her bed, and helped her sit. He took her shoes off and she laid down. He came from behind her, and just held her. It didn't take long before her breathing became slow and heavy. Samantha Carter had fallen into a deep sleep. He held her for a little longer to make sure she was out completely. He then got up, and made his way to Dr. Keller.
He reached the infirmary.
"Hey you think you can round up the crew now?" he asked. She's resting, and I'd like to get this done sooner than later. Jack said. He was nervous, but for Sam's sake, and reputation, he had to clear the air, officially, for the crew. He owed them that much, for they truly respected and admired Sam.
"Sure Sir, just one sec" Dr. Keller said.
She leaned into her com, "Colonel Mitchell, come in."
"Go ahead, Dr." He said.
"Code, CSC"
"Understood" he said. Dr. Keller had already discussed it with Mitchell and they came up with a quick code, for when Jack was ready that was he needed to hear to proceed.
"Code CSC?" Jack asked.
"Colonel Samantha Carter?" Keller said. "I know corny but I just needed something to tell him quick, so he can round up everyone".
Jack, smirked, "Yea corney but…it worked' he said.
They both made their way to the gate room. Everyone began to gather. Sheppard let him know when everyone had arrived, and were all accounted for.
Jack quickly spoke before he lost his nerve.
"Hi All…..thanks for gathering. This won't take long. First off, I just wanted to publicly thank you all for how hard you have been working to get our teams & Kaylia home. Please know it has not gone un-noticed. Many of you are probably wondering where is Colonel Carter? She's fine, she in her room resting. Most of you have noticed she's been on edge, and stretching herself thin. She has since realized that, and knows that is not going to help our people get home. But also, I preferred she was not here, for this part…I wanted to let you all know, that the minute I walked through that start gate several months ago, I was a retired Air-force General. Yes, that's right. I have finally retired from the Stargate program." He said.
For a moment it was dead silence. Till Mitchell chimed in. "Congratulations Sir…." And he started to clap. With that others followed.
"Thank you, thank you…." He said.
"I just wanted it to be clear, that again, I am now retired, and have been retired, since the minute I walked through that gate, and Colonel Carter is no longer under my command" He paused and looked around. He knew Sam had a smart crew, so his repeat statement was for triple assurance.
"Now let's get back to work and bring Kaylia and our teams home" He said.
With that they all clapped. They all knew what he meant, and he was glad it was over with. He smiled at Dr. Keller and Mitchell and made his way out of the gate room, only to find a particular Samantha Carter leaning against the wall, by the hallway near her office.
"Um…Sam..Hi" he said. He was not prepared for her to be standing there.
"So….." his hands crossed in front of his chest..not knowing what to do with himself or what to say at this point " how long you've been standing there" he asked, so hoping NOT long.
"long enough" she said.
"Ah" he said.
"Listen about that…" as he pointed back to the gate.. "mhmm" she said. He couldn't gauge her. Where he always knew how she would react, Sam was not reacting. She just started walking to her office.
"Sam…I just….." Jack was at a loss for words.
"Thank you Jack…" she said softly. Although everyone knew now that he was no longer her commanding officer, she still had respect for him, so the use of his first name wasn't something she would do often in front of her crew.
"I've been struggling with that ever since we found about" she didn't say it since listening ears were always around. " I just didn't know how"
"Well there you have it's done then… You're Welcome" he said with his arms stretched out, which brought a smile to Jacks face and a smile to Sam's.
"OFF WORLD ACTIVATION OFF WORLD ACTIVATION" startled them out of there intense eye contact.
They both made their way to the control. Sam knew her manifest and no teams were scheduled to return on this day.
"Report" she quickly said.
"Colonel…I have no IDC Code, nothing yet" her crew member said. Suddenly three short burst along with three long burst hit the gate.
"What the hell was that?" Jack said.
And again the same burst hit the gate. The protective shield was up so nothing came through. All they heard were the burst. Then the gate shut down.
"Report, Airmen" Sam immediately said.
"Ma'm the gate just closed on its own" he said.
Sam immediately sat at the console, and starting running a diagnostic.
"Play back the audio of when those bursts came in?" she yelled.
The airmen quickly pulled up the audio, as Sam continued her diagnostic on the gate.
"short, short, short, long, long, long, short, short, short" and as if all on cue, they said "that's Morse code, that's an SOS" suddenly Sam got up, and looked right at Jack.
"Kaylia" they both mouthed her name but didn't say it out loud. Sam had a face of determination.
Over the loud speaker, she immediately chimed in " I need everyone to stop what they are doing and focus on the last transmission that just got came through that gate.. don't over-look anything. The smallest piece of information could prove to be key…" she said.
She sat back down at the controls and her hands couldn't move fast enough. Jack just watched her. Colonel Samantha Carter was back and in full force. She was going to get her team and Kaylia back. He never doubted it. He just let her work, and let her be the women he had grown to love and knew she wasn't going to let this defeat her.