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From Previous Chapter:

"What's wrong?" Kairi asked.

"Uhh…well good news, we're not going to have school tomorrow!" Sora exclaimed happily.

"There's something else…" Kairi looked into his eyes and read him like a book, "Your mom…is she…?" Kairi trailed off.

"It's flooding really bad…she isn't coming home tonight…" Sora mumbled with a blush on his face.

'Uh oh…things we're starting to get casual. What if something happens between Sora and I?' Kairi wondered nervously.

Growing
Chapter 11: 'Un-numb' my Heart

"Kairi?" Sora waved his hand in front of Kairi's very blank face.

The words echoed her head. 'Alone?'

'Alone?'

'Gees Kairi get a HOLD of yourself…I mean it's not like you guys are locked in a with a hungry lion. Calm down. I mean…it's not that big of a deal right? Nothing's going to happen. We're already acting normal as it is! What could possibly happen in one night…? Well besides the fact that your heart is broken. You know what? Stop whining about it! You're friends with him and that should be enough! So stop moping about it! At least…we're friends.

"Kairi!" Sora yelled and her attention snapped back to Sora.

"Yeah?" Kairi responded a bit nervously. She stared at her fingers and she felt like she couldn't feel them at first. 'I feel numb. I can't feel anything…not even my heart. Oh gosh this is stupid.'

"It's no big deal right?" Sora asked raising an eyebrow at her strange behavior, "Cause if it is…well you have no choice to be quite honest, I mean there's no way you can get home if it's flooding," Sora paused in a thinking position with his hand on his chin, "And to think I was actually going to go to Riku's party…"

"Riku was having a party?" Kairi questioned. She had no idea about this. And why wasn't she invited? Now she was annoyed. Her heart might've been broken, but the fact that her friend was throwing a party and she wasn't invited. That just made things worse. She was officially annoyed at Riku.

"Yeah…I was going to go, it was this huge party he was planning last minute. He just decided to have it since his parents were out of town and he wanted to meet some girls and umm…do stuff with them. He said that I was invited and to bring you along," Sora explained.

"Oh…so why does he want to meet girls again? He's like the most eligible bachelor in this school and girls would die to go out with him. Usually he's all picky about, which girl he goes out with. So why is he suddenly throwing a party for himself?" Kairi wondered.

"I don't know. I thought he liked Namine, but I guess that changed…" Sora muttered, but Kairi still heard and it clicked in her mind.

'Riku coming in from the rain depressed that night…Sora and I left early leaving Roxas and Namine alone…Namine talking to me today saying that she and Roxas are a couple…that's it!' Kairi pieced together everything.

"OH! Roxas and Namine are a couple did you know?" Kairi informed.

"They are? That explains why Riku's throwing this huge sex party with lots of alcohol. He's going the wrong way about it."

Kairi gasped, "No wonder why he didn't actually invite me in person! He knew I'd make him cancel and I most certainly wouldn't go to that! And maybe that's why Namine doesn't like him cause he's a spineless jerk that likes to throw…those…disgusting parties! Riku is my best friend, don't get me wrong, but he can act like a total lowlife sometimes!"

"He's heartbroken…" Sora pointed out.

"So if you were heartbroken you'd like to throw a party like that HMM? I better hope not cause if you do I'd kill you. You better not be doing that!" Kairi lectured.

"Okay mom calm down," Sora teased.

"I'm serious Sora! What do you do at those…those…" Kairi stuttered.

"Sex parties?" Sora finished.

"You say it so casually," Kairi retorted as she turned her head in the other direction to let Sora know she was disgusted and annoyed. Her arms were folded across her chest.

"Oh come on Kai." Sora reached out his hand to at least touch her shoulder, but she pulled backwards.

"Don't come on Kai me! For all I know you've been to those parties doing god knows what!" Kairi yelled. This was even worse. She was heartbroken. Her best friend, Riku, was almost considered a man whore. Oh and it seems that Sora enjoys attending these…'rowdy parties'.

"I've never been there and if I were to go to one I'd make sure you'd be with me," Sora tried to explain.

"Oh that's so much better. You'd make me go to that party so we could all get raped. Oh much better…" Kairi replied overreacting.

"Kai! I'm sorry! I haven't been to one okay? I'm not into those parties. I'm a virgin calm down," Sora apologized.

Kairi froze a second. Since when were they talking about virgins? This night was just getting even more and more strange. Besides the talk about the kiss, the rated R movie, and the talk about VIRGINS the only normal thing they talked about were…cookies.

This was getting pathetic.

'Oh this night will be declared AWKWARD night. I didn't even bring up this…oh my gosh…I think I'm going to pass out at this rate,' Kairi thought.

"I didn't ask if you were…okay forget it. The point is I want to crash Riku's party," Kairi explained.

"WHAT? Are you crazy? In this weather? It's going to FLOOD. We could DIE!" Sora pointed out as he enunciated on the important words.

"Oh please? You have legs! USE THEM. Plus we can swim right?" Kairi added.

"That's different!" Sora argued, "In a flood anything can happen and—"

Kairi cut him off abruptly, "It's not flooding yet on this part of the island. See?" Kairi pointed to the window to show that it was only drizzling, "Your mom called to say it was flooding where she was. She lives on the farthest island where they have the worst floods. For us it probably won't flood until like 3 in the morning. It's like not even 12. We'll be back before it rains hard anyway! Riku only lives like a couple blocks down!"

"Kairi, but—" Sora was once again cut off by Kairi.

"Come on Sora!" Kairi begged. She was running towards the door.

"We can't just go to a party we aren't invited to!" Sora argued again.

"Since when you were the voice of reason? And we were invited, stupid," Kairi asked in an annoyed manner.

"Kairi you're not acting like yourself…" Sora informed.

'Maybe because I don't feel like living the way I was. I never took a chance and so far where did I end up? Heartbroken and lonely. Don't tell me I'm not acting like myself Sora…' Kairi argued, but in her head.

"Well how do you expect me to act Sora? Sweet and innocent like I usually act? Cause if you want I'll prove how much I'm not like that at all," Kairi threatened. Maybe the whole heartbreak thing completely changed her.

Sora grabbed her forcefully, "You're not going," he commanded.

She wrung out of his grasp. Her other hand was on the doorknob, slowly turning it. She whispered seductively into his ear, "Catch me if you can Sora." Before he could stop her she was out the door and running to Riku's house. Sora stood completely shocked, but regained his composure soon and ran out the door to find Kairi. By the time he got out she was already out of view. After all she was a fast track runner, but that wasn't going to stop Sora.

He was going to find her no matter what it took.

On the other hand Kairi was running as fast as she could to get away from Sora. She had no idea why she was running to Riku's party in the first place. Maybe she just wanted some time to get away from the guy who broke her heart. Maybe she needed something spontaneous to do in her extremely heartbroken and boring life. Maybe, just maybe, this party was the one thing that would fill up that empty space.

Sure it was a disgusting party, but that wasn't important. The one thing that Kairi wanted was to do something spontaneous and running to a party in the rain, when a flood was coming was what she was aiming for. She wasn't going to Riku's for the party, but for the thrill of running to there. Did that even make sense?

Kairi wasn't even sure herself. She didn't know what she wanted. She was numb and she wanted to 'un-numb' herself if it was possible.

She had been running aimlessly and wasn't sure if she missed his house or not since it was dark, but she started hearing blared music and lots of noise coming from one house. That house was obviously Riku's house. When she finally got there she was sweaty and tired. She hadn't change into her pajamas luckily so she was in somewhat normal clothing.

Kairi didn't know what to expect when she opened the door so she closed her eyes for a second and slowly turned the doorknob to open it up. When she opened her eyes she noticed that nearly 3 guys had fallen on the floor wasted. Apparently they were leaning on the door or something and she had opened it, which caused them to fall. She rolled her eyes and walked in. She was looking for Riku and she was going to give him a piece of her mind for the hell of it. She might as well since she was here already. She walked off in another direction and disappeared into a different room.

x-x-x-x-x Meanwhile with Sora x-x-x-x-x

Sora had been running at top speed and finally he arrived at Riku's house. He was worried about Kairi. What had cause this sudden change in her personality? All he knew was that he had to get her back home before she did something she regretted. And if any guy laid a single hand on her…

He'd kill them. When he arrived on the doorstep he noticed 3 guys lying on the ground wasted.

'Well that's just reassuring. For all I know Kai is in here doing god knows what!' Sora started to panic a little, but remembered he had a goal that he had to accomplish.

'God Kai where are you?' Sora wondered. He saw a flash of reddish brown hair go in a different direction, but there were so many people dancing and making out that it blocked his view. He decided to follow that direction, but it was hard to push through a mob of people.

'I swear Kai if your hurt I'd kill myself.'

x-x-x-x-x Meanwhile with Kairi x-x-x-x-x

Kairi walked upstairs and decided to search their first since it was less crowded. She opened the first bedroom door to find Riku.

Instead she found 2 people doing…something, Kairi didn't even want to know what it was. But it seemed the guy and the girl was having lots of fun from all the noise they were making.

'That definitely isn't Riku! God why would he throw such a disgusting party?' Kairi wondered once again as she began to check every room.

Each door she opened just seemed to get worse and worse. What in the hell were people doing these days? It was disgusting and horrible. If Kairi had the time or if she actually cared about those people she'd yell them and tell them to stop screwing their own lives…

Too bad she didn't have the time to care at all.

There was only one more door left to check and Kairi was actually planning not to check it, but something told her she should. When she opened the door she found that it was crowded with lots of girls and guys. 'I thought the party was DOWNSTAIRS.'

She had to push her way through people, but when she got into the center she found what she was looking for.

There were a line of girls and Riku sitting on a chair, doing god knows what.

"Who's up next? Who can top what that girl did?" Riku declared as he stood up and cheered for the next girl. Kairi who was extremely mad pushed her way past 5 bimbo girls and stood right in front of him.

"Whoa Kairi. I didn't know you wanted to go—"

"Shut the hell up Riku," Kairi hissed, "I want to know why you're throwing a pointless party. Stop using people!" Kairi slapped Riku on the face hard. It left a red mark, but it seemed Riku didn't feel it. Either he was too drunk to notice, or he was so heartbroken he was almost as numb as her…

And she actually felt sorry for him for a second.

"You just don't get it Kai!" Riku retorted back angrily with his eyes shining with tears that were threatening to come. Riku, of course being a guy, refused to let anyone know he was close to crying so brushed them away quickly.

"I don't get it! PUH-LEASE. SAVE IT. You're screwing with your life and let me tell you, you should suck it up. I know you're all heartbroken that Namine and Roxas are going out, but if you were truly her friend, or if you truly loved Namine you'd be happy for her. So stop being a baby about it and start growing up. I don't give a damn about how depressed your feeling. That's no goddamned excuse! Either you end this party now or I call the cops," Kairi threatened her voice almost menacingly low.

"You wouldn't," Riku muttered. He was so drunk that Kairi didn't even think he'd remember what she said 5 minutes later.

"Oh, but I would," Kairi replied. She wasn't actually going to call the cops, but it still sounded good. She wanted to teach Riku a lesson. Kairi was about to walk out the door until he called her one last time.

"Kairi! It hurts…you know?" Riku croaked as he passed out on the floor from so much alcohol. Kairi wanted to go back and help her friend, but she couldn't. Riku would be okay anyway. He'd probably wake up soon anyway.

Kairi sighed heavily and turned back just to check on Riku…just in case. She saw him slowly getting up. 'Knew it.' Kairi told herself as she opened the door to leave. She rushed downstairs, but paused for a second as she realized how thirsty she was. She walked into the kitchen in search of water or some nonalcoholic beverage, but it seemed all Riku had was beer and vodka. She looked in the refrigerator to just see even stronger alcohol.

"What could one cup of this do anyway?" Kairi said as she poured a cup of some substance she didn't even know. It tasted a bit bitter at first, but it definitely satisfied her thirst. She then poured a second one and drank the whole cup. Then she took the cup and threw it out in the nearest garbage can.

'Oh man I feel a bit dizzy, but it's no big deal. At least I can still walk,' Kairi reassured. She was about to walk out the door when some guy grabbed her wrist.

"Hello pretty lady," the guy greeted his words all slurred.

"Excuse me, but I have to go," Kairi hissed at the guy as she pulled away.

"Oh what a feisty one," the guy 'complimented' as he grabbed her arm harder this time. Kairi couldn't pull away fast enough. This time Kairi kicked him hard on the shin. The guy moaned in pain and tried to grab Kairi again.

"Don't touch me got it?" Kairi shouted, but the guy grabbed her leg and Kairi screamed.

'Sora where the hell are you?'

x-x-x-x-x Meanwhile with Sora x-x-x-x-x

Sora took the shorter way upstairs since there were 2 ways to go upstairs on each end of this hall. Sora opened the first door he saw and saw Riku.

'Is he crying?' Sora wondered as he walked up to Riku. Riku was on the floor, wasted of course, and looked upset. There were a whole bunch of girls that were surrounding him.

"Riku!" Sora shouted as he ran over to him, while pushing the mob of people. As soon as the girls saw him they started winking at him and sending flirtatious smiles that made Sora want to gag.

"H-hey Sora. S-seems…you and Ka-kairi came to join the…par-party," Riku stuttered weakly.

"Kai was here? WHERE?" Sora exclaimed in worry.

"Sh—she just left…" Riku whispered. "God Sora I made a mistake you know?"

"It's okay. We all make mistakes. You can still fix it! Just close up this party and start fresh. Do you need help? Where the hell is Kai?" Sora demanded.

"I'm fine, but Kairi…uh…" Riku seemed to be thinking where she went, "She…went downstairs. I think…sh—she was going to leave. You know Sora? You have a great thing down there. You have to grab it before it's gon—" Riku started coughing and a whole bunch of bimbos were at his aid, but Riku yelled at them and told them to go home. Riku was going to fix his mistake starting now, but he was drunk so it might be a bit harder than it sounded.

"I have to go find her! Bye Riku!" Sora shouted as he zoomed downstairs. He searched around the living room, but it was so crowded. He then walked to the kitchen, but it was empty except for a couple of guys having a chugging contest. Sora zoomed past them and toward the front step. He smiled as he saw her reddish brown hair, but…

Some creep was grabbing her leg and he was not about to let that slide.

"SORA!" Kairi screamed as she tried to run to him, but the guy grabbed her leg even tighter and she screamed in pain. Sora ran over to her as fast as he could.

"HEY! LET GO OF HER!" Sora yelled as he kicked the guy in the stomach…hard. The guy got back up and tried to punch Sora, but he moved him and Kairi out of the way so he hit the wall. Sora turned him around and punched the guy in the face. The guy was so drunk that he just fell on the floor from pain, exhaustion, and the alcohol.

"Stupid bastard," Sora mumbled coldly as he kicked the guy for the hell of it. He then turned his attention to Kairi who looked just a little bit tipsy. Her steps looked a bit uneven. "Whatever we're going home," Sora commanded as he grabbed Kairi's hand and led her back to his house.

The walk back home was quiet and awkward. No one had said anything during the long walk. It was raining heavily now too. Kairi assumed that the flood was starting soon. 'God I love the rain, but right now I'm kind of hating it." Kairi thought as she followed Sora's path. While the rain fell on Kairi she couldn't even feel it. The tingling sensation she enjoyed wasn't there…because she was numb.

By the time they got into Sora's warm comfortable house, Sora just had to ask, "What the hell were you thinking back there?"

"What the hell was I thinking?" Kairi asked as she created a forced laugh. She slammed the door shut as she walked in.

"YES YOU. You almost got hurt. I told you not to go. If something happened to you then I would've—"

"Would've what SORA? HUH? You know frankly I don't care. Since when were you acting all calm and crap?" Kairi snapped.

"Calm and crap? You're supposed to be calm and sweet and—"

"Oh yes…sweet, innocent Kairi. Of course. Her life is so boring and where does this get her? All hurt inside. That's B.S. let me tell you. My life is too boring. Once in my life Sora, just once I wanted to do something spontaneous. Sure this wasn't the best thing to do. I didn't go to this party to meet people. I came here for the thrill of going there," Kairi yelled.

"WHAT THE HELL IS THAT? YOU KNOW BETTER THAN THAT!" Sora argued back.

"Of course little miss Kairi does. I'm perfect innocent Kairi. Well you know what I have a spontaneous side too, you know?" Kairi yelled.

"Yeah I know you have one! But right now isn't the best time to use it! You're usually so much smarter than this!"

"So your saying I'm rarely spontaneous. Gee thanks Sora," Kairi replied sarcastically, "You know what? I'll prove to you that I'm spontaneous!" Kairi screamed.

"REALLY HOW? CAUSE I DON'T THINK YOU HAVE THE GUTS TO—" Sora was cut off as Kairi pushed him against the door roughly and kissed him hard. She then pushed her tongue into his mouth and the next thing they knew…they were frenching and hell, they'd enjoy it.

And suddenly Kairi felt 'un-numb'. She felt her fingers, her toes, and of course…

Her heart.

Of course Kairi was drunk and had no idea what she was doing. It was sort of an 'in-the-moment' kind of thing, but they were both crazy and spontaneous…and most importantly…

In love.

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Wow that was a very dramatic chapter! I'm so sad to say, but the next chapter will be the last chapter folks! After the last chapter then they'll be an epilogue! I really had fun writing this so I just wanted to thank all my reviewers!

I hope this chapter wasn't posted too late! Hope you enjoy it folks!

x3,
LJ