Chapter 11 - Don't let fear hold you back

She didn't see anymore of him over the weekend; she thought he must have gotten the message and given up. It didn't surprise her not really; it was Lucas Scott, he was never one for sticking to one girl for too long. His longest relationship was two weeks and that was only because the girl was super hot and good in bed; but even her good looks and skills didn't keep him entertained long enough for a serious relationship. One thing Peyton couldn't put her finger on though was the fact he had tried and tried and tried with her, he didn't give up and move on to the next piece of skirt like he normally would. Maybe he's changed; but can people ever really change? she couldn't get him out of her head he had been plaguing her thoughts all weekend and she even had a dream about him which wasn't good. It was obvious she had started to fall for him but she didn't want to admit it to herself. She always told herself she wouldn't be like all the other girls who fell for his crap; she was stronger and smarter than that; and now she was going back on it."Great now I'm a hypocrite" she said to herself. She forced herself out of bed. It was Monday morning another day of school. Normally she would be complaining to herself about how early it was and how it was a crime to be out of bed at this hour but not today. Today she was nervous. Today she would probably bump into Lucas and after the other night and the fact that she was having feelings for him didn't help.

It was later that day and she had been at school for a few hours and had seen nothing of Lucas. A part of her was relieved it meant she didn't have to deal with what happened over the weekend but the other part wanted to see him, the other part couldn't stop thinking about him. She was on her way to the tutor centre and there he was with his usual group of friends by his locker. She couldn't help but look at him he definitely had an effect on her.

He was too busy with his friends to notice her. "So Lucas where have you been lately man?" Skills asked

"Oh you know I've just been busy"

"Too busy for parties with hot girls?" He asked confused.

"I just haven't been in the party mood lately guys"

"Okay you did not just say that what's going on; its like we don't even know you anymore."

"Just drop it Skills"

"Fine by me but you have a reputation to uphold carry on like this and there'll be a new king of Tree Hill High" He said as he walked off to his lesson.

"Rachel just the person I wanted to see" Lucas said leaving his group of friends at the lockers.

"Really? Lemme guess you want a quick fumble in the janitors closet"

"Not today Rach" he said laughing.

"That's a first" she said surprised normally Lucas would never pass up the chance to have his way with her. "So what can I do you for?" she added.

"Have you seen Brooke? She hasn't been home all weekend and I kinda need to talk to her about something"

"Oh didn't she tell you she went to a college party Saturday night and hooked up with some jock anyway she's been partying all weekend and she said she'll be back once her hangover has gone, so I would give her a few days you know how Brooke likes her drink."

"Yeah you're probably right. Thanks Rach"

She couldn't watch anymore from where she was standing it looked like he was flirting and it was killing her. I guess he really hasn't changed. She walked in the opposite direction unaware that he had seen her head that way.

"So I gotta go, see you later Rachel"

"Bye Lucas"

She arrived at the tutor centre and luckily no one was in there. She dropped the stack of papers she was carrying on the nearest table and then sunk down into a chair feeling sorry for herself. She was so caught up in her thoughts about Lucas that she didn't hear anyone come in and it was only until she felt a tap on her shoulder that she snapped out of her thoughts and back to reality. She turned round surprised at who was standing in front of her.

"What are you doing here?" She asked standing up putting papers away to keep herself busy and also so she didn't have to look into his eyes; those same blue eyes that always clouded her judgement and made her weak.

"I just wanted to talk to you" He replied following her around the room since she refused to stay in one spot.

"Yeah well I think we talked enough on Saturday"

"Come on Peyton I'm trying here"

"But why I don't understand why?"

"What?" he asked confused.

She finally stopped moving and stood facing him "You're Lucas Scott you could have any girl you wanted so why are you still wasting your time with me. Normally you would have moved on by now"

"Yeah well maybe I've never felt this way about a girl before" He replied shocked at his confession.

She laughed and it angered him "What is so funny?" he shouted.

"You don't give a damn about me you were all over that red head in the hall, face it Lucas you just want anyone and as many girls as you can get"

"That's not true" he replied.

"Its not?" she asked not in the slightest convinced.

"If you must know that red head is Rachel and she's my friend I was just asking her if she knew where Brooke was since she hasn't been home all weekend."

"Oh" she replied a little embarrassed.

"And there could be a dozen beautiful girls lined up for me but I'd still only want to be with a certain curly blonde" he said with a smile on his face.

"I don't know Lucas" she said suddenly nervous as hell.

The anger consumed him again. He had just poured his heart out to her and yet again she didn't reciprocate the feeling.

"You know what I think?" He asked his voice a lot louder than before.

"What?" she whispered as he moved closer to her. Her heart started beating faster at the sudden closeness between them.

"I think you're scared that someone might actually want to be with you"

"And why would that scare me" she shouted back.

"Because you want to be with me too" he replied in a softer and calmer tone. She opened her mouth to speak but nothing came out, she didn't know what to say. He stepped back and then spoke. "Peyton I"

She interrupted him "No…don't apologise you were right"

"I was"

"Yeah I want to be with you too Lucas" she whispered so scared at how serious this conversation had become. He smiled at her and moved closer to her cupping her cheek with his hand. He slowly leaned in and captured her lips in a passionate kiss. She moved her hand to the back of his neck as he began to lick the seams of her lips begging for entrance. She was nervous but eventually opened her mouth allowing him entrance. His tongue danced with hers as they both continued making out until air became a necessity and they had to break apart. They both opened their eyes and got caught up in each other. He smiled at her and she gave him a small smile back but he could tell something was wrong. It was weird he hadn't know her long yet he felt like he had known her for years.

"What's wrong?" he asked taking a hold of her shoulders and rubbing them to comfort her.

"I guess I'm a little scared, this is a new feeling to me" she replied and he smiled back at her.

"Hey its new to me too you don't have to be scared"

"I guess what I'm trying to say is can we take things slow"

"Sure whatever you want Peyt" He replied kissing her forehead.

"I love it when you call me Peyt" she said lightening the conversation slightly.

He laughed a little and then replied "I'm glad, I love it when you kiss me"

"Really?"

"Oh yeah did anyone tell you you're an amazing kisser?"

"Not until now" she replied as she leaned in to kiss him again.

AN: I just want to take the time to thank all of my reviewers I really enjoyed reading your feedback for the last couple of chapters so thankyou very much :) Hope you enjoyed the latest chapter please let me know what you think! I'll try to update asap!