Author's note: Sorry for the delay in writing this chapter been real busy lately with graduation and prom and all the stuff seniors have to do lol. But anyways this Chapter is going to be a songfic to Godsmack's Serenity you should look it up it's a pretty good song. First songfic so don't judge to harshly.

Chapter 11:Serenity

Beastboy had only been flying a few minutes now but was already flying over the city park. As he looked down and saw the shady tree that him and Raven had sat and talked under on their date.

As I sit here and slowly close my eyes
I take another deep breath
And feel the wind pass through my body
I'm the one in your soul
Reflecting inner light
Protect the ones who hold you
Cradling your inner child

Beastboy quickly closed he's eyes not wanting to look at anything that reminded him of he's love Raven. He felt the wind pass through him as he flew. He never liked flying much it would always remind of the time when he was a child and instead of protecting he's parents from danger he flew away in fear and watched them die. "It's kinda sad that I"ll stand and fight the worst of monsters but will run away when Raven rejected me,"said Beastboy to himself.

I need serenity
In a place where I can hide
I need serenity
Nothing changes, days go by

"I just need somewhere to go that I can have serenity and not have to keep thinking about Raven,"thought Beastboy. But no matter where he went as long as he's heart came with him so would the thought of Raven.

Where do we go when we just don't know
And how do we relight the flame when it's cold
Why do we dream when our thoughts mean nothing
And when will we learn to control

Beastboy didn't know where to go everywhere he looked brought up memories of Raven. The Pizza place where the titans had eaten countless times, the fair where he had won Raven a stuffed chicken, and the abandon amusement park where him and her rode the rollercoaster together on their date. Beastboy wonder maybe if he turned back that he could keep trying with Raven and maybe get her. He realized that was stupid he could never get her. The dream that he had a few night ago in Ravens room about Raven and himself getting married and having children was just a dream and just like Cyborg had told him "Dreams mean nothing".

Tragic visions slowly stole my life
Tore away everything
Cheating me out of my time
I'm the one who loves you
No matter wrong or right
And every day I hold you
I hold you with my inner child

Beastboy started having visions of he's tragic past of he's parents death that took away he's childhood from him. But he also remembered the feeling of relief that he had when Raven comforted him when he told her about it. He would always love her for helping him get over he's parents death and he's inner child would always love her too.

I need serenity
In a place where I can hide
I need serenity
Nothing changes, days go by

Where do we go when we just don't know
And how do we relight the flame when it's cold
Why do we dream when our thoughts mean nothing
And when will we learn to control

Even though he would always love her he thought that she would never love him so he kept flying and he kept flying. By this time he was over the ocean he saw a rock and landed on it and changed back to normal. "This is far enough for today,"he said "where I'll go to tomorrow is another story." Beastboy didn't exactly know where he was at he knew he had flew straight since leaving the tower but he had never been to this random rock before which was a good thing no memories of Raven it could bring up and the serene place was very peaceful.

Where do we go when we just don't know
And how do we relight the flame when it's cold
Why do we dream when our thoughts mean nothing
And when will we learn to control

I need serenity I need serenity I need serenity I need serenity I need serenity

He felt terrible for leaving the other titans without saying goodbye but it would have been to painful and they would have tried to stop him. "Goodbye Raven,"Beastboy said. Saying it was still painful.