Misunderstandings
I woke up, feeling horrible. I didn't sleep at all. Edward's words kept going through my mind 'maybe you to broken for me to fix.' Those words hit me hard, because it was what I was thinking at Erika's house. I needed to get out, I needed some air. So I decided to go for a walk.
I walk out of my room, and the only person who was out of theirs was Jasper.
"Hey Jasper, I'm going out for a walk." I said while I grabbed my shoes.
"Alright. Are you ok?" he asked.
"I'm dealing." I simply stated.
"You know I'm here for you if you need someone to talk to." he said. I felt touched that he seemed to care for me so much.
"I know. I don't need to talk right now, but if I do I'll find you." I said while I headed towards the door.
"He didn't mean it." he yelled as the door closed. I couldn't think about that right now.
I was walking down some street; I don't know what street because I wasn't really looking where I was going, when a car went speeding past me. It stopped and backed up once they realized who it was. There sitting in the drivers seat was Jose.
"Hey B, what's with the long face?" he asked.
"It's nothing." I said.
"Hop in. I know what you need right now." he said.
"Jose I'm not really in the mood." I said.
"Just get you ass in the car. It'll be fun." he said.
"Fine." I grumbled as I got in. In a matter of seconds, we were speeding down the street.
"You know I don't think the Cullen's would like it if you killed me in a car crash." I said.
"So you don't think they would like me doing this." he said while he took his hands off the wheel.
"Jose, are you an idiot." I yelled as I reached over and grabbed the wheel.
"Ha Ha, your face was so funny." he laughed.
"You're an ass." I said.
"Awww, Bella calm down I had my knees in place, nothing was really going to happen." he said.
"You're still an ass." I said, while we pulled up to the curb in front of Jose's house. "What are we doing here?" I asked.
"Were hanging out." he said.
We walked into the house and I was hit with all the memories I had here. They were memories of tears, and memories of laughs.
"You know, it still looks exactly the same." I said while I sat on the couch.
"Why mess with a good thing." He said while he threw me a beer.
"I don't know Jose; I kind of got in trouble the last time I drank." I said
"In trouble by who?" he asked.
"Edward." I said.
"Bella, he's not your father, if you want to drink then you can. Besides I think you need it." he said.
"Why do I need it?" I asked
"You look like you've been to hell and back." he said.
"Wow thanks, I feel so much better." I said sarcastically.
"Seriously B, what's wrong?" he asked.
"We got into a fight." I said quietly.
"Who you and Edward?" he asked.
"Ya."
"What was the fight about?" he asked
"Whether or not he could trust me." I said sadly.
"Why wouldn't he trust you?" he asked angrily.
"Why should he trust me? I mean I did lie to him about all of this." I said sadly
"There's more." he stated.
"How do you know?" I asked. I had always wondered how he could tell I wasn't telling him everything.
"The look in your eyes. You get that look every time you withhold information." he said.
"Oh." I said.
"Tell me." he said.
"He said that maybe I'm too broken for him to fix." I sighed sadly.
"He said that." asked Jose angrily.
"Jose calm down. It's not like he was telling me something we didn't already know." I said.
"What?" he asked.
"I'm broken we already knew that." I said.
"Ya, honey we knew that, what I'm mad about is that he said your too broken to be fixed. That just places your mind into a negative place. Bella look at me. You're not too broken to be fixed. Yes, you're broken, but you're healing yourself. Everyday you're stronger than the day before, and if he can't see that he doesn't deserve you." he said "Now let's have a good time, and not think about your ass of a boyfriend."
We just got done watching all three Godfathers. We were cleaning up the living room while listening to bad 80's music. We just finished when Jose got this creepy look in his eye.
"Why are you looking at me like that?" I asked.
"Oh, no reason, I just figured out what I want to do now." he said while taking a few steps closer to me.
"Jose, your scaring me, stop that." I said. I finally realized what he was doing a second too late. Jose jumped forward and tackled me to the ground. He was pinning me to the ground, but he was laughing, so he grip wasn't that well. I managed to turn him, and that's how it continued for about a minute. We were just having fun wrestling, when we heard the front door bang open. Jose was thrown of me and pinned to the wall by Edward. Alice and Rosalie were by side in a second.
"Are you alright Bella?" Alice asked, but I ignored her question and yelled at Edward.
"Edward, put him down." I yelled.
All the Cullens seemed to look at me as if I had a three heads.
"I said put him down." I said when I got next to them.
"Why? He was attacking you." Edward said.
"Dude, I wasn't attacking her, we were wrestling." Jose said coldly to Edward. "You would have known that, if you bothered to get to know her."
"Jose." I said while shooting him a warning glance.
"Put me down." Jose demanded.
Edward slowly let him out of his grasp. We were all quiet for a second, but I decided it was time to go home.
"I'll see you later Jose." I said while giving him a hug.
"Where are you going?" he said.
"Back to the hotel. " I said.
"No, no you're not going with him." Jose said angrily pointing at Edward. Edward just growled in response.
"Jose I have to go. I'm a big girl I can take care of myself." I said while walking towards the door.
"If you so much as say one hurtful thing to her. I'll make sure you don't so much as get a glance of her." threatened Jose.
Edward look as if he was going to reply, but Alice grabbed him and pulled him out the door. Once we were down the street from Jose's house I decided to get some answers.
"Any one want to tell me what that was about?" I asked shooting Edward a glare.
"We were helping you." Edward replied.
"I didn't need your help." I said.
"Bella, it was my fault. I had a vision of Jose tackling you and I panicked. I didn't know you guys were wrestling." Alice said sadly.
"It's ok Alice, I'm not mad at you." I said while I shot another glance at Edward.
"What you're mad at me. What did I do?" he asked.
"You had one of my best friends pinned against then wall." I said
"Well I'm sorry I wanted to protect you. I'm sorry that I care about you so much that I couldn't stand the thought of you getting hurt." He said.
"Now you care about me. What about last night when you told me I was to broken to be fixed." I yelled at him.
He didn't respond, he just pounced on me. He kissed me roughly, but not too rough to were he was hurting me. He managed to get us horizontal in the cramped back seat. He started to kiss down my neck, when we heard a throat being cleared. Edward ignored it, and kept lightly sucking on my neck. It wasn't until Edward was hit in the back of the head with a shoe that he stopped.
"What?" he asked annoyed.
"Just wanted to tell you that were here." said Rosalie sweetly.
Edward just grabbed the door handle and swung it shut. He turned to look at me. I could tell that he was going to kiss me again, but before he did I needed some answers.
"Edward you're confusing me with you mixed signals. One minute you telling me I'm too broken the next you're making out with me in the back seat of a car." I said.
"Bella, just because I think you're broken, doesn't mean that I don't still love you. I love you so much that I want to be the one that fixes you. I want to be the one you talk to when something's bothering you. I want to be the one you wrestle with." he said.
"Do you really not trust me?" I asked.
"Of course I trust you. I was mad last night, and I said things that I didn't mean." he said looking ashamed.
"Why were you so mad?" I asked.
"I felt like I was losing you; that you were slipping away from me, and I don't know I guess I just snapped." he said.
This time it was me who kissed him. When we broke apart, I leaned up and whispered in his ear.
"You could never lose me." With that being said, we spent most of the night in each other's arms.
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