A/N: OH MY GOD I AM SOOOO SORRY! I have been really busy with school and poop like that and I haven't updated in literally 3 weeks. I feel so horrible! I'm really sorry guys! Please don't hate me! I really hope that you guys still want to read my story after it has been so long! I will stop blabbing because its been so long so… Here is Chapter 11! P.S. I think you guys will ABSOLUTELY LOVE THIS CHAPTER. What? I didn't say anything…..
Disclaimer: I'm not clever enough to think of a witty disclaimer. I bet Veronica Roth is. SO I'M NOT HER AND I DON'T OWN ANYTHING
Tobias POV:
I was so close. So close. I was about to tell her what I have wanted to tell her for 5 years. I love you, Tris. Four (see what I did there) simple words, that I still can't say. We were so close. I could have kissed her right then and there. Why didn't I? I don't know how to explain how she makes me feel when she's near me. I feel like there is nothing I can say to her will ever let her realize how crazy she makes me. After everything that has happened in the past 2 days, there is only one thing that I am sure about.
I need to talk to Tris. Now.
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I've been pacing for hours thinking about what I need to say to Tris. I love you. Easy right? I run my hand through my hair for the thousandth time today. I need to go right now. Forget everything and just go.
I don't know when my feet started moving, but the next thing I realize I am standing in front of the dormitories. This is a bad idea. I have to do this.
Here we go.
I push the door gently open and step inside. I see Peter and his stupid little minions in one corner, and Will, Christina, Tris and…Al. I have a bad feeling in my stomach. Jealousy? I don't know…
"Tris?" I hear someone say. I look around and see that everyone is doing the same thing before I realize that I'm the one that said it.
"Yes?" I hear her voice. Shoot. What do I say? I really didn't think this through….
"Um…can I talk to you…?" She stares directly into my eyes as if trying to read my mind. She slowly nods. I want to jump forward and pull her into me and just run. I can't give anything else away to the other initiates though, who I honestly don't care much about. I start walking out of the room with her directly on my heel.
"Tobias?" I hear her whisper. I don't reply. "Tobias, where are we going? What's going on?" I stop mid-step. I speak in a low voice but don't turn around.
"I need to talk to you."
"Then…talk."
"Not here," I reply. I know exactly where to take her. I hear her grumble under her breath but follow close on my heels. My long legs make me walk much faster than her, but she is doing a decent job of keeping up with me. I catch a glimpse of the railing of the Chasm and begin walking down the trail. We finally arrive exactly where I want to be. I step closer to the water while she keeps her distance.
"Tris?"
"What?" She snaps. Why is she mad?
"Are you okay?"
"I don't know what game you're trying to play here, but it isn't going to work. I know I said that I would forgive you…but I don't know if I can. I still don't know what I did… unless you were lying when I told you…" Her voice trails off. I can't put this off any longer.
"Tris, I need to tell you something. I don't know how you're going to react…but please. Just hear me out." She looks up from the ground and into my eyes. How can I explain this with words? That's it. I can't. But I have the scars to prove it. I slowly begin to turn around and grab the bottom of my shirt while beginning to lift it up.
"Tobias, what are you doing?!" She sounds nervous. This is the only way that I can show her this though.
"Please. Just trust me." She seems to calm down a bit, but she looks hesitant. I pull my shirt over my head and turn my back to her. I hear her gasp.
"What happened to you? Oh my-Tobias! What is this?" Before I can say anything she races towards me and envelopes me in a hug. I stumble back a few steps before wrapping my arms around her waist. She pulls back a bit-I almost don't let her get that far. She puts her hand on my cheek and speaks in a very quiet, low voice. "What happened?" She searches for answers in my eyes.
"Marcus," I whisper. Her eyes widen.
"He did this to you?" This is almost too hard to talk about. But this is Tris. There's no one else I could ever imagine talking to about this.
"It was punishment. He would-" I can't do this. "It doesn't matter. Remember that day after school in the field?"
"How could I forget?" She looks sad.
"I never meant to hurt you." She scoffs. "Tris, I mean it. I needed to keep you safe. If Marcus ever found out about you…he would hurt you… I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I knew that he did anything to you."
"Why didn't you tell me sooner?"
"I didn't want you to feel sorry for me. It wouldn't have kept you any safer. The only way to protect you was to stop talking to you." She looks away from me. "It was the hardest thing that I've ever done." She looks back into my eyes.
"I don't know what to say…"
"You don't have to say anything… just come here." I pull her into a tighter hug. I don't know how long we stand there until I realize that I'm not wearing a shirt. She blushes when she realizes this as well. She starts to pull away when I grab her arm. Not tightly, but enough for her to stay.
"Tris… From the moment I met you, I've wanted to be near you. The best times of my life were with you. When I stopped seeing you, it hurt me more than you can ever imagine. I've been wanting to tell you this for years but… I love you." Tris hasn't taken her eyes off of mine the whole time. My eyes focus on everything about her face. Her eyes, her nose, her lips. I've never just stared at her lips like I have stared at her eyes, but- my train of thought is cut off by her lips meeting mine.
Tris POV:
After everything that he just told me, I can't hold myself back. He left to protect me from his father. He has scars from protecting me, and I've been trying to hate him for years. I move my head forward and gently press my lips to his. He seems shocked at first and then starts…kissing me back? He puts his hands on my hips and I smile into the kiss. I run my hands through his hair and stand there with him for what seems like hours, only pulling away when I need to breathe.
"I love you too," I tell him, and our lips press together again.
YES YES YES! I really enjoyed writing this chapter while chatting with my friends and watching House Hunters International…DON'T JUDGE. Did you love it or did you love it? AAAAAH. La La La La FOURTRIS La La La La La I just love them so much. One last thing and then I'll leave- THERE ARE 11 DAYS UNTIL ALLEGIANT. LIKE WHAT YES THIS IS AMAZING! ITS SO CLOSE YET SO FAR AND I NEED IT NOW! AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA! I apologize for my fangirling. BIYA (combination of bye and hiya: a word? Yes. ITS MY WORD) THANKS FOR READING! Review and PM me! Thanks ! BYE MY LOVELIES
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