Chapter 10 – Confessions and Wedding Prep

I was in the library after Warbler practice, studying for my upcoming test in History, but I couldn't concentrate on it. Millions of thoughts were running in my mind. They were about two people: Nick and Kurt.

Nick, my boyfriend, was everything I could possibly need. He's caring, loving, generous. Nick's all I think about when I wasn't thinking about Kurt. His eyes are as blue as the sea. His hair was brown like chocolate. His lips were the color of cherries. And he always smelled like the forest. I could stare at him all day.

Kurt, however, made me worry everyday. Ever since I slushied that jerk, he hasn't been very nice. He slams Kurt into lockers twice as hard, calls him inappropriate names, and slushies him whenever he has the chance. So far, I haven't heard anything from Kurt today. No texts or calls. It was so unlike him. It was a Friday night and not a single word.

This thinking made me give up studying. I packed my notes and textbook into my bag and went to my dorm. It was kind of sad that nobody made an attempt to talk to me today. It truly made me miss McKinley and New Directions even more. Even my boyfriend didn't bother to make a conversation. I went onto my laptop and go to my Facebook. Nothing was new, so I posted a new status that said:

I feel lonely. No one is talking to me. Why is everyone avoiding me?

Nobody commented, so I went to YouTube to play You Are Loved by Josh Groban. This song always made me feel better. Suddenly, I got a text from Kurt that said:

Meet me the Lima Bean 2morrow 10. – K.H.

Why would Kurt need me to go meet him at the Lima Bean? Did something happen? I put those thoughts aside as I got ready for bed. I was in my PJs when a knock at the door sounded through my dorm. I opened to it to see Shane.

"May I help you, bro?" I asked him, confused.

"Umm, can I come in?" Shane asked. I moved aside and he made his way to the sofa. He sat down as I shut the door and sat on the bed. "What's wrong?"

"What do you mean what's wrong? I'm fine." I lied. He could see right through me.

"No, you're not. You've barely talked at all today. What's wrong?" he asked again.

"I could ask you why you haven't talked to me in the last two days." I said in a displeased tone.

"Okay, I deserved that." I cocked my head quickly. "But I care about you. So, please, tell me." he begged.

"Do you know what I did when I lived in an abusive house at age ten?" Shane nodded. "I cut myself to get rid of the pain. I drank myself drunk to numb it. I smoked to mask it. I had to be put in the hospital twice: once for alcohol and once for loss of blood. It was the second time child services came to put me in a new house that they noticed the bruises. I hated myself so bad that I nearly committed suicide, but something stopped me. I don't know what it was, but all I know is I'm a broken child that the world wants to forget. Just face the facts. I'm a nobody. And with me being lonely today, it just puts me back in the spot that nobody wants me." I told him, crying near the end.

"I never want to hear you say you hate yourself ever again. You're not going to be alone because I won't let you. And trust me when I say this. You are wantable. You're important to the Warblers, New Directions, Nick, your family, and me. I love you as my sister." He walked over to gather me in his arms and let me cry. Shane rubbed my back and kissed my hair to try to comfort me. Eventually, it worked. "I'm going to change into PJs and come back to stay the night. No teachers are watching since it's a Friday night."

I just laid under the comforter after he left. I was about to go under when Shane came in. I made sure to set an alarm for seven-thirty to wake up and get ready for the coffee date tomorrow. Shane was getting ready to sleep on the sofa when I made any unpleasant noise. He got the message and laid on the bedside closest to the wall. Shane wrapped his arms around me and whispered good night in my ear.

*Glee!*

My alarm went off at seven-thirty. I woke up and tried to get out of bed, but Shane just held me tighter. Shane was such a cuddle whore. I shook him gently and groaned.

"Come on, Shane. I will treat you to a coffee if you wake up." I told him. He shot straight up at the word coffee. "Hurry up because we have to leave by eight." Shane ran to his dorm to freshen up while I did the same. He met me out in the hallway after we were done and led me to my car. Shane turned on the radio, which was playing Not Afraid by Eminem. It was a two hour drive to the Lima Bean. Kurt was already there. "Hey, Kurt!" I called.

Kurt saw me and waved me over to his table. I sat across from him. Shane introduced himself and sat. "Hey, Katie. Burt and Carole decided to tie the knot."

"Awe. I'm so happy for them. When is the wedding?" I asked.

"In three weeks. You're invited. Shane, do you want to come?" Kurt asked.

"Sure." Shane said.

"I'll talk to Blaine about it." Kurt said. Then he got into details like where it will be held, the bridesmaids and groomsmen, the reception, and etcetera. A half hour later, Mercedes texted, saying she was ready to go shopping. We were on our way.

*Glee!*

A.N. – Sorry for the wait. I had hit a little bit of writer's block. This is why I ask for ideas. Review and tell me what you think of it so far. Next chapter, Katie witnesses something that she shouldn't have.