Chapter 9: Hello

Raleigh, North Carolina

Saturday 10:30 am

His face is serious and sad, the doctors don't give him hope, he has been lying to Scully, this weekend he decided to go visit his mother again and be away from her, he didn't want to see her, she might found out, but the truth was being close to her makes him feel good, but his life is no longer in his hands and there is nothing he can do.

How could he tell her that now that they are acting like a "normal" couple he is dying, maybe that's why he did it, he needed to feel himself close to someone, he needed to calm his despair and dying sooner, the last attack had thrown him to the ground and it was her who found him and cared for him, she was so close to discovering it, but there were still secrets between them, maybe that's what happen with everyone, there's always secrets.

MULDER: Hey Mom, I brought you flowers, I know I'm coming often to see you, that must be weird for you, but I really miss you and I need you, I don't know what to do.

He puts the flowers on the grass while a tear rolls down his cheek

MULDER: You remember Scully right? my partner in the FBI, we have been getting closer, she understands me, she has always done it, she has protected me, she has made me a better person, is it okay to lie to someone to protect her? or am I being selfish?

The sad truth is that she makes me very happy, but I can no longer protect her, I can't even protect myself... I'm dying mom, I tried everything but nothing works, I know that if I tell her, she will try to save me, but I don't want her to risk her life for me, I don't want to distress her or worry her.

He looks around, but the cemetery is alone, he can speak freely

MULDER: I already ordered my gravestone, it's really a tombstone for the whole family, I'm the last one mom, the last Mulder. The funny thing is that I will die in the new millennium, at least I could witness it.

A sob escapes from his lips even he is trying so hard not to cry.

MULDER: I'm going to stay here for the weekend, maybe I'll come see you tomorrow again, I love you mom, I never told you, but that's right, forgive me for not being there.

He kneels and touches the cold cement of the grave, dries his tears and goes to the car, maybe this is the last time he goes to visit her after all.