Another chapter! I won't be posting till sometime the middle of next week because I am going on vacation for a few days with my family. Because my seme requested it, so I thought I would post one more chapter before I left even though I should be sleeping. Enjoy the chapter!
P.S :This chapter is still on the same day as the chapter before! There is a name of a book I made up, hopefully it is not real book. If it is, all rights belong to the author.
Reminder: Masamune is only going to be at the castle for one week, so most things will happen in one week, like the memories! After the one week, things will go over a longer time span.
Dedicated to Betrayal Knows My Name101! Love you! Snow Kisses!
Chapter 11: Unlock 2
Ritsu ran away as fast as his legs could take him. He didn't care where he ended up; just as long he was as far away from the library as possible. Where he ended up was the under the cherry blossom tree. He slid down the trunk of the tree and onto the floor. Ritsu was breathing heavily from the fast pace he ran.
He thought, 'what just happen? He grabbed my wrist and asked who I was to him! How does he know I am connected to him? How? How is that possible? Just how… Shouldn't he just forget me because now his life is completely perfect? He has a beautiful fiancée, still the demon editor chief of emerald and no longer…suffering because he loves someone, like when he was with me…"
Ritsu pulled his knees to his chest and propped his elbows on his kneecap and buried his face onto the palms of his hands. 'please don't play with my heart now… just please don't…I don't think I can take anymore pain than I do now…don't play with me Masamune…don't…'
Ritsu raised his head and stared into the midnight sky to think for a few seconds about what was going on in his life right now. After a while, Ritsu left for his room, deciding he needed to finish the rest of his work before going to bed.
During this time, Masamune was also thinking about what in the world just happened. He was sitting on a short bookshelf and staring out the window. He wanted to know the answers to what he saw. Why was that young boy in the memory so important to him? Was Ritsu the little boy in his memory? Why does the memory feel so important? Why did everything seem so nostalgic and full of longing? Why…?
Masamune stared out the window in hope of finding all the answers to his questions. He wanted to know. He wanted to know everything. Why did Ritsu run away when he grasped his wrist? What was he trying to say before he ran away? Why do his eyes always show pain and grief?
The raven kept staring out the window in hope for answers, but he couldn't find them. Giving up, he decided to read a book to calm his nerves. He sat down at one of the desks, pulled his knees up into his chest and began to read, but soon he drifted off into a peaceful sleep.
After finishing all his work for the night, Ritsu thought he should return the book back to the library; thinking Masamune was no longer there and had retired for the night since it was already very late.
Entering the library and walking down the aisle, he came across a scene that reminded him of high school. Another nostalgic and painful moment because it was another reminder of the precious past. It was Masamune sleeping with his knees tucked into his chest and a book lay wide open on the table. It was exactly like it was during high school, when Oda Ritsu used to stalk his Saga-senpai.
Ritsu stepped towards the sleeping man quietly and smiled lightly. Ritsu kept walking forward till he was on the opposite side of the table of Masamune. The brunet reached out to lace his fingers through the silky raven locks, but pulled back remembering they were no longer "together."
Ritsu shook his head and decided to back away because he thought he shouldn't even be doing this. Turning the other direction and walking away, Ritsu tripped over his other foot because of a wrong movement and dropped his book onto the floor, startling Masamune awake.
Masamune shot his head up at the loud noise and looked around to find the source. When he noticed who it was, he said, "O-Onodera?"
Ritsu winced and glanced back at him and stuttered, "M-Masamune…"
Masamune furrowed his eyebrows and asked, "What are you doing here?"
Ritsu looked down and stammered, "Uhh… r-returning the b-book I u-used…"
Masamune couldn't help, but to smile at how cute Ritsu when he was stuttering. Masamune shook his head immediately at these thoughts. He thought, 'what am I thinking? I can't believe I just thought my fiancée's brother was cute when he was stuttering! What is wrong with me? He is though… Stop thinking that!'
Ritsu was staring at Masamune curiously. He was wondering what the man was doing and going crazy about. He asked shyly, "M-Masamune… is t-there s-something w-wrong?"
Masamune looked up stunned because he realized he was doing this in front of Ritsu. He said awkwardly, "N-no… nothing is wrong…"
Ritsu responded, "Umm… okay… I'm going to go put this book back…"
As Ritsu was about to walk away, Masamune shot up from his seat and yelled, "Wait!"
Ritsu turned around and glanced at the man curiously. Masamune let a light blush dust his cheek and said, "I mean… wait please… I know we got off to a bad start considering neither of us really talked to each other at all. Umm… Why don't we get to know each other better?"
Ritsu wanted run at this moment, but to able to spend some time with person he loves was considered lucky, so he nodded his head in response to Masamune's question. He moved towards the table and sat down.
Both waited for the other to start the conversation, but no one said a single thing and let the silence that envelop them. Ritsu spotted the book and the table and realized it was The Fleeting Memory.
Ritsu asked, "Do you like this book?" The brunet pointed to the book on the table.
Masamune looked down and responded, "Yeah. It is very interesting. It conveys all the themes well. All the deep emotions of the main character are also portrayed wonderfully."
Ritsu nodded with a smile and said, "I agree." And the two began talking about this book and many others.
Ritsu forgot about the pain he felt for so long and enjoyed this moment he had with Masamune. The first time he had been happy in a long time. Masamune felt comfortable and thought about how he never felt this way before with Natsumi or his friends on Earth. Being with Ritsu felt different. Everything just felt so right.
Then unexpectedly, Ritsu blurted out, "Why do you love Natsumi-nee?" Ritsu just wanted to know Masamune's true feelings for Natsumi. He wanted to know why Masamune loved his sister.
Masamune was taken back by this sudden question. He asked, "W-what?"
Ritsu blushed darkly and asked once again in a timid voice, "W-why do you l-love N-Natsumi-nee?"
Masamune asked, "Why do you want to know?"
Ritsu started to chew on his lips. He responded, "I am just curious…"
Masamune felt like he didn't want to respond. Not because he was insulted in any way, but because he didn't want to. He wished the moment he had just now with Ritsu could last forever. He didn't know why, but he wanted this fleeting, joyful moment to last…
Ritsu noticed Masamune was not going to say anything and said abruptly and embarrassedly, "S-sorry! I didn't mean to be rude!"
"N-no. I just didn't know how to respond. I'll tell you…" Masamune was rather reluctant to say, but continued, "I guess her emerald eyes and brown hair drew me towards her… Her personality… kind, sweet, stubborn… For some reason, I love these qualities and characteristics about her… It seems almost right… I guess it is just my type and also she brought me out of my darkness two years."
Ritsu started to bite his bottom lips harder, till it started to bleed… He wanted to know why Masamune loves Natsumi, but he regretted it now… Emerald eyes and brown hair… Did he love Natsumi because she had similar characteristics to him… No… that could never be possible… Ritsu glanced at Masamune with eyes filled with pain and sadness. He thought the raven would not detect the emotions he felt, but Masamune caught them.
Seeing the emotions the other held, but for some reason he felt the same. Everything about the brunet seems to evoke feelings in him. Feelings he didn't know why he felt… Pain… sorrow… and… what?
Another forgotten memory flashed through Masamune's mind.
Masamune's POV
It goes back to my high school days once again with the young boy. He is saying to me that he would do anything for me because it was me…I respond with disbelief. The young boy gets embarrassed and tries to leave, but I stop him by… kissing him…When I pull back… I lock all the doors and close all the curtains…I pull him into an embrace and kiss him once again…He gets all flustered and apologizes because I remind him to open his mouth when we kiss… I ask him why does he apologize for everything he does…He tells me it is because when he's around me, he simply just can't think anymore…I shut him up by kissing him again and we proceed to make love… I can see it vividly…During it, I ask him why he loves me… He responds, "B-because you're you…" That is where the memory fades…
"Because you're you…" Those words resound strongly in my head… I want to know and remember this boy because I must have loved him so much… Where is he… Where has he gone… Is he Onodera Ritsu…
I glance up and stare at Onodera's face. He reminds me so much of the boy, except Onodera looks more jaded and in pain all time as where the boy in my memory is always embarrassed and stuttering… Even so, the two seem so similar… Are they one and the same?
I say as steadily as I could, "Did I love you…?"
Onodera's eyes widen considerably with fear and shock… He stares at me with those pained emerald eyes. Before I could say anything, he gets up and runs away. I try to run after him, but once he ran out of the library and turned the corner, I couldn't find him anymore…
Is he the boy to my memory? Did I love him? Is that why he always looks so pained around me and Natsumi…? Who is he to me?
Here is the chapter! Until next week! Review! Love and Kisses!
P.S My offer still stands to everyone, even if you have guessed! I find all your answers interesting that is why I hope you will all guess again! (Hint: The last chapter holds the answer!)
