[edit by joseannethibo]
Hi guys thank very much, I am really happy that you like this story and that you are still reading it :) and thank you for the reviews ;)
Arlenne0794 : well Santana will feel something soon!
Lengieslovex: oh yes, that's going to happen in some chapters :)
Lovesongnr: owh thank you very much, it's important to me to hear that :)
Heya-gleek12: 'Cause Alex is a baby, her baby.. I know Brittany is her wife, but Santana is scared about a relationship, she has to find herself again and to find in Brittany the person who found years ago and she is really close:)
Guest: thank you and I'm trying to be very fast:)
"Oh yeah, well, it's almost Christmas and we used to go at my parents house and pass the holiday together, us and our parents, Maribel wanted to know if this year we are going to do the same, she isn't sure if you want to do it since... Well, you know"
"Oh..."
"If you don't want we can understand" she says.
"It's not that I don't want"
"What is it?"
"I can't say no..." She interrupts me.
"Yes you can"
"No Brittany, Christmas all together will make you happy, I can't take it away from you"
"You are the most amazing woman in the world, you know that?"
"No, I'm definitely not"
"Yes you are, you could be so uncomfortable at my parents house, but you will come anyway because it's your family" she has tears in her eyes.
"Please Brittany don't start crying"
"They are happy tears San, I love you so much"
I hug her and we stay on the couch for a little and she fall asleep. I go upstairs to take a look on Alex and she's awake.
"Hey beautiful girl, what are you doing?"
"Play mami play" She gives me some toys and I sit next to her on the floor.
"Why didn't you call me or mommy when you woke up?"
"Play" she's too concentrated to answer me!
"No I want this one" I take one of her toys.
"No mami" She starts to get on me, she's sit on my stomach and I'm lying on the ground. "mami!"
"No I can't give it to you" I stuck put my tongue, I put down the toy and I start to tickle her.
"Mami stop!" She's so beautiful when she laughs.
"What is happening here?" Brittany says.
"Mommy" She's still sitting on me.
"What are you doing honey?" She smiles.
"Mami plays with me, here mommy here" Brittany sits next to me and Alex goes to her and kisses her on the cheek. We play together for about an hour...
"I have to make dinner, are you hungry pretty girl?" I ask.
"Yes mami"
"Do you want to help me?" I ask to Brittany and she nods. While we make dinner Alex is in the living room.
"How was work?" She asks.
"Really tiring, Jonathan was testing me. I don't know how many documents he gave me!"
"I always thought it was the opposite. You should gave him more work"
"Yeah, but we wanted to know if I could handle various types of practices"
"Ok, but don't tire yourself too much. I know that you feel better, but be more careful"
"Ok I will try... Oh, I should meet Rachel tomorrow"
"Yeah I heard, are you ok with that?"
"I don't know, you and Quinn told me that we are friends and that I love her, but I only remember her as the annoying girl from high school"
"Yeah, she told me something about what you did to her"
"What? I can't believe you stayed with me even after she told you! "
"Yeah, I thought about breaking up with you, but someone had to stay with you!"
"Oh really?!" I put my wet hand on her face.
"Oh no, you didn't!" I nod and we start to fight with the water, we are like kids!
"I give up, I give up" I say.
"You are always the first to give up"
"I'm such a loser!"
"So... You are going to meet Rachel tomorrow?"
"Yes, I have to give her a chance"
"Oh, you are such a sweetheart!" She says.
"I will take revenge!"
"Yeah yeah yeah, keep talking"
After dinner we go straight to bed, we're so tired. Yeah we sleep together again, well not sleep sleep, only sleep, but I can feel that we are more comfortable now.
I'm woke up by soft kisses on my face, initially I thought it was Brittany and I opened my eyes immediately, but it was Alex.
"Morning mami" she says.
"Morning my love" I kiss her forehead "Where's mommy?" She shrugs. She can't have gone out without waking me, Alex is here... I hear something in the bathroom, is she throwing up? I put Alex on the bed and I run in the bathroom. I open the door and Brittany turn toward me, she's naked, FUCK SHE'S NAKED! I immediately close my eyes and I try to get out but my face slams against the door.
"Fuck" I say, I put my hands on my face.
"Oh my god San, are you ok?" She asks really worried, she put her hands on my chin to look at my face "Your nose is bleeding"
"What?!" I open my eyes and she is still naked and now she is practically on me, I look up "Brittany you are naked"
"Umh?... Oh fuck, I'm sorry... You can open your eyes" She has a towel around her.
"Is it bad?"
"... Noo" She doesn't seem so sure
"Mommy?" She goes to open the door, but Brittany stops her.
"Umh honey, watch the TV in our bed, me and mami will come soon, ok?" She nods.
"What the hell Brittany, you said it wasn't bad, but Alex can't see me"
"Well it isn't that bad, but it's better if Alex doesn't see it"
"Can you do something please?"
"You are such a baby sometimes!" She helps me to clean my face and she makes the bleeding stop "Ok, you are all cleaned up, but your nose is a little swollen"
We eat breakfast and Brittany goes to work. I'm at home with Alex and I decide to call Rachel.
"Brittany, please tell me that she will come" she answers.
"It's Santana!"
"Oh, hi Santana, are you still coming?"
"Well this morning I had a little accident with the door and my nose is swollen, can you maybe come here?"
"Oh yeah it's not a problem, are you ok?"
"Yes I'm ok"
"Ok, see you later"
We spend all the morning at home, but we enjoy ourselves. We play every kind of game, I love my daughter. After lunch Brittany comes home...
"Hey San? Rachel is here" she says.
"Hey hello you two" I say, I see Rachel with a box "What is it?"
"I brought some albums of photo, so you can see how we were"
"Oh, it's perfect!"
"Where is Alex?" Brittany asks.
"She is sleeping in our room"
"Why is she in our room?"
"I don't know how we ended there! Did you eat already?"
"Oh you are so cute even if you are not together" Rachel says. Brittany looks down and presses her lips together. Damn Rachel has a big mouth!
"Can I see the photos?" I say.
"Yeah, are you coming Britt, you are in the photos too!"
These photos are crazy, I laughed so much... There are photos of me and Rachel when we did some jokes to Kurt, we wrote on his face, we put toothpaste all over his body, we made him eat things that weren't comestible, or we put his hand in the water to make him pee in bed. I have to admit that it must have been funny. There some photos of me and Rachel everywhere, we made funny faces, we were so adorable. Photos at parks, in the swimming pool, when we dance, in our house, at her house and in some photos there is Brittany, sleeping on the couch as she was sleeping on me with her face in my neck, she was cute, or us in the pool, I was on her shoulders, us in bed while we were in pajamas and all of us at parties, me, Brittany, Kurt, Rachel, Quinn and Puck and other photos. Seeing these photos almost makes me cry, we were all friends and we loved each other so much, I want to remember all of this.
"Are you ok San?" Rachel asks.
"I wish I could remember" I say. Brittany stands up and goes in the kitchen, leaving me and Rachel alone.
"We will figure something. Only cause you can't remember doesn't mean that we cannot make new memories"
"You are right"
"How are things with Brittany?" She asks.
"Well, we are friends"
"And is she ok with it?"
"I don't think so, but she respects it, I can't be more than a friend for her"
"Why? Isn't she pretty?"
"Yeah she's a beautiful girl, I don't know how I could find such a beautiful girl, but I'm starting to feel confident with my life now. I learned to live in this house, I have Alex, I work and Brittany is too much, and I'm a little scared"
"About what?"
"Now we are ok, we live together, we sleep in our room, we stay with Alex, if we start dating, it might get complicated cause I don't know her and if, if we break up it will be worse. We couldn't stay in the same house cause she would hate me"
"San when you came home that day I was so proud of you, cause you told me 'hey Rachel I met a girl today' and then you started to tell me what you did together etc, but I was proud cause you weren't the insecure girl from high school anymore. The one that was afraid to let someone in her life or that always thought of what could go wrong, but now it seems like you're still that girl. San you have to love and be loved, and Brittany is the one for you, I don't say it 'cause you are already married, but cause it's true San"
"Thank you Rachel"
"Ok, now I have to go"
"Ok, see you soon"
After she left I went to find Brittany, she was sitting in the kitchen staring at nothing. I didn't say anything. After dinner anything seemed ok, maybe she was just thinking... We have to talk about Christmas tomorrow and I will need help to buy the presents... It will be a long, long day!
Ehy what you think? :)