A/N - Man it's taken me till now to get my butt in front of the computer to write. First off, I've been sick. Bronchitis is a pain the ass. It's not that I'm tired of this story but it's aggravating me a little bit because there are a few different directions I want to take it into. I think I have a little bit of split personality issues *twitch* Oh yeah and be prepared to dislike me a little or something. :D - A/N
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Hans landed underneath a tree with a muffled 'thump'. As he paused, Seras got a moment to breathe, and felt fear lance through her. Hans' hands began to move once more, his fingers sliding down her belly and hooking underneath the waistband of her pants. She sucked in a breath as he touched her and she scooted away suddenly, shame burning on her cheeks.
Hans watched her in the darkness, dappled moonlight that shone through leaves sliding across his impassive features. But his eyes were blood red and they pierced through the shadows.
"This is mad, I don't understand why we started doing this. I barely know you, and I..." Seras paused in her ramble, right before she stated that she was a virgin. It was true, and she wasn't ashamed or proud of it, it just was. But reality had cleared the clouds in her head and reminded her that she definitely didn't want her first time to be on the ground in the woods.
'I'm...sorry. The moon...' Hans' words entered her head quietly, and she looked away. Of course he would be affected by the moon, he was half werewolf still. Seras' fingers dug into the wet, cold grass and she felt a painful heaviness settle in her chest.
'I need to run'
"Go ahead, I'm not keeping you here." Hans stood up and fixed his clothes hastily. She felt him pause as he moved past her, but then he was gone. Seras slowly put her own clothing back into place and walked across the small open expanse of lawn before retrieving her sweatshirt from the arbor in the the garden. She noticed that Hans' great coat was already gone.
Nobody was about when she went back into the Hellsing manor and made her way to her room in the dungeon. Flopping onto her bed, she couldn't keep her mind from what she and Hans had done. Her cheeks kept burning, and she smacked a hand to her forehead, trying to erase the images.
Standing up, Seras went to where she kept her CDs on a shelf, over a small CD player. It was one of the few things that she had insisted on, and luckily living in the dungeons meant that she could blare it as loud as she wanted. Not a lot got through the stone walls. Frowning, Seras bit her lip as she perused her selection.
She wasn't sure what mood she was in. She wasn't depressed, and she wasn't sad. She was a little angry, more with herself than Hans.
Laughing, she grabbed a CD and threw it in. The loud guitar licks of Cold's 'Stupid Girl' came flowing out of the speakers, and she tapped her foot and nodded her head to the music. The song sort of reflected how she was feeling about herself.
Pulling her sweatshirt off, she spotted a picture of herself with the Wild Geese, back when Pip was still alive. Taking the picture, she sat down on her bed and smiled fondly. Some of the men were making faces, and others hand gestures. Pip was standing next to her, and he looked scared although he had told her later that day that he had been faking.
"Pip?" Seras said suddenly as the last notes of the song faded. There was no answer, and she bit her lip harder, drawing a little blood. Pip had never ignored her before. She wasn't exactly sure how he could, seeing as he was her familiar.
Standing up, she put the picture down and went to find Alucard. He was in the library once more, this time reading David Copperfield's 'Great Expectations'.
'How appropriate', Seras thought to herself. Alucard put a long finger onto the page he was reading, and half closed the book as she sat down in a plush chair next to him.
Taking a deep breath, Seras tried to decompress. She loved the smell of old books, and most of these books were VERY old. Running a finger over a round globe of the world on the table next to her, she stared at the yellowed varnish and ancient cracks on it's surface.
"Rough evening, Police Girl?" Alucard spoke in a snarky tone, although his face showed no emotion whatsoever. Seras felt herself turning red again but shrugged nonchalantly.
"No, not really Master. Just the average." Alucard chuckled, a warm, low noise that slid down her spine.
"Oh really? So you constantly have dead Nazi's trying to molest your person? How ...inconvenient."
"You could feel that? How? I don't feel everything YOU do!" Alucard smirked and looked out the window at the moon that was dropping slowly in the night sky. The light made his skin appear even paler than normal, and his eyes seemed to burn out of his face like coal embers.
"Police Girl, you need better control. I do not want to be a part of your little...whatever it was. I will also tell you to use caution. You're entering a dangerous aspect of your relationship with the Nazi."
"Can you PLEASE call him something else? His name is Hans!" Another smirk, another slow slide of his eyes over her face. Maybe coming to talk to Alucard about familiars hadn't been such a good idea after all.
"W..Well I'm sorry Master, I wasn't planning on that happening." This time a chuckle erupted from the man sitting across from her. He leaned forward slightly, a lock of his long black hair falling across his face. Pushing it back, he gave her an amused look.
"That much I could tell Police Girl. I do admire your restraint however. Vampires are not meant for such relationships. We have to be on our toes at all times, especially us as Hellsing's hounds." Seras felt her lips compress and she crossed her arms around her chest.
"I don't want to be alone forever."
"Ah, ah...You have me Police Girl, and your Frenchman. We will always be connected. Actually I suppose you will always have the wolf as well unless he dies." Seras threw a sharp look at Alucard, but he just gave her an innocent smile. Well as innocent a smile as a blood sucking monster with a mouth full of white, sharp teeth could give.
"That's why I came to talk to you, Master."
"What, you didn't want to brag of your exploits? I'm disappointed."
"MASTER!"
"Very well Police Girl, do continue." Seras rolled her eyes and shifted in her seat, trying to get comfortable, but tonight was not a comfortable night to be sure. It was almost more than her tired brain could comprehend, but then again she had managed to deal with becoming a vampire and losing an arm, so she drew a settling breath.
"Pip's ignoring me." Alucard sat back and put his book down on the table between them. Steepling his fingers, he shook his head and sighed.
"Honestly I never thought I'd be having this sort of talk with you Police Girl. Aren't you old enough by now?" Seras scratched her head and smiled weakly at him.
"What are you going on about?"
"He's probably jealous you little twit." Seras sat back and absorbed that information. It really had never occurred to her that the Frenchman would be jealous. She sort of had always assumed that he would be there no matter what.
Taking her leave of Alucard, she tried to pry into her subconscious, asking for Pip in a reedy mental voice.
Either way, he wasn't answering her. Clucking her tongue, Seras found herself back in her room contemplating the stone wall as she lay on her bed. It held nothing wondrous to behold. She wondered what Hans was doing and if he was as confused as she was by everything that happened.
"I should have asked Master about werewolves and the full moon. I thought that was just a myth." Lazily she lifted her hand to her mouth and stripped the not so clean white glove off with her teeth.
Resting comfortably once more, she folded her arm across her stomach and closed her eyes, straining to see if she could hear Pip. After a few minutes, she heard his voice, softly singing;
'J'attendrai le jour et la nuit
J'attendrai toujours ton retour
J'attendrai car l'oiseau qui s'enfuit
vient chercher l'oubli dans son nid
Le temps passait court en battant tristement
dans mon couer si lourd
Et pourtant j'attendrai ton retour'*
Seras was silent, waiting for him to finish. His voice was husky, and sad. Her chest gave a painful squeeze, and she rubbed it absentmindedly.
"Pip, I was worried when I didn't hear from you"
'Ah ma belle, I've sensed your confusion all day, but really? Do you think I would stay around when you are getting it on with ze wolfman? Zut! Sometimes I think red is not your natural 'air color.' Seras felt anger stiffen her spine as she sat up.
"You don't have to be an asshole about it! It's not like I asked him to do it, and I told him to stop."
'Yeah, after fifteen minutes, petite sotte .'
"Y'know, I can TELL when you're insulting me, because you say it in FRENCH. I'm not bloody stupid" There was quiet, and then a deep sigh.
'Petite sotte, I swear you ARE stupid. I know that I never told you zat I...liked you, but I thought it was pretty damn obvious when I kissed you right before I died in your fucking lap!'
Seras felt the fight drain right out of her. She was dimly aware of Hans' presence in her mind growing stronger, and she knew that he was coming back from his 'run'. Blowing out a large sigh, she scrubbed her hand through her hair, disheveling it completely.
"Oh Pip..." she began, but the Frenchman cut her off. 'Don't 'Oh Pip' me, I'm a grown man, I can take ze truth. But I'll be damned if I'm going to sit here and put up with you and 'im going at it!' Seras colored, but she thought about what Pip said.
"You're right Pip. I'm sorry, it was a mistake. I do care about you, so much and it hurts that you're not here anymore...Well here in the solid standing before me sense. I miss you, you know." Pip didn't say anything, but some of the black tendrils from her 'new' arm wrapped around her and tightened slightly in a hug.
'I know ma belle, I miss you too. We'll work on zis...issue some more.' Seras felt better having his presence in her head back. It comforted her to still have something of him around.
"Pip what was that song you were singing before?" There was a pause, and an embarrassed feeling shot through her mind.
'It is called J'attendrai. Look up ze lyrics on ze computer.'
"Why can't you just tell them to me?" Another sigh, but this one was amused and followed by a chuckle.
'Because it is embarrassing. Wait until I go away for ze night.'
"Pip you're a bloody nerd, you know that?" There was no reply, and Seras knew that Pip was done talking about it for now. Lying back on her bed, she was almost asleep when there was a short knock on her door.
"It's open!" she called, feeling too lazy to get up and answer it. Hans walked in, and all of her warm, comfy feelings vanished like a pricked balloon. Shooting into a sitting position, she waited to see what he wanted. His eyes were wary, and his hair was windswept. Most of his face was hidden in the folds of the collar of his coat.
'I am sorry about earlier, I guess I should explain about the moon...'
"Look, you don't have to say anything okay? It was a mistake, it won't happen again. We both just sort of lost our heads or something for a few minutes." Seras tried to laugh and wave him off, but after she finished talking, he stared at her so long it made her extremely uncomfortable and she found herself fidgeting.
"What?" she finally snapped after what seemed like forever. The German's face remained impassive but his voice was a little annoyed.
'The moon sometimes makes verevolves do things that ve normally wouldn't do vhen it is full. I apologize for taking advantage of you, und you are right, it von't happen again.'
With that, Hans turned around and strode out of the room, almost slamming the door. Seras sat on her bed, gaping a little. Then she dropped her head into her hands and let out a frustrated growl. Her brain hurt. She didn't know how she felt about Pip still, and she REALLY didn't know how she felt about Hans. But she figured it was damn time to figure it out before she went crazy.
Alucard suddenly materialized in her room, and Seras jumped a foot in the air, before screeching about him needing to use the door.
"What if I'd been changing? Don't tell me you're becoming a bleeding pervert?" Alucard gave her a long, level look before cocking his head to one side and giving her a cheeky, tooth-filled grin.
"Don't worry Police Girl, I'm not interested in things like that." Seras snorted and crossed her 'arms' underneath her breasts.
"So what d'you want then?"
"My, my, getting impudent are we? I'd love to have one of our obedience lessons but I'm here to tell you we're going on a mission tomorrow. Apparently there's a new sort of creature roaming around besides the normal blood-suckers and rogue Nazi's. How some of them still manage to be surviving here is beyond me. Well, get a good night's sleep Police Girl. It'll be nice to kill something soon." Alucard ruffled her hair and Seras grimaced and watched him disappear with a jaunty wave.
Then his head popped back up, a disgruntled look on his lean face. Seras just patiently waited.
"Oh by the way, tell your 'pet' to ready himself as well. Apparently Sir Integra has decided it's time to test him out." Then he disappeared once more. Seras rolled her eyes once he was gone and threw her head back letting out a cry of exasperation. 'Oh yeah' Seras thought, 'this is going to be bloody wonderful'.
A/N - French translations are from a website, so if they are wrong, I'm wicked sorry. 'J'attendrai' is a song done by dozens of people, I used the lyrics from the one done by Dalida, again found on a website. I didn't make up that song, and I don't own it. I don't have any money so don't sue me please. Oh yeah, hello to all my lurkers! *waves* Thanks for reading :D -A/N
French Translations
Ma belle - my beautiful one
Zut - Damn
Petite sotte - Silly girl
*'J'attendrai' by Dalida (I Will Wait)
I wait day and night
I will await your return still
I shall wait
Because the bird that flees comes back
to find lost memories in it's nest
Time passes and runs,
beating sadly in my heart so heavy
And yet, I shall await your return.
(I only used the first part of the song)
SHOUT OUTS!
Kelly - Hehe yeah I liked the 'I'm a little tea cup' part too. I'm not mad, I thought it was too soon too so I stopped it for now. Kleenex? I swear I'm not mad. *grin*
Halibel09 - Yep he had to sing the song or Alucard would've probably done something bad.
Max - Thanks man! I don't think I'd like to have that many thumbs :P
Alucard-Nightroad89 - Thanks, I'm glad the mature stuff was okay. Oh yes, Pip has plenty to say but he doesn't really know how to say it.
Team-EricSookie - Oh man, I love Eric and Sookie together too. Thanks for the kind words, I was nervous. There will be more soon so I will change my rating, thanks for the warning.
Sepsis - It did happen too fast, I feel like I gave a lame explanation for it, but it will be explained in further detail shortly.
Tadpole3776 - I'm gonna warn you right now, I am an evil cliffhanger writer. I do it pretty much every chapter. Thank YOU for reading!
MissTessa - Yeeep Pip didn't like it too much. Nope, not at all.
Kiwi4life - Don't hate me! *hides* There will be more soon, so I'M SORRY! *puppy dog eyes* Glad you enjoyed it though
YellowAlien13 - I am evil! I decided that it was too soon. But there will be more! *covers head* Sorry! I'm really glad it got your imagination going, that's awesome!