Chapter: Lockdown my heart
DISCLAIMER: I DON'T OWN TWILIGHT DON'T SEND ME TO COURT PEEPS"
It's been two days since practice and frankly this is war. That cowardly #!*% hasn't even looked me way, let alone apoligise. Who do you think deserves an apology more, me or him? Well the answer is me! He simply leaves the room whenever I enter, pssing me off to no end. He could at least have the decency to acknowledge me or even glare at me, I deserve that much for taking the blame for him. Wait. Why do I even care about it? It's not like I care if he notices me or not, I hate him. Yeah I don't care!
"If you didn't care you wouldn't be thinking about it." Edward said, flicking through channels. I glared at him as he brought all the attention to me.
"I don't care what he chooses to do. Nor does he." I said fiercly. Edward chuckled, giving me a look to suggest he wasn't buying it.
"I would believe you if you didn't keep thinking him about him." He said logically. I opened my mouth to argue, finding no words.
"Bella! Edward's bullying me!" I whined. She whacked Edward's arm, snatching the remote away from him.
"Stop it, this isn't easy for her so stop being non empathetic." She scolded. " Otherwise no hunting candanian moose." Canada seems kinda far for a normal hunting trip, I thought we only go hunting there for special occasions.
"What's the occasion?" I asked, leaning away from Jasper's civil war books.
"A late welcoming hunt for the Volturi, which reminds me. Alec, Jane and Demetri are staying because they have already hunted, so that means you're in charge of keeping Renesmee safe. Guard her with your life." Edward instructed. I nodded, understanding his distrust.
"We'll be gone for two days so you're in charge of food to Clo." Bella informed. Woah back this truck up!
"TWO DAY! You'll be gone for TWO days?" I exclaimed, falling off my seat. Edward and Bella gave another sympathetic look, why does everyone feel sorry for me?
"Sweetie I know you and Alec don't exactly get along but you'll have to try. I know you it's not exactly ideal but we'll be back before you know it and Demetri isn't actually that bad. Try and make friends." Bella soothed. She's right, Demetri isn't the worst person in the world and besides him being an absolute perve he's actually bearable. Felix is cool too and he often teases, but he still intimadates. Jane is just plain creepy and my hatred for Alec is beyond words. I sighed, picking myself off the floor.
"Fine. But I'm only doing this because I care about Nessie and I want her to be safe. Don't expect me to make friends." I said, pouting like a child. At that moment, Alice came prancing in with some new flowers for the table, Jasper in tow.
"Good thing you say that because I have a feeling you'll learn something new about your little mate..." She said, leaving an air of mystery. " Oh and Nessie wants pizza tonight." She just had to ruin the mood. I groaned whacking my head on the table.
"Jazz can borrow two more books, it's gonna be a long two days." I asked, still trying to knowck my self out on the wood table. He chuckled deeply, squeezing my shoulders.
"Sure thing, just going and pick anytime. But don't mess up my room." He said. I thanked him continuing to whack my head like a lunatic. I felt a new type of movement enter the room, a very soft almost invisible movement.
"What's wrong with her?" Alec's voice rang. That's why he could sneek up on me? His presence is hardly there, it's like a leaf or feather, it causes next to nothing vibrations. How the heck is that possible?
"The world is round, the prospect of my future for the next two days are bleak and now I have a migrane." I answered sharply. I sat up rubbing my head, spotting Alec rolling his eyes.
"Are you always this mellowdramatic?" He asked snidely. I opened my mouth to answer, only to be cut off by Jane.
"She seems that sort brother, why bother asking?" She said irritated. I went back to whacking my head on the table, hoping I could knock myself out.
"God help me out here." I muttered, causing some chuckles to pop up. This is going to be hard isn't it?
"Now be good, I mean it Chloe." Carlisle said, grabbing his car keys. I smiled cheekily, kissing his cheek.
"I'm always good Carlisle, except maybe a few slip ups." I said. He smiled at me, kissing my cheek and heading out the door. I heard the cars pull out of the driveway, like I used to do when my parent's left for parties and leaving me with babysitters. I would always wait for them to come back and I would eventually fall asleep, they would say they came back at night but I knew they came home like five minutes ago. The crunch of gravle just triggered the fact that I was alone in the house, with only Nessie at my side.
I rushed back into the living room, plopping next to Nessie on the couch. We both looked at each other, evil grins on our faces.
"We're home alone!" Ness squealed excitedly. I shook my head, pointing to the cieling.
"Not exactly, hey I have an idea. Lets see if we can the most of two days." I proposed. She smirked evilly, drumming her fingers togethor.
"What exactly do you have banging around in that nogging of yours." She asked. I grinned, whispering the plan to annoy the italians to show them we weren't weak. She gave me an anxious look, wringing her hands and staring at the cieling. " I don't know Chloe..." I don't feel good about dragging her into this but I know it's for her own good. She's just a halfbreed to them, she could get seriously hurt.
"Just the twins not Demetri. He seems nice enough." I said, trying to follow Bella's suggestion. She still looked uncertain, time to pull out the big guns. I put on my best puppy dog eyes, straining her face a bit. She finally sighed and gave up.
"Fine!" She said, as Demetri walked in. He stared at us suspicously, circling to the table and picking up a magazine.
"Whatever you two are planning, just as a warning Jane and Alec are amazing at revenge. I would be careful." He warned. I scoffed, switching on the TV.
"Oh please they don't know me. I have a knack for making bad things happen to people I don't like." I said smugly. Demetri chuckled knowingly, unnerving me slightly. Nessie and I gave each other a sideways glance, gulping quietly. We chatted about ways to reek revenge, making sure to that quietly. I suggested we pretend they're not their, childish I know but it seriously ticks people. She came up with a good idea of turning up the TV whenever they spoke, which would sound pretty awesome. Today would be a day of little irritating niggles and we agreed tommorow would be a day for practical jokes.
I detected movement upstairs, making out the shape of Jane and Alec, covering Nessie mouth and inditicating that they were coming. She nodded and we both turned out attention to the screen as they both entered the room, gracefully giving us a sideways glares. Nessie touched my arm and transfered her thoughts.
Let's fricking do this.
I nodded, returning my gaze to the screen, prentending to be absorbed in E! News.
"Demetri how shall we entertain ourselves? We have nothing to do." Alec whined slightly. I resisted the urge to laugh, mainly cause I have a great comeback when they ask us what to do.
"I don't live here Alec, ask Renesmee and Chloe." Demetri said, swatting them away so he could read.
"Halfing, Cullen what shall one do to entertain thyself?" Jane ordered loudly. I growled, turning to glare at her.
"First of all you don't need to shout, in case you haven't noticed were two feet away and we have super hearing!" I pointed out. Nessie snarled too.
"Second of all you can go jump off a cliff." She said bodly. Nice one Ness! Alec growled at me, I didn't even say it!
"Actually that would be my entertainment. The library is on the sixth floor, compiter room on the fourth and the Den in on the third floor. Knock yourself out! " I said, partly meaning the last bit. Jane huffed and stormed away, leaving Alec there glaring at me.
"You know you could try being nice!" He yelled. HE IS FRIGGING KIDDING ME! I go up and faced him in a flash.
"Yes because I'm the one who tried to kill me and I'm the one who is snide rude and whiny! Look Alec grow up, this is the real world and I won't stand around here and pretend it's my fault. To be blunt I am nicer than you are, I took the blame for you! Seriously stop acting the world is going to wait hand and foot for you, get a reality check!" I said darkly. He growled, pushing me back and pinning me to the back of the sofa as Nessie and Demetri stood shocked.
"You don't know a thing about me, so you stop acting like you have me figured out. I have been through things that would give you nightmares, things you can only imagine exist. I have had you so called real world chew me up and spit me out, so don't you dare tell me to grow up. I know you decided to take the blame so you could show me up so don't act like it was from he goodness of your heart. Now tell me Cullen is there anything else you'd like to say?" He snapped. I glared up at him, not daring to back down.
"Go kill yourself Alec." I whispered only so he could hear. A deep snarl rippled in his throat, and in a flash he had pushed himself off me and sped up the stairs. I closed my eyes and leant back against the couch, kinda glad he didn't kill me. I'm pushing it way to much, I'm actually thinking of apologising... Oh hell no! After what he did to me he should be thankful he has two arms!
My ears tuned to a rapidly excelrating heartbeat, Nessie! My eyes snapped open and saw Nessie staring at the doorway in which Alec left, looking horrorstruck.
"I think you should get her something to eat and drink. Then I think she should sleep." Demetri said wisely. I nodded, zooming in the kitchen to make her pizza. I dug around in the fridge and found a pepporni pizza, bunging it in the oven. I leaned against the counter, sighing in anguish. I guess it is possible to get someone to hate you beyon reason, yippe! Why do I confuse myself? Either I hate or I dont! It's not that hard Chloe! Why do I hurt him and then feel bad about afterwards, usually I'm so good at not caring. I'm the person who makes bad things happen to bad people, Alec is a bad person so this should be easy as guts!
"You know hate him, understandable. But will you at least stop pushing him." Demetri's voice rang in front of me. I looked up glaring at him.
"Why should I?" I asked bitterly. He sighed, giving me a level look.
"He's right. His life hasn't been easy and in many ways I agree with you, he's cold, malicious and a pure sadist. Though I forgive all of that mainly because I know Jane and his backstory, do you even know how they were changed?" He asked. I shook my head. "Look I'll let me help you on this, I'll tell you their story and you tell me yours from the beginning, then we'll see how they compare. How about it?" I narrowed my eyes.
"Why should I believe you?" I asked angerily. He chuckled lightly, what the heck is so funny.
"The boy has been bearable since he met you, I want that to insue for eternity or I just might run away with my mate." he joked. I smiled slightly as did he. " You go first." I took a deep breath, not sure if I could do this.
"Well I was born in Malaysia but my ancestors are orginally from India, my parent's weren't exactly rich and my Dad's buisness only built up when we moved to Forks when I was four years old. I've always been the kind of loner kid, the kid everyone thought was weird. I was shy to the point I would burst out crying if I even had to show a presentation in school. Elementary was a bad time for me, the bullying started out as name calling and shoving but soon I would come home everyday with bruises black eyes and occasion internal bleeding. The one time when I finally broke was when they broke my leg and left me there for a teacher to find me, that's when I had enough. In middle school I stepped out of my shell and I became bad mouthed, out going, confident and I was able to defend myself. Basically everything I wanted to be when I was younger. I never really cared for other people except for my parent's, and ughhh... um." That's when I started to choke on my word, a big lump forming in my throat. " The day I was changed, I came back from school after finding out my best friend was moving, totally peed off. I heard loads of thumps, but I was to afraid to go look. I did eventually, only to find my parent's dead. Nomadic vampires. They nearly killed me too, if it weren't for Edward and Bella I probably won't be here at all. I sometime can't help feeling if I weren't such a coward that wouldn't have happened, they woudn't be dead..." At this point I couldn't talk, heaving sobs building in my throat. I forced them down and looked up at Demetri. He looked sympathetic and nodded in understanding.
"My condolences and I agree your life was quite hard. Now Alec, where do I begin? Oh! It was 800 AD england, October 31st. They were both born, Jane first, then Alec. Alec's powers peaked considerably early in their lives, they were around four when Felix and I had to keep an eye on them. They were sweet children and extremly close, they helped out with their mother and father, played with children from the village and were genral opposites to what they are now. The real trouble started when there father passed in a farming accident, Jane was sad and lost. Alec on the other hand was angry. He knew his mother couldn't cope, so he did as much as he could to provide for Jane and his mother. His mother was soon quite acquainted with a farmer from the next village over, though she would swear they were just looking out for each other. He soon spent more time with them and eventually moved to the house next door, still upholding the statement that they were both friends. The farmer came home many nights, drunk and seeking Alec's mother. He would always propose that they should wed, the mother being the church bound woman refused always. That's when things got violent. When the farmer got angry he would try and take it out on the mother, but Alec always found a way to get beaten. It started when Alec was ten and it continued until he was changed. Felix would want to intervene because, even though he won't admit it now, he used to care for the twins. We were under strict orders no to meddle. One day when Alec was fourteen, he decided to fight back. He fought very well and he did reduce his injuried by quite a bit. Jane got so scared, her powers kicked in and she tortured him. Alec numbed him briefly, only for a few seconds before he ran out the house screaming that they were witches. An angry mob came after them and captured them, setting alight two bonfires. They were burned at the stake, close to death if we hadn't killed the village people and rescued them. And of course as they say, the rest is history." Demertri finished. I stood there stock still, feeling thoroughly ashamed with myself. What makes me any different to those kids that used to bully me, frigging nothing! I feel like killing myself, how could I have been more thoughtless? It doesn't change the fact that he's a jerk, but I really wish I hadn't said that.
I cleared my throat akwardly, shifting from my position and occupying myself with the pizza. I took it out of the oven and started to cut it up into pieces, sighing as I did so.
"I'm an idiot aren't I?" I said shamefully. He chuckled behind me.
"Partly yes. To be fair I now understand why you're so angry, you have a small right to be. In that way you and Alec are very alike, you both have short tempers." Demetri pointed out. I groaned, not being able to help myself.
"I'm already ashamed, why inuslt me further?" I said. He chuckled, walking out the door. What? No goodbye. I growled to myself and brought Nessie her food and a cup of hot coco, she was curled up in ball staring wide eyed at the coffee table. I sat next to her gently, gently squeezing her shoulder.
"Hey Ness you ok? I brought you some pizza and hot coco. Seriously Nessie, what's wrong." I asked. She continued to stare scaredly.
"I thought he was going to kill you..." She whispered. I pulled her into a soft hug and brought the cup of coco too her mouth.
"I'll be fine Nessie, stop worrying. You should eat and get to bed, try forgetting this whole thing." I soothed. She nodded starting to eat her pizza and finishing her coco. She finished her food and bid my good night, slowly making her way to her room.
I still can't believe what Demetri told me, I can't believe I was so stupid. I guess that's why Alec is so cold and mericless and cruel, sadism is what he lives for. It's not even jane. You can tell Jane tries to be like her brother, but Alec has shut off the whole world. he doesn't need to protect his sister anymore nor anyone else he cares about. Maybe that's why Jane is frightening of the two, she has something to live for. Aro. She worships the ground he walks on, unlike Alec who doesn't give a damn. He cares for his sister yes, but he has no enjoyment in life anymore.
When you live forever, what do you live for?
I KNOW I STOLE THAT FROM THE TWILIGHT POSTER!