- Chapter 11-

I Miss You

When I look at you, tears keep falling

I don't know why

Did you go round and round to come to me?

I can't avoid this love


Berlin was loud. Laughter, yelling, cursing, happy go-lucky times filled the busy streets near the shopping district and Gilbert was having the hardest time filming a video in his one bedroom apartment. It was finally the end of fall and the winter months were ahead and it was going to be obnoxiously cold outside. Which meant it was time for Gilbert's hibernation.

Frustrated he turned off his camera and equipment, rolling in his chair to his desk and pulling up the browser. He has had a creative block for awhile now. Matthias was getting bored with no work coming to him, but the silver hair man had no inspiration. He managed an update video about his vacation when he returned to Germany. Three months ago.

His last message to Madeline was the day he left. August 2nd. He sighed. She had been inactive with her account and he has been trying to find a way to contact her. But it was futile. He had searched for her other accounts yet he could not find anything else with her name or even the little information he knew about her. She was almost invisible in the internet space. No one knew who she was, not even the search engine!

Clicking his tongue. How stupid of him to not ask her email address. It would be so much more easier to contact her that way. He had seen her use it plenty of times while emailing….someone. Not sure but she was replying to a different email every time he watched her. It was strange to see her so invested in replying to every one of them with enthusiasm. Stupid Gilbert, not bothering to memorize it!

He got up and grabbed his camera and tripod. It was too noisy in here. He needed to get a video out, even if it was a vlog! Walking out of the room, he trudged his way to the little living room he used and plopped down on the couch. The sounds were muffled a little and the boom mic may still be picking up the busy street life, but at this point he didn't care. Turning the camera on he checked everything to make sure it was working and he nodded.

It took him a moment to start but as soon as he started talking, he couldn't stop.


The video ended up being twenty minutes long after Matthias edited it and he was utterly surprised that he had gotten the okay to upload it from Gilbert. It's completely different than his other videos. He literally spilled his guts out and the whole world is going to know! Want to talk about a bold move? This is the boldest move his German friend has ever pulled.

Matthias accessed the man's account and started the upload. He watched in anticipation as it rendered and he almost choked on his breath when it was fully uploaded in less then five minutes. Bless and curse his fast internet speed.

Now then, it's time to see the reaction from all of his fans and many more who stumble across this.

This Madeline girl is certainly the lucky one.


It's been awhile. I know, you missed me. But I am still human and need time to recuperate. My vacation had ended long ago and it was for me to recharge my ideas, but I came back with no motivation. You see, I went to Canada for my vacation. It's not idealistic. I could have gone anywhere but my bruder and his friend wanted to go so I gave them the vacation they needed. No idea what attracted them there in the first place.

When I first got there I was bored. The attractions were nice. Don't get me wrong Montreal, you are cool, but I was missing something. An escape of sorts. I could have done anything I wanted yet I had no idea what I wanted to do. Food was good, beer was alright. It's not German but still it satisfied me. My brother's friend had the craziest idea ever. I mean, who would want to go to a hockey game of all things? But it was the most Canadian thing and he wanted to go see a bunch of ruffians go at it on the ice.

I was bored. Let's be honest. I wanted to go back to the hotel room. But something kept me there. And yes, it was an argument. You know, I am always excited for a good fight. It was the opposing team's fans and they were yelling at each other. This really big dude started throwing his hands up and hit a girl by accident. Now, I do not like violence against innocent bystanders. She had nothing to do with it and yet, the big guy turned it against her and even ended up choking her, throwing her against the glass that separated the fans from the players.

The rage in me pent up and you know what, I got up, went to the other side and punched the hell out of the guy.

This story sounds familiar to my North American audience. It was on the news about violence at a hockey game that got out of control. Yup, I was there and I was the one who ended up saving that girl. Cause all of the other people except one person stayed back and recorded it on their phones. They were cowards for not helping her. I may be an internet addict myself but I know when it's morally right to help someone.

Arthur watched the video his husband pulled up on their computer and Alfred sat beside him with tears threatening to fall from his eyes. The British man frowned, pausing the video and wrapping his arm around his lover. "Al, it's okay. You don't know if its Maddie."

"It has to be! Who else would he be talking about? My baby sister was hurt and she didn't even tell me! I was the one who gave her the tickets for that game!" He cried covering his face and Arthur rubbed his arm in consolation. Kissing his temple gently he shushed him quietly.

He pressed the spacebar and the video resumed. Both of the guys looking at it and Captain jumping on the back of the couch to sleep.

Back to the girl. I am always honest. I don't lie. So what I am going to say may be a shock. When I saw her eyes and held her in my arms, I felt a connection. Kind of like spark. You know, love at first sight kind of stuff that only exists in weird fanfictions and weeaboo stories.

Alfred wiped his eyes and watched in astonishment as Gilbert blatantly told the world he went FBI and tried to find her again. At this point, he already owed this man more than he can offer. He saved his sister's life. He changed Maddie for the better. Alfred hated to admit it but this man was great for his sister.

I let her got that night. But you know what, we met again after that hockey game. *laugh* She lost her cellphone and I managed to charge it to see her weather for Quebec on it. So I figured why not take a little trip to take Cinderella her phone back.

"I see what's happening." Arthur stated and Alfred looked up at him as he paused the video once more, "You did say Maddie hasn't talked to Gilbert since he left. Is this his way of trying to contact her?" he wondered and Al smiled. His husband was smart. That is exactly what this is!

"This is why I married you!" He jumped up, planted a fat kiss on the British man's lips and ran to go retrieve his phone off the charger, leaving Arthur a sputtering mess on the couch. Captain meowed, almost sounding like a laugh.

Alfred grabbed his phone and pressed the number '2' on his speed dial. It took four rings too long before Maddie picked up and Alfred was already talking before she managed her 'hello' to him.

"You need to get to a computer or something!" He yelled.


Maddie blinked twice as she walked along the hustling sidewalk full of people going home after a long day of working. She is also part of the crowd when her brother called out of nowhere and almost demanded her to get to a computer. "Why?" she asked.

"It's important!" she rolled her eyes and blocked the sun from blinding her by shielding her face with her hand, "It's about Gilbert!"

Now that made her stop in her tracks. Almost bumping into a person, who scowled at her and scurried around her person, she listened to Alfred continue, "He had uploaded a video to his channel and I need you to watch it."

When did he upload that? She looked at her phone and noticed the little notification on her bar, saying a new video uploaded. Shows how much she actually looked at her phone for things nowadays. Putting the phone back on her ear she responded, "I will watch it when I get home."

"Okay, you do that. I am going to call you back in twenty minutes to check if you actually did." His tone was serious, suddenly making the girl nervous. Her brother is scaring her with this. What did Gilbert say to make him act this way.

"I will watch it." she said and he hung up after a minute of making sure she would watch it. Maddie, exasperated, moved to the crosswalk and took the chance to cross when the light turned green for pedestrians. The park was a little busy but not enough to where she felt overcrowded. She found a spot on the fountain, feeling the mist of the cold water hit her neck but she didn't care. The video browser was already up and she hovered her thumb over the thumbnail. It was him and it made her heart pound by looking at his small smile. Who knew she would miss that small gesture so much?

Giving up on him was the hardest thing she did. Not contacting him had been hell. When she was down, she thought about him cheering her up and going out to eat to calm her down. Or watch shows with her, listen to music, and the one time they actually danced to really bad techno music because he had too much alcohol and ABBA made him feel himself.

It's just like with Louis but different. Gilbert and her never had a romantic relationship to break up from. A friendship that bloomed too soon only to wither away with lack of communication. That's how it was. Avoiding him on social media had been easy. She deleted the app from her phone so she didn't have the urge to check his page.

She sighed. Running away was hard.

With a boost of courage she pressed the video. While it loaded she input her headphones and slipped them in her ears. Her violet eyes were on her phone and the video started. It was Gilbert acting kind of nervous on his couch. He cleared his throat a couple of times and it made her quirk a smile. What is he so hesitant about? It made her chuckle.

Then he started talking and her full attention was on him. Every sound around her had been blocked out to the point it was his voice she heard only. It took her moment to realize he had been speaking English this whole time. Her undivided attention was on him and she failed to realize almost ten minutes have gone by.

I met her at her job by coincidence. Or fate if you want to be cheesy about it. Cause when I saw her again I was so excited to see her. I gave her phone back to her and at that moment when I told her my name, I knew there was no going back.

She has a beautiful, carefree mind with the weirdest taste in music but you know what, I love an original girl. She was everything I wanted in a girlfriend. Hell, she even met my bruder and friend and they didn't scare her away. We went on dates, some at her house and some out and about touring Quebec. Simple things were the best when I was with her. I could sit on a couch with her and watch shows without even getting up and being bored. You know how short of an attention span I have. But I have kept my full attention on her. Because I like her. I want her to be mine.

But you know, dreams to come to an end. I left her to return here and I have been stumped thinking about her.

He cleared his throat and Maddie watched with wide eyes. He's talking about her. Did he truly feel this way about her and she was too focused on getting away from him that she did not have the slightest idea of his feelings!

So, chickadee. You know who you are. If you are watching this video. I want you to know that I miss you and if we meet again, be prepared for me to make you mine. Please reply back to this video if you watch it. I will be waiting. Gilbert scratched his head and he was blushing bright. Ah! I want to say more but the video will be longer! Um, I really want to call out your name to. But, ya know, I want to give you privacy. *sighs* Bye Liebling. He reached for the camera and the video ended.

The phone almost fell out her hand but she gripped it harder. Her eyes welled with tears and she stared at the screen as droplets landed on it. Quickly wiping her eyes she locked her phone. She sniffed. "You dummy, how can I not talk to you now." she stood up and looked around. The sounds of the park were quiet and she noticed she was one of the only few left in the area.


I love you love you love you

I call it fate

And I miss you miss you

You are my destiny


On queue her phone rang and she answered it with a smile, "Al, I need your help." she said and she could see her brother smirking. "Find me Gilbert's email address."

"Roger, baby sis." He said, making her smile as they said goodbye. The sun was setting, hues of orange, violet, and pink mixed together into the darkening blue sky and Maddie moved her feet in the direction of her house. She had many things to do now.

First and foremost, it is time to think of what to say to Gilbert. Then, with as much disdain in doing so, it's time to reply back to Louis.


Thank you all for your continued support! I appreciate all of the reviews left for me to read. It makes my day! Stay tuned for more chapters, this is probably going to be close to twenty chapters long. Have a good one~

~melody