December 24, 2003
It was Christmas Eve and Lindsai was in her home in Connecticut. Her parents had bought her a house once they learned she was pregnant. She had been given control of her trust fund, so she had plenty of money. She still worked for the WWE but had worked it out with Stephanie to not have to travel. She had everything decorate for Christmas but it was only her. Her parents were in Tampa with her sister. Lindsai didn't want to go there and run the risk of running into Chris. She had made her decision to not tell Chris about the baby and no matter how much it hurt, she wasn't going to break it.
She was home baking and looking over some files that Vince had sent over. This was the first Christmas she had ever spent alone. But she just didn't want to be around anyone. She had called Adam and wished him a Merry Christmas. He was spending Christmas with his family. She also called Jeff and Jay and did the same thing.
After baking her Fudge Pie, one for her and another for Jay and Adam, she made some popcorn and got comfortable. She put in How The Grinch Stole Christmas and got the files out. She was looking over some expense reports. It was then that she came across Chris's name in the reports. Just looking at it, made her break down. She just thought it was hormones. It was then that her phone rang. It was Adam.
"Hey, shouldn't you be with your family on Christmas eve?" Lindsai asked him over the phone.
"I just wanted to make sure you were okay." He said to her.
"I'm fine. You don't have to worry." She said.
"I worry about you and peanut." He said. "You are all alone there."
"I have the McMahon's not that far if I need them." She replied.
"Okay." He said. "So, what did you do today?"
"I spend the day cooking and baking." She replied. "I made me a small dinner and I made my Fudge Pie."
"You had better save me and Jay some of that." He said. "You know we loved it."
"I made you and Jay one. I have one that is just for me and peanut." She said.
"Good." He said. "Did you get my present?"
"I did." She said. "Thank you. I am sure peanut will love it when she gets here."
"How do you know it is girl?" He asked her.
"I just have this feeling." She said. "So, you should go and have fun with your family. I am fine."
"I just hate that you are alone." He said to her.
"I am fine. I should get use to being alone." She said. "I am going to be alone a lot from now on."
"You have me." He replied to her. "I will always help you."
"I know and it is great that you want to." She said. "But it isn't your place. You have a wife that you should be focused on. Not a pregnant girl who got knocked up by a married guy."
"Lindsai, you are too hard on yourself." He said to her. "Chris is selfish. He should have realized what him breaking up with you would do."
"It's not his fault." She said to him. "I knew when I got into this affair that I would be behind his wife and then behind the baby. I am just so stupid. No wonder he left me."
"Lind, you know that it not true." Adam said trying to make her feel better. He wished he was there to make her feel better. "And you are way too forgiving of Chris."
"I have to go. Let's late and peanut and I are tired." She said. "Bye, Adam."
"Bye, Lind." He said hanging up. He was worried about her. She sounded so alone and sad. He blamed Chris for this. Chris should have thought about how this would affect her. But no, he only thought about himself.
After hanging up with Adam, she finished the movie and looked over the files. Before she knew it, it was midnight. She decided to head to bed and get a good night sleep. She was helping to serve dinner at the homeless shelter tomorrow. She went to bed thinking about everything. As she looked in the mirror, she asked herself how this had happened. How did she end up alone with a baby on the way?
"Oh, yeah, it is because I am nothing but a stupid slut." She said out loud to herself. "I don't deserve happiness or this baby. I deserve to be alone forever."
After telling herself that, she finally got into bed and went to sleep. She had busy day tomorrow and hopefully she wouldn't have to be alone for most of the day.
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