"Good morning Izaya-kun." Madoka said to him as she walked over to his desk after Namie let her in.
"Good morning, beautiful~." He purred at her and she blushed but walked over and perched herself on the usual corner of his desk.
Izaya glanced over at Namie who was watching him. He looked from her to the door and she nodded knowing what he meant and then left. Madoka noticed Namie leave but didn't really think about it as she read over Izaya's shoulder as usual.
"So Doka-chan will you tell me about yourself today?" he asked her as he turned from his desk and looked at her.
"Only if you tell me about yourself." She said with a smile.
"What do you want to know?" He said and she blinked blankly and then smiled.
"Everything…" she told him and he sighed.
An hour or so later Izaya was done telling her about his entire childhood, his teenage years, when he realized he loved all humans, and when he realized he loved her. They were sitting on his sofa and she leaning again the arm of the sofa facing him. Izaya was, of course, right next to her with his body positioned so he could watch her every movement, her every reaction, and just her in particular.
"So, now that I've told you everything, tell me about you." He said leaning closer to her.
"Well… I spent my entire childhood in the basement of an insane asylum…" she said watching to see if he found this at all strange, but his expression remained blank, devoid of any emotion, "… the only person I ever saw for eleven years of my life was my father, when I turned twelve I saw another person for the first time. It was kind of weird being around people for the first time, I didn't know how to act around anyone, I watched how they acted around each other, and I learned that way.
"The girl I told you about was my first friend; she had been raped or something and just lost her mind, she couldn't speak and her cried like I told you, her parents brought her there because they couldn't handle her anymore. I guess she picked me out of everyone and sort of clung to me…" She looked away from Izaya's blank face and bit her lip; he could tell she was nervous about what she was thinking about saying, "… When he killed her, it was lunchtime and everyone was in the cafeteria, this boy, he would just snap randomly."
"Like Shizu-chan does?" Izaya asked her and she shook her head.
"No, Shizuo-kun snaps for a reason, this kid would just be talking to you with a cheerful smile and then choke you for no apparent reason and then he wouldn't remember doing it sometimes. Anyway she was walking into the cafeteria when he snapped and the patrons didn't stop him in time…" her voice broke and she closed her eyes.
"Madoka-chan," Izaya said reaching over and stroking her cheek with the back of his hand, "please don't cry."
"… She spoke… she screamed for me to help her but I couldn't get close…" Izaya realized his words were in vain as tears escaped Madoka's closed eyes. Izaya pulled her into his arms to comfort her and she buried her face in his chest for a moment and then looked up at him and smiled, "… I killed him though; I hid his body where no one would ever find it."
"Revenge isn't all that sweet is it?" he asked her and she lowered eyes and buried her face back into his chest for a moment.
"Not much happened after that for a few years, I mostly just drifted through life sort of depressed, and then these kids decided they wanted to commit suicide and they asked for my help. I agreed and then the night they had picked I went through the entire building and took out everyone that would get in their way. I set fire to every exit like they asked but I left since I had never planned on dying anyway. I… hadn't really thought about the other people there until I remember that the fire alarm released the locks on everything. They went to the roof but the fire kept rising until there were flaming bodies leaping off the roof to their deaths… I can still hear their screams…" Izaya soothed her by smoothing out her hair as she balled her left hand into a fist against his chest and pulled some of his shirt into her hand, while her right clamped down on his right hand.
"So, your father, he died along with the people you took out in order to set the fire?" Izaya asked and she shook her head.
"No, he was probably at home with his wife when the fire happened." She said to him.
"How'd you find out he was married?" Izaya asked her.
"I saw her staring at me and then when he saw her he was like "Honey what are you doing here?" and she completely ignored what he was saying and asked, "Why does that child look just like you?" he told her it was mere coincidence that I looked like him."
"Did you know your mother?" he asked her and she shook her head.
"No, but the place only had teenagers so she couldn't have been very old when he…" she got quiet and Izaya paused in running his fingers though her hair, "… He's a bastard."
"That sounds like something Shizu-chan would say, I think he's beginning to become a bad influence on you." Izaya said to her and she smiled as he began stroking her hair again.
"Izaya-kun, you know how I like you right?" she asked nervously.
"Mmhm." He hummed to her.
"I… I kind of like Shizuo too…" she said and he stiffened.
"What?" he said with an edge to his voice.
"I just, I…" she bit her but looked up at his face, "… I'm just not sure which one of you I… I love…"
"Makisawa Hotaka is looking for you." He said to her and her eyes got wide, "I can get him to think you died in that fire Madoka-chan, or I can tell him where you live."
"Are you trying to blackmail me into loving you Izaya-kun?" she said with a smile, "Do you want me to love you or secretly loath you while pretending to love you?"
"…" Izaya began to say something to her but stopped and closed his mouth and looked away from her, "… I'll keep him off your trail until you figure your emotions out, but I want something in return."
"What?" she asked him and he smiled down at her.
"If you pick Shizu-chan," he said it as if he hardly believed she liked the protozoan, "I want you to tell him how amazing a kisser I was."
Izaya bent his head down and kissed her roughly and smiled mentally as she put her arms around his neck and pulled him closer. He slid his hand that was no longer in her grasp down her back and then he squeezed her butt which caused her to gasp and he took advantage of her parted lips to slip his tongue in and taste her bitter sweetness. He massaged his tongue against hers and she moaned involuntarily. He pulled away from her and smiled as he looked at her flushed cheeks, parted lips, and her eyes that were half mast.
"Why… why'd you stop?" she said breathing heavily.
"Fine," he said in a husky voice, "I won't stop until you tell me too."
"I-Izaya-kun… stop…" Madoka said between kisses as she pushed against his chest. Izaya was on top of her as they made out. She knew if she didn't stop him soon that there would be no stopping him.
"'Kay…" He mumbled and sat up as he breathed heavily and just smirked at her. Izaya loved how flustered she always got when he kissed her. He knew why she stopped him and he was slightly disappointed by that fact. He wanted her more than he had ever wanted anything in his entire life, or at least as far as he could remember, but he would be patient for her.
"I-I should go home." She said sitting up and looking away from him shyly. Izaya was fascinated by this new shy side of her but at the same time he missed the more adventurous side to her.
"You can stay here if you want." He told her and she shook her head.
"I have work today, so I don't think I should miss it." She told him and he smiled.
"You know if you were mine, you would never have to work again." He told her with a smile.
"Uh-huh." She said standing up and smoothing out her shirt, "Well I'll see you later."
"Maybe I'll come by Russia Sushi tonight." He said to her with a smile as she walked to the door, "I'll miss you until we meet again, my love."
She didn't say anything to that as she walked out the door, and Izaya couldn't help but wonder what was going through that pretty little head of hers. Izaya took this moment alone to go take a cold shower to get rid of something…
Madoka pulled her coat around her tightly as she walked home from work. Izaya didn't actually show up which annoyed her a little until she saw Shizuo. She could see the cuts in his bartender uniform and knew why Izaya hadn't come to see her.
"Shizuo-kun what happened?" she asked and he all but snarled.
"What do you think happened?" he said angrily, "I ran that damned Flea out of 'Bukuro again."
"Yeah… he was just going to come see me at work." She said to him and he stared at her for a moment.
"I really wish you didn't like him, he's not a good person ya know." He said to her and she smirked.
"Is anyone really good though, Shizuo-kun?" she asked him with a smile, "Honestly, do you think I'm a good person?"
"Well no one is completely good but I don't think you're a bad person." He said and she laughed.
"Shizuo-kun you really don't know me…" she said shaking her head, "… then again know one really does."
Shizuo didn't know what she meant by that but he could feel malice coming from her again as she smirked. It wasn't directed at him but he wondered if she was all there. He knew about all the things she had done but it didn't bother him. Madoka smiled up at him and the malice vanished.
"Well anyway I'm beat so I'll see you whenever." She said to him as they walked up the steps that led to their apartments.
"'Kay well I'll be home if you wanna talk." He said and pecked her on the cheek quickly before he walked into his apartment.
Madoka couldn't help the sigh that escaped from her lips as she thought about how Shizuo was taking a sweeter, slower approach while Izaya was, well, just being Izaya. Shizuo was being himself too but… She couldn't stop thinking about Izaya's mouth on hers. It made her heart pound faster as she opened the door to her apartment and stepped inside. Madoka still wasn't sure who she loved but once again Izaya was taking up the majority of her thoughts. He was winning that tug-of-war that was taking place in her heart. He was driving her insane, but hey, sanity is in vain after all.
Ladybug's Ramble: Okay... Three for Shizuo and six for Izaya. After people vote on this chapter I'm not going to take anymore votes. Right now it really looks like she's going to be with Izaya. I think they actually make a good pair. I'm not sure after the little scene with Izaya if I should keep the rated T rating and go M once again. I've noticed Shizuo is kind of stuck in the best friend role and is probably going to stay there. Oh well. I hope you enjoyed the fluff with Izaya~! Hehe... he had to take a cold shower... hehehe. Ladybug out~~!
