"Jacob come on!" I was gripping his arm trying to pry him off of my bed. I could compare how futile that was with trying to pull a tractor trailer with your hands. "We're gonna be late!"
Jacob groaned and pulled his arm right out of my grip, knocking me off balance and I fell to my knees at his feet before him. "No Seth. I don't want to go. Everyone hates me."
I felt a pang of sadness in my chest. "They don't hate you Jake." I pursed my lips and looked up at him. "Well… Leah might hate you."
He rolled his eyes and stood up, his hip bone hit my face, knocking me backwards onto my ass. I looked up at him as he shook his head. "Leah hates me, Sam hates me, I'd be an idiot if I didn't say Quil and Embry definitely hate me."
"Why? Why does Sam hate you? And Quil and Embry? Why do they hate you?" I stood up and I was still forced to look up to meet his eyes. Jacob stood a good eight inches taller than me.
I watched as his eyebrows furrowed, pain covering his face. "The better question is why don't you hate me? All the stuff I did to you. The beating, the-"
"Jacob! Shut. Up. For the love of God, keep your God damn mouth shut! I don't want to hear it! I'm tired of this little pity party shit you keep dwelling in! You spiral downward in a self-destructive… spiral!" I glared at Jacob, roughly poking him in his chest with every exclamatory remark I made. "Why are YOU acting like YOU're the miserable one. Let's go back to me for a second, you know what? Fine. Oh boo hoo, poor me. I got beaten and raped."
Jacob's eyes were wide with shock as he opened his mouth to speak, which was quickly covered by my hand.
"I said shut up! My turn to talk! Where was I? Oh right." I put the back of my free hand on my forehead and sighed over dramatically. "Woe is me… I am so miserable… I was beaten and all of that other shit! I don't care Jacob!"
He just nodded slowly. His mouth opened a few times as if to speak but nothing came out. Jacob sat back onto my bed and inhaled deeply. "Ok, you win. I'll go."
I shook my head. "I don't even care anymore. Just tell me you'll let go of this. That you'll let yourself accept that I imprinted on you. That I love you no matter what. That we can make it through all this."
Jacob's big dark brown eyes stared up at me. I couldn't figure out the emotions hidden in his face. I took the silence to stare at him, I stared at his beautiful features, from the dark black hair down to his oversized feet. Everything about him was beautiful. I loved this man from head to toe and would do anything for him.
It's always been like that though. I had always loved Jacob. He was my friend when we were younger, though he is a few years older than me. In elementary school he would protect me from bullies. There was one time that This big dumb kid had be lifted up by my shirt pressed against the locker. I was scared shitless until the next thing I knew Jacob tackled the guy to the ground and started punching his face in.
Jacob was suspended for quite some time after that. No one picked on me for being so small or tried to take my lunch money since then. They were probably all afraid that Jacob would rearrange their faces like he did to that kid.
Once Jacob had moved up to his high school years, we stopped being as good of friends. He didn't walk me home as much anymore. He started hanging out with Quil and Embry.
And then he completely dropped out of school and I saw him hanging out with Sam and his "gang".
When I phased for the first time, Jacob was there when I regained consciousness. He was sitting on the edge of the bed, smiling down at me and said "Welcome to the pack, brother."
From that point on Jacob and I had hung out a lot. We became better friends after I joined the pack too, I had looked up to him even more at that point. Jacob was a strong and fast wolf who handled things like it's nobodies business.
He saved me a few times as a wolf too.
"Seth."
I shook my head, bringing myself out of my silent reverie and looked at Jacob sitting on my bed. "What?"
"Did you hear what I said?" He tilted his head and chuckled softly. "You looked like you were a mile away."
"Sorry, I was completely lost in thought." I blushed slightly and rubbed the back of my head. "What did you say?"
Jacob stood up, wrapping his huge arms around me, pulling me against his warm chest. He rested his chin on my head and spoke softly. "I said that we're good. It's just you and me now, no more talks about… Hmm… I don't remember what I was going to say…"
I chuckled and leaned my head against his large chest, inhaling his scent. He smelled musky and woodsy. "That's what I thought."
Jacob let me go and grinned at me. "I suppose we should get going to this party, huh?"
I nodded and grinned back at him. It felt so good to just be happy with Jacob. "Yeah we should, everyone has been waiting!"
He rolled his eyes and laughed. "Oh great. Now there's gonna be no food left for us!" His husky laughter filled my bedroom as he walked out of my room into the hallway.
With a quick grin and I followed behind Jacob and jumped up onto his back once we got outside, pointing my hand forward. "Mush!"
Jacob laughed again and wrapped his arms around my legs, sprinting off towards the beach.
