I don't like the part before the time lapse in this chapter but anyway… chapter 11 is here… PLEASE leave a review!
CH11 – Crying Myself To Sleep
Katniss POV
It was 10:30pm and I'm hiding behind one of the tents in the camp grounds. I went to the forest after I left the movie room, I didn't go in far because I had never been here, I just roamed the edge of it but once it got to 10pm we had to be on camp grounds so I had to go back. I'm sitting on my ass, in dirt, behind a tent, while everyone else is having fun. Fuck this. I pull out my phone and go to text Peeta but I realise I don't have his number so I text message from Finnick instead and press the reply button… how did Finnick get my number anyway? I begin to type into my phone
Me: Finnick… can u give the phone 2 Peeta, I need 2 talk 2 him
Is all I send, I then place my phone in the dirt beside me and wait for him to reply. After a few moments the phone rings and I pick it up, swipe it open and look at the text.
Finnick: want 2 talk 2 Peeta ey? What you 2 love birds want to talk about ;)
I roll my eyes and type into the phone.
Me: just hand him the fucking phone.
My phone goes off in seconds this time and I look at it.
Finnick: hey, it's Peeta.
I sigh. Why the hell did I ask for Peeta? What am I going to tell him.
Me: can u meet me?
I hesitate for a few moments and then click send, he replies in seconds again.
Finnick: yeah, sure. Where?
He's going to think I'm a pussy if he finds out I was hiding. I stand up and walk around the back of the tents until I get to mine. I zip open the back door and slip inside. I then start to text Peeta again.
Me: my tent, make up some excuse for everyone else and delete the texts after
I close off my phone and chuck it into my bag and lay down onto my bed. Now I just have to wait for him to get here. I fiddle with my half top nervously. Why am I nervous? I don't even know what im going to say? I sigh loudly and rub my hands over my face. I continue to fiddle with the straps of my half top.
He probably thinks I'm a slut.
Why did I try and kiss him.
I'm so stupid.
I fucked everything up.
Why do I even care what he thinks? I don't like him
Do I?
He probably hates me.
"Hey" someone says from behind me and I jump, its Peeta. "Sorry, didn't mean to scare you" He whispers. I half-heartedly smile and he sits on Annie's bed, which is the one next to mine.
"Hi" I say, fiddling with my fingernails and biting my bottom lip. An awkward silence takes over and we sit there awkwardly. What am I doing? I'm not afraid of a situation like this? Why am I acting so afraid? I clear my throat
"Look… about the movie thing, I don't want to kiss you… well it's not that I don't want to kiss you…. It's just I don't want a relationship right now… like a relationship… I'm fine just being friends… well I mean just for now… fuck… I seriously stuffed this up." I gush, not thinking about what I'm saying. He sighs and I look up at him, he is scratching the back of his neck.
"Don't worry… I know what you mean, you just came out of a relationship, you don't want another one right now, but I mean… a kiss doesn't mean anything. Well you know, it's not like I was asking you out… that doesn't mean I don't want to… it's just I wasn't" he says, shifting his weight as he talks. "I'm just going to go" he says pointing to the door. He stands up and I sigh.
"Don't go" I blurt out before thinking. He turns around looking at me questioningly. "I mean, a kiss doesn't mean anything… so this doesn't need to make things between us awkward. We didn't even kiss anyway" I say, trying to explain to myself why I told him not to go. He sighs again and looks down.
"I think… this. Is making things more awkward" he says, walking out the tent, leaving me here by myself. FUCK. I can't do anything right. I rest my head in my hands and quietly sob until I fall asleep.
Time lapse
"Get up, slut! We are going to the beach! Get ready!" Johanna shouts into my ear. I grown and I roll onto my side, falling out of the sling bed and landing hard on the floor. I moan loudly and push myself up with my wobbly arms. Johanna is laughing loudly and Annie is digging through her bag. There is also another girl in our tent, she is facing the other way so I can't tell who she is. Johanna pushes a mug into my hands; I look down at it and see that it is coffee.
"We are leaving in 5… Gale, Finnick and Peeta are coming as well" she says before walking over to her bag and digging through it. I sip the coffee and then rub my face with my hands, trying to wake myself up.
"What time is it?" I mumble, beginning to look through my bag for my bathers.
"10:30am" Annie says softly. I grumble, pissed that they woke me up so early. My phone rings as I am rummaging through my bag, I pick it up and see a text from Prim. I was texting her last night and she told me she liked Rory; Gales younger brother and I told her about Peeta and how nice and funny he was, but that was before we had our… moment. So pretty much Prim doesn't know that me and Peeta aren't on the best terms. I open the text message and read it.
Prim: hey Kat! Have fun today… I'm going 2 the movies with some friends and Rory is going 2 b there! How r u and Peeta? Miss u xx
I stare at the text for a while, laughing at the part about her going to the movies and cringing at the question. Should I tell her? Of course! She is my sister, I tell her everything. I begin to text.
Me: aww! Have fun little duck! I don't think Peeta likes me but I'm going 2 the beach with him, Annie and some other friends. Ill txt u later xx
I shut my phone and grab my backpack; in it I put my phone and wallet, along with a towel and sunnies. I brought a few pairs of bathers and decide to choose the most revealing pair. They are a dark red colour. The top is the triangular type and they expose a lot of my boob and the bottoms show off most of my ass and have ties on the sides. I grab my bathers, along with a pair of denim short shorts that show my ass and a white singlet, half top and walk to the change rooms that are just to the right of out tent. I get changed into my clothes and look at myself in the full-length mirror and smirk. I'm so happy I have large boobs at the moment. I walk back into the tent and find Johanna and Annie ready. Johanna wearing a pair of denim short-shorts and a bathers top and Annie in a light blue sun dress.
"Good to go, brainless?" Johanna asks. I walk over to my bed, pick up my back packand smirk.
"Mm hmm" I say, walking out of the tent.
"Oh, I thought you needed to put some clothes on" Johanna says and I can hear the smile in her voice.
"Shut up" I say punching her arm. "It's not like you're any better" I continue winking at her. "So are we meeting them at the beach or?" I finish, turning around to face them and walking backwards.
"Yep!" Annie says, her hair swaying around her neck as she walks. We continue the rest of our short walk to the beach in silence. Once we are down there we spot the boys sitting in the sand with 3 surf boards. We head over to them and sit down next to them.
"Hey guys" Johanna says happily. I laugh when I see Gale gazing at her, she isn't wearing a shirt, only her bather top and I know Johanna has picked up on it when she smirks. "Finished checking me out, Gale?" She purrs and Gale snaps out of his state and blushes.
Wow. Gale blushing. That's a first.
"Well we are going for a swim… If you girls want to take off your clothes and join us, I'm sure we will be happy" He says, his signature grin covering his face. He stands up followed by Gale and Peeta and start heading towards the beach.
"I'm ready for some fun" I shout causing the guys to turn around and look back at us. I pull down my shorts and rip off my half-top to reveal my bathers and smirk as their mouths gape open.
