A/N: No, your eyes do NOT deceive you, this is an update! I know, I know, it took me long enough.

First and foremost I want to thank everyone who reads, reviews, favs and alerts. I appreciate and read each and everyone. We didn't quite hit 100 reviews (why people??) but still managed a nice number of reviews for the last chapter and we all know how much I love reviews.

This week's story rec is another one by Whitlocksgirl. Second Chance at Forever was originally written as a one-shot for the Tattward & Inkella contest but is now being continued into a story with the next chapter posting in a few days. This is a slash story with Jasper and Emmett as the main characters. Jasper is a tattoo artist who mourns over the tragic loss of his lover. Emmett is a football coach who wanders into Jasper's shop one day to get inked in honor of his own lost love. There's an immediate connection between the two that leads to dinner at Emmett's house. I absolutely love this and am excited for the upcoming chapters. She does a wonderful job of portraying the loss that Jasper feels, as well as his internal struggle with the attraction he feels toward Emmett. I encourage you to go read and leave her some love. I promise it's worth it. Link is in my favs on my profile.

I also want to pimp out the slash contest being held by the ladies over at the Twislash blog. The contest is being sectioned out into four stages, one for each slash category, and is by anonymous entry with femslash up first. Entries are bing accepted through Saturday and voting commences on Sunday at noon est. Please go read the entries and vote for your favorite one. And if you're so inclined and can write like a mad person, submit your own entry as well!! www (dot) fanfiction (dot) net/u/1945699/TwiSlash_Unveiled

I can't start this chapter without thanking the betatastic Famingo & Mrsalreyami who both kicked my ass into gear and gave me encouraging and helpful feedback. The lemon in this chapter is dedicated to Mrsalreyami who informed me that I needed "MORE SMUT NOT LESS"; without her you wouldn't be getting a lemon in this chapter.

Now for the good news. Chapter 11 is almost completed AND is primarily in EPOV. Leave me a review and I'll send you a little snippet of Edward...okay well not Edward himself (I wish!) but a little of what's on his mind instead. ;)

Disclaimer: I do not own Twilight or its characters, S. Meyer does. I simply like making Carlisle bend Bella over his desk.


Weekend Reflections & Manical Moods

BPOV

It's funny how a couple months ago time seemed like it was moving so fast. My entire senior year seemed to be flying by in a breeze and all I wanted was for it to slow down so I could enjoy it all just a little bit longer. Now, all I could think about was how slowly it seemed to drag and all I wanted was for it to speed up again so I could get through graduation and be with Carlisle freely, like we should be.

If I thought I missed him before, it was nothing like I missed him now. Seattle had changed things, or more solidified them. I had felt things shifting in our relationship the last couple weeks. I'd begun to realize I was falling in love with him when he admitted his jealousy to me. I hadn't expected it from him I guess. I'll never forget him claiming me in class that day up against the wall. God… It was like he was marking me as his and I fucking loved it.

After that, when we were together, our touches had become less frantic and more…intimate. Sex had changed from, well, sex, to something I would equate to making love. Every time we parted it became more and more difficult. Even Rose pegged me, telling me I was in love before I was even able to acknowledge it to myself. I thought I felt it from him too but I was still to chicken to tell him how I felt. What if he didn't feel the same way? What if he thought I was just some sex-crazed teenager infatuated with her teacher? Okay, well I think we both knew I was that, but still!

I panicked briefly when he started what I now refer to in my head as the 'love speech'. The hesitation in his voice and the concerned look in his eye had me wondering what in the hell could be so bad that he couldn't form words. When he stuttered out that he thought he was falling in love with me it made me happy but I have to admit I was actually a little disappointed too. I already was in love with him so the fact that he only thought he was falling in love with me wasn't exactly what I had been hoping to hear but I was happy that at least he felt something that could eventually be love.

Now I know that sex between us just got better and better every time but that night, that night it was freaking amazing! Every little kiss, every little touch was magnified tenfold. It was as if I was having an out of body experience as he caressed, kissed and tasted every inch of my body. His eyes never left mine as we made love, his lips brushing against mine, his fingers laced through my fingers. As my orgasm began building he whispered things to me like how beautiful I was and how good I made him feel and it was my undoing. As I moaned and panted out his name, his pace faltered and I could feel him twitch inside of me as my name fell from his lips and his body collapsed against mine.

Then, he said it. He told me he loved me. I didn't mean to be such a kid about it but I was in post coital shock and wanted to make sure that he hadn't fucked me into hallucinations, so I made him tell me again and again because I just needed to hear it. I had the best night's sleep I'd ever had laying in his arms that night, naked against his warm body. Waking up the next morning, heh, let's just say that that was fucking and I recommend everyone start their day that way.

Getting ready to leave Seattle was like pure torture. I knew once we got back to Forks it meant going back into hiding. I never felt like such a child as I did having to hide the fact that I had a boyfriend and one that I was in love with. It seemed so unfair.

On the drive back to Forks, or rather the restaurant in between Forks and Port Angeles where Carlisle and Rose would exchange custody of me, I stared out the window watching the scenery pass , letting my mind wander ahead to graduation. Three months. Three months and I would be free of the constraints of high school. Free to see Carlisle as much as I want. Free. I could hardly wait.

We met up with Rose and said our good-byes after Carlisle loaded my crap into the trunk of Rose's car. I really tried not to be such a baby but I guess my teenage hormones were in control and I had to fight back the tears. As we pulled out of the Waffle House parking lot I rested my head against the window and twisted the opal pendant the hung around my neck between my fingers, watching the dying sunlight reflect the red, orange and blue hues of the stone.

From the corner of my eye I noticed Rose looking from the road to me several times before she finally reached over and patted me on my knee. "You're awfully mopey for someone who just came back from Seattle with her boyfriend. Is everything okay?"

"Hmm? Oh, sorry, I'm just distracted. Everything is fine."

"Pretty necklace. Carlisle?"

"Yeah. It's too bad I can't keep it on all the time."

"So? Aren't you going to tell me about your weekend?"

"Oh Rose, it was amazing. He is amazing. I didn't think he could get any better but he really outdid himself. He's too good to be true really. I keep waiting for the ball to drop."

"Don't jinx yourself Bella. Now tell me everything, don't leave out a single detail."

Rose smiled at me and raised her brow expectantly. I really was glad to have Rose as my friend, I felt like I could tell her everything about Carlisle, so I did. I gave her every detail of our weekend, the hotel, the shopping, the sightseeing. I even told her about giving Carlisle head on the way to Seattle. "That Bella, is one of the reasons I love you. There's something to be said about car sex in any form." She had said to me.

When I reached the part where Carlisle said he loved me, Rose interrupted. "Wait, wait, wait! He told you he loved you?"

I nodded.

"Did you tell him you loved him too? Because you know I know you do."

I smiled as I told her "Yes, I did and you were right. I do love him."

"Well duh."

I told her about our lazy Sunday morning and went on to tell her how difficult it was for me to leave and how much I was actually looking forward to graduation.

"Bella, I don't mean to put a damper on your Carlisle high or anything but are you sure that things are going to be easier once you graduate? I mean, we both know it's not an age issue. If you two are, like, immediately together after graduation people are bound to catch on that something was going on while you were still his student. Couldn't he still get in trouble or fired? And what about college? It's not like you can go to University in Forks."

"I hadn't thought about that. Or college." I was surprised that I'd completely let college slip my mind. I was so caught up in wanting to be with Carlisle after graduation that I hadn't even thought about college.

"Sounds like you have some things to think about."

"I guess so." I made a mental note to have a conversation with Carlisle sometime in the near future. If we were serious about being together, then we'd need to iron these things out.

As we got closer to my house I decided that I should put away my necklace just in case Charlie was already home when I got there. The last thing I needed was for my dad to see an unexplained jewel dangling from my neck and asking questions. I hated having to remove the necklace but I obviously had no way to explain it. With hesitation I took the necklace off, taking a moment to look it over before I slipped it into the velvet bag it came with and reluctantly tucked it into my purse so I could put it on tomorrow at school. It was actually more difficult than it should have been. Having it around my neck made me feel closer to Carlisle so taking it off just made me miss him more than I already was.

Rose dropped me off at home before Charlie, giving me enough time to unpack my bags and put away everything before he came home. I still couldn't believe all the stuff he had bought for me and had no clue how I was going to explain the new clothes to the all-knowing Alice who could spot a label from a hundred yards away but I didn't feel like dwelling on that now.

I hung up the last item of clothing in the closet, smiling at the blue dress I wore on Saturday, and then went to the bathroom to clean up. As I was getting out of the shower I could hear ESPN coming from the TV in the living room signaling that my dad was home so I quickly dressed and went downstairs to greet him. We chatted for a few minutes, which involved mostly me asking him about his fishing trip to distract him from inquiring about my weekend. As anticipated, Charlie lit up like a Christmas tree when he began recalling his tug-o-war with "the biggest fish I've ever hooked" which of course broke the line and got away. That was always his excuse when he came home with nothing to add to the freezer.

The rest of the night went slowly. I made and sat through dinner with my dad, washed the dishes, did two loads of laundry, rearranged my room and spent over an hour on the phone with Alice, all in an effort to keep myself occupied. Unfortunately it did nothing to quell my anxiety and I counted the minutes until my dad went to bed and I was able to call Carlisle. When Charlie did finally go to sleep, I jumped on the phone and dialed the number I could now recite forward and backwards with my eyes closed. Carlisle answered on the second ring sounding just as relieved to hear my voice as I was his. You would've thought it had been more than the four and half hours it was since we'd seen each other.

We relaxed into easy conversation until midnight when we finally decided we should both get some rest. Before we hung up he told me he loved me again and that he wished I was sleeping in his arms again tonight. I wanted to be in his arms more than anything

I woke up Monday in a less than foul mood. Not only had I not slept well, tossing and turning all night, but I woke up this morning to Aunt Flo who had apparently decided to pay me a visit sometime after I finally did fall asleep around three a.m.

Fuck, fuck fuck!!

I took a quick shower and then went back to my room to dress for the day, gathering my night clothes and bedding to take down to the laundry room. After shoving the laundry into the machine, I started the wash then went to the kitchen and poured a bowl of cereal only to discover we were out of milk.

Damnit! Not only was I going to starve, but now I have to go to the grocery store tonight!

Pissed off with my stomach growling and feeling like someone was digging out my ovaries with a spoon, I stormed upstairs to the bathroom and grabbed the bottle of Midol from the medicine cabinet, popping three in my mouth for good measure and washing them down with water from the sink. I was going to need help to get through this day.

I had just sat down to put on my make-up, when I heard Rose pull in the driveway and honk her horn. Looking at the clock on my dresser I realized that I was running late. Damn this day to hell! I threw my make-up in my purse and grabbed my book bag, tossing both over my shoulder and ran down to meet Rose.

"Christ Bella, didn't you sleep last night?" Was the first thing out of her mouth when I got in the car and I quickly held up my hand, I was not in the mood.

"I don't want to hear it." I told her as I wrestled to put my seatbelt on. Even the fucking car was giving me shit! "I'm having a fucked up morning."

"That's apparent. Wanna talk about it?"

"Talk about it? You mean about the fact that I've had three hours sleep? Or maybe that Aunt Flo decided to pay me a visit during those three hours of sleep? Oh! I know! How about there was no fucking milk when all I wanted was a bowl of fucking Cheerios!" I didn't mean to snap at Rose but it just came out.

Rose cocked a perfectly shaped eye-brow at me. "A little moody this morning, Bella?"

I opened my mouth to respond but I couldn't think of anything to say.

"Close your mouth Bella, its unattractive and you need all the help you can get this morning."

"You really are a bitch sometimes, you know that?" I asked her slightly amused.

"That's why you love me. Besides, I'm your friend; it's my job to tell you when you look like shit."

I shook my head and rummaged through my purse for the velvet bag that contained my necklace. I fastened it around my neck then sat back in my seat, looking out the window at the gray sky.

Great, it was going to rain. Could this day get any worse?

I crawled in the backseat when we picked up Emmett who, like Rose, told me I looked awful, eliciting a "Fuck you" from me.

We made it to school a half an hour early, giving me enough time to sit in the car and put on my make-up. Edward and Alice pulled up next to us in the parking lot ten minutes before the bell rang and Alice, who paused to tell me "hi", scurried off to meet Jasper in the quad with Rose and Emmett following behind.

"Good morning Bella." Edward greeted me with a smile. Unfortunately I was still in an unpleasant mood.

"Tell me one thing that's good about it?"

His smile fell and he cocked his head to the side looking at me curiously. "Are you having a bad morning? Do you wanna talk about it?"

"I swear to all that is holy, if one more person asks me that…"

"Whoa…" He held his hands up in mock surrender. "I'm just concerned. You don't have to tell me but if you want to talk, I'm here."

He was being sincere and I instantly felt bad for snapping at him. "I'm sorry; I'm having a bad morning. At least you didn't tell me I looked like shit."

He looked offended. "I would never tell you that you look like shit. Bella, you couldn't look like shit even if you tried. Who told you that you looked like shit?"

"Rose and Emmett. And while I thank you, their opinion outweighs yours two to one; I look like shit."

"Come on, let's get to class." He grabbed my book bag and held his hand out to help me out of the car. Boy isn't he being the gentleman today? I held my hand out for my bag but he scoffed, throwing it over his shoulder and walking off. I crossed my arms and watched him walk away confused.

"You coming? We're going to be late." He shouted over his shoulder as he continued to walk towards the school.

"Fine!" I huffed, walking quickly to catch up.

We walked into class and immediately felt my tension dissolve when I saw Carlisle, who raised an eyebrow in the direction of Edward, noticing he was carrying my bag. Tension back. I shrugged my shoulders just barely enough that he caught it and try to convey without words that I loved him. His expression softened and I relaxed again, taking my seat in the back of the classroom. When the bell rang signaling the start of class and I did something that I've never done before…I lay my head down on my desk and fell asleep.

I was startled awake when the bell rang at the end of the hour, barely managing not to fall out of my chair. I sat up and quickly looked around the class to find Carlisle glancing over to me with a concerned look. I turned to face Edward who was also staring at me intently.

"Are you feeling okay Bella?" He asked me.

"What? Yes, of course. Why?" I answered defensively, not sure why I felt so annoyed by his question.

"You fell asleep in class." He stated matter of factly.

What was with the concern? He fell asleep in class all the time. Did that mean there was always something wrong with him? "So? You fall asleep in class all the time!"

"Yes but Bella, you never fall asleep in class."

"Why does it have to mean something's wrong? I'm just tired. I didn't sleep well last night." I snapped. Obviously the Midol was doing nothing to help my mood.

After staring at me for several seconds with his brow pulled together and his lips drawn in a thin line, he finally spoke again. "I'm sorry; I didn't mean to upset you. Are you sure you're okay?"

"Yes, thank you for being concerned but I'm fine." I said in a softer tone, feeling like an ass for being so rude to him.

"Okay. Well, I'll see you at lunch?"

"Yeah, yeah. I'll see you later."

Edward gathered his things and left the room and I sat back in my chair waiting for the remaining kids to file out. As was routine, once the last student was out the door, Carlisle quickly made his way over to it, drawing the shade and locking the door.

I shuffled my feet across the floor and melted clumsily into Carlisle's open arms. He kissed the top of my head before gripping me by the shoulder and pulling me back so he could look at my face.

"Are you sick baby? What's wrong?" Somehow when Carlisle asked what was wrong it didn't bother me.

"I started my period and I'm having a bad morning." I whined then buried my head back into his chest.

"Awww, baby." He squeezed me close and kissed my head again. "Come on, let's go sit down. Do you feel like correcting quizzes with me?"

"Sure." I said, even though I really ended up sitting in his lap with my head resting on his shoulder contentedly while he graded papers.

The rest of the week went pretty much the same. My mood had hardly improved, in fact, the less I was able to see Carlisle, the worse my mood became and I found myself apologizing more than was necessary for being a bitch to everyone. Carlisle included. Thank God he was an understanding and caring boyfriend. I couldn't have asked for a better one than him.

I noticed early on in the week that Edward had been exceptionally nice to me, even when I was being a bitch. In fact he was so nice to me that it kinda made it hard for me to be a bitch to him. I think it was the first whole week that we had hung out together and not bickered about something and the more time that I spent talking to him, the more I wondered why he didn't have a girlfriend. I mean he was good looking as all hell, even I could admit that and he was cool when he wasn't busy being an asshole. Maybe he didn't think any of the girls at Forks were good enough for him? Lord knows he had an ego a mile wide.

Thursday night I made plans with Carlisle to sneak away from the party on Friday as soon as I could so we could spend some time together. Other than the time we spent together during free period, we had had no alone time since coming back from Seattle. Whereas before I was able to remain patient, now I found the wait game to be downright frustrating and I was literally counting the hours until I could sneak over.

I was more than happy to wake up Friday to no more Flo which meant that I finally got to start my birth control. Finally some reprieve from the suck job week I had! It couldn't have been better timing too since I was seeing Carlisle tonight. Not that it would have mattered to me one way or the other, I was getting laid tonight with or without Flo.

I called Alice and Rose as soon as I rolled out of bed and we coordinated outfits to wear, dressing in school colors to support the big game that was happening later that night. Alice volunteered Edward to pick me up that morning and they showed up twenty minutes early. Fortunately for me I was ready but I'm not sure how Edward got Alice out of the house early though.

As soon as I crawled in the backseat of the Volvo I was accosted by Alice who scribbled out a '09 on both my cheeks with blue eyeliner while I protested and Edward laughed.

"You might as well submit Bella; you know she's going to win anyway." Edward said to me through his rearview mirror. I noticed he also had a '09 drawn on his cheek.

"Yeah, yeah, yeah. I see she got you too."

"Ha!" Alice laughed sarcastically. "He got himself! Don't let him fool you Bella; he has as much school spirit as the cheer squad."

"Shut-up." Edward laughed out and playfully shoved Alice in her seat.

"Oh really? You mean Edward Cullen cares about something more than himself?" I asked half joking, half serious.

"I think you would be surprised at what I do care about Bella Swan." He replied with a serious expression and I didn't quite understand the tone in his voice.

After first period that morning I jumped into Carlisle's arms and began attacking his neck with kisses.

"Shit Bella." Carlisle breathed out as he stumbled over to set me on his desk where I continued my attack down his jaw until I came to his lips, giving him several small pecks before he pulled back and smiled. "Not that I'm complaining baby but, is it safe to say that you're in a better mood today?"

"Mmhmm, no more Flo. Now shhh, less talking, more kissing." I told him before crushing my lips back to his. He moaned into my mouth as he ran his hands up my thighs and lifted my skirt up around my waist.

As he ran his hands back down over my ass and along my thighs, I unbuttoned my blouse and yanked my bra to the sides exposing my breasts to him. Taking the hint, he trailed kisses down my neck to my chest and took one of my nipples into his mouth, bringing his hand up to my other breast and rolling the neglected nipple between his thumb and forefinger. I loved it when he played with my breasts.

He ran his free hand up my inner thigh to until he met the bare skin of my pussy, which was wet and aching for some sort of friction. "Fuck Bella, I love it when you don't wear panties." He spoke softly against my nipple before sucking it into his mouth and slipping a finger into me at the same time. He continued to suck on and play with my nipples while pumping in and out of me with his fingers, curling them just right and hitting that spot inside me that drove me wild. He didn't even have to touch my clit, within moments I felt my stomach tighten and I bit my lip as my orgasm tore through my body.

As I attempted to recover my breath, I quickly made work of Carlisle's pants, grasping his cock as soon as it was exposed to me. "Shit!" He hissed when I began to stroke him. "Here, stand up and turn around." He said, grabbing me by my waist and pulling me off the desk. I turned around as directed and placed my palms flat on the desk, spreading my legs and wiggling my ass at him. We moaned out in unison when he came up behind me and wasted no time sliding himself into me. He took a second to compose himself before he leaned over me and swept my hair aside to kiss my neck while he began thrusting into me.

Slow, sensual sex was nice but I sure did love it when he fucked the shit out of me.

He reached around me with his hand and found my clit, circling and rubbing it as he continued to thrust into me roughly and I started to feel that familiar tingle in my stomach signaling my impending release. Carlisle's pace began to quicken and when he started grunting quietly against the back of my neck with each stroke, I couldn't hold back anymore and softly and repeatedly moaned his name as my pussy clamped down around him and I came for the second time. "Fuck…Bella." Was all he said before he made one final stroke and came with me. Fucking incredible. I swear quickies in the classroom would never get old.

Once we composed ourselves, I realized we only had seven minutes until the bell rang so we quickly redressed and said our goodbyes with me promising to try whatever I could to sneak over later.

Free period with Carlisle did nothing to ease my sexual tension and only heightened it. Between all the hormones, my newly discovered feeling for Carlisle and a week of no sex, to say I wanted to spend the day fucking his brains out was an understatement. Needless to say the rest of the day went by excruciatingly slow as I plotted to sneak out of the party tonight.

Rose dropped me off at my house after school to get ready and pack an overnight bag and two hours later Edward and Alice were back to pick me up for the game. I laughed when Edward docked his iPod and 'We will Rock You' by Queen starting blaring through the speakers which then transitioned to 'We are the Champions'.

I was listening to playful banter between Alice and Edward as they argued over control of the stereo when my phone buzzed. I pulled it from my purse to find a text from Carlisle.

What are you doing beautiful?

C.

I quickly texted back.

Just got to the football field for the game. I miss you.

B.

I miss you too baby. Are you still coming over tonight?

C.

I miss you too. Still planning to come over. Cross your fingers I can get away from the little pixie-devil! ;)

B.

When we finally pulled up to the football field. Alice hopped out of the car and scanned the lot for Jasper. "Hey, save me a spot, I'm going to go find Jazz." She said before sauntering off toward a group of kids standing around a blue van.

"Shall we?" Edward asked, walking up beside me and holding out his arm.

"Why not." I told him, looping my arm through his and letting him lead me to the bleachers where Rose and Emmett were already seated.

Rose and I immediately paired off into conversation. I confided to her that I was hoping to sneak out of the party and over to Carlisle's and she said that she would cover for me if anyone asked where I disappeared to. Alice found us a short time later and she joined Rose and me to discuss what we were all wearing to the party tonight. I planned to wear the new white halter dress with the plunging neckline that I got in Seattle, with a pair of gold three inch heels I already had in my closet but never had the chance to wear.

Everyone paired back off into couples once that game started and I watched the first twenty minutes or so of the game with actual interest. I was listening to Edward give me the play by play, Forks was up by a touchdown, when my phone buzzed again in my pocket.

I flipped it open and shifted over a little, angling the screen of my phone away from Edward's line of vision.

I'm having Bella withdrawals…

C.

Bella withdrawals huh? I decided I was going to play a little and texted him back, in detail, exactly what I was going to do to him the moment I saw him. I don't know if that was a good thing or a mistake because I spent the next hour in wet panties as we had text sex while the game was going on. I was so caught up in our sexy fun and oblivious to what was going on around me that I was startled when Edward spoke to me and shocked to find that it was halftime and all our friends, had wandered off somewhere.

Edward nosily asked who I was texting and I quickly liked about it being an old friend from back home. I just about died when he told me I was blushing. I'd forgotten my cheeks turned pink when I was horny and could feel my face flame in embarrassment but quickly tried to shove it away knowing that Edward didn't know the reason for my traitorous blush.

"Are you looking forward to the party tonight?" Edward asked. "I know we're expecting a lot of people. Emmett hasn't shut-up about it all week long."

"Actually I am. Alice hasn't shut-up about it either." The damn pixie had been driving me up a wall actually.

"Do you have any plans for the rest of the weekend?" God, I hated it when he smiled at me like that; like he liked me or something.

"Well, I imagine I'll be nursing a hangover tomorrow, other than that I'm hoping to get caught up on my homework. Why?"

"Well, um, I was wondering if you'd like to…"

I know it was rude, but just then I spotted Billy Black's son Jacob and Jake's girlfriend Leah Clearwater who I hadn't seen since moving to Forks. Cutting Edward off, I yelled out their names and ran down the bleachers to talk to my friends. I glanced over my shoulder to see if Edward was following and noticed he was running his hand through his hair and had a frustrated look on his face as he got up to follow me.

Huh? Strange. I wonder what's wrong with him. I swear I will never understand Edward.


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