"We got him. Let's bring him to the OR." Carisi could barely open his eyes, and couldn't comprehend anything. The words sounded like mumbles, and he couldn't find the strength to pick up his arm.

The lights' intensity change, as did the walls and colors surrounding the man. "Male, thirties. Multiple wounds to the head, chest, and genitals. He has a GSW wound sustained to the abdomen." The people rushed around Dominick. Somehow he managed to lift his arm enough to grab a nurse's arm, scaring her.

"OH MY- Oh... He is awake." She announced. The woman looked at her arm, and moved her hand into Carisi's. "Hey hon..." she leaned in close. "It's going to fine... You will be fine. You just need to hold on. Can you do that? For me? For your family?" She started to walk away, causing Sonny to tighten his grip.

"I'm not leaving." She put her other hand on his shoulder. "Ok hon, they are going to put a mask on you. Just breathe." She repeated. "Breathe..."

"How is he?" Liv rushed up to the doctor. "Is he alive?" The doctor gave her a weak smile, and laid his hand on her shoulder.

"In my professional opinion, he needs fight through this. There is still a very real chance that he won't make it." The doctor's pager vibrated. "I'm very sorry, I need to get back in there."

"What the hell is going on?" Carisi couldn't even open his eyes. He slowly tried to pull himself forward, but winced in pain with every movement. He couldn't figure out who was standing by the bed he was in, and why there were a bunch of wires hanging from his arm.

"Hey Dominick." A hushed voice replied. Someone set there hand on his bed. At this movement, Sonny ignored the tremendous pain in his body, and pulled his legs to his chest, the best he could and shielded his face with his hands. His eyes wandered across the room, puffy. He was on the verge of crying out of fear.

"Carisi! It's Amanda. You're safe now." She slid her fingers through his hair and smiled. "It's okay hun. Do you remember what happened?"

Sonny nodded. Although there we a few holes in his story, he remembered almost everything. Slowly, he dropped his arms, but didn't move his legs. If his squad and family were in the room, they shouldn't need to know what actually happened to him.

"I thought that I died. I had a dream were I watched myself die. I saw my heart stop." He mumbled.

"Well how about we talk about that later, ok?" Rollins exchanged looks with everyone. "How do you feel?" The woman gently placed her hand on his, but he ripped it way.

"Oh, shit. I'm sorry. I didn't mean it! It's just that man whould... I feel fine." Again, he looked around the room, nervous. "Wait. What happened to me? Why does my shoulder hurt so much?" He grasped his wrist, but was surprised by the cuts that circled around most of each wrist. "The hell?"

Rollins grabbed his hands, snapping him back into reality. "How bout y'all give us the room?" She sat down on the side of his bed and held his hands. Everyone shuffled out.

When alone, Sonny pulled his hands away. "Please don't touch me." He looked embarrassed. "What happened?"

Amanda sighed. "The zip ties did that too you." She pointed to his wrist. "And you can't see out of your left eye because you were beaten, and pistol whipped. You have bruises on your neck because he chocked you." She pulled the covered off of him, and pulled up the hospital gown, making him immediately freeze, and start to tremble. "These stitches are from your surgery. He hit your stomach so many times that you had internal bleeding. He also broke your nose, and left these." She lifted the gown even higher, and touched the wound from the belt. Carisi tensed again, and started to cry silently.

"He climbed on top of me. But I didn't stop him. It hurt so much. My hands were tied above my head, and his knees were on the back of my thighs. I couldn't move. I didn't fight him. He pushed into me and it hurt so much. I- I didn't even try. I gave up. Then when he finished, he flipped my over. He pulled my pants back on. I thought it was done. But instead h-he forced my mouth open. I could feel every ache in my body. I could feel the warm blood spilling from me. When he put me in his mouth, he choked me. I couldn't breathe. He just kept thrusting in my mouth. It happened so slowly. But he finished. And he choked me till I swallowed." He whispered.

"Dominick! Snap out of it!" Amanda's voice was so calming to him. "Hey, you're safe."

Sonny looked at Amanda. "Is Delaney ok? What about James? Why am I still here?" He grabbed the side of the bed. "I- I need to get out of here. He'll find me. Please!"

Amanda sighed. "Carisi! You're safe! Delaney is fine and so is James. You can't leave."

"But he- he'll find me! I need to go!" He was frantic.

"Carisi!" She yelled, grabbing his attention. "He won't find you! After Scott shot you, he killed himself. You're safe!"

"Rollins?" He whispered, still trying to understand what she just said. "I- I was r-raped."