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Tom and Dougie spent some time filling Casey in on what happened the past few days, which wasn't much talking because Casey had been talking to Toni and she relayed everything that happened anyways. But she sat through the boy's conversation anyway, but she knew she was only stalling for what was about to come.

"So what are you going to do?" Dougie asked resting his elbows on his knees and looking down at his new shoes. Casey shrugged even though he wasn't looking she already knew what he was asking about. How could she not?

"I don't know it's kind of a limited situation. I can either have the baby or not." Tom looked up a confused face hiding how he really felt.

"Casey what do mean 'or not'? You can't possibly be thinking about-" Tom started but Casey cut him off turning to Dougie who was still staring down at his shoe and was looking unhealthily pale.

"D-Dougie, Tom" Casey turned to the band members, already knowing what she was going to ask, "Could you guys take me. I already looked up a clinic where they could, umm you know. I have the directions in my room. I just need a ride."

Dougie couldn't believe what he was hearing he couldn't even move so it was up to Tom to say something. Tom's mind was racing, was he really about to drive Casey to the place where they would kill her unborn child? Even though it wasn't a law it still felt like murder to him. Could he live the rest of his life knowing he was responsible for the death of two of his friends' child? Or his own? But it was Casey's choice, it shouldn't be any different than him driving her to the grocery story or the dentist… but it was. But it was also Casey's choice, not his… not his.

"But don't you have to talk to Toni about all this? It's a really big decision to make, maybe you should talk to her first…" Tom said, mostly trying to buy time so Casey wouldn't go through with all this, so he wouldn't be helping her go through it.

"Look Tom, even though Toni would never agree, we both know that things are going to get way worst if I do have this baby. Toni's already so stressed out about money and how I'm doing with school and all this other crap, that I don't know how we can even add a baby into that, I-I just don't see how we can do that." Casey could feel the burning her eyes, but pushed back the tears. She's already cried too much.

"I can help you guys out." Dougie blurted out, looking up from his shoes finally. Casey looked up, startled.

"What are you talking about? I'm not gonna take your money, Doug." Doug, Dougie thought, she never calls me that, not unless pissed off about something. Dougie was about to answer back when they both turned to see Tom nodding his head.

Tom had drowned out Dougie and Casey's conversation and began thinking to himself about what to do. After a lengthy minute Tom felt his head give a small nod. Casey understood Tom's actions and stood up and walked towards her room.

When she left Dougie snuck a glare at Tom, but he was too preoccupied with his own self loathing to bother with Dougie's. A few minutes later Casey came back holding a paper that was folded as if someone had been had creased the paper over and over with their fingers. She handed the directions over to Tom and with a quiet, "Let's go." She started walking to the Tom's car outside. Dougie glanced again at Tom, but he was still avoiding his eyes. The two of them got up and numbly followed her to the car.

The car ride was only about a half an hour long, but everything felt twice as long for Casey as she was both dreading and anxious to get it over with "Do, do you want us to come in with you?" Tom asked turning to Casey who was in the passenger seat. She thought the offer over a moment then sighed and shook her head.

"No, I-I got this." After trying to give herself a mental pep talk, and failing, she got out of the car and walked towards the front doors of the medical clinic. As she gave the door a push and stepped into the place that would end her baby's not yet started life.


Tom and Dougie waited in the car, neither knew what to say to each other to ease the tension. Tom took a deep breath and leaned back in his seat. Dougie continued to absently bite his fingernails. Finally after having time to carefully think about what he was going to say Dougie spoke, "What the hell, Tom! What the actutal hell? How could we let her do this, let alone drive her here?"

Tom rolled his head to the side to look at the younger man, "Dougs it her decision." He said in a tired voice as he looked away again. Dougie turned in his seat so he was facing Tom, "But it's wrong, I mean… she's not even going to give the baby a chance, it's only a few weeks old. This feels something like murder or- it's just wrong!" Tom turned quickly in his seat and looked into Dougie's eyes with anger steaming out of him.

"Dougie don't you think I know that! I hate this just as much as you, but what the fuck do you want me to do, huh? Barge in there and drag her back to the house and tell Toni what she was planning. She'd hate me for that and I honestly don't think I could handle one of my best friends hating me! Especially if I was the one who caused her to end up here in this situation! If she doesn't want to have the baby it's her call, not mine… it's not your or Danny's or Harry's or James' or Matt's or Charlie's or even the person who got her pregnant in the first place, it's her choice." Tom took a deep breath trying to calm himself and sat back in his seat right. The car was an ear splitting silent for minutes after.

"Dougie, I'm sorry I blew up. I-I just have been having the same argument in my head… and every time I think this is wrong I have to remind myself it's her choice, if she thinks she can live with herself afterwards, then…" Tom shrugged when he trailed off. Dougie took that as the end of the conversation, but unlike most conversations with Tom that leave him feeling better about whatever had bothered him, this one left him feeling worse. A few more minutes passed agonizingly slow before they looked up to see Casey waking towards them.

Silent tears rolled down her cheeks as she ran up to the car and shuffled into the back seat. She closed the door and leaned against the window trying to stop the flow of tears. Tom and Dougie exchanged a worried look, they knew the question that was on each other's mind, but were smart enough to not speak it out loud.

Dougie leaned back in his seat trying to block out Casey's crying as she attempted to go unnoticed, it was sort of working except for the small sobs that would escape from her occasionally. Did she do it? Did she really get rid of the baby just like that? Or did she back out at the last minute? I really hope it's the last one…


Toni was back from school by the time Dougie, Tom, and Casey got back. She looked up from reading the mail to the front door. Her eyes widened in size.

"You mean you weren't in your room! Where were you? Why didn't you call? And you two! Where do you think you're going?" Toni asked the retreating forms of Dougie and Tom. Choosing to ignore Toni they raced out of their apartment. Toni watched in confusion as the guys seemed to run if fear of her, when did she become that scary?

"Casey, where were you? I just want to know." Toni asked again, gently this time.

Casey let out the breath she'd been holding, "Toni, there's something I have to tell you."


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