Okay, well it's Thursday.
So for anyone who was like 'Oh I wasn't expecting Armin to just jump on Eren's lap and just go for his life', well I'm trying to go off the Manga Armin a bit more. I'm not sure how many of you have actually read the Manga and are up to date with everything so I won't say anything else on the topic. But just know that Armin has two different sides.
I hope you guys aren't to angry with me for this chapter, though I promise I will make it up to you.. eventually.
So I'm extremely happy that I have now decided on how I want this story to end and I've pretty much written the last chapter for this story, it's just the getting there that is the annoying part and I can't wait to find out what you guys think. My best friend certainly isn't happy with me.
Oh and on another note, I am SouRin trash, so I have started another story for that ship. I will not be uploading it until I have finished writing Sixty Degrees (otherwise it will never be updated) but I thought I'd give you a heads up now if any of you are into Free! and more importantly SouRin (there will be other pairings as well but that's the main one) so you can check it out once I post it.
Anyway enjoy! Leave a review, or fav/follow. Everything is appreciated and replied to.
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The one where Levi tells the truth, but Eren still doesn't believe him.
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"Are you going to say yes?" Mikasa asks, staring at her cousin with hard eyes.
"Why?"
"Oh come on, you know how crazy that boy is for you. At least give him a proper chance."
Levi finally turns his head to look at her, his expression bored. "Where are you going?"
Her face perks up only slightly, "The carnivals on right now."
"You know I can't go."
"Because of what happened?" She asks cautiously.
He nods slowly, turning his face away from her.
"When are you going to get over that? I mean you are aware of how irrational it is, right?"
"And that's supposed to matter?" He snaps, about ready to get up and leave.
"Okay look. I'm sorry. But can you just try and do it for him?"
He stands up. "You'll find out tomorrow." Before walking away.
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"Eren, you really need to calm down," Mikasa says, staring at the reflection of Eren bouncing around behind her.
"What? I am calm," He answers, his bouncing not skipping a beat.
"If you keep doing that, you're going to get all sweaty and then Levi really won't want to be anywhere near you," She replies, not taking her eyes off him.
He stares back at her, not stopping his frantic movements. She sighs, turning herself away from the mirror and walks over to him.
She places her hands on his shoulders, doing her best to comfort him, "What are you so nervous about anyway? You've spent plenty of time with him before now."
He continues to tremble slightly under her hands, "Yeah, but I've never been on a date with him."
"Don't think of it as a date, because it doesn't have to be one if you're uncomfortable with that. It can just be a friendly hang out with the guy you desperately want to fuck."
"Mikasa! I do not want to fuck him!" He shrieks, embarrassed by her bluntness.
She shrugs, unfazed, "Then you want him to fuck you, whatever. I don't pretend to know the workings of a gay relationship."
He remains silent.
"And besides, Jean and I will be there the whole time, so there's really no need to worry."
"Except when you two ditch me to go off and do lovey dovey stuff on the Ferris Wheel," He mumbles.
She takes her hands off his shoulders, and walks back over to the mirror to continue putting on her makeup, "Just go back to your room and get changed, I'll meet you in the common room in ten minutes."
She sighs as the door closes behind him; she hopes things go well for him tonight.
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"Whoa, Eren what do you look so dressed up for?" Jean asks as soon as Eren steps into the common area.
He looks down at himself. He doesn't particularly think ripped white skinny jeans, a blue flannel shirt and a black jacket is classed as dressing up, but he figures Jean is just trying to rile him up.
He shrugs turning to Mikasa, "Is he not here yet?"
She looks down at her small watch, checking the time. "No, but we better go now. He said he'd meet us out there."
Jean whips his head around to stare at Eren, his eyes wide with surprise. "What do you mean we? Yeager's not coming with us."
Mikasa gives him a blank look, "I told you about this yesterday. Eren and Levi are coming with us."
"Yeah, but I thought you were kidding."
"Well then that's your own fault," She shoots back.
Jean opens his mouth, ready to say something else, but she cuts him off with a glare.
"Look, Eren is anxious enough without you saying shit to him. Now we're going to be late if we don't leave now," She walks to the exit, not looking back to see if the two men follow her.
They manage to get half way to Mikasa's car before Jean decides to bring the conversation back up. Elbowing Eren lightly in the side, he laughs, "So is this like a date?"
Eren doesn't look at him, "You and Mikasa are on a date, and I'm just going on an outing with a friend." He cringes at how lame that sounds.
"Ha whatever, Yeager," He teases, walking faster to catch up to Mikasa and wrap him arm around her shoulders.
Eren stares at their backs as they walk in front of him. Mikasa leans herself slightly into Jean's side, while his arm is securely placed around her shoulders.
They do look rather good together.
They all make it to Mikasa's car and Eren sits in the back. He's glad that the other two are too immersed in their own flirty conversation to notice him rubbing his sweaty palms repeatedly on the jeans covering his thin thighs.
Mikasa pulls into the makeshift dirt carpark for the carnival twenty minutes later. They walk the short distance up to the main entrance and pay for their tickets. As soon as they walk through the rolling gate they are immersed within the crowd of people waiting in line for rides and food. Mikasa leads them over to a spot near the entrance where there are less people, where they wait for Levi to show.
It's another ten minutes before Mikasa looks down at her watch again and frowns.
"So what time did he say he'd meet us here?" He asks, the nervous feeling in his stomach grows more sickening the longer he looks at Mikasa's expression.
"7 o'clock, which was ten minutes ago," she replies, double checking her watch.
"So why doesn't Yeager wait here, seeing as Levi is his date, and we go enjoy our night together," Jean pipes up.
Her expression twists into a scowl as she looks at him and states, "I'm not just going to leave him here." At the same time Eren mumbles, "It's not a date."
"Oh come on. He's a big boy, aren't you, Yeager?" Eren has the urge to punch the guy, but doesn't think it would be all that appropriate.
"It's fine, you guys go. I'll just wait for him here a little longer," He replies, attempting to brush the whole thing off.
"Like hell you are, you're coming with us," She grabs him by the wrist tightly, pulling him along behind her as they walk into the crowd. "If Levi decides to show up, then he can come and find us himself."
Jean mutters something under his breath that neither of them can quite make out. Eren shoots him a glare anyway.
An hour passes before Eren decides to voice his desire to leave.
From the moment Mikasa stated that Levi was ten minutes late, Eren knew that he wouldn't be seeing the raven haired man that night. But still he held out just the tightest sliver of hope that he would.
Jean groans as soon as the words leave Eren's mouth.
"It's fine, I think I've had enough here anyway, we'll all leave," Mikasa says, walking towards Eren.
Jean grabs hold of her hand to stop her from taking any steps closer to Eren.
"If Yeager wants to go home, then we should let him. We're supposed to be on a date, and he's been third wheeling this whole time."
Mikasa whips her head around, glaring at him, "Don't be such a dick."
"Mikasa, its fine. I'll just get a cab back," She looks at Eren, as he stares at her.
She stares into his eyes, looking for any hint that he might not be okay with this, if he is he doesn't show it.
Sighing, she says, "Are you sure, Eren?"
"Yes, now please go on and enjoy your night. I'll see you two back at the dorm," He gives them both a small smile.
They both return his wave before turning around and walking further into the carnival. Eren watches their backs until they are out of side before letting out a harsh sigh and collapsing onto the bench beside him.
He leans his head back against the metal fence behind him and closes his eyes. To anyone passing by he would look like he is recovering from one of the rides, and he'd like to keep it that way. He knows he should head out to the front of the grounds and hail a cab, but he can't seem to find the motivation he needs to move. Instead he nestles himself further into the wooden bench, pulling his jacket tighter around him for warmth, and stays there.
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Eren's been sitting on this bench for a while, he checks his phone for the time, 9:40pm. He's been sitting on the bench for almost half an hour and still Levi is a no show. He's not really sure what he had expected.
Perhaps Levi would show up and maybe Eren would buy him fairy floss, because the weather is too cold for snow cones, and they would go on whatever rides interested the both of them. And maybe Levi would make Eren go on 'The Claw' that spins side to side and upside down, just so he can hear him squeal. And afterwards they would walk through the side show section and Eren would show off his shooting skills in front of Levi, and Levi's eyes would light up when Eren hands him a giant teddy bear he's won, that's bigger than the man himself. And he would try and carry it under one arm, while holding onto Eren's hand tightly as they stroll around the rest of the carnival, and everything would be perfect.
Eren would like to say that he wasn't at all let down that this didn't happen, but really as unrealistic as it is, it was all he wanted.
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Mikasa and Jean find Eren slumped forward on a bench his head resting in his hands, two hours after they left him to go and do their own thing.
His phone sits beside him, opened up to Levi's contact but shows that no communication has ever gone on between the two. Mikasa shuts it and sits down next to him, placing her hand on his shoulder.
"Eren?"
He makes no move to show that he's heard her.
She shakes his shoulder slightly, "Eren, what are you doing?"
He lifts his head, rubbing his hands slowly over his face as he looks at her.
"Eren, why didn't you just go home?"
"I meant to, but I ended up sitting here and the time just seemed to pass by."
"Well come on then, we're heading home now."
She grabs Eren's wrist in a tight grip and practically drags him to her car. When they're all seated and she's driving back to the university, Eren speaks up.
"So how was your guy's night, anyway?"
Mikasa's hands tighten around the steering wheel slightly, but still manages to say in a calm, level voice.
"It was good."
Jean says nothing, and Eren decides that he'll ask Mikasa about it another time.
They arrive back at the university, having managed to not say anything else between them the whole car ride, Eren even found himself missing their nauseating flirting. Mikasa pulls back into her original spot and the three of them begin walking back to the dorm. They're almost to Building H when Eren changes direction, instead walking away from them towards Building K.
"Eren, where are you going?" Mikasa calls out to him from the doorway of building H, Jean is nowhere in sight.
"There's something I need to do," He yells back, giving her a small wave and continuing on his way.
Eren stops outside the doors to Building K, staring at the blinking black box on the wall with hard eyes. Realising he can't get in without a key he sighs, resting his head against the glass door. He really should have thought this plan through more.
Just as he is about to turn around and make his way back to his own building a flash of blonde catches his eye through the door. He turns back placing his face against the glass to get a better look and sure enough there is Erwin, making his way down the staircase.
"Erwin," He shouts, hitting his palm against the glass to get the man's attention. He hasn't had that much contact with Erwin, but he hopes the guy will help him out anyway.
The tall man looks over to the door, cringing slightly in disgust as he sees Eren's breath fogging up the glass. He makes his way over, placing a hand on the handle and opening it inwards. Eren almost falls flat on his face before Erwin's hand is gripping his shoulder, steadying him.
"Can I help you with something?" He asks, raising one of his thick eyebrows.
"I came to see Levi. Is he here?" Eren hadn't even thought of the possibility of the shorter man not being here, he wants to talk to him while he still has this fire in his gut.
"Yeah, I think he's up in his room," The blonde replies, gesturing to the staircase.
He doesn't voice so much as a thank you, before he's barrelling up the staircase.
"You remember which room it is, right?" His voice calls after him.
He keeps moving forward, because yes, yes he does.
He stands outside Levi's dorm room trying to collect himself.
Should he be doing this?
Is this a good idea?
Is he about to get punched?
He pushes all those thoughts to the back of his head because, Levi stood him up and that's all there is to it.
He raises his shaking hand to the door, knocking harshly upon the solid wood. He waits a minute before he hears feet walking on the other side of the door. The door is suddenly pulled open inwards and Eren opens his mouth to speak before realising Levi is already midsentence.
"For the last time, Hange, I don't want to watch one of your home videos with you."
The man's eyes widen when he realises that Eren is the one standing in front of him. Eren feels his face heat up as he stares down at the man, his mouth hanging open. Levi stands in front of him, water droplets falling from the ends of his wet hair and onto his broad shoulders. Eren watches them as they trail down the dips of Levi's abs before running out of sight. The brunette lets his eyes wander further down, noticing Levi is wearing jeans, button undone and barely staying up on his slender hips. Eren can see the top of the man's briefs on full display. He stands so close that Eren can feel the heat coming off his body, more evidence of the shower he's obviously just had. Eren tries his best not to think of Levi in the shower. His eyes make their way back up to meet Levi's, for once not even caring at being caught staring, because fuck, is this guy some kind of god? Levi smirks causing Eren to physically gulp and slowly close his mouth.
"Oh it's just you. So what brings you to my room, Eren Yeager?" He asks casually, leaning against the doorframe.
His muscles flex and tighten as he shifts position slowly; this guy knows exactly what he's doing.
Eren can hardly remember his own name let alone come up with an answer to the question he's just been asked, not when he's in the same vicinity as the half-naked man. He can only blink and nod, not having any idea of what he's agreeing to.
Levi's cold eyes take in the younger boy's expression, before he sighs and ushers him into his room.
"Go and sit down, I'll be there in a second."
He follows Levi's words without hesitation; his legs carrying him down the hallway into the kitchen without him consciously telling them to. He sits down with a thud onto one of the wooden chairs; the haze in his mind beginning to dissipate the longer Levi is out of the room. He thinks about Levi's question now that his mind is clear. Obviously he knows the reason why he's here, and the second Levi comes back into the room, hopefully clothed, Eren is going to let him know to.
As if on cue, Levi walks casually into the room. Eren's not sure if he's happy or not about no additions being made to Levi's attire except for the small towel he is now running through his dark hair. Eren gulps again, taking a breath to steady himself. He keeps his eyes trained onto Levi's though every fibre in his being is urging him to look down. He grips the edge of the table, the painful strain in his fingers gives him something else to focus on.
"You never showed up," He states, he knows that if he hesitates any longer this isn't going to happen.
"Oh yeah, something came up," Levi replies, attempting to brush the topic away.
"What?" Eren inquires, keen to hear his excuse.
Levi raises a thin eyebrow at Eren's tone, "Why should I tell you?"
Are they seriously going to play this game again?
"Because I waited for you. Don't you think I deserve an explanation?" Eren asks, cursing himself for sounding whiny, but he can't help it.
Levi looks at him for a long moment, as if he's debating with himself whether to tell Eren the truth, or allow them to keep going in circles. A small glint passes through his eyes, before he smirks.
"I get sick on carnival rides."
"Bullshit, you asshole," Eren yells, standing up from his chair and slamming his hands on the table in a rush of anger.
Levi stands up straighter, surprised at the brunette's sudden action. Perhaps this night meant more to him that he had expected.
He looks down at the brunette. Should he tell Eren the truth? The truth that's so unbelievably ridiculous he's sure to laugh in his face. Perhaps he'll tell him, because he's sure Eren won't believe him anyway. And at least if he doesn't, then that's not Levi's problem.
"I'm terrified of clowns."
Though he says it in a tone that he doubts Eren will have any hope of believing.
"You expect me to believe that?" Eren asks, looking at Levi as if he's insane.
"Believe what you want, it's of no concern to me," He brushes it off, as if what he said wasn't really a big deal.
Eren looks at him pointedly. "Why can't you just tell me why you didn't show?"
"Why does it matter to you so much?"
Eren raises one eyebrow, "Is that a serious question?"
Levi ignores him, instead opting for,
"Look Eren Yeager, you came here for one thing and one thing only," He moves taking a step closer.
"You didn't come here to talk or to find out why I didn't show up; no you came here for me." He stands so close to Eren that the taller boy can feel his legs brushing against his own. "And if you stop talking for one second," He grabs the back of Eren's head pulling him down so they're at eye level. His breath brushing against Eren's dry lips. "You might just get what you came for."
Eren doesn't have time to react before Levi's lips are pressed firmly against his. His eyes widen at the sudden contact, not sure how much he's allowed to do in this situation. But when Levi doesn't pull away he boldly grabs him by the hips and sits them both back on the chair, pulling Levi down onto his lap. He lets out a grunt as he connects with Eren's lap, Eren keeps his hands wrapped around his back forcing Levi to straddle him. Eren feels pulling on the back of his scalp, which is not all together uncomfortable, as Levi grips his hair tightly between his fingers.
Eren moves his hands from their position on Levi's back, now that he's sure the older man is staying where he is, and trails them down to his hips. He gives a quick squeeze before boldly running his hands over Levi's torso. The muscles are taut, the pale skin pulled tightly over them, and Eren can feel the lines and dips as his fingers brush over the flesh. He places one hand on the back of Levi's neck, pulling the short hairs there, Levi let's out the most arousing sound Eren has ever heard. Eren has had other sexual experiences before of course, but somehow this feels different. He's never been so turned on by another man before; somehow Levi is capable of bringing out a somewhat animalistic side of Eren that he never knew he had. He wants to take Levi right here on this chair, have him writhing and moaning on top of him, but he knows that won't happen. Levi doesn't seem like the submissive type. If anyone is going to become a moaning begging mess, it's going to be him, he's has no doubt.
Levi's body shudders as Eren continues to run his fingers over him. He disconnects their lips, placing his lips against Eren's neck and biting playfully in response. Eren lets out an audible moan now that his lips are free; he angles his head away from Levi, allowing the man more access his neck.
His hands move to Eren's shoulders, pulling the jacket off his arms before shoving his hands under Eren's shirt, pulling it harshly up and away from the younger man's body. His lips leave Eren's neck for only a second to allow him to pull the shirt over his head before he continues his assault. He grinds down into Eren's lap; feeling just how hard the man underneath him is. Eren moans again, thrusting his hips up to meet Levi's in an effort to get more friction. Levi holds back his own moan, not wanting to let the younger man know how much he affects him. He smirks against Eren's neck instead, pleased with the reactions he's getting.
Eren's trying to get Levi to meet his lips again, when the man abruptly lifts himself off him, standing in front of Eren who's slumped slightly in the chair. He grabs Eren's hand and pulls him along behind him. Eren stumbles along willingly as they walk down the short hallway to what he knows is Levi's bedroom. He can feel himself getting harder at the thought of what they're about to do.
This is not at all what Eren had expected when he'd begun banging against the door to the dorm building, waiting for anybody who would allow him to enter; it was only by a stroke of luck that Erwin had been nearby. Even when he entered Levi's dorm room he was only expecting to chew him out about not showing up for their scheduled 'date' and then he would leave and vent to himself about Levi's attitude in his own dorm before he fell asleep. He did not expect to be on the verge of having sex with the man. And as much as the idea excites him, there is a small unwavering part of him that's terrified.
He's about to open his mouth when Levi pulls him into the room and shoves him forcefully down onto the bed. He lands roughly on his back; his head hitting the pillows behind him. He stares up at Levi as he looms over him, his grey eyes hard and surprisingly clear, his hips pin Eren down as he straddles his waist. Due to Levi's short size Eren had expected the man to be fairly light, but having him sitting on him now, he finds him to be surprisingly heavy. Though the man is rather muscular so he shouldn't be surprised that he's heavier for his size.
Levi leans down and runs his lips over Eren's neck again, he feels something hot and wet run over his skin. Levi's tongue. Goosebumps breakout as the cool air in the room hits the wet spot on his neck, causing a pleasurable shiver to run through his body. He vaguely notices Levi's body moving lower on his own, his hands moving over Eren's stomach towards the waistband of his pants. As Levi's hands find it and begin to run under, the hesitant feeling in Eren returns. He doesn't voice this straight away, instead allowing Levi to remove his pants completely, leaving him in just his boxers. Levi wastes no time in beginning to remove those as well, and Eren knows if he doesn't say something now he won't be getting another chance.
Levi's not looking at him as he begins to pull his boxers down, and Eren snaps.
"Levi, wait!" He says loudly, pulling himself out from under him.
Levi topples to the side before he regains his balance and sits at the end of the bed on his knees, his face contorted in confusion.
"Please, can we just stop for a second?" He asks, staring into Levi's questioning eyes.
He looks at him for a moment, his head tilting to the side as his eyes scan over Eren's mostly exposed body.
"Don't tell me you're a virgin."
Eren's eyes grow wide, "What? No of course I'm not. I just -,"
"You just what?"
"I don't think this is a good idea," He shyly bows his head, hoping that he hasn't just ruined everything.
"Okay."
His head snaps up to see Levi shrug before he gets off the bed.
"What?"
He turns his head, eyes boring into Eren's, "I'm not about to make you do something you don't want to do. I'm not that kind of guy."
"You mean you're not disappointed?" Perhaps everything isn't ruined.
Levi shrugs again, "I'm a little disappointed sure, but it's not a big deal."
Eren moves so he's sitting on the edge of the bed, he stares up at the man his eyes studying his face for any resentment. "And you're sure?"
Levi's expression twists into annoyance, "Yes I'm sure. I'm not going to do that. If you don't want to do it then it's fine, I'm not about to force you."
Eren sighs, releasing the breath he was holding, "Okay."
"Okay."
Eren gets off the bed, very aware that he is currently naked except for his boxers while Levi is still half dressed in his dark jeans. He grabs his jeans off the floor and begins to make his way out of the bedroom, leaving Levi to follow after him. He grabs his shirt off the ground where Levi chucked it and folds it over his arm.
"What are you doing?" Levi's voice questions from behind him.
"I'm getting my clothes so I can leave?" It comes out like a question. Should he not be doing so?
"It's pretty late so just stay here," He says as he walks over to the kitchen sink.
"A-Are you sure?" Eren stutters, staring at the man's back.
Levi turns back around, two glasses of water in his hands. He gives Eren an incredulous look, "Just because we're not having sex doesn't mean that you can't stay here."
Eren places his shirt over the back of the chair, unsure, "If that's okay?" He's still phrasing things as questions; he mentally kicks himself for being so conservative.
"Just get back into the bedroom," Levi orders, following behind Eren so he moves faster.
Eren sits on the edge of the bed, watching as Levi sets the glasses of water on the small beside table before removing his jeans revealing the briefs Eren had gotten a glimpse of earlier, and walks back to the wall, flicking off the light.
Eren is all too conscious that Levi is one article of clothing away from being naked in the same room as him, and it should have made Eren feel better about his own clothing situation, but it doesn't, instead he can feel himself getting worked up again. And due to what happened earlier there is no way he can be thinking about that.
The bed dips as Levi crawls onto it, moving to the side closest to the wall and climbing under the thick duvet. He looks over at Eren who is still sitting on the edge of the bed; he hooks his finger into the band of his boxers pulling them towards him.
"Hey, what are you doing?" Eren asks loudly, moving away from Levi's fingers.
"Lie down, and go to sleep," He answers, rolling around to face the wall as Eren finally lies back and makes himself comfortable.
"Thanks for this, Levi," He says quietly into the dark room.
"Yeah."
Eren closes his eyes.
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Notes:
I feel you Levi, they're terrifying creatures. *Shudder*
