AU: this is a bit shorter chapter, but my sister forced me off the computer, so i had to hurry. Sorry if its not as good.
Chapter 10
Confused Thoughts
I woke up to a slight noise during Sunday night. My eyes widened and adjusted to the darkness of my room. I hurriedly sat up and turned on my bed side lamp. I looked all around my dim room. There
was nothing. But I knew something or someone has been in my room, I just had a feeling. Plus, I've always been a light sleeper.
I sighed frustrated. Why is he now haunting my dreams every night. Before I awoke suddenly I remember my vividly GOOD dream I had before.
I was in a clearing that was all grass. The sun was blaring down over my head. I felt the heat seep into my core. Then all of a sudden I saw a silhouette in the shadows of the trees surrounding me.
"Who's there?" I asked slightly frightened. The person merely walked out into the sun light. The creature dazzled me because it…sparkled? Like millions of diamonds. But It couldn't be true. But not even as my
thought was finished the person- or should I say Edward- was in front of me. He was so fast.
"Ronnie," He breathed.
"Edward?" I asked confused. But all too soon his beautiful demeanor turned to one of a demon with razor fangs. "Please, Edward, its me, Ronnie."
"I told you I was the bad guy." he stated.
"I know that's not true." I said looking into his now black eyes. "Edward, I- I lo-love you, please."
His face automatically turned to one of calm. "I'm bad for you."
"Please, stay Edward."
Then I was awakened by that horrible little creak from a floorboard. Ugh, and it was just getting good. I know I shouldn't be thinking this, but my dream-self admitted the truth. I truly love Edward
Cullen, vampire or not.
When I snapped out of my daze I realized I was staring blankly at the wall. "Great, now your gazing at walls with not purpose. I truly think I am going crazy." I sighed. "see, now I'm even talking to
myself." I groaned while I fell back down onto my pillow…I could've sworn I heard a chuckle, probably my imagination.
I stared blankly to the front of the classroom of my Spanish class, while Ashley tried to tell me gossip. I don't even think she knew I was ignoring her. Well, its not my fault that there's a lot on my mind
at the moment.
Finally the bell rang for lunch. "Hey, Ronnie, so are you going to the Spring Formal?" she asked giddy.
I looked into her hopeful brown eyes. "No, sorry, I'm going to Seattle that week."
"Oh, cant you go another time?" she asked curious for gossip.
"I cant, I'm… meeting a family friend there." I lied badly, but she seemed to buy it.
"Oh, well do you want to go with Natalie and me this weekend to shop for dresses? You can be our critic." she asked when Natalie walked up to join us.
"Yeah, Ronnie, you should come." she encouraged.
"Umm…I'll have to ask my mom and dad, but it will probably be an okay." I said. It would get my mind off of him.
We all walked into lunch and took our regular seats. I looked at the Cullen's table like normally, but noticed the short black haired on, Alice, smiling widely at me. I attentively smiled back, unsure. Then
her head whipped to Edward and it looked like they were arguing about something. Edward looked over at me shrugging a little, his face emotional. Hmm…wonder what that was about?
Natalie, Mark, and Charlie walked with me to Biology like normal. When I walked into the room my heart jumped. It always does, everyday, because Edward is simply sitting in his chair. Its ridiculous, I
know.
I sat by him, like I normally do, and looked at him only to find him starring at me. "What?" I asked somewhat rudely. "Oh, sorry, that sounded rude." I blushed.
"Its fine, I shouldn't be starring anyways." he said calmly…still staring. Is there something on my face? Oh, I hope not.
"Do I have something on my face?" I asked nervously trying to hide my face.
His eyes widened a bit. "Oh, nothing, nothing at all." he said rushed.
"Oh okay, good." I smiled glad. "So were you and Alice arguing at lunch?" I asked simply staring straight ahead.
I saw him face me from the corner of my eye. "We just had a little disagreement, is all."
"About what?" I asked before I thought it through. "Sorry, its not my business."
"Perhaps." he murmured. I looked to his calculating face. It almost seemed like the argument was about me.
The rest of the day went by rather fast, and unentertaining. I got home before Charlie and Lorraine, which must be a record, since my truck is much slower than their car. I hopped out, grabbing my
book bag on the way. Then I finally noticed all the cars on our street.
I cautiously and nervously walked up to the front door and immediately heard chaos. Oh, please don't have the team over, dad. I walked in quietly, not wanting to get caught. But of course that's never
the case. I was immediately thrown over someone's shoulder and landed in the kitchen where everyone was eating an early dinner. The whole Team was there. Great.
After a very entertaining dinner and game of football in the back yard, I headed up for bed. I hope I dream about Edw-…no bad. I scolded myself. I cant…maybe I can…I LIKE him A LOT. Do I love him?
No…Maybe…Yes… oh who knows? I'm terribly confused right at this moment. But it would be nice if I did dream about him…No!…Yes… I give up. I sighed tiredly and drifted off into my Edward-filled
dreams.
As you can tell Ronnie is very conflicted and confused with her feelings...but hopefully in the next chapter she'll realize the truth that she's been hiding in herself. REVIEW :P
