:D Okay, I know, it's been FOREVER since I've updated. XD Sorry sorry sorry! School has taken a turn for 'crazy' after I started my AP English class -dies just thinking about it- So....much...homework....And to add to that, I HAVE to get all A's this semester! (Because I got a C in my math class LAST semester, my mom is on a war path.) :D Of course, I managed to pull all A's so far! (90, 91, and 92 percent) but since this is only from the first six weeks, I still might die! :( And my Yearbook teacher has gone INSANE! Seriously. She takes out all her problems on us, and our grades. She thinks I'm giving her 'attitude'. Pfft. And yeah, I kinda am, but only after she gave attitude to me!

....I realize that a lot of you don't care about this. XD

Okay okay, basically, I'm uber-busy lately, but I'll really try finishing this story. I know exactly how to end this and all, I just have to sit down and write it. And I've been focusing on my actual orginal work lately. :D I'm almost done! And I have 60,000 freaking words!!!! -dances-

Okay okay, moving on. Just go on and read!

I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone

Stay with me, this is what I need, please?

Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?

I am nothing now and it's been so long
Since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope

This time I will be listening.

This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours
(My heart, it beats for you)

(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is yours
(Please don't go, please don't fade away)
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is...

- Paramore, My Heart

Jasper

After explaining everything to Edward, I could tell that Bella had had enough drama for one day. She had done so much in one day, and was mentally exhausted.

"I'm going to take Bella home," I announced, standing up slowly, bringing Bella up with me. "Charlie is going to be home soon, and you look like you'll collapse at any moment."

Bella sighed, too tired to fight me on the subject. "I guess you're right….and I still have to cook dinner…"

"No way," I said firmly. "You're going straight to bed."

"But Charlie -" Bella began to protest.

"Charlie has leftovers from dinner last night." Bella couldn't argue with that, and remained silent. I turned back to my family. "I'm going to call Jacob after I get Bella home. I'll tell them that we have Edward, and his mind reading will be a big advantage." I was thinking of it in a warfare type of way - Edward would be a valuable asset.

Alice sighed audibility. I know she was frustrated with her blindness, but it was unavoidable.

I carried Bella to the garage, as her eyes were barley able to stay open, and slid her into my Jaguar and buckled her up. As we drove away from my house, I was finally able to escape Edward's pain.

Though I could feel he understood that Bella didn't love him, and that he shouldn't either, he still did. It would take a while before he was able to look at the two of us without that stab of pain, and flare of jealousy.

Bella drifted in and out of sleep on the way to her house. When I finally arrived to her house, Charlie's cruiser was already there. I carried her into her house, skillfully opening and shutting the door. Charlie had found the leftovers, and was eating in front of the T.V.

"Bella?" he asked, worry in his voice. He stood and walked to where I was, about to walk up the stairs. "Bella! What happened?"

I talked in a soft voice. "Bella is just tired…let me put her to bed, and I'll explain." Charlie waited for me at the bottom on the stairs.

I gently lowered Bella into her bed, and took off her shoes and jacket. Then I covered her up with her comforter. "Jasper…" she mumbled. I wasn't sure if she was sleep talking, or actually awake.

"Bella," I said, kissing her on the cheek.

"I love you, Jasper," she said, eyes closed.

"I love you, Bella." I smoothed back her hair from her face, and kissed her again. Her heart sped up for a moment, the slowed down again. I liked to think her heart beating for only me, and that it had never done so for another. Even as I thought this thought, I pushed it away. I knew that Bella loved me; only me. I turned around, and saw Charlie had actually followed me up, and was standing in the door frame.

I walked over to him, and shut Bella's door halfway. Once we were in the kitchen, Charlie asked me what was going on.

Sighing, I told him of today's events, or at least some of them. "Edward returned today…" Charlie stiffened. "He and I…we sort of got into a fight, and Bella told us to stop, and that we were idiots…" I laughed a little. Only Bella could have gotten us to stop fighting. "Well, she confronted him, and told him everything that she has been feeling in the past few months. It was very hard for her, of course, but she got through it. I think that they will be able to be friends…just as soon as Edward falls out of love with her. Which will be hard. I know I could never….

"Anyway. I think that she is mentally and emotionally exhausted. She'll be fine after some sleep." I felt Charlie's hand on my shoulder, a fatherly gesture, not one of a police chief who meant business.

"Thanks, Jasper," said Charlie gruffly. "For taking care of Bella. I had never felt so helpless. That first week after he left….she wouldn't eat or drink, or move. But then, when she finally snapped out of it when Renee came to take her to Florida, I almost thought what she was doing then was worst. On the outside, she was fine. But it was the little things….she didn't listen to music, or read, or watch T.V. She wouldn't talk and was alone a lot…

"I was just about at the end of my rope when you showed up." I looked at Charlie with new eyes now. Of course I had always had a peek at his emotions, but to hear him say them out loud, was much more personal. "I'm thankful for you, Jasper. You really helped Bella. And I know that you're different than Edward. I don't know why….you just are. You have this way with her…where you seem to know exactly how she's feeling, and how to help her. She has light in her eyes know, and color in her cheeks for the first time….she's happy."

Charlie squeezed my shoulder. "I'm not usually one to be poetic, or religious, but I think….I think that, especially in her eyes, that you are the closest to heaven that she'll ever be." I stared, dumbstruck, at Charlie. Of course he was right, that was exactly how Bella felt when she was with me. But Charlie…I never pegged him as particularly observant, but yet, here he was, voicing some of Bella's, and my, most deepest feelings.

"I feel the same, Charlie. She's more than I…" I thought back to all the face of people I killed. Their feelings just before they died - the moment I ended their lives - their fear, their confusion. "She's more than I deserve," I said finally.

Charlie shook his head. "I don't believe that." He squeezed my shoulder one last time, and we shared one last look.

"Thanks, Charlie. I better be going…" I was anxious to get back up to Bella's room.

He nodded. "Say hello to your family for me."

"I will." With that, I walked out the door. I sped to the side of the house, just below Bella's window, when I remembered I had to call Jacob. I pulled out my cell phone and dialed his number.

Jacob answered on the second ring. "Hello?"

"Jacob," I greeted. "We have some news. Edward just arrived…" I couldn't feel people's emotions through the phone, but I could tell that Jacob became stiff with my words. "Don't worry, Bella talked to him…things are turning out ok. But with his mind reading, catching Victoria should go even more smoothly. I just thought you should tell the pack. And that we should all meet soon, to come up with a plan."

I was still thinking of where to meet with the pack that was neutral territory. "Maybe the baseball field - I mean where we were when Laurent was killed. Tomorrow night, around midnight?"

"That sounds fine. I'll pass it on to Sam and the others," agreed Jacob. "And Embry is on his way to stand guard outside Bella's house."

"That's good," I told him. "I'm going to go. I want to make sure Bella is ok. I'm sure she might have some vivid dreams tonight…"

"Okay. Bye Jasper."

"By Jacob."

When I climbed through Bella's window, she looked calm enough. She wasn't speaking in her sleep, which was a good sign. Nightmares caused the most chatter.

Sometime in the early morning, though, she did begin to speak. But it wasn't so much of a nightmare, and more of a dream that had just become a reality.

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Bella

My dream was so similar to the actual day's events, me, finally confronting Edward, that when I woke up that morning, I wasn't sure if it had actually happened. I had to ask Jasper.

"Did I really…?" I asked the moment I rubbed the sleep out of my eyes. He help me close to him, though there was a blanket between us so I wouldn't freeze at night.

"Yes, Bella. You did." He smiled, showing all of his brilliant teeth.

I breathed a sigh of relief, falling against Jasper.

Of course school was…interesting. Jasper drove me in his Jaguar, and we parked next to Edward's Volvo. He and Alice were waiting for us.

Before I opened the door, I leaned in and gave Jasper and passionate kiss. Call it my own form of 'liquid courage'. I knew that today would be bad in the gossip factor. Then I got out of the car and walked with Alice and Edward to class.

It turned out that Edward had transferred out of most of the classes we had together, because at the beginning of the year, we had had all of them together. There were a few that he couldn't get out of, like our first and the one just after lunch.

"It's probably for the best," he said to me as we sat down in English. It was strange, talking to Edward. It was almost like he had never left. He looked the same as he had before, gorgeous, but I just didn't feel the same. Whenever we talked, even about the most humdrum things, my heart would skyrocket. But now…nothing. Of course my heart was beating fast, but that was because everyone was staring at the two of us.

"The best?" I asked, confused.

"Bella…" he stared at me, and lowered his voice so only I could hear, though I could see that Jessica was trying to hear. "I still…love you." His face was pained. "But I know I shouldn't. It will be better for me, for us, when I don't feel so strongly for you. But I won't be able to do that by completely distancing myself from you. That would never work. It's best that we remain as close as possible….but in a friendship, or a sibling like way. I would never want to lose any sort of relationship with you." He smiled sadly. "After all…I believe you'll be my sister one day anyway."

I blinked in shock at what Edward said, but didn't have a chance to elaborate, because Mr. Dunham began to speak. I did think about it, though.

It seemed like Edward was really trying to not love me. I couldn't think of why though. I thought that he would be able to fall out of love with me easily. I didn't see why he loved me so much, even in the time we were together. It didn't make sense that Edward loved - still loved - me, or that Jasper loved me now.

I knew why I loved them. They were perfect, really. Even when Edward left, he was perfect. I believed that he was even before I knew he was leaving to protect me. And Jasper…Jasper was a true southern gentleman perfect. How could someone deserve just one love like either Edward or Jasper, let alone two?

And Edward was right, like usual. I didn't want to completely end our relationship. I wanted to be friends….I never wanted to see him leave. A world without Edward was a sad place. A world without Jasper was a sad place. Even thinking about it made my eyes tear up. Basically, a world without the Cullens or Hales was a ghastly thing to even imagine, let alone live through. Which I had. (Not very well, though.)

But what Edward said….that one day I would be his sister. It was a strange thought. Most 'brothers' and 'sisters' didn't love like Edward and I had. But he was right, even if it scared me.

Of course he was insinuating that Jasper and I…that we would get married. I gagged at the word: marriage. Ug. Renee had raised me to view it like that, of course. Or at least until I was twenty-five, minimum. And though I loved Jasper…I still didn't like the thought of marriage.

But he was also insinuating that I would be changed. Into a vampire. That would make me a part of the Cullen family in a even bigger sense than me marrying into it. Then we would be brother and sister…especially if Carlisle changed us. Carlisle changed Edward, and they shared a paternal like bond, just like the others that were changed by Carlisle.

The bell rang then. I had spent all of the class thinking about this. I said good bye to Edward, still ignoring the stares, and started off to my next class. Suddenly Jessica appeared next to me.

"Bella!" she exclaimed, a smile on her face. "How are you?"

"Fine," I answered, wary.

"That's great," she said grinning. "So, Edward's finally back. I'm sure that must be awkward. By the way, how did he take that you and Jasper were dating? I know that Alice is taking the news fine and all, but we haven't even seen Edward since he left."

Obviously, Jessica didn't really have a firm grim on the concept of 'tact'.

Jessica finally paused for a breath, and I took my chance to answer her. "He just returned from a boarding school. He wanted to return to live with his family. And we just got a chance to really talk about Jasper and I…and it's not really awkward. I mean, it is, but not completely." I tried to come up with the words that would make sense to an outsider like Jessica. "He's a good guy, Jessica. He just wants what's best for me, even if it isn't with him."

"Oh," Jessica blinked. We had just arrived in our class, which we shared. "Wow. I would have never…wow." I know she wanting me to tell her the worst, better gossip that way.

"Yeah," I smiled and walked to the corner of the classroom to sit with Alice.

At lunch Jasper came, as always. Ben and Angela were surprised to see Edward, just like most of the school, but after I explained everything to Angela in the class just before lunch, she greeted him warmly enough. He and Ben even chatted about cars, and Jasper, too.

The rest of the day went by in a similar way. I explained the story a few times to my closer friends, like Mike. But he didn't really understand like Angela did. Jasper picked me up and took me home. He also told me about meeting with the wolves tonight.

"Tonight?" I asked.

"Yes," he said, opening my car door and helping me out. "We're meeting at midnight in the baseball field."

"I want to go," I said immediately.

"No, Bella," said Jasper firmly. "You are staying home. Esme is going to stay with you in your room, and one of the younger wolves are going to be just outside your window."

"But -" I tried to argue.

"No buts." Jasper sighed and took my hand in his. He kissed my fingers, one by one. "Please, Bella," he begged. "I do not want you in the very same clearing that Laurent found you in. I don't want you in any of the woods, until Victoria is destroyed."

I guess I could see where he was coming from. But I wanted to go…. Then I saw the look in Jasper's eyes. Jasper's emotions always played across his face. I hadn't really noticed it before I really got to know him. He had always just been in the background, but once I began to love him, and know him like I did now, I noticed everything. The lines around his eyes when he was upset; the water-like look they had now, when he was scared - as if he was about to cry, if he could.

"Okay," I sighed.

Jasper smiled, the lines around his lips becoming more defined, and kissed me. "Thank you."

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Around 11:30 that night, I was still wide awake. Jasper kissed me goodbye as soon as Esme arrived in my room. I watched as he climbed gracefully out my window and paused for a moment to say something to the gigantic form of a wolf. Then he ran off into the forest.

"I'm sorry you can't go either, Esme," I said, not turning away from the window.

"It's okay, dear. It's only going to be a brief meeting, telling everyone what to do. I can get recapped later," said Esme. I didn't know what it was about Esme, but she made me feel like I was loved. Her voice just oozed 'motherly.'

I looked down at the wolf under my window. "Hey!" I whispered. Jake did say that wolves had super hearing. And it appeared so. I barley even said it louder than a whisper, but even in the dark I saw the wolf's ears perked up, and his head look up at me. "Sorry you had to miss the meeting."

I heard a soft whimper. Apparently, unlike Esme, he wanted to attend. "Sorry," I repeated. I paused. "Who are you anyway? Embry? Quil?" The wolf snorted. I couldn't even see him, but I knew he must be laughing, or whatever wolves did.

I sighed. "Can you transform for a second then, and climb up the tree? I want to know who I'm talking to, please."

A wolf like sigh came from under me. "He can't, sweetie," said Esme. I turned around. Esme was sitting in my old rocking chair. "His orders from the alpha are to remain in wolf form, and they cannot disobey the alpha." I heard the confirmation from the wolf.

Oh yeah, I remember Jacob mentioning that once. I sighed. "Okay, so you can't tell me who you are. Promise that you'll tell me if you see me when you're human, then?" There was a pause, then a small yelp that I took as a 'yes'. "Good night then, wolfie." There was a snicker.

I crawled into bed and talked to Esme for a while till I finally drifted off into a uneasy slumber.

I wasn't how long after I drifted off to sleep that two cold arms encircled me, but when then did, I suddenly felt safer, and fell into a deep sleep.

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:D Oh yeah, I just found a way to fit in the title! I'm that awesome. ^-^ Seriously, it just came into my head and I was like, "NO WAY!" -type type type-

Haha. So, who can guess who the wolf is? :D Just a hint: He's my favorite next to Jacob. :D

Okay, so, what did you think? Was it horrible? Amazing? Please, tell me! And I'll try my best to type up the next chapter. I already started....just have to buckle down!

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