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Elizabeth Forbes always followed a strict code ever since she was a child. Joanne Jenkins always disregarded it. Liz had to readjust her code many times over the years. Especially when she learned her own daughter was a vampire. A thing that she was always taught to believe was evil and had to be killed. She attempted to follow her sister's way of disregard. They always looked alike despite the two year difference between them. But one day, Joanne disappeared. No one besides Liz knew why. Joanne was attacked. Viciously; she left. When Joanne got pregnant, she didn't tell any of them. She just showed up with a British bloke on her arm and a one year old Lily on the other for Christmas grinning. Joanne liked to make a grand entrance. Elizabeth was shocked. So were the rest of the family. But they accepted them. They came each Christmas over the past few years. However, over time, the relationship became too hard to sustain. Especially since their father's death, which Lily somehow was blamed for.

Elizabeth pulled into the parking lot of the lodge. She looked at it. The last time she was here, she helped her sister get revenge on the man who attacked her. Joanne would have done it by herself but it was one of those things sisters do together. Murder was just in the family business. Liz snickered darkly at her thoughts and got out of the car, a gun on the inside of her black leather jacket. She decided appearing in police uniform or in a police car in this place would cause more trouble than wearing a push up bra and a mini skirt.

The inside was misty, a soft murmur of voices spread across it. Everyone stuck to their own corner of the inside bar. She spotted a blonde woman sitting on one of the stools by herself and looking around nervously. Liz took a deep breath and walked up to her sister confidently, ignoring the leers she was getting from around the room. She carefully placed her hand on the woman's shoulder who looked bewildered but hugged her as soon as recognition came on her face.

"Oh, Lizzie. I missed you so much." Liz hugged her sister back tightly.

"Me too." They broke away and Liz took in the sight of Joanne who looked fine. She looked as if the time had stopped for her. Haven't aged a bit since she was 25. That's how she looked. "Tell me what happened." Joanne stared at the White Russian in front of her silent. "Why did you leave Lily? Why do you need my help? What is going on?" Joanne gulped down the drink.

"I did something bad." She spoke softly.

"Yeah, I can figure that much out." Joanne ordered another drink.

"I sold her. I sold my little baby girl to get my husband back." Liz looked around frantically to see if anyone heard them. Joanne laughed bitterly. "Don't worry. It didn't work. Which means that I can claim Lily back."

"Who the hell did you sell her to?"

"This vampire we knew a while back, he came with his brother. They were very strong and old. I sold Lily to one of them. He said he'll help me. I always liked his brother more though. So did Lily. But when the love of my life came back, I had to kill him again because that wasn't my husband. That was something mangled. Evil. And I need your help to get Lily back. I'm gonna take her and run. Please Liz. Please help me." Elizabeth, as a mother, could never imagine doing to Caroline what Joanne did to Lily. But as Joanne's sister, she understood perfectly. Joanne always followed her love before any responsibilities. She just didn't have to until last year when that love died. And Lily paid the price for her mother's recklessness. But Liz understood Joanne very well. And she reluctantly gave in.

"Fine. I'll help. But after Christmas and the New Year, Joanne. Come to town in January." Joanne smiled sadly.

"Yeah. I should let her have some nice memories for now." She turned to Liz. "Want to have a drink? It's on me." Liz shook her head.

"I have a long drive back. Here." She took a small gun from her pocket and a small burner phone. "My number is already in there. JJ. Call." Joanne nodded and hid the objects in her bra. Liz gave her sister one last look before placing a kiss on the top of her head and walking out to get back home to her daughter for Christmas.

**Jenkins household**

It was Christmas day and I was having another one of my sessions at home with Damon whilst food was in the oven. Farrah left to play with her friends; she didn't like any of this. She thought it was really dumb of me what I was doing with the elder Salvatore. Currently his fingers were sliding closer to the inside of my thighs. I stopped kissing him and got up.

"Okay, we're done." He groaned in protest and pulled me back down rolling us on my bed so he was on top now. He started kissing my neck softly making me smile. "Damon, I told you. We are not gonna have sex." He raise his head and stared into my eyes intently. If he'd try to use compulsion on me right now I would bitch slap him with a crystal into the next century.

"Foreplay is not sex." He said seriously.

"If it involves touching my genitals, then it's sex." He groaned again.

"I could have you now if I wanted to." He murmured in my ear.

"But you won't." I whispered as his hand brushed over the skin of my stomach. "Because if you do, I will do something very, very bad." I gasped out as his lip stroked my collar bone.

"Why don't you want me to show you what great things can happen during sex?" His hand wandered to the button of my jeans.

"Because Damon, sex is a big part of my growing up. It's something I need to be ready for. When you died, you probably already did it with about fifteen women."

"Only 2." He muttered but moved his hand away. "Fine. But I need to release my sexual frustration somehow."

"Buy yourself a hooker." I pushed him off me with one hand and walked out into the kitchen. He followed m.

"So, are me and Stefan invited to this?" I looked at him from the oven surprised.

"I didn't know you guys celebrated Christmas."

"We don't. At least not anymore. We used to. A while back." I shrugged at his answer.

"Yeah, sure. There is plenty of space for everyone." Damon looked around the kitchen disbelieving. I inwardly rolled my eyes. "Well, there will be." Realisation came on his face as he remembered my magic. My phone vibrated. It was Caroline. I put a finger to my lips indicating Damon to stay silent. He had no problem with that and started eating some of my cake. "Yello' cousin O?"

"Lily, I know this is last minute but do you think Elena and Jeremy could come to dinner as well?" I stared at the phone in amazement thinking I've heard wrong. My cousin told me not that long ago to stay away from her best friend but now she is asking if that girl can enter my house on a very important to me day. "I know what I said but they only have each other to celebrate it with and I want them to have more. I want them to know that they have family other than just themselves. Besides, you invited Rebekah and Matt."

"Sure Care, they can come."

"Yeah and Stefan. And with Stefan probably Damon." I tried to say something but she wouldn't let me. "And Bonnie and Tyler will come by later with their parents. Thanks so much Lils. Love ya!" She hung up on me. I look at Damon who was smirking . He sure does that a lot. I walked to my fridge.

"Guess, I have a lot more cooking to do."

**New Orleans, Louisiana**

Kol threw his brother on the desk breaking it in process and grabbed a baseball bat. Klaus quickly started getting up and blocked the bat coming fast at his head. Kol kicked Klaus in the stomach with a powerful force that send Klaus through the wall. Elijah sat bored on the couch with a terrified host sitting next to him.

"They always do this. It's tiresome really." He said to the man. Klaus jumped at Kol unhinging his teeth. Kol batted Klaus away like a ball through the window and jumped after him.

"I hope dear brother you're not taking it personally what I said about your witch. She was a real pleasure to taste." Klaus said with his blood pouring out of his mouth. Kol scowled and broke his brother's leg. "Why is it always me that gets beaten up?"

"Because you're the jackass." Elijah answered calmly. "But you should stop, Kol. Obviously she is not here and Klaus will not do you well as a punching bag." Kol appeared in front of the host and compelled him.

"Where is she?"

"Sh—sh—she left t—to LA—A." The man replied soiling himself. Kol straightened himself annoyed. Klaus appeared bloody next to him.

"She obviously didn't tell him the truth. Klaus, I thought you had her under constant watch." Elijah said to his brother who pressed his lips into a thin line displeased.

"I did. Her location was very important to me. And how did she get away? That worries me." Klaus looked hungrily at the young man in front of him. "Are we done with him?" Elijah nodded and walked away leaving the screams of an innocent man behind him.

**Jenkins house**

The dinner went by pleasantly. Damon kept on throwing little glances at Elena. Not that I care. He can be in love with his brother's girlfriend. Why should I care? I shouldn't. I don't. He was sitting next to Bonnie who I was having a conversation with. Stefan, oblivious to his brother's attention to his girlfriend, joined in and we had a good debate about Plato's analogy of the cave. I hate that analogy. Plato is a very confusing man who obviously was in deep need of a shag because his analogy was just a cobweb of things that didn't make sense. Stefan shot back at me and criticised me for thinking Aristotle's idea of soul and body being two different things.

"It's like religion." He said shortly.

"You're going to criticise religion?" I asked him wanting to laugh. He nodded.

"Vampires don't have anything to do with God. That's all magic. There is something greater than God, Allah or even Buddah."

"Buddah's not a god." Bonnie interrupted him.

"I know, but people choose to follow them blindly because of their own free will."

"Who says there is free will, Stefan?" I asked him again. "Once a month, we go through our periods and our emotions are a bit off. That's a prime example of free will being just an illusion. It's—" I cut myself off and walked up to Farrah who was lying down on the couch whining quietly and panting, ignoring the questioning stares from the two. She was in pain. My eyes widened and I looked around. "SHIT. Does ANYBODY know the number for the vet?!" I asked them loudly. Everyone stopped their conversations and turned to look at me in grave silence. "YES. STARING AT ME USELESSLY WILL ANSWER MY QUESTION."

"Lily, Dr Reid is out of town for Christmas." Elena told me. I bit my lip and turned back to Farrah who was looking at me sadly. I patted her head.

"It's okay, baby. You're going to be okay. I'm here to help you. Caroline, I need you to grab some stuff for me." She was next to me in a flash. "I need fresh, clean towels, they are in the downstairs bathroom. An empty laundry basket and put some towels in there as well. Scissors from the second drawer on the right from the bathroom upstairs, sterilize them before hand. Iodine from underneath the sink in the kitchen, and there is this sucky thing there as well, sterilize that and wash it so it doesn't taste or reek of alcohol." She nodded and quickly gathered the things at vampire speed. I looked at Farrah who was in distress. How could I not see that my own dog was pregnant? How could she not tell me? Why was I so wrapped up in my own little world that I abandoned the one thing in this world I would gladly give my life for and not notice when her life changed. She was only two years old and already a mother. I smiled at her and petted her. Everyone behind me was murmuring softly as to not disturb Farrah. Caroline helped me when the first pup came. She looked as Farrah ripped the sack and the umbilical cord with her teeth and frowned in disgust but helped me clean the pup off after Farrah allowed us to and put a yellow ribbon on it. We then placed it at Farrah's nipple so the pup could nurse. I turned to the lot behind me. "You guys should go. This is going to take a whole night." No one left, they didn't want to go. They never witnessed dog birth before so they were looking excited.

"How do you know how to deal with this?" Caroline asked me after a while and put the yellow pup in the laundry basked as she registered a second one coming. I smiled at Farrah who was doing her motherly duty and cleaning the second pup.

"I delivered her."

**South Dakota**

A woman in a black hood was surrounded by a purple midst as she walked through the empty field. The grass wilted behind her. She smiled devilishly at that. A witch appeared in front of her.

"Stop. This is not the way to go. Killing her will do nothing to you." The witch said. The woman grunted and moved past her. "NEVINA. PLEASE. Your mind is already clouded with the sorceress magic. You are not thinking clearly!" The woman just kept walking. The witch disappeared and woke up in her room in Nevada State College gasping. The circle of young witches around her was looking at her worried. "She wouldn't listen. We can't do anything. The Bennet witch must face her on her own." The witches all sat in solemn silence praying to their ancestors to protect the young woman who had no idea what danger was coming her way.

**Mystic Falls**

The puppies were growing fast and healthily. I asked Farrah if she wanted me to give them away but she barked at me harshly. They were her firstborns that she would never give up. Bonnie and I were currently walking to the cemetery with Rebekah begging me to let her hold her the chest.

"For the last time. SOD OFF BEKAH!" I yelled at her.

"Oh please, Lily! I just want to hold it for a second." We arrived at the gates and I held out my hand to stop her. Bonnie stood behind me trying to hold in her laughter.

"No, you're not coming in with us."

"What? Why not?" Rebekah whined.

"One, this heart obviously is having some weird effect on you. Two, this is a cemetery. Where there are dead people who are paid respects to."

"I'm dead."

"Okay, the dead that stay in the ground and don't get up." She looked unhappy but walked off. "Wait by the car would ya?! You're our ride!" I shouted after her, she gave me the middle finger. Bonnie nearly doubled over in laughter. We walked to the more abandoned part of the cemetery where there weren't many gravestones. I put the chest on the ground and started putting the crystals down in a pentagon. Next I poured salt to make sure it looked like a pentagon. Bonnie took out her Grimoire and lit up the salt so it turned into a pentagon of fire. The crystals were unaffected. I stood up and walked over to her.

"So here is the incantation. It's supposed to annul the magic placed on it." She told me and passed me the book opening the chest and making the beating heart float in the air. I looked at incantation and nodded. "Okay, let's get this going." The Grimoire fell on the ground and we joined hands.

"Lustrationes spirituum, audi nostra placito. Annullare huius magicae. Sit nobis esse." We chanted. The Grimoire slowly started floating up. I felt a current of energy pass from Bonnie to me. "Lustrationes spirituum, audi nostra placito. Annullare huius magicae. Sit nobis esse." There was a small fire circle forming around the heart in the corner of my eye. "Lustrationes spirituum, audi nostra placito. Annullare huius magicae. Sit nobis esse." I finally started hearing my ancestors. The sorceress magic was pouring in. I think Bonnie was also starting to channel the witches because her eyes changed colour. Their magic was strong and very powerful. I was barely putting in an effort. I grabbed onto the crystal magic and pushed with the force of my mind the power to the fire. Bonnie did the same but she grabbed onto the witch magic only. She was trying to overpower me because that was her nature. Witches always wanted to be the top dog. Normally I wouldn't mind but this was killing her and barely grazing the heart. I connected with my ancestors who put all their powers in my body. The fire became larger than the both of us but we just kept on chanting. "LUSTRATIONES SPIRITUUM, AUDI NOSTRA PLACITO! ANNULLARE HUIUS MAGICAE! SIT NOBIS ESSE!" The heart exploded on us and we fell down.

"Ew. Chunks of heart on my shirt. Not cool." I looked to Bonnie who didn't get up. "Bonnie?" She didn't respond. I crawled over to her. She was knocked out unconscious and her skin was turning pale. "Shit. Bonnie. Bonnie, wake up." I shook her but it didn't work. I attempted to wake her up with a spell but it did nothing. Bonnie was out and her heartbeat was rapidly decreasing. "BEKAH! REBEKAH, I NEED HELP!" Rebekah appeared in front of me in a flash. "Take her to the hospital. NOW! I'll be there soon. Don't say anything." Rebekah picked Bonnie up with ease and disappeared. I packed up everything and looked inside the amber chest. It was empty. Hollow. It made me feel mournful. Like I've just killed a part of me. 'Bonnie.' The thought flashed in my mind to bring me back and get in the car. The only problem was that I couldn't bring myself to drive. I sat in the passenger seat and used magic to drive me to the hospital. It was really cool, it even was good at parking the car. I ran into the hospital, locking the car behind me looking for Rebekah. She was in the ER by Bonnie and breathed a sigh of relief when she saw me.

"The doctors are asking me questions and I keep on saying I don't know. Do something." I nodded and went up to the doctor who was treating Bonnie. Her heartbeat going back to normal. The doctor glared at me.

"You're another one of her friends? What drugs did you girls do?" He asked openly accusing us.

"Get Dr Fell now." He looked at me outraged.

"Excuse me? Listen to me, I will not be ordered around by a little girl who is clearly on some sort of acid."

"No, you listen. You get Dr Fell right now or I'll call your wife and tell her about that nurse you're screwing." I said to him pissed off aiming for the stereotype. He glanced at a nurse who was throwing us nervous looks at the reception and went to call Meredith. Bonnie's skin was slowly coming back to normal but she wasn't waking up. Meredith came shortly and when she saw Bonnie she put the curtains around us.

"What happened?" She asked quietly.

"A spell went right but it drained her. Can you do anything?" She glanced at Rebekah.

"If I can have some of your blood, yes." Rebekah nodded straight away. "I'll do some tests on Bonnie just to make sure that everything is alright. Some scans and blood tests. In the mean time, Rebekah, come with me. Lily, call her parents." They left and I sat by Bonnie's bed calling Caroline first. I told her what happened and she freaked out. So did Elena. They called Bonnie's parents though before coming. I sat there holding the unconscious girl's hand. Her pulse was stabilized but still weak. Meredith and Rebekah came back with Bonnie after a while. Bonnie was put in another room, we stayed with her. Meredith fed Bonnie some vampire blood and left to care for her other patients. We sat there in silence for a while. 'So fucking dumb. You knew she wouldn't be able to do this and yet you pushed her and you just kept on pushing and for what? And you broke your promise to Caroline! You didn't stay away from Damon because you're just a selfish git who just hurts everyone around her. No wonder my mother left me. After all, I'm a huge fuck up.' Mentally, I was planning my suicide. Elena and Caroline burst in through the door. Elena glared at me.

"Get out." She hissed. I didn't even hesitate; I walked out of that hospital as fast as possible. Rebekah in tow. In the parking lot we saw Stefan and Damon walking lazily at human speed. They weren't surprised to see me but surprised at how I looked. My suicidal mode must have been very visible then. I opened the car door to get into Rebekah's car but Damon slammed it shut and stood in front of me.

"What happened?" He asked me leaning in close. Normally this proximity would make me light headed but right now I just wanted to go into my bathroom and take out that razor blade I haven't used in years.

"I fucked up." I told him. "That's what happened. Move." He didn't. Just looked at Stefan.

"Can you handle Elena by yourself?"

"She's my girlfriend, Damon. I think I can manage." Stefan replied smugly and stalked off. Damon turned to Rebekah.

"I'll take her home. Leave." He said to her curtly. She narrowed her eyes at him but indeed left me alone in the parking lot. "What happened?" I closed my eyes trying to hold the tears back.

"I asked Bonnie to help me knowing full well this could hurt her. And it did. And I couldn't do anything. So I told Rebekah to take Bonnie to the hospital." He put his arms around me and pulled me in close. "Damon. I'm not in the mood tonight. You'd be better off trying to pick up a girl at a bar." My hands shaking attempted to push his off me. But it didn't work. He only tightened his hold on me against his chest. 'I don't deserve this. I don't want this. Why is this happening? I shouldn't be here. I should be dead. I should not exist anymore.' My thoughts were my own worst enemy but at that moment I couldn't grasp that. I just wanted to die for putting the nicest person I've ever met in danger.

"Stop trying to tell me what to do." Damon spoke softly. The first tear fell down my cheek with the second one slowly behind it.

"I am so sorry. I didn't want her to get hurt. I was being selfish. I didn't think." I mumbled clutching onto his jacket. He didn't say anything and let me cry quietly in his chest. We stayed like that for a while until I felt too tired to cry anymore. I pushed him away and wiped my face. "Thanks. I needed that." He nodded still looking at me troubled. Elena ran out into the parking lot.

"Damon. You're here. Thank God." She narrowed her eyes at me. I lowered my head and moved my line of vision on the passing ambulance. "Why are you still here? I thought I told you to get out."

"Yeah, I'm giving her a ride home." Damon told her.

"What?" She asked shocked. Damon steered me towards his car waving back at her.

"Be seeing ya."

"Damon! You can't leave me!" She shouted furious after him but he already started the car. I was silent throughout the drive. Strangely he was too. But it was a bit comforting. We arrived at my house and he walked me inside. Farrah was looking after her pups and didn't pay any attention to me.

"Okay, I'll see you later then." He said but I murmured his name causing him to stop. "Yeah?" I looked at him tired.

"If I stay here by myself...I think...I think I'll do something bad to myself." I muttered in a broken voice and stared down at the ground. "Can you stay with me? Just...can you stay?" He closed the door.

"Yeah, but you'll have to share your bed because I don't plan on looking after you from the couch where your dog gave birth." He smirked at me. I nodded and went into my bathroom to get changed. I saw myself in the mirror. Looking horrible. Looking guilty. I grabbed the razor blade and stared at it for a few seconds. This blade made me feel better once. It made me feel like the pain was well deserved. It was my salvation.

'Should I?'

I pressed the blade against my thigh.

Then I threw it in the sink. I won't do it again. I promised Drew I wouldn't. I stood up and put the blade back in the drawer and walked out; Damon was lying down on the bed with his hands behind his head. I turned the light off and got underneath the covers. He pulled me in closer, my head on his chest and his hand on my back. That night I didn't sleep at all. It felt good to have someone there but I couldn't sleep. My thoughts wouldn't let me.

A/N: Very depressing and shorter than the most recent ones. I know. But this is necessary. And honestly; I worry that you guys will hate the next chapter. The translation for the spell is; "Guided spirits, hear our plea. Annul this magic. Let us be.' The credit goes to Charmed, the TV show. I've got nothing more for you lot. THANK YOU VERY MUCH FOR LOVELY REVIEWS WHICH ARE REALLY INTERESTING WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT THIS I LOVE THEM BECAUSE YOU GUYS ARE MY LOVE AND I LOVE YOU AND LOVE. :D 3 Next chapter at 25 reviews. Because I'm evil.