Yo there! I am so glad I get to continue with this story, because… I JUST SAW WHAT A BIG MISTAKE I MADE IN THE LAST CHAPTER! So remember that word that probably made you puke on your computer because you didn't understand it? Well, one of those words, considering my mistakes. So it was like 'rafturi''. It's in another language, so don't beat the crap out of me yet. It means something like shelves. I forgot to translate it (I don't know all the words, I beg your pardon). Anyway, enjoy this chapter! Oh, and thankkkkksss for your reviews! (special thanks for: dang regacho- thank you, I am glad you like it *if you do*, GoldenRoseTanya- you'll see in this chapter!, Ancalon- it is? Thanks. Btw, thanks for the hug also!, killerwolf61- thank you sooo much! And sorry for taking this long to update…)
Gray entered a dark room supposing no one was in. Then he heard some sobs. He first thought it was Lucy, so he got closer, but after a few seconds, he said:
''N-Natsu? Is that you?''
He seemed to wipe away his tears, but others just replaced them. He looked in the direction of the wolf, but his eyes seemed lost.
''What are you doing here?'', he whispered with pain in his voice.
''Are you crying?''
After a few moments of silence, the young man said:
''No…?''
''What's wrong?''
It was kind of shocking for the wolf to see a big man (well at least almost) crying. He set beside to him.
''It's nothing. You shouldn't worry about it.''
''C'mon. What happened?''
''Stay out of it. It's none of your business.''
''Fine… I was just trying to help. If there is anything I can do…''
''Just go away! Please…''
He buried his face in his arms and waited till he heard the door closing silently. He felt how tears fell on his cheeks like little rivers.
Why?...
Just why did he have to read that book?...
Lucy was playing around with some insects in the grass happily like always. She saw Gray a little concerned and she thought he was just sad so she went to him and gave him a big warm hug. Her little arms weren't able to get around him, but it still made him rest his head on her shoulder with love. She kissed his nose like always and then got separated running after a black bee. She used to follow them all day when she was small, but now it was just too easy to catch it, so she wasn't really trying. Gray looked at her, thinking for the thousand time how lucky they all were she was with them. Just a little attention from her like this one was enough to light up one's day.
''Whywhywhywhywhywhywhywhy….?'', Natsu whispered while his pathetic face was lighten up by the outside light. His tears were falling on the ground and on his clothes. ''…Why was I so stupid to read the book…? Why couldn't I be just pleased with the curse? Why did I have to get myself in so much … so much… confusion…''
He cried and cried for hours, until he had no more tears. His red eyes closed at first when he faced the light while he walked outside the house. The image of Lucy playing hit him. But in stead of becoming happy, he saddened and turned his look away. When she saw him, she smiled. But his face looked like he wasn't just tired from the day and night work he was doing. Her smile disappeared and waited for him to look at her, so she ask him by her eyes what happened. But he had no intention to stay with her. He left, not toward the library, but toward the little mountain in the middle of the land. It was for a little walk, he'd say. But he also just wanted to check if he was right and if that wasn't just a mountain. And after a few hours of hiking, he realized with pain he was right. It was a volcano. And tears gathered once more in his eyes.
The air made him feel a little better, so when he turned back he was a little, just a little more joyful. But he wasn't the same way with Lucy. He was… avoiding her. At lunch, she shyly sat next to him, but he didn't seem to notice her. It was really confusing. She thought he was feeling something for her, but now, he was acting as if she was the last person in the world he would love. This saddened her and then she thought he had all the reasons not to like her. The things like 'I am not pretty and he has no reason to like me' gained ground on her confused mind. She sighed and tried to forget his tries to kiss her. She found some ridiculous reasons on his behavior and when the night came, she just went to sleep a little disappointed, convinced he has no reason to like her and with the feeling that she is just an idiot for imaging he does.
The painful truth is that Natsu was avoiding her because he was afraid. He was falling in love with her and he was so afraid of doing this. The moment he realized he fell in love with her, the moment he realized the feeling he felt about her was love, this one simple word… was when he looked at her before he fell asleep and had that dream.
He remembered after he read the book. She was with him in the library, reading a book. He was slowly falling asleep. She noticed and she got closer to him and shyly tried to place him on a sofa. But he was so tired, that he could barely move. He looked at her embarrassed and beautiful face. Her big brown eyes were trying to keep him awake, just until he would be on the sofa and feel comfortable. He laughed easily and whispered to her it was ok, and he could sleep on the ground. He had no energy. He looked once more at her face and his heart started beating faster. Her worry made him realize he was in love with her for a long time. All this time he thought he wasn't in love, but this was the only explanation to his feelings. He never thought love would feel so… warm yet painful. He never trusted love, never loved anyone, so this was a new experience for him.
Remembering her innocent look, even more tears inundated his black eyes while he was going to sleep. This was so embarrassing for a man like him to cry, but he didn't care. This was way too painful and now he was just dying to turn back in time and to burn that book. If only. But it was impossible. He remembered his promise that he would get her out of there. He thought her everything for nothing. This was the worst thing he ever did. Or he will do.
In the morning, Lucy slowly raised up sleepy. She yawned and went to the bathroom to wash her face. When she returned, a little note was on the table beside her bed. She took it with curiosity. She slowly read: ' Meet me on the cliff of the mountain. I have something to tell and show you. Natsu '.
Lucy thought for a moment of what he would have to tell her. She was very curious, so she soon was ready to go.
Natsu was laying on the cliff of the volcano, looking at the gray clouds. Then his eyes rolled to his burning hand.
''No doubt about it. It's me. I am the savior…''
So, please review and sorry about this short chapter after a long time… I want to finish this story before I go on with my other one. Thanks for reading!
