Chapter 11
I Want Her Heart. Right?
[Beck's POV]
"Nice place huh?" Roxy said as she crossed her arms on the table.
I took a second look around the restaurant her directions lead me to called Rallone's Steak House. I've never seen this place or even knew it existed.
"It's nice. I'm guessing you've been here before."
"Nope." She smiled. "I just saw an ad online a few days ago and I liked the sound of it so I figured I should check it out and what is a better time than now?"
"Guess there isn't a better time."
"Here are your drinks. Are you all ready to order?" The waiter asked as he pulled out a pad and pen.
"Um, not just yet. Roxy you can order if you're ready." I glanced down at the menu.
"Just a few more minutes." She smiled at the waiter who nodded and walked off.
"Hmm, this looks good." I settled for the chicken pasta meal as slid the menu to the edge of the table for the waiter to grab when he returned.
"So Roxy, how's school been going? Anything new?"
She closed her menu and put it on top of mine. "It's going okay. Nothing really new." She shrugged.
"Any new people you like?"
She frowned for a moment then cleared her face. "Not really any big crushes or anything."
"So you're telling me you don't have even the smallest crush on anybody?" I lifted a brow.
She frowned again then then gave a small smile. "Nope."
I sat back and gave her a smile because I could tell by her tone that she was lying to me.
"Hey are you all ready to order?" The waiter asked as he stood in front of the table once more.
We gave the waiter our order and returned to the conversation.
"How's Jaylen and Stallone doing?"
"Fine."
"Michael and Statige?"
"Fine. Hey Statige actually has a little thing for Stallone. He told us a little while back." She said as she took a sip of her drink.
"Really?" I crossed my arms.
"Mhm."
"So does Stallone like him back?"
She looked and answered me like she was offended by my question. "No."
"Okay sorry for asking." I smiled.
"Oh I didn't mean to say it like that." She scratched the back of her head.
"Alright. So who do you really like?" I leaned forward with my hands crossed on the table.
She looked at me mad like. "I already told you no one."
"Roxy you can't get passed me. Stop trying."
She sighed and started to play with her straw because she knew I was right. I always catch her when she is telling a story.
"Okay. So maybe I do have a small crush on someone." She said with a frown not looking up at me.
I lifted a brow. "Oh yeah? Is it a boy?"
She put her elbow on the table and rested her chin in her palm. "No daddy."
"A girl huh? Why don't you ask her out?"
She sighed once more. "Because I know she would never go with me, and I would be lucky if she even looked at me that way. Plus it would be a little weird to go with her."
"Really? Why do you think that?"
"Because I've known her for a very long time I did something horrible to her." She looked down.
Her words made me realize that I knew exactly who she was referring too.
"So uh what's her name?" I leaned back knowing what her answer was going to be.
"Stallone daddy. Stallone West."
[Evelyn's POV]
I sit on my bed clutching onto a teddy bear with my chin sitting on top of its head. I like Stallone. I know I like her. I know it's genuine. I'm not playing around this time. I know I'm not. I hope I'm not?
I bury my face into my teddy bear.
She's different. I can feel it. I know it. I won't hurt her. I hope I won't hurt her. I've changed. I know I have. I know I've said these things before, but this time I'm serious. I think I'm serious? Am I lying to myself? No. I'm not lying. Stallone's beautiful. She's smart. She might not be the most caring, but I love that about her. I love her personality I know I do. I don't just like her for her looks. I don't just like her for her sexy body. I like her for her. Right? I said the same thing about Dianleys too, I know I said I liked her, and I thought I did. I know I said I liked Kaylen, and I thought I did. I know I said I liked Danielle, and I thought I did, but Stallone is different, I swear. I won't hurt her. I won't use her. Will I? No! I can't keep doing this. Evelyn what's your problem? I'm not who I play myself off as and I don't mean that. I do want to give Stallone my heart. I know I'll be different for her because she is different. She's the one I want to stop with. The one I want to spend my life with.
I just don't want to admit it. I don't want to admit that Stallone is just another part of the plan. I don't want to admit it because I don't believe it. I don't believe I'm just going to use her because I've stuck around this long. I've been chasing her. I've never chased those other girls. I got what I wanted within a couple of weeks and I moved on. I'm not going to do that to Stallone because I can't. I've been really chasing her and there is no way I've been chasing her for that. I've been chasing her because I want her heart. Right? Right…..right?
[Stallone's POV]
I walk down the stairs lazily and flop on the couch. I have a headache and I'm just tired of everything. I just want to clear everything somehow, but there's no way to do that. Why is love so difficult? Maybe I'm just making it difficult. Maybe I should just fuck it and go with Evelyn.
Ughh just stop thinking about it!
I put my hands in my face again.
"Hey what's the matter?" I heard Tori say from in front of me. I don't even know where the hell she came from.
I felt her sit down close beside me. "You okay?"
I remove my face from my hands to look at her. "I'm fine Tori."
"It's kind of late, you should get to bed."
"I don't want to sleep. I can't sleep too much on my mind." I really don't like talking, but I need to vent just a little and Tori's here and she's so disgustingly caring, so why not vent to her?
"Want talk about it?" She placed her hand so caringly on my thigh.
I sighed. "It's just, relationship problems."
"Essence?" She lifted a brow.
I sat back and sighed. "I guess. I don't know. It feels like everybody."
"What exactly is the problem?" She asked as she stroked my hair.
"I just don't know which way to go. I'm afraid of another broken heart and I…"I stopped as I felt tears fill my eyes and I fought to hold them back, but I lost as I felt the warm tears slide down my face.
I don't know why I'm so emotional about this. It's not a big of a deal as I'm making it. I guess I'm just finally letting out some of what I've been holding in since the accident. I haven't really cried too much about it. Just maybe a single tear here and there. I mean I don't mean I just need to go all hysterical or anything, but for the pain I felt when my heart was ripped, I should of let out more than I held in and now it's catching up with me, and I do feel that one of these days I'm going to just explode.
"Stallone." Tori grabbed me into a hug. "It's okay to feel that way I can't imagine what you're feeling right now, but you know who would?"
I didn't talk I just shrugged as I let my warm tears fall down my face and onto Tori's shirt.
"Jade."
I looked up at Tori. "How would she know?" I said in a nasty tone.
"Because she had her heart broken just like you at your age, but she was in a relationship for 3 years, not just 5 months. So think about how she felt when Beck left her."
My heart started beating fast for an unknown reason. I remember hearing the story before, but I never thought about how Jade must have felt or even actually cared. I really couldn't imagine how Jade must have felt because the 5 month thing had me dying. I fucking loved Essence so damn bad and Jade must have had that same feeling for 3 years. 3 years! That has to hurt. I suddenly felt dumb. Like why am I crying over this. It's stupid.
I quickly wipe my tears and push myself off of Tori.
"I can't imagine." I said looking away.
Tori turned my face towards her and held my face in her warm hands.
"I love you Stallone, more than anything. I know you're going through a tough time but please do not do anything like you did again. If you-"
"-Tori I won't." I grabbed her hands off of my face but still held onto them. "I wasn't thinking. I'm sorry. I was just…I don't know."
She smiled and gave me a kiss on my forehead. "Get to bed, you are going to be tired at school if you don't."
I frowned at the sound of school. "Yeah okay."
"Oh Stallone, can you please pick your sister up from school tomorrow and bring her home? Me and Jade have a conference with her teacher as soon as her schools out."
I sighed. "I guess."
She smiled again as I stood up and started to make my way to the stairs. "I love you!"
"Yeah, yeah.
[Jade's POV]
"Put your seatbelt on." I stated to Shiloh who was daydreaming out of the window.
"Oh yeah, sorry." She grabbed the seatbelt and put it on quickly then returned her gaze out of the window.
I started the car and pulled out of the driveway on the way to Shiloh's school.
"You're awfully quiet." I said as I took a glance at her.
"Well you know how rainy days are. No fun. Makes me tired."
"So Shiloh, we need to talk."
She gave a big sigh. "Jade no."
"No?"
"Yes. No. I don't feel like talking."
"That's what you've been saying the past 3 days. Now you don't have a choice. I've been very patient with you Shi now time is up."
She sighed again which made me irritated, but I didn't show it.
"What do you possibly want to talk about Jade?" She stated as she threw her hands up in the air.
"Maybe we can start with that." I lifted the sleeve of the jacket she was wearing to reveal a new bruise on her arm that wasn't there until after school yesterday.
She quickly yanked her arm away pulling the sleeve of her jacket back down.
"Shiloh no bullshit. Who's doing that to you?"
She shook her head. "I already told you-"
"Dammit Shiloh don't you lie to me!" I smacked the stirring wheel. I knew someone was hurting her, and there were only 3 people in mind, but I never could be positive.
It was silent for a few moments before she broke it.
"Jade. Jade I can't…I can't." I heard her voice crack and I gave her another glance as I saw tears running down her face.
"Shiloh, baby, honey, please tell me. This is not okay. I want to help you." My words were sincere and I grabbed her hand but kept my other hand steady on the stirring wheel.
"I can't Jade. No one is doing it. I am." She said in a clearer voice.
I pulled into the car pull at her school and put the car in park as I faced her.
"Tell me Shiloh. Now!" I grabbed her upper arms and pulled her to me so I was speaking directly into her face.
She gasped and started to shake her head and say something but she was interrupted.
KNOCK, KNOCK, KNOCK
"Shiloh! Good morning! C'mon!" I glanced at the window to see Sunshine with the biggest stupid smile on her face.
"Ughh." I let Shiloh go knowing Sunshine would never leave until Shiloh was out of the car. She quickly exited the car and shut the door without even a look back at it.
I put the car back in drive and slammed on the gas pedal.
I'm going to find out who's hurting my daughter and when I do they are going to get fucked the hell up. That's a promise.
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