Hey! I'm sorry to the anonymous who said I'd ruined the story with quinntana but I promise it's a brittana story and this chapter ends the plot of quinntana so there won't b any quinntata love after this one, just friendship! Thanks!

....and my heart skipped a beat.

God knows why but it made me immediately pull away, my eyes widened.

"What's the matter?" Quinn asked, looking at me curiously with her head tilted ever so slightly.

"N-nothing" I stammered, putting on my best fake smile. "I'm just tired..."

Brittany let out a small giggle from her position on the sofa, sitting opposite Puck who flicked through the channels on the television with anger. Hearing her sweet laugh made me feel a little bit more on ease and calm.

Quinn quirked a eyebrow and chuckled, making her way over to the ensuite kitchen to begin boiling the kettle while I planted myself on the sofa between Puck and Brittany, lacing my fingers in hers to reassure myself.

She gave me a sweet smile of joy and curiosity then got to her feet and almost skipped to the kitchen.

"Hey Quinn! I'm Brittany" she introduced, holding her hand out to Quinn as she stirred the boiling water in the mug of coffee granules.

"Nice to meet you Brittany" she replied with a sincere grin on her face. "How long you been with Santana?"

Brittany paused for a moment and looked at me disbelievingly.

"We have been... friends, for a while but we've only been a couple three...days..."

Quinn scoffed as she raised the mug to her swollen lips. It's disturbing thinking about what she'd just been getting up to in that room with gay Berry. Urgh!

"You must be pretty serious about eachother..." she stated between gulps of her steaming coffee.

"I guess we are" I spoke up from the sofa, leaning over it's back to watch the two talking.

"Yuk gross!" Puck suddenly exclaimed from next to me, pressing the remote furiously in his hand as a disgusting display of a misshapen cock showed on the HDTV. "Stupid embracing bodies..."

All of us giggled after quickly shrieking at the television. Funny thing that. Everyone in this apartment detests cock.

"Speaking of gross..." I started again, watching Quinn and Brittany giggle adorably. I hope they get on. "Were's gay Berry?"

"Haha funny tanna!" Quinn snapped, her happily light expression soon growing sharp and touchy. "She's in the bedroom"

"How long have you two been together?" Brittany asked, restarting their private convocation so I turned to Puck, not particularly interested in the two blondes chatter.

"Are you seeing anyone at the moment?" I asked as he slumped back against the sofa casually. If he is she must be rather desperate.

"Nah the puckasaurus is still single. I just sleep around allot..."

I snorted and lay back into the sofa also, copying his actions and sitting like I usually did. Seriously, Puck is like me in male form, we seem like brother and sister just from different places with different skin tones...

"Hey" he whispered, leaning slightly towards me so I could hear him easier over the sound of the two blondes giggling about God knows what. "Me and my lads are going into town tonight, some strip club, you up for it? Like the old times?"

The old nights out in Lima did used to be great, we'd hit some strip club with a group of lads, get a hot lap dance off a sexy stripper then rent out a motel room and fuck them senseless. But that's the past, and it doesn't really sound appealing to me anymore. When I slept around like that, it was when I was at my worst, helping karofsky with the drugs and almost giving up on life. I guess if I did that again, it would feel like going back to that helpless, pathetic state again. And I don't ever want to be that again.

"Sorry dude," I mumbled back, watching Quinn and Brittany to make sure they didn't turn and become suspicious with our secret conversation. "I'm happily taken now, I couldn't shag some random bird, Britt is the only one I do that to now"

Just as I moved away from a disappointed looking Puck, I heard a door creak open and soft footsteps plod into the laminate flooring.

I leant back over the sofa again and Rachel's face changed from confused to overwhelmed and her eyes widened.

"Santana!" She gasped, hurrying around the couch and throwing herself down into my arms, squeezing my shoulders tightly making it rather hard to breath for a while before pulling away.

"How have you been?" The brunette asked me, shining a bright smile down at me.

"Um... great" I stuttered, a little taken aback.

"Quinn's told me everything going on so you don't have to explain anything to me"

I nodded and smiled weakly back, my eyes following her as she made her way around to Quinn behind the kitchen work top and wrapping her arms around her from behind, nuzzling her chin into Quinn's exposed neck, kissing the skin of her ear lobe tenderly before pulling away and stepping infront of her, raising her hand to my smiling girlfriend.

"You must be Brittany" Rachel chuckled after Quinn seized her by her hips for a quick kiss to the lips.

"I'm Rachel"

Brittany nodded and shook Rachel's hand in hers enthusiastically.

"Nice to meet you, you and Quinn look so cute together" Brittany complimented causing me to snigger and roll my eyes from the couch. No one look good with Berry unless they live under some kind of dark bridge or in the woodlands.

"Have you ever been to new York before Brittany?" Rachel questioned, her attempted small talk causing me to chuckle silently. I guess some people never change.

"No this is my first time... it looks awesome here" Brittany answered, Rachel immediately butting in and agreeing with the amazement of the city.

"I should show you around tonight! It's awesome on a night! And then Quinn And Santana can catch up on things"

Oh God no. No girlfriend of mine is wondering around NYC at night with some other girl. But Berry is so hard to argue with... Can I even put up with being alone with Quinn for a night, a whole night? It's unthinkable. The sexual tension is killing me everytime we exchange looks, she looks like she wants me... even though she knows that's the past.

But before I could object, Brittany had already answered excitedly, probably falling for the Rachel Berry enthusiasm.

"Yeah that'd be great, can I Tanna?"

Shit. Looks like I'm going to have the most awkward night of my life. But I can't say no to Brittany, I love her afterall, and I'd do anything to make her happy. So before I can decline it, I've already absentmindedly agreed. Damn.

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"What movie should we watch?" Quinn asked as she stood over the DVD filled cabinet, rummaging through different cases and giving them a glance before putting them back in their place. "Most of them are Rachel's shitty musicals" she explained.

I chuckled and snuggled into the arm of the sofa, my head against the cushion and a fluffy blanket over my body that Quinn had given me.

"I like horrors" I stated simply but Quinn already knew that and was flicking through the darker looking movies, picking out a selection of ones she knew I liked before showing them me one by one, placing them on a pile on the coffee table.

"Haha let's watch scary movie, it's funny and scary!" I laughed and Quinn popped open the case and slipped it into the side of the television. "I love this movie too" she smiled, flicking on the lamps around the room and turning out the light.

She sat herself rather close to me as the title of the movie rolled onto the screen and she grabbed the toffee popcorn from the table, bringing it to her lap. She already knows were not actually going to watch this movie so why she brought popcorn I don't know.

"How are things going?" I asked, breaking the silence as she lay and cuddled into my side, her head against my chest. She could probably feel my heart thudding.

"As usual... I'm still cracking up like a druggie if I'm dry for about a hour. I've found that sex calms my bloodlust down a bit, how have you been"

"Meh, pretty suicidal until I found Brit. Now I'm OK I guess, it's just been a rough few days since Brit killed her mom and dad and all"

I wasn't really comfortable with Quinn lying all over me like this. We always used to snuggle and cuddle when we were in high school but that was two years ago and it feels different now.

"I've really missed you San" she mumbled, draping her arm over my stomach as she cradled the popcorn with the other. "You left me to settle for Berry"

My heart stopped momentarily with shock that she'd brought up the subject so soon on in the convocation, talking about relationships wasn't something I'm ever very good at.

"You were only a hook up" I murmured, pretending to focus on the movie as it began. I know that sounded harsh but I don't know if I can talk about it. Sure I think I have something for her still, feeling like that just don't vanish, I guess they never did but I will never cheat on Brittany, she's too adorable and innocent to hurt.

"Do you realize How harsh that was?" She snapped, rising her head from my chest and looking up into my eyes.

"Well you can't say I left you to settle with Berry? You must love her cause look around! Your living together, fucking her, you've been with her for two years when You could have had anyone You wanted"

As much as I wanted her to sit up again and give me space to breath, she remained lay over me, her arm still around me and her chest on my stomach. I used to lay like this will all my high-school friends (well I did'nt have many) and it was always fine. It had always been fine with Quinn really, but in freshman year we were just best friends so it meant nothing but as we grew older, laying would change to making out, then a few years later, things would go further. I don't want that know but as she looks at me sternly, her eyes are still flitting from my eyes to my lips and back again longingly.

"I couldn't have anyone I wanted..." she breathed vulnerably, her heartbeat increasing against my stomach with her confession. "I never got over you Santana... you were my first, how do you get over that person. You were my first everything remember Santana? First person to hold my hand, first person to kiss me, first person besides my family to tell me you loved me and you were the first person to ever make love to me"

Hearing her weak words made me feel responsible. The way she made it sound, like I was the one to make all the advances and she just let me take all of those things away from her. Thinking about it. I think it was like that. I always made the first move. And now she's acting like she regrets ever loving me. Who can blame her? I walked all over her.

"So you regret it?" I asked, looking straight back into her glowing eyes, reflecting the glimmer of the television as they glazed over slightly.

"Of course not! That's why I'm doing this! I miss those things. Santana I miss you" she sounded like she was begging me now, her voice sounded near to cracking. Whenever she was upset, I would always either feel responsible or beat the person who was responsible up. This time I feel responsible.

"But your with Rachel and I'm with Brittany, I love her so much and I'm not even sure what this shit I'm feeling for you is"

Then I realized how close our faces were, she'd been slowly edging closer to me without me noticing and I couldn't resist flickering my eyes down to take a glimpse of her pink kissable lips. They don't seem to have the same effect on me as usual yet I still want them, I think. My feelings are out of control right now, things have been to emotional, toying with my emotions.

"Remember in freshman year..." she randomly began, "when we first joined the Cheerios and I was afraid of coach. Remember when she screamed at me through the Mega phone that I was rubbish and need improving. Then you shouted back at her and we ran from the school together and you comforted me as I cried in you car? Then we just said fuck it and went to the fair. Think back to when we sat on that bench eating cotton candy and tell me you don't love me"

Out of all the memories she could have picked up on. She had to pick the day I fell in love with her. The day we first kissed and I told her I loved her. When my feelings for Quinn were strongest.

"I don't love you" I forced through gritted teeth. "Your my best friend Quinn but the romance has gone"

"But I don't believe you Santana!" She whined, the sound of a murderous scream coming from the tv interrupting the tension filled moment. "I will be fine if were just friend but I can tell your lying to me Santana! I've known you since we were ten so I can read you like a book, and you don't know if you love me or not do you?"

I wish she didn't know me so well. I'd have been able to get away with it but now I only have one option to tell if I love her or not. And I know it's what Quinn is trying to hint at.

I took a deep breath as I began to sweat with worry before I finally spat it out.

"Just kiss me!" I sighed, groping her cheek and pulling her face up to kiss the sweet lips I'd been without for the last two years. She immediately gave in to the kiss and moved her lips against mine tenderly. She's always been a amazing kisser but this kiss is turning my stomach, and not in the good way like Brittany makes me.

The second her tongue swiped over mine and her hand slipped up my tank top, I pulled away swiftly, shaking my head and scrambling to my feet.

"I can't Quinn I'm sorry please be my best friend still I just... I love Brittany, like I've never loved anyone before. I can't leave her. I'm in love with her..."

thanks! ok so things go back to full brittana after this and ive got the rest of this planned out so the updates should be rather regual and there will be a action twist soon! please review! im not getting many and id libe to hear from all of u who have suscribed