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Embry's pov
My heart hurt, the worst pain I had ever felt. She was hurt, I judged her without even knowing her properly. My head pounded with the memories of her sobs and her pained words.
I followed the rest of the pack back inside as Jacob took her to bed. We waited silently in the living room as we listened to him putting her down, Billy looked pretty distraught, Rachel and Emily were calming him down. I felt bad for the guy, he was a nice person, but even I noticed that he never tried hard with Jade, he just let her do what she wanted no if's or buts about it, she could probably date a 30 year old drug dealer and he wouldn't say anything to her about it, he would just nod and smile at her and bitch about it later to Jacob.
Sam was watching us all closely, he had known all along, well had suspicions about why she was always so off and bitchy, but none of us ever listened to him. My head was heavy and still banging, I felt sick from the smell of weed that rung in her clothes and hair, she smelt like a guy too, like she was with one.
My gut wrenched, what if she had a boyfriend? What if he was the one who hurt her lip? I started shaking slightly as I stared at the floor, going over all these thoughts in my head.
"Embry, calm down" Sam's authorities voice rang high over the silence of the room, I looked up, everyone was watching me now.
The trembles stopped at the order but I still felt angry, angry at whoever that guy was that she was with, angry at whoever gave her drugs, angry at Rachel and Jacob for making her feel alone, at the drunk driver who killed her mom. Just angry at everything that had ever done her wrong.
A door squeaked and shut down the hallway, Jacob's heavy footsteps got closer and he rounded the corner, he looked upset. His eyes went straight to me and he smiled slightly.
"So what do we do now?" Rachel who was sat in Paul's lap looked around at everyone, and then stopped at Billy who had calmed down but looked stressed.
"What can we do? If she doesn't want to be around us then we can't do much. She's not upset about us; she's upset about Jake, and her mom. Not us" Paul looked around, I felt like hitting him.
"Yeah but we all made it worse, we all judged her and made no effort to hide the fact we disliked her. She's technically our family now, and we all turned our backs on her" Quil spoke up, shooting me a supportive look. I nodded in agreement.
"She didn't exactly try to mask her hatred for us either, we only argued with her when she insulted one of us" Paul shot back, I will hit him.
"Yes, but she had a reason. She knew you all hated her and she thought you stole her brother and her best friend. You're a prick Paul, get your head out of your ass, you did wrong and you know it" Leah snapped, shooting Paul a death glare.
"Screw you Leah, you going to cry to us telling us how mean we are to you now too?" Paul was shaking slightly and Rachel got off him. Here we go again, everyone sighed, Leah and Paul's famous arguments.
"I don't care enough about you to cry over you Paul. My point is about a girl who you lot helped upset, so don't try saying this is all Jakes or Rachel's fault, or that it has nothing to do with you guys. She said everyone hated her and blamed her, which means you guys too. So back off before I kick you were the sun doesn't shine" Leah rounded on him, she had balls, Paul was one of the biggest and angriest of the pack, even us guys tried not to argue with him.
"Guys give it a rest, this is not helping" Sam stepped in now, authority in his voice.
Paul calmed down at stepped back to Rachel. She looked stressed as she cuddled into his side, calming his angry shakes.
"Leah's right Paul, this was all of us, not just Jacob or what happens within their family. We hurt her too" Jared looked up at Paul, he looked depressed, his shoulders hunched and his forehead in a heavy frown. Everyone nodded in agreement with him.
"I need to tell her Sam, she thinks I just left, she needs to know. She has a right to she's an imprint and she's my sister" Jacob was looking at Sam, desperate for a yes.
"No, look, I know she does, but she gets drunk and blurts everything out, we can't trust her with it until she trusts us and can prove she won't slip up. It's too important" Sam shook his head, his body was tense.
Anger flamed within me again, they all had their imprints they were all happy. I was stuck to watch mine hurt, and be lied to even more. And she wouldn't tell anyone, she would understand. I know she would.
"She won't blurt it out, that's not fair Sam, you told me to try with her and too get close to her, how the hell do I get close to her or even have a hope of being with her if you ban me from telling her the one thing she deserves to know. The longer we wait the more she will hate us when she does find out" I flew up from my seat, he was pissing me off.
"Embry, I agree with Sam" Billy's own gruff voice spoke now, I turned to him.
"What?" I spat a little too bitterly at him.
"I know what you're saying, and I understand you want to tell her and she has a right, but right now, we have to ensure the secret is kept" He looked down at the floor, like he was conflicted.
Coward. He's just too scared to face up to anything.
"Great, so she tells us all her secrets but we won't tell her ours. She needs her family and as usual you won't be there for her. This is stupid. You're just going to hurt her more by not telling her. You obviously care more about the damned tribal secrets than your own daughter" I rounded toward Billy, shaking with anger. They were making it worse for her.
"Embry calm the hell down, I have had enough with all this damn arguing" Sam shouted at me now, I turned to glare at him.
"Sam, leave him alone" Emily, I glanced at her, she was looking angrily at Sam.
"Emily stay out of it" Sam snapped back, then pain crossed his face. He never shouted at her.
"No I will not, she does have the right to know Sam. It could help her to feel less alone and hurt if she knew why Jacob left. She thinks you took him from her for no reason and that he chose you guys. So if she knew the real reason it would help her, don't you want her to feel better? She's a young girl who feels alone and guilty for her moms death, she needs Jacob and Rachel. We are her family now, you said that yourself. And family don't keep secrets from one another" Emily's voice was stern as she stared at Sam, a little anger flaring in her usually calm and loving eyes.
I smiled at Emily, she was a saint.
Sam was looking at her, confusion etched on his face. Then he glanced back at Billy.
"I know, but right now we have bigger issues, we need to put her safety first as well, this thing with the newborns and Victoria needs to be sorted before we do anything. Jacob needs to focus on this stuff with Bella, we need to focus on Bella being safe" Sam's voice wasn't as clear as earlier, he was struggling, he knew she had the right to know.
Bella, as usual, always messing stuff up over a freaking leach.
"No my sister comes way before Bella Swan and that leech Sam" Jacob's voice was bitter, he was still hurt over Bella choose Edward. But I smiled, for once, Bella wasn't his main priority.
Sam just nodded. I glanced around, Paul was hugging Rachel closely, and he looked guilty and sad. Then Jared who was sat with Kim, she was crying and he was trying to get her to stop, but he looked sad too. Quil, Seth and Leah were in the kitchen, staring at their laps. Everyone felt like crap. We were so horrible to her, when all she needed was to feel wanted and loved.
Sam looked around at us all, his own face turned pained.
"Look, I know we all feel like crap right now, but we still have duties. We can start to fix things with Jade, but the secret still has to be kept. Until after the problem with the leeches is sorted at least. Embry, I'm sorry but I can't risk our pack like that" He looked at me pity in his brown eyes. I glared back.
He took Emily's hand and led her out to their truck, Quil, Seth and Leah followed.
I stayed stood against the wall, staring at the floor. So I just continued to lie to her, continued to hurt her all because of Bella and her sick obsession with vampire boy. Well this was great.
"Kim don't cry" Rachel spoke softly, I looked up, Kim was crying still.
"But she thinks I chose Jared over her, she thinks I left her for no reason too. I hate this, all of it, she needs to know. She needs to know I didn't just leave her" She sobbed again.
Anger ran through me, she did leave her, she could have still been friends with her. I started shaking, more than I had earlier. This was really starting to piss me off.
"You did choose Jared over her, you were never told you couldn't be friends with her. You chose that yourself." My voice was harsh and she looked up at me a bit shocked.
"Embry, shut the hell up" Jared barked at me and shot me a glare.
"Whatever" I mumbled, slamming myself from the wall and storming outside.
"Embry" Jacob was following me.
"Dude stop" Paul.
I groaned and ran to the trees, letting my anger take over and my wolf burst out.
"Embry, you ok man?" Quil, his thoughts were worried.
"Of course he's not ok" Seth spoke up now, followed by a bark of agreement by Leah.
Jacob and Paul followed in phasing, their own thoughts full of Jade's breakdown.
Everyone flashed to her now, my body was full of guilt and sadness as everyone thought over her words.
Jared phased in.
"Sorry Embry, I didn't mean to have a go, just leave Kim out of it" He spoke quickly, his own thoughts full of guilt.
I didn't reply, the pain in my chest was back.
Jared's thoughts went over the times he had arguments with Jade, most of the time for no reason, he would do it because Kim was upset. He felt like shit, I could hear him whimper slightly as Jacob growled at him calling his sister names.
Paul's thoughts were the same, he had endless arguments with her since he had been with Rachel, constantly shooting her dirty looks, making sarcastic comments that only Paul could pull off with enough harshness to make her wince. He was starting to feel bad, regretting his argument with Leah, he knew he had hurt Jade in the past, he called her a cold hearted bitch once for no reason other than she had told Rachel to shut up singing, which was fair enough, Rachel was an awful singer.
Jacob's thoughts were the worse; he had constantly had screaming rows with her that ended with him calling her a bitch or something along those lines. The pain in her eyes each time was too much and I whimpered to the floor.
"Embry come on man, everything will be ok" Seth was trying to cheer us all up, it wasn't working, even his childish manner wasn't enough to fix the hurt that ran through me.
Everyone went silent, we all felt like crap. We did nothing to help her, we made it all worse.
"At least we know now, you can start being nicer to her" Seth spoke up again, he had never been mean to Jade, he was too nice. But he still felt awful, he had occasionally agreed with the fact she was a bitch but at least he was never actually mean to her face.
"Could be too little too late" Quil mumbled, we all agreed, she probably hated us. We stood no chance.
"Doesn't mean you can't try" Leah snapped at us all, she had been nice to Jade too, a friend almost.
The silence was back as we all walked aimlessly around the trees, Jade's sobs and broken look haunting our memories. I had done nothing to help my imprint. I had probably made it worse by trying to push myself on her suddenly.
Billy's pov
I felt empty as I wheeled myself down the hallway to Jade's room, pushing open her door silently I looked in. The light of the moon shone through her open curtains and onto her little body.
She was still a baby too me, still the little girl who used to run in waving her dolls around, the happy brave little girl who didn't even cry when she split her knee open on Jacobs bike. I smiled, then it dropped, she was never much of a crier, she was too strong to cry, even as a baby, Jake would cry, but she would stay happy. But now, she broke her heart, because I had been such an awful dad. I felt physically sick. I had failed her, and the other kids. All of them.
We all left her, I knew I had. After Sarah died, I had kept myself to myself, feeling sorry for myself. I never hugged my kids, never asked if they were ok. And now look, two left me and one hates me.
I looked across the dark room, Jade's cheeks were stained with mascara from her tears, her lip a little swollen and bloodied. She was clutching Ted, her favourite teddy that had spent the last few months stuffed in her dirty laundry basket.
I stayed, watching her sleep. She was my little girl and I never did anything to help her. Embry was right, I chose the tribe over her, I always had, and I still am. She should know; she should feel a part of our family.
My heart wrenched, I had hurt my own daughter, and she thought it was all her fault. I had never blamed her, not one single time had I ever resented her for living while Sarah died, the opposite actually, I sometimes felt better that it was Sarah and not my beautiful baby girl. But somehow I had let Jade feel the opposite of the truth.
Tears ran slowly down my cheeks, my chest felt tight like I would explode in violent sobs any second.
"Dad" Rachel's hand slipped on my shoulder, I looked up, she was crying too.
"Dad, come on, you can't sit here all night, she will be fine" Rachel wheeled me backward and the sob broke out of me.
"Rachel what have I done, I hurt my own little girl, my baby" I was rambling, Rachel cuddled into me shaking her head.
We stayed in the hallway for what seemed hours, the empty hurt in my chest never fading. All this time I thought she was a horrible kid, who didn't love anyone. But really she was just as hurt as we were, even more hurt than us.
This chapter was so hard to write, i miss being Jade! Don't hate me, I suck at being Billy. But on the bright side, future chapters will be much better :D
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