Special thanks to PaulineJ, Liasonfan1, AllyG5, jhart, sparxxx27 and Silent Me. Thanks for all your continueing support you don't know how much it means to me. Sorry to keep you guys waiting till Tuesday to get a new chapter but I'm making up for it by giving you two tonight! lol. I hope you find Chapter 11 as touching as I did writing it. Having lost a child to miscarriage myself I know how devestating it can be and how I dream of what my child might look like. I hope you guys enjoy
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Chapter 11
Elizabeth moaned and rolled to her back, her head spinning wildly so she closed her eyes tight and waited for the world to still. She expect to find Jason over her, desperately calling her name, asking if she was alright, but she didn't find any of that. Instead when she finally felt safe enough to open her eyes she was surprised to find herself looking up at the dark night sky. Thousands of stars twinkled above her and the moon was the only glow of light for miles. Confused and slightly scared she pushed herself up on her elbows and looked around hoping to see anything familiar about the area she was in. What she found was that she knew the area well; in fact she knew it like the back of her hand.
Vista Point.
About to call out for Jason she held her breath when she heard two sets of footsteps near her. She didn't know whether she should move or not, find over in the dense woods that was near by or stay where she hoped Jason had brought her. With wide sapphire doe eyes she waited for Jason to speak, to assure her that he was near and explain what was going on but instead she heard the sound of a child's giggle and the sound of another shushing the giggling one. Now this confused Elizabeth to no end. Finally working up the nerve to turn around she could barely make out the sight of two small children. One child was just a little older than Cameron and the other was no more than a year old. Her breath caught as her eyes took in their beautiful faces and, she didn't understand how, but she knew exactly who they were.
The little boy, obviously overly cautious held the little girls hand tightly to keep her from running to Elizabeth when she held out her arms to them, a tender smile caressed Elizabeth's lips, she could see a lot of Ric in him in that moment. The goodness in Ric that he only allowed few to see, shown clearly in their sons dark blue eyes. Protective of his little sister he was as unsure of her as she had been of him. The little girl would have none of it though and jerked her hand impatiently from her big brothers then ran eagerly towards her. She had beautiful golden blond hair like her father with just the slightest bit of darkening in her bright blue eyes that hinted at Elizabeth. In coloring she was all her father but in size and shape she was all Elizabeth. Elizabeth and Jax's daughter was the most beautiful little creature that Elizabeth had no doubt she had to be the most beautiful of angels.
Soon the little girl was in Elizabeth's arms and she brought her as close to her as possible. Bending her head she buried her nose in the child's sweet smelling hair and inhaled her scent in. Tears sprang to Elizabeth's eyes as she held on to the child that had so violently been stolen from her. The sound of nearing footsteps alerted her that her son had moved closer, sensing perhaps that she wouldn't send them away. When he was close enough Elizabeth took his hand and pulled her into her loving arms as well and held to both children as tightly as she dared. She could feel the wetness of her children's tears upon her neck and knew they could feel hers as well. Forcing herself to pull back from them she tenderly caressed each little face and used her thumbs to brush away their tears. They each smiled at her and her son reached forward and returned the gesture, brushing away hers as well.
"What's going on, why are we here? Why am I seeing you at all? Am I dead?" that thought had her panicked for a moment. She tried to think of the last thing she remembered but all she got for her effort was a painful headache. She heard her son's soft chuckle and her eyes quickly rushed to his and found herself relaxing as he caressed her hair as if he couldn't stop himself from touching her now that he was so close. Her daughter had found herself a home in her lap and was content enough for the moment to play with one of her mother's chestnut curls.
"Your not dead mother, just sleeping for awhile. We chose here to meet because we knew you'd feel most safe here. We wanted you to feel comfortable with us and not afraid. We know that your worried about our littlest sibling, we know your afraid that something will happen to it like it did to us so we were sent to reassure you." He grinned as he took at seat at her hip. She was aware that she shouldn't feel so comfortable on the hard ground but to be honest she couldn't even feel the ground. All she could feel was her own emotions and the soft sweet touches of her little babies. She knew she had to be dreaming, but this was by far the sweetest dream she'd ever had and she never wanted to wake from it. All she could do was look back and forth from her son and then to her daughter. He was right, she was worried over the welfare of her new child, she'd had two miscarriages before and she honestly didn't know if she could go through it again.
"It's alright to be scared mom, but there really isn't a need. Nothing's going to happen to this baby because you and its dad need it too much. I know you don't understand why you had to give us up, why we couldn't stay with you but it just wasn't our time. Thank of it this way. If you had had me, then you wouldn't have had Cameron, and if you hadn't lost her then I'd be here by myself. Everything happens for a reason, you might not understand it right away but eventually it all comes clear. Just know that we're okay, and that we know you love us." Then her son smiled and held out his hand for his little sister. Though she looked reluctant to leave Elizabeth she did as she was instructed and soon both children were walking away from her.
Elizabeth didn't want them to leave, she wanted to stay and hold them forever. As if sensing her thoughts her son turned to look over his shoulder at her and smiled.
"Its okay mom, wake up."
"Wake up"
"Come on Elizabeth, wake up."
"Sweetheart just wake up."
"Elizabeth wake up…please"
