Note To Self, I Miss You Terribly
John Cena Ashley Massaro
Summary: Ashley Massaro is a rebel. Not only in WWE but also in real life. She's perfect with her life with her friends and with her boyfriend. But what will happen if she'll be included in an arranged marriage that her parents are planning to do? Nonetheless, the guy that'll be her fiancé is the one who she hates the most! What will happen in the relationship with her boyfriend? Pairings: it'll just come!
A/N: I don't own anyone from WWE. I own the OC's! 'Kay? If I do own John… okay… I'll stop! Let's just be at peace!
MissPhilippineSuperStar – I'm really sorry! I need to change the song!!! That song is for the next chap… I'm really sorry!!!
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Chapter 11.
"Hmm… what could be a good Christmas gift for Dave?" Ashley looked around the men's stuff.
"Ohh… he will like these." Trish nodded, looking at the sunglasses.
"Are you sure?" Ashley looked at it also.
"Yeah." Her best friend nodded and tried one. "He'll like this."
"That's cute!" Ashley smiled.
"Yeah. That's a nice gift for him." Trish nodded again, giving Ashley the sunglasses.
Ashley took it and examined the sunglasses. "Are you sure? Isn't this not so big like him?"
"It's fine! It's the thought that counts!" Trish nodded and pushed her on the counter.
"Okay. Chill."
"Good. So, what's your gift for Cena?"
"Well… uhhh… I'm still thinking."
"No, you're not."
"Well… I already bought a gift for him." She nodded, taking the purchased item.
Trish smirked. She knew that Ashley wouldn't buy anything cheap… especially for John. "What is it?"
"A car. You know… a car like Eddie's." Ashley smiled.
"WHAT?!!!" Trish eyes were opened wide and her jaw dropped.
"What?" Ashley laughed at her best friend's reaction.
"Are you out of your mind?" Trish almost screamed.
"It's that only."
"ONLY!!!! Are you sure?"
"What? I have one more gift for him."
"And that is?"
"Umm… Trish?" Ashley looked at her best friend.
"What?" Trish shot her a look.
"Umm… can you teach me—"
"Teach you what?"
"You know."
"You know what?"
"What to do in bed?" Ashley whispered.
"What? I mean what do you mean?" Trish looked at her best friend.
"You know…" Ashley's getting a bit annoyed.
"Sex?" Trish looked at her sincerely.
"Yeah." Ashley blushed.
"Why?"
"It's my gift for him too."
"Ohh… so, you're going to lose your –"
"Yes!"
"Okay…"
"So, what do you say, Trish?"
"I'm on!" Trish giggled and pulled Ashley.
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After like 2 hours or so of teaching and watching of 'bad' movies, Trish had to stop. Ashley didn't know why though. But, hey… we couldn't tell. Just when Trish stopped the movie, Ashley's phone rang. She got it in her bag and answered it.
"Hey, baby!!"
"Hey, Ash. I'm in our room, are you still in the mall?"
"No. I'm actually in the elevator to get back there."
"You're still with Trish?"
"Yeah. Where's Dave?"
"He's in his way to their room too."
"Oh. I'll see you in a minute. Bye!" With that, Ashley put down the phone.
"Dave will be here in a minute." Ashley told her.
"Yeah. I heard." Trish nodded nonchalantly.
"Well, I better get going now. Thanks for the help." Ashley smiled and got her things.
Trish walked with her to the door and Ashley opened it. "I'll see you later, Trish." She waved and turned around to meet Dave. "Hi, Dave." Ashley smiled at him and left.
"Hey, Ashley." Dave greeted her back before getting in the room.
Just when the door closed, Ashley heard sounds so, she laughed at it and just shook her head. She went straight to their room. She opened the door, seeing John lying down on the bed. He looked so tired as he breathed in and out. His eyes closed. And he was shirtless.
Ashley put her things down and went to the bed. She crawled up to him slowly, hoping he wouldn't wake up. But when she got face to face with him, his eyes were open in confusion.
"And what are you doing?" He smirked.
"Just go to sleep. You look so tired." She whispered, caressing his cheek.
"Lay down with me, then." He smiled.
Ashley moved to his side and lay down. She sighed, remembering what Trish had told her. 'I don't need to teach you… It will come naturally. Do what your heart tells you. And sex doesn't need anything if you're passionate enough to do it. John's not like Randy who's pervert enough to force you into something you don't want to do. Ashley, John loves you more than anything.'
"What's bothering you?" John asked, turning to his side to face her.
"Nothing." She replied, looking on the ceiling.
"There is." He insisted.
She sighed again and turned to him. "I just want to give you the best gift this Christmas." She admitted.
"You don't need to give anything to me. Just be with me this Christmas and that's the best gift ever." He smiled, caressing her cheek.
"I love you so much, John." She smiled.
"I love you too, Ashley." He smiled back.
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"We're home!" John yelled at his house as he and Ashley went in.
"Yo, bro! Welcome home." Dan greeted him.
"Hey, Ashley." Matt greeted her too.
"Hi." Ashley smiled at them.
"By the way, Ashley, this is my fiancé, Melissa." Dan introduced the brunette beside him.
"Hi. I'm Ashley. Nice meeting you." She smiled at Melissa as she shook hands with her.
Then, Boog came. "And this is my lovely girlfriend, Toni." He smiled at Ashley and the girl with raven black hair.
"Ashley here." Ashley smiled again to her and shook hands.
"Where are the lovely parents?" John asked.
"Work." The three said in unison.
"And where's Steve?" He asked again.
"Fucking Kelly upstairs." Matt came from downstairs, hugging John.
"Ohh…" John nodded.
"Where's Jamie?" Ashley asked.
"She's resting upstairs. We just came from New York too." Matt replied, taking a seat on the couch.
"Thanks." She nodded and turned to John. "Baby?"
"Yeah?" He asked.
"Can we go upstairs? Want to talk." She smiled.
"Sure." He nodded.
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Ashley came into his room, seeing the various trophies on the bureau. And on the top were his US Spinner Belt and a replica of his WWE Championship belt. She walked there and read what was on the trophies. His name was on there. Most of the trophies were from Football. And he was MVP for 5 times. That simple thing made her smile.
"So," he started, snaking his arms around her waist. "What do you want to talk about?"
"Do you really want to be with me, John?" She asked, not looking at him.
"Yes."
"You love me?"
"More than anything, Ashley."
"Ok."
"Why are you asking all this?"
"Just making sure."
"You have doubts on me?"
"No, John." She shook her head.
"Then, why?" He looked at her straight at her eyes.
"Because I love you too."
"Ashley…"
She hushed him by putting a finger on his lips.
"I know you love me."
"You're being unenthusiastic lately. You're not being you." He said, changing the topic.
"What do you mean?" She asked, looking at the bureau again.
"You're not the happy Ashley I've known."
"I'm sorry."
"What's up?"
"I don't know… but ever since Dad and I got in that fight, I never felt anything."
"Even me?"
"You're the only person I can feel, John."
"Can I help?"
"Just be with me."
"I love you."
"Love you too."
"What do you want to do for the day, then?"
"Sleep." She grinned.
"Then, let's do what you want." He nodded, scooping her up.
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"Oh!!! You, two!!! You're here!!!" Carol exclaimed upon seeing John and Ashley.
"Hi, mom!" John smiled, hugging her and kissed her cheek.
"Hello, Aunt Carol." Ashley smiled weakly as she hugged her.
"C'mon, you two! Dinner's ready." Carol held Ashley's arm and welcomed her to the dining room where her parents and John's brothers and their girlfriends were seated.
Ashley sat between John and Matt. John looked at her cold pale face, especially her dead blue eyes. He held her hand, making her look at him with a questioning look on her face.
"Please." He begged.
"John…" She started.
"Ashley… we've talked about this, right?" He whispered.
"It's just… he's here." She looked on her plate.
"Just forget it. For me." He spoke.
"I'll try." She nodded.
How could he make her feel better?
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Ashley was walking on the backyard, looking at the snow that covered the grasses. She felt a strong pair of arms snaked their way around her waist. She smelled his sweet scent and just simply smiled.
"Can't you feel I little bit better?" He whispered.
She looked at him.
He sighed. "I admit. It hurts when I see you like this."
"I'm sorry. It just hurts me so much. I love dad. I just couldn't feel him at all." She looked down again.
"He loves you too, Ashley."
"Why couldn't I feel that?"
"Why don't you talk to him?"
"I'm scared."
"You don't need to be. He's your dad."
She sighed again.
"It's Christmas after all." He smiled.
"Be with me when I talk to him, then." She faced him.
And he just nodded.
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"Dad?" She peeked in his room where he was alone and reading the newspapers.
"Ashley," he looked up to her, "come in."
Ashley pushed the door wide and she and John came in.
"John." Phillip nodded.
"I need John with me." She spoke almost faintly.
"Sit down." He said.
Then, the two young adults sat on the edge of the bed.
"What made you come here? You need anything?" Her dad asked.
John squeezed her hand a little.
"I'm sorry." She said in a voice that was too hard to hear.
"What was that?" Phillip asked.
"I'm sorry." She said, sobbing.
She felt John's hand started to rub her back.
Phillip was shocked. He thought that Ashley was going to scream at her again. This was most likely to be the other side of Ashley. Those two men could feel her so helpless. And John didn't have the chance to pull her 'cause she had her father's arm around her.
For the first time, Ashley felt so secured. She wasn't in any man's arms… she was in her father's. She cried more, letting it all out.
"I'm so sorry, Ashley. I didn't know that I'm hurting you." Phillip whispered to her.
"I'm sorry too. It's just that I miss playing with you. I miss the way you would carry me around and laugh with mom and I. I'm so sorry for screaming and yelling and not thinking about what you did all this time." She cried.
"I'm the one who had done a lot of mistake to our family, Ashley. You don't need to say these. Your mother's death had depressed me too much. That's why pain had blocked me to see you. I'm sorry, Ashley. I'm really sorry." For the first time in years, Ashley had heard her father's gentle voice comforting her.
She hugged her tighter. "I love you, daddy."
"I love you too, Ashley." He kissed the top of her head.
Ashley broke the hug and smiled. And Phillip wiped her tears away.
"I'll always be your baby girl?" She questioned.
"Of course." He smiled.
She smiled and looked at John.
John smiled at her and leaned in. "Told you that you could do it."
"I could never had done this without you." She smiled and hugged him. "Thank you." She whispered.
"You two looked very in love." Phillip said.
"Not really." Ashley nodded.
"You still want your wedding done with Matt and Jamie's?" He asked.
"Yuck! Hell no!" Ashley made a face.
John and Phillip laughed a bit.
"Why do hate Jamie so much?" John asked.
"Yeah. She's like the total opposite of me. She annoys me all the time. She pisses me off." Ashley rolled her eyes.
"That's pretty obvious." Phillip nodded.
"Yeah. So, she better keep her distance off." She nodded again.
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"So…" John started, hopping on the bed where Ashley was sitting down, combing her hair.
"You better not break this fuckin' heart 'cause someone might kill you now." She joked.
"You know that I could never to that." He smiled, snuggling close to her.
"Yeah right." She rolled her eyes.
"And now, you're being you." He nodded, draping an arm on her shoulders.
"And I think you're insane." She nodded too.
"Why is that?" He looked at her.
She laughed. "It's so cold, you know. And what? You're in a pair of boxers? Are you out of your mind?"
"Well, we gonna be under the sheets. And you gonna be hugging and cuddling me. So, you're enough heat." He grinned.
"Eeww! If you're thinking that we will do it, you really are one crazy man." She said, lying down.
"Okay. So if you hug me tonight, and I woke up with your hands on me, you gonna make out with me when you woke up." He challenged.
"Fine!" She accepted.
So, they both closed their lampshades and drifted off to sleep. John wasn't still asleep since he's thinking if his girlfriend would like the gift he bought for her. And without an hour, he felt her snuggle closer to him and hugged him tightly. He smirked and simply pushed her closer to him, kissing the top of her head before finally, went to sleep.
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"Hey, baby." Ashley greeted him with a smile and sat on the bed.
"You hugged me last night." He remembered about the deal.
"I know." She smirked.
"And you need to kiss me." He nodded, sitting up.
She crawled on him, sitting on his lap. She put her arms around his neck and leaned in. He felt her smooth lips crashed down on his with pure passion. It was a hot melting kiss. And Ashley's hands started to roam around his back. John wasn't sure of this all. 'Is she really making it or am I out of my mind?' He thought and just then, she pulled back.
"You better get up. Breakfast's soon." She said, getting out of his lap and went to the bathroom again.
John entered the bathroom too, hugging her from behind.
"That's the best kiss." He whispered, trailing kisses on her neck.
"Like to give you something likable for the start of the day. Besides, that's rare." She smiled.
"Yeah. Want to continue it?" He joked.
"Nah. Better, you reserve it." She grinned, getting out of his grip. "And hurry up. 15 minutes for you to get ready." She told him.
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"I heard that you and your father had talked." Sabrina said as Ashley went to the kitchen for some food.
It was afternoon and the mothers were busy on preparing the dishes. The children and other relatives were just having fun everywhere. And some of John's cousins were adorable.
"Yeah. We made up. And it's Christmas. I'll be out with John on the living room." She smiled at Carol and Sabrina then, went to John who was playing with a 3 year-old girl.
John was tickling her when she came. So, she told him to stop and handed the girl the food.
"Hailey's the greatest." She smiled, looking at the girl.
"Can't owpen." Hailey pouted, giving John the food.
"Here." John tore it open and gave it to her.
"Want some?" She smiled at Ashley.
"It's for you." Ashley smiled.
"Yay!!! Bunny!!!" Hailey cheered, pointing what was on the TV.
"Come here." John said, putting her on his lap.
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"Oh, you two!" Dan stopped Ashley and John stopped walking.
"What now?" Ashley asked.
"Look up." He smiled, nodding.
John and Ashley looked up and saw the mistletoe.
"For the 5th time!" Ashley whined.
John smirked.
"We need to do it." His smirk grew wider.
She rolled her eyes and simply pulled him in a kiss.
"Happy?" She asked when they pulled back.
"We need to walk under this more often." He smiled.
"Shut up. They're counting down, you hear?" She said, hurriedly walking to the dining room.
"3… 2… 1!!! Merry Christmas!!!" They all cheered and the party started.
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After the eating part, they went in the living room where the Christmas tree was. And their gifts were under it. But Ashley's gift for him wasn't there at all.
"Uhmmm… John, can we go outside?" She invited him.
"Sure." He nodded.
They went outside and just there, she could see her present.
"Uhmmm… well, I need to hurry 'cause I still have something to do." She started. Then, she breathed deeply. "This is my gift. I really hope you like it." She smiled, giving him a box.
"Ashley…" He started, taking the box. "You really don't have to." He looked at her.
"Just open it." Her smile grew wider.
John untied the ribbon and opened the box. There, he saw 2 silver keys.
"What are these for?" He looked up to his girlfriend.
Ashley stepped aside, letting him see what was her present.
"No way." He shook his head, not believing.
"You better believe. Else, I'm taking it back." She warned.
But then, she felt herself lifted up and John spun her around.
"Thank you!" He said before planting a kiss.
"I'm thankful that you liked it." She smiled.
"How couldn't I? This is the best!" He exclaimed.
Ashley just laughed.
"I love you so much!" John told her.
"I love you too." She replied, giving him a peck.
"So, we need to get inside. They're giving out gifts." He said, putting the box in his pocket.
They went inside the house but Ashley stopped when she was beside the stairs.
"I need to go upstairs. Have something to do." She told him.
"What could that be?" He asked.
She smiled. "Just receive my gifts and give mine to them, okay? I'll see you in a little while." With that, she ran upstairs, leaving John confused but walked to the gathering.
Just maybe after so many minutes of giving and receiving, it was done. And all of them were packing up what they had. John had two paper bags in hands. One was for him and one was for Ashley. When he reached his room, he put down one bag to open the door. Upon opening the door, he smelled vanilla from the inside and he saw that his room light wasn't on but he was sure that a candle was there. So, out of confusion, he opened the door wider to see Ashley seating on the bed, her legs were crossed and she was wearing the hottest lingerie ever.
"Come in." She smiled.
And he did come in. He placed the bags aside and raised an eyebrow for Ashley. She walked up to him, snaking her arms around his neck. She pulled him and he pulled her in a kiss. Ashley hopped on him, wrapping her legs around his waist.
He walked them on the bed, lying her down. He just got away from the felling; he started kissing her on her neck, making her moan a little. He went back to her lips and that was when she rolled them. So, she was on top.
She took his top off, capturing his lip on the way. She threw his shirt down and smiled at him when she broke the kiss.
"Are you sure of this?" Ashley sure could see the doubt and the fear in his eyes.
"Would I make this special if I'm not?" She asked him back.
He smiled and caught her into a kiss again.
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John was staring at the ceiling just after what they had done. Then, he sat up.
"Baby?" Ashley looked up to him.
He smiled, looking down to her. He turned on his side and reached for a box on his bedside table.
"Can you sit up for a while?" He asked, knowing that her body could be a little sore.
She smiled and sat up. "What do you have in mind, Cena?" She poked his arm.
He handed her the box.
"What's this?" She asked, taking it.
"Open it." He smiled.
And she did. There was jewelry in it. It had a gold lace and a pendant of diamond surrounding of rubies.
"John…" She started.
He took it and placed it around her neck.
"This was given to my mother before she and dad got married. And I'm the one assigned to keep it and give to my only one. And Ashley," he stopped, leaning in, "you are the one." He whispered.
Ashley closed her eyes, smiling.
"I love you so much, John." She smiled.
"We better rest. Hailey is waking up soon." He smiled back.
They both lay down, Ashley's head on his chest and his arms around her, securing her.
I am finding out that maybe I was wrong
That I've fallen down and I can't do this alone
Stay with me, this is what I need, please?
Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you I am nothing now and it's been so long This time I will be listening. Sing us a song and we'll sing it back to you This heart, it beats, beats for only you This heart, it beats, beats for only you This heart, it beats, beats for only you This heart, it beats, beats for only you (It beats, beats for only you) This heart, it beats, beats for only you (Please don't go now, please don't fade away) (Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is yours
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?
Since I've heard the sound, the sound of my only hope
We could sing our own but what would it be without you?
This heart, it beats, beats for only you
My heart is yours
My heart is yours
(My heart, it beats for you)
My heart is yours (My heart is yours)
My heart, my heart is yours (Please don't go now, please don't fade away)
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is yours
(Please don't go, please don't fade away)
(Please don't go now, please don't fade away) My heart is...
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Okay!!! I'm really sorry for not updating that much… I've been very busy this month. It's Xmas… it's college fair… it's exams. Pretty hectic, aiite? Well… yeah… here's the update though! The song was My Heart by Paramore. I just need to use that song!!! I'm in love with it and their vocalist! Haha! Well, bear with me for the wrong grammars and spellings. I'm out of my mind when I did this! It's like 4:05AM here. So, yeah… real sorry!!!!! And also, one more thing, people!!! The reviews… omg… the reviews… I'm dead without them. You guys are my inspiration to write… and there are no much reviews… how? How can I love without them???? On with the reviews!
cena babe54 – hmmm… they're still together in this chap… what if I break them up in the next? Lol.
xanonymous.girlx – there… tnx for the review! And here's the chap! Glad you like 10. hope you like 11.
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veracruzortongal – just the girl I've been waitin' to review!!! Lol. Tnx for the review.. and we don't have so much randy and stacy here… sorry.
FreakofNatuer21 – tnx for the review!!! And thanks for liking this story much, as I hate it!! Lmfao. Kiddin'!!! I love this story too! And there'll be more drama, don't worry!! Haha!!! Tnx, really!!
