Dan's P.O.V

I walked to my room and closed the door. I shouldn't even dream sabout me an Phil being together. Never. That just breaks my heart again and again, 'cause when ever I wake up, Phil is never there. Phil is never next to me, looking at me in the eyes, saying how he loves me. He will never love me.

I fell down to the floor sobbing, crying. Even the thought of Phil, broke my heart, and I didn't know how long I could take it. How long I can just watch how everyone was happy, and I wasn't. Nobody could fix me anymore.

"Dan, are you okay?" I heard Phil's voice coming from the hall. I heard his steps coming towards the door and I tried to stumble up.

"Don't come in", I said in panic. I fell on the bed and buried my face in to the pillow. "I wanna sleep", I said, but Phil didn't hear me. He opened the door adn walked in, closing the door behind him. "Go away, I don't want to talk to you", I said and looked up at him.

"Just one more thing that I want to say, please?" he said and sat down on the bed.

"Well, what the hell is it?" I asked, but he didn't answer. He motioned me to move to the other side of the bed, and I did. He fell next to me on the bed and turned his face to me.

"Dan, I need to talk to you, again", he said, but I looked away. I wasn't sleepy, but I wanted Phil to go away. Yes, I wanted him to be here next to me, but not this way. He was just my best friend, but I wanted more. "I don't know what is right and what is wrong. I never know the difference. I always want to do the right thing, and now I don't know what is right, and I'm afraid that I do something wrong. You are the most important person in my life, and I'm scared, 'cause I don't know anymore, how to talk to you. You are drepressed, and it's because of me, I know that. But I don't want that you cut yourself, or that you do something else stupid. I want you to know, that nobody is perfect. 'Cause there is no such thing like perfection. But if there is, then you would be perfect, believe me. You have no reason to cut yourself or be depressed. You are still my best friend, and you will be for the rest of our lives." I felt how tears started to roll down on my cheeks.

"Don't do that", I said between my tears. "Don't say that I am perfect, 'cause I'm not. Can't you see all the flaws in me? I'm fucked up", I said and wiped the tears away with my bloody arm. "And you should hate me. I'm gay, I love you the way that you don't. I'm ugly, nobody would never want me, even I don't want me. So, could you please leave me alone?" I asked and tried to hold my tears. I felt Phil's hand on my cheek and he turned me to face him. He wiped my tears away and looked me in the eyes. He smiled and moved even closer to me. Then he pressed his lips against my lips. It felt so familiar. But why?

"Sorry, but I needed to do that. I wanted to do that", Phil said smiling at me after he pulled away from me. I just couldn't stop staring at him in the eyes. What did that mean? "Dan? Say something."

"I-I,wh-what?" I stuttered.

"I love you, and I don't want that you think you are nothing, 'cause you're not. You are really important to me and I can't believe that you think like that. You are gorgeous, and I love you just the way you are", Phil said and I couldn't stop blushing. It felt like all what Phil was saying was true. That he really loves me. But I wasn't sure did he. I felt how tears started to roll down on my cheeks and I started sobbing. They were happy tears.

"That's the most beautigul thing that anyone has ever said to me" I said and tried to smile. Phil pulled me closer and wrapped his arms around me. I tried to stop sobbing and crying. "Are you serious?" I asked quietly.

"Yes, I'm serious and I love you", he said and played with my hair. I smiled and snuggled even closer to Phil. "You still wanna sleep?" he asked. I didn't say anything. I fell asleep quietly and hoped that this wouldn't be another dream.

Phil's P.O.V

I woke up quickly. I saw a nightmare where Dan hated me, and he left me. I looked around and saw Dan sleeping next to me. I sighed with relief and leaned down to kiss Dan on the forehead. He slowly opened his eyes and smiled at me. I looked at the clock.

"Evening", I said as Dan sat up. He rubbed his eyes, looking so cute. "It's 12 pm. already", I added and wrapped my hands around Dan again.

"Is this going to be like this? Cuddling together?" he asked smiling. I kissed him on the cheek. I couldn't resist him, he was so cute. "I mean, we are a couple now, right?" he asked. I was quiet and I pulled away. I didn't know what to say. Nobody knew that I was bi. Or gay, what ever I was. Even I didn't knew that before I had feelings for Dan. "Phil?"

"I guess we are a couple then", I said, but I wasn't sure. Were we a couple now? I didn't want to tell anybody. My dad would probably kill me, he would never accept the fact that his son is gay. Mom maybe would be okay with that, but not dad. Never.

"Phil, are we really a couple?" Dan asked again and I lifted my gaze to him again. "Are you okay?" I nodded slowly.

"I'm fine, just feeling little sick", I said and tried to smile again. He smiled back at me and kissed me on the forehead. Little sick of myself, I guess. I stood up and left Dan in the bedroom and walked in to the bathroom. I wasn't sure what I should do. I could never tell anyone that I'm gay. That would kill me.