Please forgive the long wait, I hate being this late with the updates m(_ _)m
Sometimes reality is even better than dreams. Those could be rare times, and surely there was a time when Takumi couldn't conceive something of the sort, let alone thinking that it could happen to him, unthinkable. Even so, since Gii became part of himself it actually became reality.
He woke up with no need to hold onto his dreams as they faded out, where as soon as he regained consciousness, he wished for nothing more than to open his eyes to his real life. To Gii..
That morning was no different, he turned his head as his eyes opened and the sight of his beloved greeted him. He didn't realise but as time went by he didn't find himself engulfed in his arms as he did at the beginning of their story. Before, they kept the other really close to be sure to feel that presence all night long. There was no need to open their eyes as the heartbeat of the other could be felt through their own skin, and when the morning came the first thing that they could feel was the certainty that he was close.
But somehow as time passed that need faded a little, or else it evolved. There was no need to feel physically; they knew. They could feel it in a different way. In some mornings they woke up each on their side of the bed, separated but somehow connected, and sometimes they'd make unconsciously contact with their hands, or leg or so, just a little contact through the night. This morning was one of those, they were distant but somehow their hands found the way to the other's, and Takumi woke up to Gii's lovely and very handsome face, skin brushing and heart soaring.
A glance at the bedside and Takumi saw it was almost time for the alarm clock to go off. Smiling he inched closer and drew his face near Gii's, he moved the hair from his forehead and caressed the side of his face softly.
As Gii started to wake up he felt two soft lips placing gentle kisses on his cheek, chin, and finally his mouth. Now completely awake he turned the touch into a real kiss.
"Good morning"
Gii said smiling when their mouths eventually parted.
He was highly enjoying the feel of the body on top of him, and exchanging loving smiles with the man, he kept his hands busy in Takumi's hair then placed lingering kisses on his face before descending on the neck.
"What time is it?"
He then asked without diverting his attention from the delectable skin, in that moment though the alarm went off.
"Oh that time"
Gii exclaimed, and suppressing a giggle he reached out to shut it off.
Both sighed dejectedly but Gii wasn't so easily discouraged and pulled his lover back to him before exchanging a passionate kiss. He gave Takumi a small push so that he could lay on top of him, knowing it wasn't the time to get carried away, he kept his touching light and refrained from roaming his hands on that body with passion as he wanted to.
"We should probably get up" He then said with a effort of will, breath ragged as Takumi, who, as he nodded, proceeded to get off from under him, task that was always a difficult one, and out the bed shortly followed by Gii.
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A ring from his phone took Takumi's attention as he turned to look at it. Seeing the caller's name his heart jumped hurtfully in his chest realizing that the call he had been waiting for since the audition finally came.
It continued to ring while Takumi summoned the strength to answer, and Gii, from the other room, turned confused as to why he wasn't taking the call.
Finally a small voice took the place of those rings "Hello?"
Gii, who reached him in the meantime, looked at him from the other side of the room wondering why he was so tense.
Takumi only spoke monosyllables and mainly listened to what they had to say. He thanked and ended the call with a blank expression on his face. Gii walked up to him
"Gii.." Takumi called while staring almost wide eyed to the phone clasped in his hands "I can't believe it.."
Gii knitted his brows as he was standing right next to him, he touched one of the hands that were still holding the phone and Takumi looked up to him. His face suddenly broke into a big smile as his eyes shone "I've made it!" With a yelp Gii took him in his arms "I did it!" Takumi exclaimed as both broke into a laugh in the joyful hug.
"I knew you would" Gii said as they let go, and before locking their moths together.
Takumi laughed with joy and was once again engulfed in Gii's arms. This was definitely one of the best days ever.
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In the next few days Takumi met his colleagues and started fully his job as violinist. As he quit his part time it still didn't feel real to him that he became a real violinist. Now he could finally say 'I'm a violinist'. It felt amazing!
He started with a meeting between the musicians and the musical director, then the real practice began.
In the theater all musician sat in a semi circle facing their director as he instructed them. It was like a class of children sitting around the person who told a story. But in this case they're the ones who presented the story to the audience who'll come to listen.
Those few days felt like a dream. The sacrifices he did to make it happen made it all the more satisfying and glorious, and at the same time those were all forgotten.
He was living his future, he still had to work hard that was sure but it felt stable now, and his life with Gii felt even more stable and definitive.
He was proud of what he obtained and grateful of his life as it is now.
It was all perfect but for one thing. The more he thought about his parents the more hurt left room to anger until there was no more pain in him but only disappointment.
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During a nice evening both were on the sofa, each papers in hand focusing on their own job.
For a while Gii watched him sideways until he finally started to speak "Have your parents not called you at all since they went back?"
Takumi turned towards him with a start "They haven't" he said and turned back with what he thought was a blank expression.
"Well, you do have big news, why don't you call them?"
Takumi kept on staring on the papers he was holding this time. He almost felt caught up and silence followed awkwardly for him as he tried to hastily think of a good excuse "If they didn't call they're probably too busy so.." it was clearly an excuse but Gii knew already what was behind it.
"Don't lie Takumi. I know what you're doing here"
Takumi dropped all act and turned to him with a serious face.
"You don't intend to make any contact at all and cut ties with them completely don't you?"
Takumi sighed. Gii sounded against it, but that's how he felt. "I just feel there's nothing in me that wants to have anything to do with them"
"But, even still, you should try to"
"Why do I have to!? Only because they're my parents!?"
"No, that's not what I'm saying. Actually, Takumi.. I can see you don't like how things stand between you two, how you feel for the way they acted and talked about you. If you keep it all inside you'll only suffer from it."
He paused, watching his partner with worried eyes. Takumi was looking down as he got lost in that thought.
Gii reached out to lovingly hold his hand, then Takumi said "I'm mad at them, and disappointed. I wish they were different but there's nothing I could do that would make things better. I know whatever I'll say they won't listen to me. Nothing would change" he looked at Gii wide eyed, frowning.
"You actually don't know that. Not now" Gii pointed out "What are you saying now you could affirm it when you were little, because you did try anything you could to get their attention, to make them see you. You're scarred from your past experience but now things are different. Years passed since then and you didn't really try since they called you for the first time after so long. You always kept them at a distance from your life and yourself, shutting them off completely"
Takumi paused. His gaze got lost for a moment as he thought about it. It was true. And he became aware of his own behavior only now.
It actually surprised him because until now he had put all the blame on her and never questioned himself. But thinking about it, now that he has realised that that situation is also a consequence of his own behavior, he knows that even if he had realised before, it wouldn't have changed things and that's simply because he can't bring himself to open up to her. In any way.
Gii waited patiently, silently worrying for him. His hand was caressing Takumi's until he felt the other tightening his hold slightly before speaking again "You're right, but exposing even a tiny bit of myself to her is so hard"
"I know, but you see, I know you can do it, and if it'll make you feel better it's worth a try, don't you think?"
Gii's well meant insistence made him smile even if it wasn't a carefree smile but he did feel better, Gii's words changed something in him. Worth a try, he said.. Yes, for the first time he felt like it was.
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It was a couple of days later that Takumi went home after a whole day of practice. The first thing he did was to charge his phone. As he turned it on he received the notification of a missed call from his parents.
He stared at it with a serious face.
These days he had the time to think about Gii's words. Gii was right, as he realised: he never really tried to talk to them. Acting like he wasn't even present when they were together.
He decided to follow Gii's suggestion and now, he thought, was a good time to start.
Pressing the call button he heard the sound of the call as it went through.
"Hello? Takumi?"
"Hi mum, did you try to call me?"
"Oh yes, it's a good moment for you to call actually. I had to tell you something important"
"I'm listening"
"I learnt about a few places looking for employees here"
His head shook lightly for the surprise and his eyes went wide "Wha—" then he stopped as he realised: "There?"
"Yes, Tokyo is too expensive for you. Here you could find a nice job. You could try at a couple of places which requires the preparation you had at Shidou"
Takumi sighed, trying to remain patient "You know that's not what I want to do"
"There's also who's looking for someone who can play, you could at least try" her tone said how little she trusted his will to actually do some work.
But he wasn't going to be affected anymore by that "Mum, I won't go there to find a job" he was final, his voice calm.
"Of course you're saying that, but you know you can't keep on—"
"Do you know the Tokyo symphonic orchestra?" Takumi stopped her midsentence.
"Of course I—"
"I made the audition and they chose me. I am a violinist" he said coldly.
There was a pause, Takumi just waited.
"That's great. I'm really happy for you" and she sounded it.
"Takumi knitted his brows perplexed "That's all? I was expecting you to have something to say. I'm a bit disappointed actually, you sure had a lot before, making me look like a lazy opportunist."
"That's not what I did at all"
"That's what you said"
"I was only worried for you, it was what you were doing after all."
The remark angered him "You'll never change will you? Will you ever realise that that's only an image of me that you created? Let me tell you, you know nothing about me"
"I know what I see"
"Why don't you try to see reality for once."
"Anyway, I'm happy that you've found a good job." She ended the conversation
"Yes me too. Bye mum."
Takumi sighed irritated and looked at the phone thinking that it didn't do much good, but well, it was a start. While before he couldn't even talk to her, now he can't hold back anymore. It was his irritation that guided his words though, but he hoped that with time he'll learn to leave it behind so that he could find the right words at the right time.
He changed his attitude, so things are bound to change too.
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Gii came back home while talking on his phone. It was a business call and it continued under Takumi's eyes as Gii put bag and keys away and pulled off his jacket.
Takumi walked up to him and stood by, waiting not really patiently for him to end the call.
Gii took no time to notice that he had something he wanted to tell him.
When the call was over he turned his phone off and put it away before walking closer to Takumi with a big smile and kissing him.
"I've been following your advice" Takumi said smiling. At Gii's perplexed face he added "About my parents. I've talked with my mum earlier. Guess what? She told me to find a job there, she's been searching apparently"
Gii's eyes widened in disbelief as he didn't know to laugh or not.
"Exactly" he said sharing the same feeling "Do you know what? Speaking up to her really is liberating, things didn't change but I feel better now."
Gii smiled happily and circled his arm behind his back "I'm glad" he said and kissed him.
Takumi felt serene, maybe this little change did more good than he thought. With a smile he raised his gaze on Gii's "And what have you been doing?"
"Oh yes" Gii said as he searched through his pockets, and holding two tickets he said "Here. The tickets for the flight"
Takumi took them and read them. His mood changed. He focused all his attention on those tickets.
"You've already informed the director about it right?" he remembered
"Uhm" it was the first thing he did when he entered the orchestra.
Satisfied, Gii kissed him on the cheek and left the room.
Takumi didn't move at all.
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