aAuthor: Everything_Once
Pairing: Naomy/Emily
Rating: K
Warnings: Swearing and maybe a bit of "art" later who knows...
Summary: AU Skins never happens. Effy and Naomi are at university together, while Emily is a mysterious rock singer at a local pub.
Disclaimer: Skins isn't my property, even if I secretly wish so! At the moment I pretty much own nothing...
Chapter Eleven
*** Emily's thoughts***
JJ has left the flat almost an hour before now and Cook is sitting on the couch watching TV and I keep going at the bedroom to check on her but she's sleeping since we're there so I guess things are alright for now.
"Emily she's asleep now for fuck sake just sit there and watch the tv with me or something!"
"I can't!"
"There are a lot of things that you can't do at the moment!"
"Not now Cook."
"Listen someone has to knock some sense in you now. That girls was so down that she has take loads of pills and god knows what just cause you've broke her heart! I know yours has been broke too when everyone have let you down after your coming out, but things are different now."
"No, they aren't. I've lost my fucking family and all the people I use to care about, i've been homeless for almost two month and i've been beaten Cook only cause I was attracted by girls so i'm fucking scared to death when it comes to that girl cause I know that I can't resist her."
"She's a looker yeah."
"It's not like that Cook. It's so much more I can explain why but I've never felt like that with anyone before. When we were making together in the woods it was the more intense night i've ever lived."
"Care to share the experience Emilio?"
"Not like that you perv! I'm serious Cook it was so intense, I can't even describe it."
He's about to respond when we hear the bedroom open and Naomi running to the bathroom. I'm quickly in the bathroom too and I immediately sat behind her. I take her hairs in my heads and I rub her back, when she's done puking she looks at me and quickly yell :
"Leave me the fuck alone! I never want to see you again!"
"Naomi I'm sorry."
"Fuck you, I'm leaving!"
She tries to stand but fails and ends up on the floor i try to touch her but she push me away. Then I can hear Cook saying :
"I will help you to the bedroom. You can sleep there tonight and Emily and I will stay on the couch."
"Ok thanks I guess."
"No. I wanna stay with you Naoms."
"You don't have any right to say those kind of things, you've lost that right the second you've decided to go back with JJ. You've break me and you've ruined every chance of us too to be together ever!"
She's crying and yelling now and I can feel my legs shaking. Cook helps her to the bedroom and I stay in the doorway unable to move or even to breathe, i think i've really fucked up this time.
Almost half an hour later Cook is back in the bathroom and he helps me to walk to the living room, i'm still in shock. He gently makes me sat on the couch and then goes in the kitchen to prepare a tea for me and some bottles of alcohol for him. When he puts everything back on the table I immediately reach the vodka bottle and almost drink half of it in one move.
"Woahhh! Chill out Red no need to drink that much!"
"I've fucked up Cook like really fucked up, haven't I?"
"You and me both Red! You and me both..."
"Fuck. What are we gonna do?"
"Well the Cookie Monster will probably forgot everything and find another fit babe, what about you Emilio?"
"I don't know, I guess that i'll still pretend to be in a couple with JJ as long as he'll still want me to do so and then i'll live on my own and pretend to be happy I guess."
"Emilio it really isn't too late for you and I swear that i'll be there to protect you or anything and i'm sure that the missing pieces will be there to support you as well!"
"I'm just not ready yet."
"Time to sleep Red we have to rehearsal tomorrow and it has been a pretty though day for us."
"Oki, but keep your hands for yourself or i'll kick you in the balls so hard that you'll regret to be a man!"
"Fair enough princess."
We position ourselves on the couch and he immediately places his arms around me but not in a pervy way he just comforts me and i have to admit that this is exactly what i need right now.
A bit later I slowly open my eyes and all I can think about is her. I need to make sure that she's fine so I stand up and walk to the bedroom. I'm trying to be as discrete as possible. I let the door a bit open so there is a bit of light in the bedroom. She might be sick but she's still gorgeous. I walk to the bed and I position myself on my knees and I look at her.
Her eyes are all puffy she has cry a lot and she also look so tired but she's still an amazing woman. There are a few of her hairs on her face so I slowly put them behind her ears and I contemplate her a bit longer. I'm happy to realise that she shivers when my hand touch her skin, it must be a good sign or at least I hope so.
I let my hands travel on her face, my fingers are on her lips when she opens her eyes. I'm scared to death but she smiles at me for almost two second before whispering :
"Emily you have to stop doing stuff like that otherwise I won't be able to forget you and I have a feeling that I really need to forgive you, right?"
"I'm..."
"Yeah you're sorry I know the song now."
"Believe me there is nothing else on earth i want more that kissing you now but for the moment I just can't it's too much too soon. But I'm about to ask you the hardest thing i can ask you and i realise that but I need to do so otherwise i'll regret it. Can we still try to be friends or at least in contact with each other?"
" Emily ... I don't know ...I'm not ready for that yet, sorry. But maybe that one day I'll be able to look at you without wanting to touch you or to kiss you or ..."
"Please don't ..."
I gently kiss her on the lips one last time before exiting the bedroom and the flat. I need to be as far of her as possible now. It's raining but it doesn't matter now, plus it'll hide my tears, I'm walking home alone, as always...
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