A/N: I'm really uninspired right now, Rofl, a lot of stuff is coming up but like, I'm having trouble putting spaces between it.

And I'm grammars way off but I'm way too lazy to fix it. Sorry. It's 5:30 am. Thank JESUS I don't have school tomorrow. For real.

I'm not good at portraying Lily and Snape's friendship; it's like they can talk to each other without really using words, because they just know each other that well; though Snape loves her more than he SHOULD, Lily loves him strictly as a friend, and Snape understands that; plus, Lily knows, and it doesn't change anything.

By the way, I need some advice; My BEST friend in the world doesn't trust me around her boyfriend; though I've never given her a reason NOT to trust me around her boyfriend…what the ('scuuuse my Russian) fucking hell?

OH ALSO; I know they're only aloud to apparate in the great hall when they're practicing for it or whatever...but just pretend that spell was added after Lily and James left. xD

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"I don't want to talk about it," Lily said as she and James made their way through the courtyard.

It had all happened so fast she wasn't quite sure what was real and what was imagination but as far as she was concerned she had broken up with Jonathon.

"I wasn't going to ask," He said simply his hands in his pockets.

She looked at him sideways, "When are you going to go back to normal?"

He laughed and grinned at her, it was brilliant, so brilliant she felt herself get hot all the way from the end of her toes to the tips of her hair.

He shook his head, "Somewhere between Jonathon and Snape it clicked in my head."

"What clicked?" She asked him looking demoralized.

"That you were happy."

She looked over at him; he was right, she wasn't sure how long it lasted and at the time she hadn't been so sure how long it would last but she was truly happy for some time.

With Jonathon as sweet as ever, Severus back in her life, and the Marauder's accepting of her decisions; she'd been in a very good state for about two, maybe three, weeks.

"What are you doing for Christmas?" She asked him attempting to change the subject.

It was late November and flakes of snow were already falling lightly as they walked towards Hogsmeade.

"I'm staying here actually; I never go home for Christmas." He said simply as he pulled his collar up around his neck.

"Really? How come?" Lily asked curiously.

"My parents travel during the holidays, and I wouldn't be back in time for school, so I just stay here with the others."

"They don't go home either?" She asked still seemly curious.

James shook his head, "Well Peter does but Remus and Sirius both don't. Sirius' parents don't want much to do with him these days."

Lily nodded, Sirius was always in a rather foul mood when he spotted his younger brother around the grounds or even heard his name spoken. He was the golden child and Sirius was the 'unwanted gremlin.'

"We broke up," Lily told Severus simply; they were in the library studying for their Transfiguration exam when Jonathon passed by, saw Lily laugh as something Severus had said, and stomped out earning a foul "Shh!" from Madam Pince.

Severus had given her a questioning look, so she said it.

"Oh, I'm sorry." He said, though she knew he didn't mean it.

"Don't be, I'm perfectly fine."

He narrowed his eyes at her, "Yea, I can tell…why is that?"

She raised her eyebrows at him, "Do I have to have a reason?"

Severus shrugged, "I guess not, I just figured you'd be a little less okay with it."

There was a loud laugh from outside the library, Lily and Severus both looked to see the Marauder's goofing off as they walked by; from the looks of them, Sirius had tried apparating and left his clothes behind by accident.

Lily smiled blushing slightly as she watched James roar with laughter as they passed.

"Please, tell me you're joking," Severus said.

Lily looked at him her eyes wide, "What?"

"What? Please. What's that look?"

"What looked?" She said her face getting hot.

He lowered his voice, "Please tell me Potter is not the reason you're okay with the break up."

Lily blinked at him, "Of-of course not."

He sighed and rubbed his eyes, "Why him? Why do you have to like him? Anyone else in the school and I'd be…fine with it."

Lily laughed quietly listening to him; she shook her head, "Lying."

Her narrowed his eyes at her then laughed, "But…just…Potter I can't stand the bloke."

Lily nodded, "I know."

"Then why him?"

Lily laughed again, "Why do you keep asking me that? There's nothing going on there. And for the record; He doesn't care who I'm with as long as I'm hap-"

"Oh, that's a load of-"

"Ahem," Madam Pince cleared her throat behind them; Lily sighed and gathered her books.

"I'll see you later."

"Wait," He sighed, "I'm sorry."

She nodded, "its okay."

She walked away wondering why she always forgave him so easily. Was she just a very loyal friend? Or was she blinded by whatever it was Severus Snape was hiding from her? And what exactly was he hiding from her?

A/N: I'm so uninspired right now, I can't stand it, this one isn't… MUCH longer than the last one, but it's longer still, I guess.

Sorry guys. Hopefully I'll be better tomorrow.